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The more I fight
The more stupid I feel
For punching nothing but air
While I bleed from my gut
I try to land a punch
Hopefully land an uppercut
But the opposing boxer
Life is always one step forward and two steps back, and that is never going to change,
Whenever you try to change that pattern, it feels a little strange.
Life is always one step forward and two steps back, and that is never going to change,
Whenever you try to change that pattern, it feels a little strange.
After being confused for so long, I started to believe that right person, wrong time was not a thing,
Because there was too much confusion and disappointment that it would bring.
I always wanted to believe it to be true,
That in the end, maybe it would end up being me and you.
But maybe I not to accept the reality that it is not,
This whole time I always felt like I was missing a part of me,
That was preventing me from being who I really wanted to be.
This whole time I was passing along the blame,
Just like that, I thought things were going to be different, but in the end they are all the same,
This is a major part of my life, even though to you it is only a game.
Alpha and Omega, Beginning and End,
In You, our lives, our souls transcend,
The Author of creation's song,
In Your embrace, we belong.
You seem different, and it feels like you feel the same way that I do,
But I have seen this before, where I felt that those delusions in my head were true.
I am scared that once again, I will be the only one to fall,
I have moved on, and I have worked so hard to let it all go,
But there are still some things that you don’t seem to know.
And I have all of the memories saved,
The day that I never thought would come is finally here,
And now I am able to see things nice and clear.
That you were nothing special from the start,
Grateful and Thankful My thoughts wandergazing at the moon.Memories repeat themselves in my head.Have though lived a fulfilling life?Have you counted your blessings today?Have you thanked God on the way?I apologized for being such a procrastinator
In the realm of doubts, an Atheist's plea,
Amidst the solace faith can bestow,
Why shun Catholic, Jewish, Buddhist decree,
That offers solace when the night's shadows grow?
It always seems as if it is one step forward, and one step back,
And that when things go wrong, it is because of the strength that you seem to lack.
The older I get, the more I realized that there is nothing more precious than time,
And I have finally realized that I no longer want to waste mine.
For so long, I cared too much about what people thought about me,
I woke up from a well deserved nap
To a ringing sound deep beneath my covers
It was about 100 tweets
Yelling at me to burn like my ancestors
To die with my beliefs
You think you know it all because you're a scientist.You make me angry when you say God doesn't exist.You believe there is no God and you say that it's a scientific fact.
Sometimes, all you can do is hold yourself together and try your best to stay strong,
Even when it feels like everyone is against you and that everything you are doing is wrong.
I am not going to lie, sometimes it is hard to be a good person,
Because everything that is going on around you can cause you to worsen.
When you are going through something, it can be very easy to turn cold,
There is always hopethat lives within our hearts.
The world may be coldand darkbut there is always a tiny flame of hopewithin usin the atmosphere,in each living soul on earth.
"How did your baseball game?," was the innocent question that I asked that started it all.
When I asked you that, I never in a million years thought that I would continue to fall.
There is nothing more confusing about trying to figure out what is going on with love,
And that it is not always written out in black and white when push comes to shove.
It has taken me some time to realize that there are two parts of your body that will always be at war with one another,
And it seems like no matter how hard you try, they will never agree with each other.
No matter what life decides to put you through, it is up to you to keep going,
And even when it seems like you can't keep going, moving forward is what is going to help you to keeo growing.
His voicein my heartin my soulguiding me forwardsguiding me low.
My thoughtsare my ownthey echo inside my head
Spread lovenot hatenot fearnot disharmony
You are a terrific elixir
Yet you blow your essences up
By enthroning doubts
Like scientists working hard
Magnificent joy fills my soul
I am whole
Like Earth’s bowl
In deserts of my hope, I find perfect glow
Crushing under the weight,
trying to swing it in stride.
This adulting concept was not well explained.
Breathe
Pinching yourself, begging to wake up
from a terrible nightmare.
This must be GROWTHIt's neither about an increase in size,nor the comeliness of my thighs,a lesson on puberty,or how time flies. It's an enlarging on the inside,though unseen by mere eyes,but cannot be denied,I speak of a strength supplied. See, t
Walking with the crowd, alone and down,That's what happens when you are not able to be found. Emptiness resides inside, silence becomes vibrant,sometimes I become a clown, or just get drowned,And happiness is nowhere to be found. Smiles resist e
Guide me now my gentle Father,
Hold me in Your clasping wings.
Please fastly keep me,
Hidden deeply,
Deep beneath Your folding wings.
Happiness to me is like a warm chest filled with honey, nutmeg, and love.
It dances barefoot through fields of grass without a care in the world, and a smile so bright.
wrestling with evilwear complete suit of armor~ conquer with courage.rescued from onslaughtlies and misinformation~ loins girded with truth.safeguarding our heartsresisting the evil day
I cannot save myself. It’s funny that this is how I begin my story, as I used to struggle to understand what I even needed to be saved from. Doesn’t this testify to the faithfulness of God to answer our prays and cries?
Why
are
you
looking for love oh soul;Is it not enough that God gave it all?
His Love that is pure, true and great
What are you waiting?
accept God and taste
You are my life's Restorer
who gives me hope, always there
outward and within I feel
Your love tells me, "be still."
In times of trouble, I'm clam
knowing You hold me in Your palm
You know when it finally hits you and you get tired of your own bullshit,
And it becomes too much and all you can think about is how bad you want to quit?
I have come to realize that at the end of the day, nothing is going to change.
I don't know why it took me so long to realize that the way everyone was acting was strange.
Everyone told me that I was crazy, but I so badly wanted to prove them wrong.
I feel like an idiot, for hoping that things would go the way that I wanted them to, and for holding on for so long.
It seems like every time that I start to do good, there is always something that gets in the way,
And no matter how hard I try, it seems like I end up failing, and I have to restart everyday.
God is Love;
Love is God;
Love is Jesus;
Love is the Holy Spirit;
Love is eternal;
Love is spiritual;
Love is enlightening;
Love is personal;
Love is community;
Why is it that we always want what we don't have?
Why is it that what is avilable to us is never good enough?
Maybe we are a society of people who fixate too much on chaning everything,
*BELIEVING*
_Stick unto God and believe in yourself. *It'd be bright after the dark.* There most be a black *time dark starry night before an open heaven* of a brighter sunny day._
Why do some people make it seem like when we flip the calendar everything is going to change,
Because, to me, the thought of doing that has always been kind of strange.
I can't tell if the voices in my head or the voices in my ears are the ones that are bringing me down,
I am someone who is always positive, and these voices that won't stop are the ones that are turning this around.
When we see each other life means so much more.. When we hug our souls intertwine as one. When we kiss our spirits are made whole.. When our laughter echoes through the air, all of heaven rejoices.
When we see each other life means so much more.. When we hug our souls intertwine as one. When we kiss our spirits will be made whole.. When our laughter echoes through the air all of heaven will rejoice.
I know that this sounds crazy, but I just can't seem to let it go.
Everyone around me keeps telling me to stop hanging on, and to just go with the flow.
MAGIC CARPET RIDE
Come hear my heart
Let the sound take you away
Feel the melted kiss from yesterday....
Like a floating feather
On a magic carpet ride
Together
TRAIN YOUR MIND
I Wonder
Why Fake
People Always
Think
Everythang's
Fake, Like
Love, Faith
And Desire.
"YOU COULD DO BETTER EXPLORE MORE"
You know
you can do
better.
Explore more!
You
are
limitless,
unstoppable
and
unlimited.
No past failure
ever stops you
from Moving on
again. Today try
improving
your
skills
in
order to
enhance your
chances of
Winning, life
ends when
we halt dreaming.
The best ultimate religion I ever learnt of is " Good Deed"
No
matter how religious one is without a good good all in vain.
Oh Lord
mine God
locate me with an immense mercy that'll shake the world. That thy
name be excellently praised 2ru me. Send unto your servant
mercy and let thy light shine upon thy servant to the glorification
Every
persons you
met
has some lessons
for
you. Don't under
estimate anyone.
For
everyone you're
seeing is unique.
#c9_fm
Sometimes I get so lost in my own thoughts that I don't know what to do,
My brain is telling me that I need to move on, but my heart only has feelings for you.
This pandemic teaches me,
Home confinement is not fun and easy,
Be productive, pick a hobby!
This pandemic teaches me,
IN MY DREAM
The clothes hanging on my line
Are not mine
Where have I been
Lost again
In my dream
A floating stream
None of the things belong to me
Not that I can see
I stretch to the sky and i smile
And i look back
Calling my memories of life
Realizing how much time has passed
But in the same moment i look forward
When was the exact moment I fell, I don’t remember, but look at me, my spirit is loud and clear, it tells?
Like monkey business it smells 8-months ago, I could never foretell, or predicted a “love” such as this.
I started this job ready to focus on my work and not fall in love with someone that I have to see everyday,
But it didn't take long for me to get excited to see you daily, and sturggle to find the right words to say.
I’m honest and genuine when I declare my love for my King.
I love you more than I have ever loved another, you make my soul sing.
This love hit different, deeper, a real soul connection type of thing.
Foggy haze, cloudy days, rain drizzled from the sky.
Todays a good day, no need to get caught up in the why’s.
I’m grateful for this day, yesterday, and I pray to see tomorrow.
I’m not a toy to be played with, become bored, then discarded.
Can’t even say good morning, this mess is retarded.
I fail to see love in those brown eyes reflecting back at me.
Confidence has never been a feeling explored by me.
Employed by me to heal from the hurt in me, by others, and by me.
Feels good to know that my reflection is a friend to me, no longer my enemy.
You have overstayed your welcome and you're not even here.
Failing to pay the free rent for the space you invaded
I know it’s unfamiliar, but for once be sincere.
I know the cost is and will be severe.
No one bothered to wake up, speak, call or text to see me on my way.
I don't blame them, I went my own way, I didn't have much to say.
I didn't expect anyone to be different from the person they were to me yesterday.
PAPA
I felt you weeping today. As you listen to the song
that life has given you to play....
The colors of the dayHave drifted away
From bright yellow, pale blue and pink.
One of the most important things that I have been told is to believe in your journey even when no one else can,
And it took me a long time to realize that no one else has to believe in you if you are your own biggest fan.
The pain and the fear are ghosts,
spectres,
a fabrication of reality.
In a moment they will appear and then vanish and I will be left wondering why I followed them into the dark.
The pain and the fear are ghosts,
spectres,
a fabrication of reality.
In a moment they will appear and then vanish and I will be left wondering why I followed them into the dark.
**Oh yes, much faith is needed
In times such as these
falling down on my bended knees
As I take it day by day
The sun rises, the stars are shining bright
entering into the early days until the late nights
i was raised to believe that God is in church
lately I think that is the last place he would be
I was that person who always hid in the background and let life pass me by,
And I never put myself out there because I was always too scared and shy.
It's funny how in the past couple of years my life has turned around,
All I need is who you are to me
Thinking out loud before the mirror
A worrysome image to make me fret or blush.
All I need is you, tell me the tale of me
A tale I shouldn't have forgotten.
...(I needa) Free my Mind, Find Some Time, (And) Take a Breath of Fresh Air, (A Space) Away from this Place, (And) Nothing to Follow Me There.
He brings joy to me,
his laugh makes my heart smile,
his eyes, like the sea.
Endless charm is his style,
and he is my willow tree.
I’m angry with you. I’m sorry I am, I don’t want to be, but I am. You make me sad and you hurt me. My heart aches all the time. Why did you fall in love with me if you can’t love me?
Demand my bones, their skin without
I dyed my hair then tore it out
My body begs for company
My mind can't silence all the screams
I would much rather rot in hell
Than put you under another spell
- They say,
"In due time you'll be alright", "just stay patient".
So Heavenly Father I'm reaching out - This life's got me pacin'.
Not knowing which way to go, with either road - I never make it.
What will it look like?
What will it be like?
When my world turns out like you planned
When will I get there?
Feels like I’m nowhere
My dreams are like dust in my hand
In you God I trust
Because in myself i break and bust
Lord made with your breath out of dust
Fear should never mix in, settle, or have time for one's Spirit to adjust
That's Joy's corrosion and Hope's rust
For oh, so long I have known
this-
that the spell had been
cast
and for years I have sought
remedies
through priests and preachers,
curanderas,
-all to no avail...
And I have learned
It's Monday night.
I'm sitting in the shower, with the curtain between the water and my phone
but the water still hits my body.
They say lonely people take longer showers because the hot water eases
What, shall I fear the veiled unknown?
To die and pass the mortal shroud
They say ascencion through the cloud
Will whisk me to the Gloried Throne,
But what awaits? No tongue has told
Hue grows strong/hue dies weak
Baby bird bites its beak
Fragile nest in a creek
Sticks and stones, bugs and leaves
Fingers, hands, hair and hearts
A hospital waiting room, clean and bright
A melody of cheers in the middle of the night
Sweet honey soothes my soul
A birthday cake, sugary and lit
A chorus of celebration over it
I want to praise you
For all you’ve done.
The actions you’ve taken
To become who’ve you’ve become.
Everyday
You take a path unknown,
Pray for the impossible,
Preach for those before
Learn to find what’s possible
And make a future to live for
I have tried in a desperate manner
to be all you want me to.
capable of love.
capable of fun.
but I am not.
you may dream of fun times on beaches
and bright sunny places,
adventures to cities,
In the iris of one’s eyes,
I can see far into the soul.
And what I see brings no sighs.
Your strength and faith isn’t a knoll,
Each drop fell, bringing with it a taunt over our own depravity.
It shouts, “Liar, Schemer, Thief, Murderer, Adulterer, Covetous- Human?”
Well sir, in your flawless plan, there lies all but one fatal cavity.
Every night a little girl faces a different battle.
She's questioning her worth and what her family would do without her;
Contemplates to run away but her spirit tells her to stay;
Sometimes it is hard to stay positive and to believe in yourself,
You think you have it all planned out but there are people around you who try to convince you to be someone else.
Will be like this:
R.I.P. Bob
and tears
and probably more tears.
However, there is more than just death and mourn.
Your story won't die.
Sophia full of wisdom and grace. The sun radiates from her face. Beneath her feet the moon does lay. A crown of seven stars upon her head, resting, do they stay. In the beginning, you hovered over the face of the earth.
Wondering where can I start but What beginning is better than from the heart For over a decade, everything was fine No complaints, was living life, disregarding time Growing up in the projects never made a difference to me Because love from my mo
We don't have to worry
We don't have to stress
We don't need to be overwhelmed by the busyness
Often we are
Often it's hard
Because the world is broken and falling apart
There's darkness, yes
As as kid, I never felt obligated to the world.
I was always easygoing, and a vulnerable little girl.
I never had to question being good enough.
Or worried about having to be tough.
A long time ago I had found my home
On the stage. But as a sophomore
I just couldn't take another heartbreak.
I stayed in the shadows.
As the show neared
Patience
What is it?
A nonexistence.
The mind was wicked, and the body was involuntary.
Play around, aggravate sound, Adam found.
Indeed, an innocent one.
Patience
What is it?
There’s a path to the house from the meadow,
Leading home from the dark forest’s gloom,
Well-worn by the feet of your Father,
As He fought, ran, and chased after you.
When I was younger
I felt very lost
I played with my toys
But didn't realize the cost
I knew I had a mission
For my curiosity to explore
I searched everywhere
But never opened the right door
Faith is the foundation of the subconcious
one which takes hardship daily as evil festers
following foolish fragmented failures finishes fickle men
I worship the eternal one that lies in self
You are my maker, my savior,
Creator of all things.
My life compass, my captain,
The light I use to navigate and spread my wings.
You are my protector, my redeemer,
Hold your armsAround me, do not fold Hold your palmsAround me, do not sold Keep yourself calmAround me, do not told Keep yourself warmAround me, do not cold
When the world turns cold...
You must remain bold...
Stay true to your dreams,
Even when rough as it seems...
To your Father should you look -or
in the words of his book,
What has happened to the days of truth?
When one could trust their neighbor, their family, a friend
Everywhere I look trying to see through the mist, the fog that hides our true intentions
The happiest point in my life,
Is somewhere I'm supposed to be,
Your youth shouldn't be filled with strife,
Instead it should be carefree;
But that has nothing to do with me,
But I'm blessed with a family,
Focus Misdirected
They won’t like me
they don’t care
they look upon my person
and see nothing
as if I am not there.
The fear of rejection
It seems like you are trapped,
do not know what path to take.
You see the high mountain ahead,
which will lead to your destiny.
Anxiety.
It’s always been there,
Lurking in the depths.
Have I learned how to rid it?
Not yet.
But as a person who has beliefs of what there is above,
I have put my fears to faith
Sitting up on my bed all I can think is red.
It's 2am.
Red is now the color of my pupils from crying over this test.
A test that keeps me up until time is no longer a
Water droplets fall from the sky,
flowers yell with excitment,
people scream in sorrow.
But little do they know
what makes one grieve
could make something else grow.
Shadow...
Now she's the girl he told everyone about,
bragging, changing, manipulating the reality of what really happened.
She got stripped of her clothes, stripped of her trust, stripped of her youth.
The world is so beautiful when you are young
Full of so many possibilities that fill your mind and fill your heart
Daddy says I can do anything when I grow up,
I ripped my heart from my chest, as I am apt to do;
"Do you believe in God?" Does "God" believe in you?
I wasn't raised a Catholic, but I know Baptists,
We will have peace,
Whether we are in Eden,
Or Gethsemane.
For we will rise with the sun,
And we will eat sweet fruit,
From His vineyards.
We will go to the water,
I’m constantly reminded of you when I look at my daughters face,
I picture you in heaven, a different world, a better place,
Your personality is reborn through the innocence of my children,
I open my mind's lid like the drawer of a filing cabinet.
It is the place where thoughts, dreams, and memories thrive.
Letters of knowledge organized just like books in a library.
you were there through it all,
i appreciate everything you have done for me.
i appreciate the life you gave to me.
i appreciate the chances you lend me.
your the greatest in my life,
The word "fight" never seemed to apply
I see its far more than what meets the eye
A promise made in youth that must live when youth dies
And I fight. Oh, its a front and a facade - yes, I fight!
its always been you
you've been there all along
the perfect harmony to my everlasting song
you took my breath away
you made me proud of who i am today
you helped me to see who i really am
It emanates from you.
A paramount aroma. One so compelling we may be blinded by it.
Like a bat who's lost the ability to echo-locate, only guided by his scent.
Racism shouldn't have power, it should be powerless. Hatred should not be fruitful and allowed to multiply, the seeds it plants should be flowerless. If you have nothing nice to say, say nothing at all.
Could You
September 11, 2018 ~ Tuesday
I’m gripping tightly
Onto that which makes me all I ever was and needed
The words I heard and heeded
Pardons are Unjust
Justified by a Claim
that Mercy is a Must
Pardons ignore the busted face of my wife
and silence the cries of my child's life
why would a God, servant of the lame
Standing by faith, igniting the experience with others
Thank you for challenging me to be more
Encouraging a greater focus-delving deeper into faith
Thank you for being supportive, genuine, and present
Gone too far from your glory. Often believed in my own story. Day by day, my path began to darken. Involved in all the wrong deals. Soon, I began to realize what I had sacrificed. God, I need your grace. Openly I accept you with obedience. On ever
relentless searching
eye wide, hoping
who am i?
i'm searching for the undiscovered
eyes covered by blind
blinds filled with lies
my cries,
can no longer be heard.
Was it worth it all?
You did everything to reach your goal,
And you lost your mind in the process.
Was it really worth it?
All those years of pain and misery.
We got what we wanted,
I’m just an empty husk without You:
Striving without ever thriving,
Running hard but never arriving,
Dragging my way through life, only surviving,
Wishing I could run and hide.
Allow me to express my deepest gratitude
In words deep from in my soul
You are always there when I wake up
And the first one to answer when I call
You taught me how to open my heart
The warm and stiff Summer air,
The gentle dance of the golden stems,
And the blue home placed on the horizon
Are beaming in the sunlight.
My body, MY Body.
It’s funny to think about when for the longest time
it didn’t feel like mine
Now when I trace my fingers across my arms, i am a stranger to this skin
This skin is filthy , dirty.
Sailing on the sand
I know the dangers up ahead
My mind is on and ready
My heart is leading fully
Sailing on the sand
A hopeless romantic, a hopeless dream
That’s what is real, and it’s all it will be.
To crush false hope at the source of its seam.
Search high and low,
no matter where I go,
there will never be another.
I run,
You pursue,
I cannot escape a love so true.
I do not believe in me,
Today I Lift my eyes to new & exciting ventures. I ventured to say, they all Rock & Win like a cup of potential.Today I win at everything I form & mention.And all goes well as I say, it's just that simple. 'Found this place while I was
Tassels of ebon hair
That spilled over your shoulders Like rich coffee
With a hint of creme.
You smiled at me
With those freckles that stood out against your pale skin
And those rosy red lips
I used to know a girl
sad and bare was she
she cried all the time
and never thought
about the bright side
Hope had abandoned her
her spirit destroyed her
she never knew what to do
Never knew what I thought it would be
Everything seems unrealistic, is it?
A fantasy dream full of promises and perfection
You are my sunshine, my only sunshine"
A melody sung by mothers everywhere A song of love, adoration, and desperation
When it comes to self-sustain,
There is no loss or gain.
Within your pit you stand,
Surrounded high by your demands.
Shouting wants to the voices above,
by Ariel Douglas (14 October 2014)
The world is crumbling before our eyes,
War and conflict echoing on the skies.
But He is still God.
As I make my journey
goals ahead, pushing through,
I take the time to reflect,
I take the time to make some sense
of all that I have become.
What has brought me here
In love with the process, longing for growth.
My mind beginnings to wonder upon what it's like situated at the thrown.
Conceited with my own thoughts on why I'm still laying around at home.
I’ve been face to face with the Devil.
I have braved darkness, deep and shallows.
Above and beneath the bowls.
O! The howls!
I came a long way on this hell road, with my eyes closed,
That’s it. Enough is enough. Every single day I work my butt off to try and make a difference To try and do something with my life. But it’s hard. And today I can’t be bothered. Today I feel like it’s all a big fat waste of time. Like it’s not wor
for lives lost
at the end of a gun
and those wounded
at the hands of
a bullet
i pray for
your peace but
more importantly
i pray for
your justice
Do you ever stop to think, just where do whispers go?
Can you wish to get them back, i'd really love to know.
Whispers; like a candle's flame, burned down to the end,
My mind has vision of its own, more like déjà vu, and there are these sounds They don't scare me like when I was younger, and they won't comfort me when I'm older Because they don't make me feel strong, they make me feel considerably I am bothered
I’m gonna start with a question
That I doubt you can answer
Because I’m sure it’s in you
Spreading like a cancer
It’s in me too,
Though I’ve only just become aware
A dark abyss swallows my soulLonely and cold, out of controlI push and I pushInside, always breakingNever forgetting, Never forsakingA smile, simpleIt hides my fear
What comes before the calming stormThan chaos, unfiltered, unfettered, noiseDay by day, night after unrelenting nightI am only clear unto myselfFor the ones, them and theyCan not understand, or is it won't?
When I told my friend that I liked a boy she was ecstatic. She gushed. She squealed. She urged me forward.
When I told my friend he asked me out she screamed. She laughed. She yelled. She asked me when we were going out.
When life is routineSame old-school,Busy strangles timeto thin strips of meaning,Connections of place and peopleemaciated to shallow smiles;Hiding realities and struggles,and when I spend timewith my GodI bringbubbles and candyfloss,Lies and plati
I refuse to submit to the brainwashing of
Faith.
I am liberated through
The world;
I am limited by
Religious culture.
To live, I thrive off of beautiful things like
I don't need
Humanism
To be good, I require only
God.
I don't need man-made distractions such as
Technology and modern advancements
To live, I thrive off of beautiful things like
What is good? What is pleasant? What is kind?
In the truest meaning of the words no
Thing is good, pleasant, or kind that I find.
On any one thing, I could ne'er bestow
Such a word as good or pleasant or kind.
deephate
lossand anguish
it all mixesinto onelargemess
somewords dont eventouch thisfeeling
myeyes areallout of tears and hanghalfclosed
To the one who doesn’t feel like their enough,
or worth it,
or accepted.
Not beautiful,
Or enough,
Or loved.
I have a secret to tell you.
It isn’t whispered but shouted.
Black man,
I see the sulk in your eyes,
The wrinkles, the bags of countless years of work,
Trying to race ahead through the obstacles,
Courage is faith in God
Optimism comes from the cross
Love is in our walk
Peace is how we talk
Gratitude left in our wake
Chances are ours to take
Brothers keep us strong
Dear ED,
How you made me feel like Eve,
at the early age of 13.
Taking me to the Garden of Eden,
just by opening up that one Teen Vogue magazine.
Dear Love,I know you will come somedayBut it's hard to wait for you.I know I will be happy somedayBut it's hard to see that now.
You came into my life unexpected
You brought me truth resurrected
A broken fool, I was
A falling stone; lost cause
You gave me hope
You showed me love
You never took no, wouldn't let go
February 5, 2018
Dear Sophia,
Have Faith
Life has ups and downs, but it still keeps going,
Dear Future Husband,
Face to face, we have not met,
But that changes not a thing.
I wonder when, but I don’t fret.
In time we will exchange rings.
I hope that you are dashing,
Face flat - cold cement
Strings that hold - strings that break
All the things that you said-
Meaningless.
Yet.We defy. Nature. The odds. Authority.
We fly. We soar. We breathe. We die.
salut, mon petit!
that's how i greet you
since we're both french minors
and we're both multi-ethnic
and we grew up in the same hometown
and we were born 11 days apart
She was blowing just one candle of the cake
, but the ancient serpent wasn't having it.
He had seen the mark,
the anointing and power bestowed on her.
Dear Hurricane Victor,
A hailstorm commenced when I agreed to be yours
And you, mine…
I often wonder if it was a sign.
Dear Future Child,
Life is not easy, you are going to get kicked in every direction.
You will get lost, you will get confused, and you will not know what to do.
Early in the morning I sacrificed my time and my sleep to climb this mountain.
While all was still dark and asleep, we were all awake. And so we began.
you can only get so deep before bursting into tears
being vulnerable is hard before it’s easy
where’s the key that opens up all the locks
Dear divinity.
I have many questions for you
That I'm not sure you'll ever answer
Because over the last few years of my life
My fealty to you
Has grown less and less steadfast.
Sunday’s best paired with lightning clouds
Corrective seems too staged
Your heavens never cleared
Ain’t like you to cry on this page
Have you ever heard the story about the rose that grew from concrete
The one that everyone thought its growth would be obsolete
The one everyone thought would wither and die
Dear God,
Can you hear me?
People say you hear everything,
but are you listening?
I have some questions to ask you,
and words I want to share.
So please, listen to me.
how dare women have confidence
How dare women enjoy
dominating men in the bed room,
giving an endless faith
to Herself.
That girl you call easy?
She goes home with any guy because
Who do you believe?God or the influential priest?Who causes your grief?Is it God or the beast?
Dear 2017,
Thank you.
Thank you for the pain. Thank you for the hurt. Thank you for the tears. Thank you for the hardships.
The truth, my pride. It's all conflicing...
See, I've been hurt so many times, ain't no tears in me.
So memory lane I'm jogging faithfully, but waking up some days...
I don't take so graciously.
Dear Matthew, I often wondered about you. How you'd laughThe color of your hair, If you were strong, If you were scared. I often wondered about you. My sweet little boy,My playful kin, My eldest brother, My might have been. I often wondered abou
Think a thought and let it simmer
Go for a walk in the woods and get wonderfully lost
Take a blow to the head and taste the liquor
Jump on a plane and forget the cost
Cut the gluten and end up thinner
Who knows what will be in futureIt is said its the mystery of life Imagine if you knew what's tomorrowThen, why would you fight?
If only you could see,My favorite place to be.A place where I can rest Is nature at it’s best. The water ripples near So loud it's all you hear.A secret place to be, A spot made just for me. In shallow waters still,To touch would send a chill.A sh
Emotions and turbulence,
Oh when did they become so solidly set?
Whether I preferred the strong confidence
I know not yet
Standing up when lies are raining down
I close my eyes.
I breathe.
I smile and embrace the wind in my hair.
My heart is breaking so I seek peace.
I pray.
I want to cry but I can't.
Look at my face-
I will always seem okay
To Missense
I only write letters to family
though estranged,
that you still are,
after all
You’ve run in the blood
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Love is a low return investment
So why waste time to return love?
Because partners lack conviction
Love’s value is based on faith
Dear God,
Are you there? Are you really there?
Mass shootings, floods, and fires abound…
yet selfies, self-promotion, and “self” are all around…
Smoked weed all day just to take the pain away.
Cigarettes the same day.
Wanted a new life he told me yes you may.
You can do anything, I can make you sing.
You won't feel anything, No more pain just play my game.
Don't forget my name.
Carcass is the name.
Carcass is the one that owns the game.
All the golden chains and fame.
On the top dome.
In the biggest seat it is my Throne.
See my wings i will defeat.
Soothe the mind, captivate with sound.I've got a life time to grind.
Don't forget he's mine, To future extent my tempo is his heartbeat.
Fortune found compose distruction of deceased, extermination of illumination.
They said she had to be on drugs.
It wasnt because she had a disfunctional family and people filled her head with dark.
She wasn't ever depressed for thinking about how the world turned.
You try to take me down, I'll look you in the eyes.
Look you up and down, then have you tell me lies.
Tell it to your friend we're all gonna die, so take it to the skies.
Articles Of faith, confession, then communion.
Luminous, telepatic, and wise, i'm never gonna die.
This intuitive power is rising me higher.
There's crystal clear vision, ain't no such thing as division.
Tasted now, a love so pureSugar sweet, a cyder richA love by no other name,Which can be called thisIt's warmth embraces, even the distantA flame, a light, burning deepThe darkest of hearts can not escape
You say you don’t seeYou’ll deny it foreverBut the truth statesThere’s no such thing as “Never”
The universe,An unequivocal mess of chaotic understandingLanguage, by which, no other comparesAnd the One who authors itBy no other name than what isThe very essence of existence, language
He’s been called DeadHe’s been called a mythIt’s been askedCan He make a rock even he can’t lift?
Ash like snowKissing my skin, It fallsThe bitter warmth of the flameThe crack of the light, it dances
I drank him in like the fifth bottle of beer.
Swallowing the toxic liquid, I relived the fear.
It is one o’clock in the morning,
I received a text saying,
“Baby, I’m home from work. Show me your body. I love you.”
I feel my lungs fill with air
It's my own type of prayer
Throughout my spiritual journey
I make my body a place to feel worthy
-I feel in pain
I am losing my thoughts to this strain,
Everyone except one is disregarding me because of my brain.
My daughters sent me to this place to get me restrained;
God, move your peopleMove in this placeThe Lord's name is powerfulForever God you reignYou call me cou
Speak
Ugly empty silence in my chest
You painful knot of bitterness
Full of regret and accusation
Speak
Each part inside me that dies
I tried it.
I will try anything once.
I tried to trust you,
believe your promises.
I tried to follow you
even if you were wrong.
I tried to love you,
trust me this time.
In the distance there is a decision
Months will pass before it is decided
But there can be no change or revision
Within my mind, I am undecided
I'm living in a castle made of sand.
It looks to be made of some hearty stone,
But I'm good at finding truth.
Sometimes I pluck it out of ears, like a magician's coin.
Truth is a bit more expensive.
When I first looked at you
It was as if the earth stopped
My heart raced
The speed of light does not compare to how fast you captivated my eyes
Your smile
Your laugh
Your jokes
You
Almost forgot
To write
About you
Could it be
You’re too far?
Or maybe you’ve gone
As fast as morning dew
Forgot to tell
Of the time of us
You and I
I owe you one.
We are freespirited.
Kind.
Compassionate.
Hopeful.
Loving.
But we are hurt.
Tired of hearing about the do's and do not's.
The can's and can not's.
I love you,
With this Life.
You will be my Wife
I will continually try,
Please, do not cry.
I will always Love you,
& This is True
Even after I die
Now I sit here alone,
as I cry and I write these notes.
As I realize how much you love me;
beaten down, stricken bone,
up on the cross and you still told
this cold and lonely world how much you love them.
Waking up, feeling like, got something to bring to the table
Figuring out what that is can make you very unstable
You try, but really, there is not a try
Either ride or die, fake or fly
Trying won't lift you high
the decay of the leaves in late Summer
really makes you wonder
the thought of Cobblestone on the soft decor
a life that was meant for so much more
but what ?
what are we searching for in this vast domain
Remain stuck, to figure out ways to cross the bridge
Across it, lies the finish line that We cringe for
Be dammed before you dont try and reach it
Have faith in your alliegance
So never fade, We meant it
Remain stuck, to figure out ways to cross the bridge
Across it, lies the finish line that We cringe for
Be dammed before you dont try and reach it
Have faith in your alliegance
So never fade, We meant it
Relax sit back & unwhind
we got too much times on our hands
when will we ever understand
People believe you are what you do
have we bitten off far more then we could chew
these are desolate times
Keeping it real from the heart: We need to talk, Why is it that some people get away with things in society & others don't. It's a double standard. Also how come atheists have so much hate in their system ?
inside my brain lest I refrain
lies a deep impulse to explode
the notion of love that comes from heaven above
I was given this gift as a child
with pad and pen & a need to pretend
So many voices
chattering their teeth,
spreading lies and deceit
wherever they please.
So many voices—
when will they stop?
for I cannot hear myself think.
I see the work of your hand,
the incomprehensible beauty,
keeping everything in its place.
I hear your illustrious voice
in the midst of the roaring seas,
emitting an unrecognizable peace.
I watch my dreams dissipate
as I sit idly by in silence;
but what can I do
when all I have,
and all I need,
I am certain,
is in you,
is you?
I planted a single seed left long ago
In time roots sprung up out of the fertile soil
In the game of life your time is very brief
try turning over a brand new leaf
Crouched in his cavern of coal
The miner does time on his shift
Black permeates body & soul
As he digs out the energy drift
excuse me what did you fart
you always got something to bitch about
nothing is every good enough for you
you have bitten off far more then you could chew
get this young peeps out on the streets
sitting back getting high up in the clouds
(Hook)
I bust a nut in a rut
cooking down at the Mickey D's
cats with blue hats out on the street
1st verse :
Suffering is a part of life, and I say
But sometimes I just wish the suffering would go away
Pain seems so useless, its purpose is so hard to find
When I'm in pain I'm often abrupt, rude & unkind
you struck a chord yet deep within
white lines that filtered through my brain
the lover in life is not the sinner
the less that you give your a taker
Feelings;
sweet,
nice,
illogical,
undescribable
My heart beats
faster than a locomotive
with no stop
She doesn't need a token
to get on this ride
It doesn't matter though
Love: You can't shut it out, like the crashing of a wave,
Once it starts there is no stopping it
So I try to enchant you with my smile,
But I'm afraid it's just not your style
Sifting through the corners of my life, I find my grief
And sorrow, is as great as my blessings and joys.
Seeing what I have not, dwelling on what I don't have
There is much to be said about faith, for it has carried me
Can You Hear Me...
As the brown eyed lady approached the scene,
she speaks no words, she has no grin
She walks at a fast pace, at her workplace...
She whispers in a soft, but troubled, voice, "Can you hear me ?"
the pain inside
threatens the honesty
we hide behind four walls
burrowed pews with sawed off shot guns
Sits beside his window, his red-rimed eyes
Unseeing
In his mind are sunsets and rainbows,
And shining stars in the dense cold blackness
a tiny seed was dropped out from a farmer's bag
onto the fertile soil in time roots would spring up
through the duration of time we have created a rhyme
a pulse of the heart will light the spark to where we need to go
Love's Light
through the duration in time
we have created a rhyme
finding solace amidst the quest of nature
now is the expectant hour
Tranquility
in reluctance to the search from within
the vase jar still hangs by the window sill
there are voices in my head no whispering
a very faint sound of selfish fervor
Once upon a time, in a concealed land where no man near to wander,
a necromancer who settled in his compact cabin with worn out logs
kept him protected from the outdoors. The man with no name had
an ocean breeze fills up your senses
the seagulls flock overhead
inside there is something stirring
as if heathers exploding within
shadows block the temptress taunts
alone in the silence,
What if Transparency
we make love we give love
yet sadness almost always fills our hearts
there is a great void that block that imagination
a peer of a sullen mast explosion
Death, thou was once an uncouth hideous thing,
Nothing but bones,
The sad effect of sadder grones,
Thy mouth was open, but thou could not sing
Thy voice is on the rolling air;
I hear thee where the waters run;
Thou stand out in the rising sun,
And in the setting thou art fair
Almost Christian
Some mere mortals exist yet from a plated glass
they live by sight not of faith at all.
looking back at the world for comfort & pleasure
Basking in the vast array of sin. self & Satan
The term "heavy metal" was coined to describe the loud, driving, guitar-based music popularized in the late 1960s. Over the years, bands have added new connotations to the term.
I am the weight of the cross
I am the nails in your hands
I am the soldier's laugh
I am loved by you!
I am the thorns on your head
I am the point of the spear
I am the insults of the crowd
Sloppy Seconds
wine, dine & sixty nine
she was dressed to impress that night
sporting long vicious hanging fangs that fright
we came this far not to turn back now
There's only one way to find out
how the grass tastes
on the far side of the hill.
Looking out my window
As the icicles hung from the roof,
The sun melted the water from them
And as each drop fell to the ground,
whispers...
in the night send quite a bit of fright
yesterday dreams of eating vanilla ice ceam
outside in the street hearing people scream
going shadow boxing & I'm not lying
Run The Good Race
Sometimes we must lose in order to win
The unending challenge evading sin
God's in his heaven
All's well with the world
Jesus Christ
Awake
a pause to meditate on the pay
a humble need to bow the knee to pray
you came to open our hearts
to turn us from Satan onto God
So many reasons why things are such
Constant pains, the agony of defeat
Yet I pick myself up from the waste lands
Fighting harder and harder still
We allowed the lies of our lives to expire, when we used to dance around fires, while the heat of our bodies perspired to the gods without names that we lived to be desired by, that we saw from the rocks and the trees to the birds in the sky, and
it all started with a lie..
you lied about your taxes
Dump Trump, Dump Trump
what hump homegirl
you got the world in a whirl
can't really tell if your a boy or a girl
I didn't vote for you gotta low IQ
Grant Me The Serenity
Life, is it really worth living for ?
I did not know until God opened the door
Welcome To The Grand Illusion
where are we have we gotten lost ?
hands, eyes & face
deep inside were all the same
a chance to rearrange in the membrane
Hope Again My Friend
warm blankets fly away
glowing pixie wings shatter
the compulsion destroys everything
charging in like a wild bull
What have I done wrong,
Yet what have I done right?
I feel so unwanted,
But I know You hold me tight.
My life is changing quickly,
But it feels like I'm on pause.
Problems are arising;
Divine Mortality
When I think of being mortal I never chortle, but, instead
I put those thoughts behind and hope to be divine
If when I die there's nothing more
and I will go away forever, never more
The Shaded Tree
There's nothing like a warm summer day
To picnic under a shaded tree, a gentle breeze
To cool your mood as you gobble down food
Swatting at flies from your fries and pies, make you
Lovers on the Beach
While overhead the seagulls hover,
and tiny sand crabs run for cover,
the ocean sounds its steady roar,
pounding against the snow white shore
A Poet
To be a poet is to remain forever young
To understand the sun before the scholar's words
To be able to sleep and to sleep again
On another planet in a secret meadow
The Wind That Blew
The wind started to blow
It was a col breeze
So peacefully the wind blew
Everybody and all the trees felt the breeze
Prince
Oh lets see if I can remember
My memory deceives me...the past has been long forgotten
The present at ends-deadly
Oh but the future !
There's A Feeling Deep Inside
There's a feeling deep inside me
that just won't go away
Sometimes it reaches the surface,
and sometimes it's tucked away
Once opun a time...
Oh how cliche does that sound?
To a hero I must always be bound
I must always be the damsel in distress
For no one else can wear such a beautiful dress
I am a beauty for that I am sure
What does my soul want?
You see if my soul wants something...
The very thing that makes me, me...
If it's crying out for something…
Who
Am
I
Asking me who I am can be answered on different levels
Do you want to know my personality
Or do you want to know my spirituality
I'm three years old and I can't speak
about the things my mama does
I caught her once
If you were to ask me a year ago,
where I thought I'd be.
I would say "dead" or "gone"
Never would I have
imagined myself here.
In this very room, surrounded by
everyone who I hold dear.
America? Known as a nation reborn,
Through war and tragedy we still uplift our hopes.
We take each other by the hand urging them to hold on,
There are the men that choose to face each other causing hate and struggle.
Whether or not I pray to a God is none of your concern
Whether or not I pray to multiple gods is also none of your concern
dreams. path. future. past
i find these things don't always last
pain. promise. people. places
surrounded by unfamiler faces
another world, oh God's heaven
different eyes, didn't feel i could win
This country is united but not under God,
you're blind if you think this country isnt flawed.
We have troops dying left and right, people dont say a word,
People dont see the real picture, the real picture is blurred.
Scarecrow and lion
Tin Man too
Side by side
All in awe
Too much dust
Not enough water
Covered up truths
Buried under evil
I simply visualize a place in'harmony...on my way home from work.
But these torns have grown over my'path, constantly... stepping into climax!
I kept close watch of him barely through a keyhole, but just enough to see him grow.
This way I could learn from him, see how life blooms in the dark. It must be done.
Some where in this universe is an answer truly.
A question we all diverge as a result of our undoing.
But this life is a test that we barely shine to admit.
The colors we display on a map of old cold hatred.
I stood bare foot up first words whisper, to adapt I must adopt. An image no more a minority to the wide spread hatred we call war.
Know Yourself.
This life is not so easy, give time a tog to settle down for a reason.
Realize it is inevitable to swerve out of place, like your first steps made, hardly to keep in pace.
I can see the grass grow higher
-Oh how must this life come easy
To grow as the wind blows
-If only it was as swift to rest in peace
A song played on the radio.
Told me that I gotta know
That I'm not alone.
Eyes welling with tears,
I turned it up so I could hear.
Someone with a love so great,
That it never runs out.
Lifting my eyes to the sky above me,
I enjoyed one last glimpse of the light.
And as I prepared my heart, in came the clouds of darkness
To surround me in a seemingly endless night.
Three hundred and sixty-five days ago,
I didn’t see,
I didn’t know.
Now my path seems so much clearer!
Time speeds up,
fate draws nearer.
Tempus Neminem Manet
Time waits for no one
Despite the lies you've been told
There will be no more time to have fun
No more time to laugh and run
Tears are slowly accumulating
At the corner of my eye
I hold my stomach aching in pain
Each successive breath is slowly becoming too difficult to make
He stretches out the heavens like a canopy and spreads them out like a tent to live under.
He allows us to play with the idea of walking in immeasurable confidence.
So we can take risks without the fear of failure.
We can,
Pull the rope from either end
Watch it fray
and snap
and destroy from within.
Then squeeze the ball at its very core
Till it’s a flat disk,
with a pop,
then a ball no more.
It’s the third Friday of the month,young people’s night at its liveliest. Fourteen to forty,youths of many ages file into the pews. It’s been a long week,
a turbulent month,
a trying year.
Each breath brings about
A life enslaved in shadows
Long days of one
And time in scattered pieces
Afternoons hunched over
She never liked the way her clothes fit on top of the skin that also never fit quite right. Her hands had always held things too tight and her feet could never run fast enough. She was either too much or too little for a demanding world.
When I wantto turn and fightand maimand hurt,I instead willturnand thankand helpand love.For not my will,but yours be done.
I felt soutterlydefeated.Nothing is goingmy way.Nothing is goinghow I wanted it to.I feelso lostand broken.
I held the whole bottleof little rose colored tablets.I slowly turned on the cdthat my youth pastorhad given to me. Maybe if I listen
It's strange,because he said to them,"Share this lovethat you have been givenwith every person of every type in all of the world."
Just for the tiniest momentI felt the Earthturn under my feet.I'm so small and imperfect moving only because You are leading.I never have felt so tiny or anchored.
Senior Year: Second semester
College freshman: Second semester
Prom, graduation, ditch day, freedom
Fear, home sick, scared, broken
A year of love and excitement
They say not to question God, for His ways are beyond our own.
It was a Sunday morning, watching the sweat pour from my father's face as he delivered the Holy Word,
"For I knew thee before I formed thee in the womb."
John 14:14 here;Got no reason to fear;Because if my God is near;Then we always have a reason to cheer.Mr. Smiff irritatin’, his spirit fadedHis lyrics jaded, his fear is makeshift,
This past year has taught me a lot,
And its safe to say it hasn't been easy.
No, its been anything but.
I started it off happy.
New state, new school, new faces, new me.
Why must we feel heartbreak? From where does it come?
I assure you this: It doesn’t come from above
But rather from evil with malicious intent
First pleasure, then pain and spiritual torment
Dear God,
I want to say thank you.
Thank you for being here for me when nobody else was.
Thank you for protecting me even when I was doing wrong
Thank you for being my provider when I needed something
I hear all these voices
shouting, filling
my head
yelling, proclaiming:
GOD IS DEAD.
I will not be silent,
I will not be ashamed,
because the very God that knows my name
Drowning in sorrow from the choices I've made in my past,
Only God knows how long this pain is going to last.
No one seems to know the heartache I have to swollow,
My days are building up, my days are building up now , the sound of the drums are like my heart now, I don't really wanna fit, i just really wanna give, giving thanks to the one that's up now, my faith just fills my cup now, it ain't done till I s
No light,
Darkness reigns at this hour.
No sound,
Sadness takes at this hour.
Can't feel,
Senses are far away.
Can't breath.
No air left to take in.
Four long years you've been gone.We miss you.Every year we have to realize more and more that you're gone. The pain unbearing. My heart still tearing. No more advice. No more caring touch.
Everyone shares, but not everyone cares. Poor child putting her heart out for the vultures.Just for a stroke of approval.Why?Because society says approval is needed. Human nature says approval is needed.
Knives thrust deep within the backs of others;
Smiles that keep igorant minds at bay;
Words that break barriers and bones alike;
Deception and destruction and acts of strife.
In a world so empty of hope.
My boat drifts away from the dock
I sit and watch my dreams die.
How do I say, “it is okay, you have a plan.”
You do have a plan, right?
The boat drifts to the horizon, my stomach drifts with it.
You have to know what God requires
In order for you to be what God desires
Never hesitate to take the plunge
Because you are never alone
God wants you to know how much you can handle
Because as a child
What awakens my eyes?
What seemingly invisible something
Sparks my passion, without wrinkling my soul
I grow older
I lay broken and confused because the past that has held me back for so long. Along came a glorious man who held out his hand and saved me from the dead. He held my hand on our treacherous leap of faith.
Forget the white picket fence I hope for graduations and congratulations Not my people wishing for that fenceIt's the American Dream they tell you , but when your life is set up to watch you fall they fail youIt's inevitable , given the cards they
At the end of the day
What have you done for others
How much time did I spend reading lies
Did I argue with God
Was I annoyed by a stranger
Am I living to work or working to live?
Either way I'm still considered a kid.
Alone in this hardship
or helped by my dad
The latter is something I've never had.
They'll judge you and point,
His Love
It envelops me in happiness
It makes my heart sing a song
It pulls back the curtain of confusion
It teaches me right from wrong
It shows me the purpose of life
looking threw each eye the three folds of feelings can dictate your day.
Pain, love, hope .
You may feel that your looking threw your pain.
If all stars were meant to be the same then they would have the same shape and size
they would even be the same in the way they shine.
Faith.
It sounds so simple.
A cliche some might say.
But to me,
Losing my faith would be as if I lost my sanity.
My faith in God is a necessity.
Without it, life would mean nothing.
I didn't know...
that...
It was a crime...
To be real...
So I guess ive been sentenced to life in prison for 1st,2nd, and 3rd degree words that burn your skin because you don't like the truth
A cloud of Turmoil
Stress can just soil
Positive Hopes Left Unsurfaced
All the Dark Weather is
Just of Satan's Teather
To Pull you in the
Sand that quicks the
Despair of life that Creaks
He came over to the side of the sea;
Out of the ship, Jesus saw a man who was quite unclean;
He lived among the tombs, his life was bind in chains;
He’d bust out of jail because he was wild, untamed.
Afraid that there is a greater potential
a box they give us to condition in
if they do this long enough
they believe that we'll be trapped
trapped in a mindset that they control
No hope
No love
May I, by the power vested in me by the love I have for you,
Place this ruby ring on your quivering finger,
Or will you slap it away?
May I, by the faith I have in God
Short note: the following poem is in Villanelle style.
As words that infuse life into a dark place,
Poetry gave a face to the tangled mess in my mind,
As strokes on a page that probe a soul’s triumph and waste.
35 mph.
Why am I here.
42 mph.
I am nothing.
57 mph.
Everyone would be happier. I’m a miserable person.
64 mph.
I can’t. I can’t I can’t I can’t anymore.
I sit in the buckle of the bible belt
Fighting to merely exist
As white men in stiff suits
With smiles that never reach their eyes
Sit in a room in DC
The snow crunches beneath my feet.
Each cold step can’t be repeated
Even if I say a do over is needed.
God says control is his to keep
And asks that I take the famed leap.
That in this snowy, shadowy scape
thing is im weak so I fall to my knees I beg to you God please oh please help me I need your strength to help fight this painyou are my light that guides the night I beg to you God please oh please help me give me wisdom give me peace walk w/ me
It has been quite awhile, Lost in a world I did not belong in.
Back to my roots where i was born in. Born again,
Never looking back to the past that almost destroyed me.
My mind melting, my thoughts clearing.
If you tell me again
That we’re no different
That we just happened
Our luck was purely evolutionary
I will give up trying
Give up telling you that
We’re different
We’re special
I've been guilty of my actions and not wanting to take the blame,
I've brushed it off and put my weight on another man’s shoulders thinking my sins will soon go away.
You are...
You are my crazy, my sane, my strength, my weakness
You are my law, my procalamtion, my truth, my forgiveness
You are my ride or die, my #1 fan, my soldier, my ally
As I stand here on this nightand look way up aboveI see God's heavens in my sightAnd I'm overwhelmed with love To picture such a marvelous placeFilled with love and peaceFull of eternal life and spaceWhere His love shall never cease All of which I
As I stand here on this nightand look way up aboveI see God's heavens in my sightAnd I'm overwhelmed with love To picture such a marvelous placeFilled with love and peaceFull of eternal life and spaceWhere His love shall never cease All of which I
I want to make a distinction
Between “human” and Homo sapiens
“Human” is my choice
Homo sapiens is my species
And I want to make a distinction
Between “animal” and “Animalia”
He walked in and he left
He left and he came
His heart and his soul
Was put to shame
I watched and I waited
I waited for his gesture
I couldn’t compare him
To any other sinner
I believe in a god
But not a god that others do
I believe in a god
That makes bookstores feel mystical
That makes you catch a whiff of old books
That makes you almost swoon with nostolgia
I need help
I need something to hold me ever close
Because everyday that I look out of my eyes to peek at the world that I will admit I sometimes despise
I feel like I want to die
I need help
Standing here, surrounded by my belongings
I wonder:
If the fires blazed high
And my room was to touch its lights
What would I take with me?
If I didn't believe in tomorrowI wouldn't have a today,or even a yesterdayto speak of.That's
My feet walk over this earth and I remain ignorant to so many things. From whom the mirror shows me To how to use my hands But my mother has told me about you She kissed the crown of my head when I still could not see nor talk And whispered "Than
The LORD has set us free;
the KING of Kings has broken every chain.
Our GOD is breathing life into us;
IMMANUEL is making dry bones live again.
The TRUTH has given us a new name;
The one thing I cannot live without is the belief that I am GOOD ENOUGH.
Before I realized I was GOOD ENOUGH,
life was much harder,
days much longer,
problems much bigger
AND worries much more suffocating.
Most of my generation is focused on social statuses
How many friends and likes
They get on Facebook, Instagram, and Twitter
It's like our lives
Equate to a laptop and a cellular device
I've lost faith in others,
I've lost faith in myself.
I had forgotten what it is like to love,
And gave into anger and fear.
I started to shut everyone out,
For fear of getting hurt again.
When a rough day has passed,filled with tears brought on by the persecution of my peers,I look towards the sky and see,that despite the storm, the sun fights to shine brightly.When the memory of my dear brothers last days cloud my mind,my heart sh
Scared, worried, alone;
Emotions flooding my concious.
These feelings won't subside.
Almost like waves crashing against the shore,
Of that lonley island I sat on.
My world is turning,
My life is complex, filled with tragedy
Two years had gone by and I was still in agony
My world was shattered
Broken and battered
I had no hope
How does a 17 year old cope?
God was my light
I have this friend that I am useless without.
I know, I know,
Friends are not meant to last forever.
But this one sorta does.
Desolated
Alone
I face the pale murky water
The greenish blue reflects back at me
I am scared
And alone
I cling to small promises in my hands
Only hoping
A mere flame
My cousin says I'm wrong,My sister says I'm living a lie.
But each day I still take a secondTo smile at the sky.
God I need you, can I take your hand?
You're patience and mercy are something so grand.
The things you give me I do not deserve.
But still you're grace I continue to observe.
You are my rock to which I cling.
Me, a piece of dust
Floating around helplessly, hopelessly
Waiting for something to happen
Possibly a miracle
But nothing appears to be happening
You, the charm of hope
Money is fabulous. Friends can be cool.
However, what is life if I had nothing to look forward too?
I need faith.
Without faith, I would be a living waste - sitting in disgrace.
They ask me what I could never do without
and I am tempted to say a name or a place
But I realize now what I could not survive without
I stand here on this island
Feeling almost alone
Feeling as if there's nothing
But there's always something you can hold
The sun kissed her velvet skin as she opened her arms out to the shore.
“Take me as I am!”
Nobody wants to be left here with nobody.
The wind ran its fingers through her sweet hair.
“Love me for me!”
The mountains bow down to You. Oceans cry out for Your glory. You have created us and set us above angels.
Some may say its just a necklace,that it just hangs around my neck all day.They laugh and claim that anyone can payfor this necklace that hangs around my neck all day.
I've thought about this question plenty, too plenty to recountI could shame the number of ripples in the water surrounding theisland in which im stranded, with how many times I've rejected You.
I sit here all alone—
In my room—
Such a mess.
I’m starting to remember all I have to do.
I’m starting to think about all that I could’ve done.
I’m beginning to fall in that hole I know so well.
Faith
The unparalleled charter of an Island life can take you by storm.
The waves crashing against the shores to reassure that they are your only call.
No people, No love, No trust
For a year
My eyes were on you
My faith in you too
Your words in my head
The tears on my bed
For a year
I belonged to you
And not with you
I kissed in vain
And took the pain.
What can't I live without
What I can't breathe about
Breathe to the understanding of my own self
What I can't live without
What i can't eat without
Eat without the comfort in my own shell
War. Violence. Hate.
Anger. Rage. Hurt.
Our world has been destroyed.
People are toyed.
Where is the love?
Who disturbed the peace?
Evil is dancing.
The Devil is grinning.
I miss my family every day.
I think about each passing grain in the hourglass.
I think about how desperately I’d rather be free than be here.
However, I cannot begrudge the calamities which have been delivered,
Hope is one I cannot live without.
She cradles me as I sob on my knees, scraping them on once-holy ground, now tainted by blood and hate.
In the dark, she guides me, a beacon of light where none exists.
Step... Step... Step...
Look now! What Have We Here?
By God, it's a Turtle! Taking her First Steps!
Shyly, Hesitantly, and on Wobbly Legs
Could You Ever Believe She Could Step Out of Her Shell
At Long Last?
Sometimes I wait,
I wait for you to come knock, knock, knocking,
on my door again.
I wait for you to come beg me on your hands and knees for forgiveness,
All I need is my Bible, my faith in Godpursuing through my blood and enveloping loveFrom the man who taught me to hate, and stole my loveMy teacher, my abuser, stole my heart away.
You cast your light like candles in the darkness,
You love like a flame,
Darkness cannot conquer you,
No shadow can overcome you lighten rays.
You insert your ignited incandescence into my icy heart,
Faith, its the only thing I need To stay safe and sane Knowing God is with me calms me Through storms & rain I know he's the only one The only one who won't leave Leave me stranded or wondering
“My Awakening”
Waking up everyday
My life has not been the same;
I got that voice in the back of my head
I feel like I've beenSitting on a swingWaiting for someone to push meBut sunset comes
There is a sadness that we feel
When we learn that Santa's not real
This sense of loss feels quite the same
When we grow up and learn true pain
People lie and people kill
People die and yet I still
Live?
Live in a stranded world,
stranded in life.
Alone?
Alone on this earth,
this lonely earth.
Take?
Take luxuries for granted.
Bring one luxury to this lonely stranded life.
Never.
Never give up on me.
I'm like a tree, budding in my love for thee
First, I will not know
For my limbs had not yet been free
From their canopy of leaves
Then when I do, I'll be uncertain,
Memorable Medallion
Hail Mary.
Bearing a lily, St. Gabriel does not tarry
With expostulation and adoration
Of the Blessed Virgin.
You.
I have always needed you.
I needed you when I was a small girl,
You chased away the darkness,
The nightterrors that stalked my dreams ran when you shed your light.
I needed you when they came up to me,
Jesus Christ, Who am I?
A daughter of your kingdom?
A snake in the bushes?
A servant to your people?
A wicked woman?
Why is this so much easy for other people?
Is it really?
All I need is the love of my God
For He will keep me safe and secure
From the hands of the arrogant
That thrive from the devil’s hand
His kindness will keep me warm
Have Faith
Faith we cannot live without
A life without it,
Is it a life at all? No
The idea of believing that crumbling humanity will overcome the odds
Jesus, He is Lord of Lords and King of Kings,Jesus, He is the Son of God and God's Word is the truth of all things,Jesus, He is God
"The girl that on one sees
A season she can't control
Pent up emotion she cannot free
This time it's taking it's toll
Down on bended knee
Not freely these tears roll
The breaking burning plea
There was once I felt lonely, and at times I felt hopeless.
It's in those times I wondered where you were or where you went.
Those are the times I needed you most, why weren't you there?
We were poles apartDestined to come togetherIn the name of God,Love and friendshipWe took the leap of faithSometimes our paths were darkSometimes they were brightWe were co
Waves: crash,Sand: coarse, grainy, irritable,Waves: crash, break,Shells: sharp, jagged, painful,Waves: crash, break, awaken,Sun: hot, blinding, powerful,Waves: crash, no more,
He will never turn away from me no matter how many times
I push him away or doubt His love
Or question him angrily about why I feel this way and why terrible things happen
I cannot truly live without His love
I gasp in fear as I for the first time see
The frightening, frothy foam around me
With selfish fright, I see the swiftness of the water
Flowing steadily to you, my father
It is painful, you seeTo watch as the peopleI grew up with and underChangeBlur from who they wereAnd not often for the betterIt feels as if my family is a landmassThat is breaking apart
Fate works in mysterious ways
Putting me through pain on most of my days
Mental and physical, it has no preference
For in my mind pain has taken up residence
But still I wonder for what reason this is
Raised to work
Raised to survive
Raised to live but never feel alive
Raised to hate by twisted fates from prior hearts that had no ounces
Raised to fail in the eyes of success
All I need is freedom...
Praises to the authority
When majority
Promoted white robes as a conformity
Of your suppression
Waiting too long for legal protection
Question the world around you of the truth
Be the one to ask, be the brave
It is stemmed in your youth
That you are meant to be in this cave
The truth is what to seek
Don’t listen – you aren’t weak
Sweet songs,
sifting.
Hold on,
hope’s in you.
Dear child,
keep your lips widely speaking.
Honey,
please smile.
She set sail on the seas of life,Her boat held together by the nails of christ.She bailed the water of trials and tribulationFor she knew she was stronger then the power of satan. At times she felt so lonely on the stormy seasSo she bowed her head
Sweet child, listen.
Please will you look at me?
I know you see the water.
the peace beneath the sea.
But maybe one day,
We’ll go look at that for ourselves…
Standing on the edge on the brink; Chaotically confused.
Tears fall faster than you can catch them.
Loud inner voices make it hard to think.
Your fears and reality have fused.
Mom, for so long my heart was an etch a sketch
And I kept it drowned in the depths of childhood memories
Where your remindings from
Aged scars and past improper lovings
Would constantly change my mind and remind me
Time.
It has grown
these knarreled
and misshapen oaks.
It has ravaged
and swelled
these grey grey graveyards.
And it faded
the once
great abbey into
I've always been a believer..
I used to believe I needed to be inhebriated
to appreciate the things that he's created.
Come on, go.Go. Don’t you knowthis can’t really harm you- I'm hereand you’re perfectly fit
for things like this.No time to reminisceabout the solid groundyou’ll leave, then hit.
Endless tunnels going where?
Voicemails left on my dead phone
Burning through November air
Tired eyes and windswept hair
Hazy buildings, moonlit stone
Endless tunnels going where?
I done went up the mountain and uh i even back slid became a product of my environment I hopeless
told God that I hope this life don't last forever
why am I still here I know that there's something better than the chedder
i used to think that god listened to me when i prayed at night,my knees stained with remorse as i kneeled by my bedside
desperately pleading to be absolved of my human
Resilient.
For I can sail my boat despite the chaotic storms.
In the dictionary you would find my name, picture, soul next to the definition of resilient.
What made me resilient? My battles.
Picture the summer of 2014. Driving on the freeway. Walking along the beach. Blasting music with the windows down.
Is this going to be a typical California summer? Not in the slightest.
He wipes the dust of his Bible in times of need.
Eats the bread cause he's hungry.
Hungry because he plants the seed so God can see he still believes.
He confesses he's sorry he's never seen
In Church
A lady came up to me today,
She had lost both breasts
With soul in her eyes she spoke of a savior.
Naive promises of saccharine salvation and loving embraces
Coated her tongue.
"It’s too good to be true"
In this life,
I have sat with the lowest of lows;
And have been seated at the heighest of heights...
But of all the places I've been,
Nothing compares to kneeling in the presence of Grace.
"Beautiful"
It's high praise no matter who you are.
But to just another young fella
Who gets used to his mom calling him "handsome"
Probably because she's obligated to
"Beautiful" is something else
Through my own special needs
I have been able
To perform good deeds
Because of my life
As a musician
I can now live
For God in submission
Through years of therapy
To some God is an all powerful being, with power and might
To others he's a mystical being delusional people pray to at night
If there is a God, why do we suffer through pain
We live in a world of impossible possibilities
A world where nothing is really reality
I'm blind to lines
Except the red ones, by design,
Like loose leaf, looking higher
Seeing white, being inspired to try
By a margin of heaven
Above a sea of blue lies
Desperation took me by the hand and led me down the gravel road
Pain made the humidity bearable and I went after what I was owed
Fear cleared a path and pushed my comfort zone all the way
I may feel alone but there's always someone with me
I may feel unloved but I know someone loves me unconditionally
I have an infinite faith that never ends
within the obstacles that I face
there is a light of hope that shines
so bright in my heart and soul.
I have an infinite faith that god granted
A life without a reason
Is like a songbird without sound
And unless I am told plainly
How surely I’ll run aground
The sun never rises
Seasons never change or go around
I am the little girl who likes to be alone. I’m from hurtful words that nobody knows about, where the world is a playground and my life is a song. I am from remembering a time when each day was long. I am the friend who always smiles when noth
My love is
a chemical,
a pulse,
and a
shock.
My heart is
just meat
beaten tender.
When I
throw up my
hands
they are only
bones in a row,
My hand is here
all you have to do is take it
you will have everything you need by just believing in me
I am Tillar
I am named after a small town in southern Arkansas that means so much to my family
I am my grandmother's sweat tea and banana pudding
I am my daddy's brown hair and green eyes
I am Choctaw and Cherokee
his blood cries out
this the offering of Abel
by faith he fell
by his brother he was slain
God had reguard and delighted in Abel
through righteous blood, salvation gains
"More, more" they say, "More, more."
These voices won't stop.
This emptiness won't be filled enough.
"More, more." These voices continue to say, "More, more."
More of what?
More friends.
More money.
No: life isn't horrible.
No: life isn't terrible
or terrifying.
No: I cannot stand silent anymore.
Yes: I will stand up for
what I know is true
and right.
I may be only one voice.
If I were a duckling, the church was my mother.
I folllowed and obeyed to please one another.
I knew not why I'd bother to question,
Why I'd always head my elders instruction.
LIght Shines
Illuminating
Dark Places
once useen
Beauty
is now revealed
in the Lord's
Creation
The Sun
She brings us life and joy; despair
Her silent song a covenant of care–
Our faithful servant in the air
A gilded messenger, inasmuch:
Since we were younger you've always loved
and never had a reduced fascination
with what seems to the world just a common animal,
Call it beauty
Call it beauty when the stars blanket the night sky
When the birds sweeten the morning air
When the rain rejuvenates the fresh soil
When waterfalls look like falling pristine sugar
Everyone knows the saying, "life isn't fair. Although the obstacles we face in life may make us more
strong, dominant, and capable to conquer what challenge we will face
Thoughts always cloud your mind
Disappointments seem to bring you down
The future tends to scare you
Hard work sometimes just doesn’t seem to pay off
Life gets rough, times get tense
We had the perfect ending
But yet a destructible beginning
Me and you together we were what everybody imagined to be
Truthfully we had enough energy to start World War III
We masked our love with imperfections
Don't worry about Tomorrow, just worry about Today.
Don't worry about Tomorrow, that's what they always say.
Yesterday I had my troubles, and tomorrow is my victories,
The Devil is trying to knock me down
The Devil is intimidated by my mental
But God says I’m the talk of the town
There is something about me that’s elemental
I received a phone call from my father
Explaining that it was all too real
And all too sudden
This man he spoke of did not sound like the uncle, his brother I knew
The world is so cold we say
but it doesn't have to be
We say that the skies are gray
but isn't it you who chose them that way?
See we have two options in this life:
to live, to die
to whither, to fly
Depression and anxiety,Those things that try to come back to me.O and that PTSD,
Ink-smudged hands betray me
Proof that I'm still fighting
My thoughts can be rambunctious
I don't quite know where I am
Tears fall steadily after the trauma
If you came to grips with it, at least
Those around you whisper things like "drama"
Each of us faces a diff'rent beast
Your birthday's on the clock is teasing me
Should I have let you leave?
Come back if you care
God please lead me to where I need to be
I trust that you or who will be with me
you know even with all the pain in my life
i still live each day and get through the night
i must still be looking for something or maybe someone
because if i wasnt looking you bet i'd just run
I am a daughter of God, but in no way am I perfect
I am not a perfect daughter nor will I be a perfect bride.
I’m afraid to admit that the reflection I see might not even really be me.
When I was younger and the world was bigger
I’d often travel far, far away
To places where I was happy and unaware
Drive on, drive on, until we reach tomorrow day
Hard-core,
A man with an iron will,
Seeker of justice in a world of chaos.
He has his moments of weakness, vulnerability...
But in such times she always holds him up, supports him,
You stagger through the door, belligerent and blind.
Anger that only spirits could invoke - menacing - gleering through your eyes.
I didn't believe.
What happens when you die?
Is there a heaven and hell or am I living a lie?
I didn't believe.
You see stuff on the news.
You figure none of those things can possibly happen to you.
Allow me to introduce myself. My name is Gabriel. My friends call me Gabe. And my father, well he hardly calls me at all. How's that for subtle? Please don't feel sorry for me.
Hummingbirds
Hummingbirds give me hope
I see them buzz, they rarely mope.
When I’m tired and blue
Few creatures point directly back to you.
Those Hummingbirds that do not sing
Pot Luck Papa
My dad brings odd things to the table.
The contents of which, are appropriate for fable.
Succulent shrimp and other crustaceans delight.
While odd concoctions bubble, giving children a fright.
I love you, don't you know that yet?
You are my rock
My moon
My sun
My ray of hope
My sunday morning
The weight that holds me together
You are the main star to my night
Mediocrity is dominant in the addressing of global issues. 'The world will heal, just give it time.' That time is mine granted by
Enslaved by thought so I carry the tale with worn feet,
My kind was contained to cultivate something sweet.
Sugar cane working,
Rays from the sun start to sting-
My ancestors with worn feet wished for fresh wings.
Who care's he snarls,
All alone with your face in the corner nowhere to run,
My World's ice'd over covered in snow,
Then I hear a vioce it say's I care,
Jesus Christ you heard my prayer's,
They say He is not allowed in my life
They say He is not real
He is not worthy
He is not gracious
He is not kind
These people be looking at me like I'm crazy
Like the shit I been doing ain't the right shit maybe
Maybe I'm loosing my mind
I haven't been feeling right lately
Like all these demons inside been tryna step out on me
Sometimes I hold my head in my hands and sink into the sheets
teeth in a soft lip turned chapped
too much pushing on me from all sides
from nowhere
Without the filters who am I?
Without the filters will I die?
Millions persuaded to become something they're not, only to find that out that what's inside....has changed a lot.
Gone is the color in their eyes.
Because of the choice of one person,
On the ground, they all fell down
The cries for justice,
When these three went,
They all die down.
I am flawless because i am forgiven
Washed to purity
By love that wrote eternity
A sinner declared saved
I will never be betrayed
I am loved by Him
And when I fail He forgives again
The voices in my head
Laughs and stalks
Mocking their way to my heart
My heart has a door
The key Jesus
He is who opens and locks.
The voices in my head
Laughed and stalked
He called them to the sea
A boundless tempest raging
Those of little faith witnessed it made still
Iēsus Nazarēnus, Rēx Iūdaeōrum
Made still for the faithful to come
Without the storm
Two people and one room, or so one person in one house. Three children in one forest, yet thousands of souls mixed in a habitat of guts and glory.
Our days are no longer filled with faith and honesty;
But with people who seem faceless.
We can’t rely on the world and allow them to make up feel worthless;
Why does suffering exist
If God loves us so much?
Isn't he all-powerful?
Then why can't he
make traffic go faster,
get rid of my flu,
heal my daughter's cancer,
bring back my husband?
To wish upon a star
Is to latch your dreams onto the insubstantial
To meld fantasy into reality
And believe in something magical
The tiny pinpricks of light
Each the capital of its own nation
Hold on
Turn around
Take a look at what we've found
I've had a hard time believing
That everything happens for a reason
But I see it
I see it now
I don't know where I'm going
Yet me walk in your shoes so I can soften them up so your feet don't touch the hard ground you step on.
She stands looking in the mirror
and what does she see ?
what she appears
to be
a young woman of faith
filled with promises from above
Her flaws run deep
yet she is washed clean
"True believers are a dime a dozen," the old crow used to say.
"What's there to believe?" the young colt always asks.
"God is the answer," the immovable turtle proclaims.
Love is cruel, to the sovereign heart, men like me only known in part, struggles within that I never shared, with the one who told me that she really cared, my mind is now reeling and filled with regret, I cannot move forward, even take my next b
All of our years we work and try to see,
The girl or boy we are supposed to be.
We go through school being judged and bullied,
Just to turn around and judge and bully.
We are called to act with love and kindness,
Hey.
Hi
Are you ever going to answer me?
Daddy, I know I have screwed up alot, but please just say hi?
Cancer is scary,
Cancer is frightening,
but don't worry child,
Because I know you won't stop fighting,
I AM STUCK IN A MAZE THERE IS NO WAY OUT,
I FELT THE LONELINESS DRIVING ME INSANE,
I RAN IN BETWEEN STONE COLD WALLS THAT NEARLY REACHED CLOUDS,
STOPPING TO CATCH MY BREATHE IN FRONT OF ME WAS A FLOWER,
You flawed up, they’d say
You a mess up, they shout
Hair a mess, tears were more, they were cruel
They couldn’t care less how I was hurting to the core, they were cruel.
One white kid in the whole neighborhood
All my friends spoke Spanish but still I knew the truth
That every one of us wants the same exact thing
To find a safe haven and to have a family
Mom a word that's supposed to mean safety,but to me it's the epitome of MAYBE,
MAYBE she'll be here tonight or tomorrow,
MAYBE out drinking, I'm thinking,
this word mom makes me feel irate,
Faith is never an easy entity to face.
What does it look like?
Does it have two eyes?
No eyes at all?
Faith is walking when everyone tells you there’s no ground.
CUT THE RESTRAINTS THAT HAVE HELD YOU BACK
SHUT THE DOOR TO ALL THE NEGATIVE SMACK
BUILD THE BLOCKS OF CONFIDENCE INSIDE YOU
SHILED THE PAST AND PUT OLD THOUGHTS BEHIND YOU
A broken family
With harmful words
A mind filled with caged birds
Yelling, screaming float up above
headphones, earbuds singing love
A pure mind, a white dove
Slamming doors, broken windows
Tonight, I can write about a broken moment in time,
About a lone wolf,
Whose power and grace fell,
As the heavens would cry,
Shunned because she didn’t fit in,
Didn’t agree with the status quo,
I’m driving to the store. I look left at a stoplight;
A girl is applying on mascara on her already thick lashes
In the limited time frame that we have and I think of
Your scent reminds me of blossoms
Your smile is the light of my mood
Possibly seeing myself in your eyes
That swift touch like heavens bliss
Treasuring those senses
For those smell, sight, and touch
Her widsom to empower the future
to belive that a dream can become a reality
no matter what boundary steps aside
there will always be " Widsom and Hope"
It isn't just a word we use
For when things will be fine
It isn't just said to amuse
Or recite a religious line
It isn't just a simple lyric
In a hymnal song
The alarm goes off.
My sheets fly off me and my feet hit the ground running.
My family wakes up.
Mom is putting on her uniform and dad puts on his collar.
My house comes to life.
Scared in a world with a variety of people, the rejects, the nerds and quiet people .
With the people who belong on stages and are natural leaders , those who belong at the steaple.
HE'S LIVIN OFF A REPUTATION THAT HE ONCE HAD,
HE DOESN'T READ HIS BIBLE ANYMORE IT JUST FADED AWAY LIKE
SOME KINDA FAD.
NOW IT JUST SITS IN HIS ROOM ON A DUSTY SHELF,
What uplifts me?
Such a simple question
But difficult to answer
What does it mean?
"What inspires me?
there comes times we have to be strong and admitt we are wrong .you can continue your journey if your not accepting youre own mistakes . mistakes are apart of human nature and that is what makes us stronger
I stay positive for friends and foes.
They're the ones who need it the most.
I try to be the light of their lives.
Just to keep them one more night.
Alive.
They need to know someone cares.
And I'm still thinking why. . . Why did god chose me for this struggle on my journey
Who am I, why does my appearance gives the right to judge me.
On the floor with no pulse,
no time to grieve.
I saw him stiff and cold,
the one who had embraced me in warm arms
just that night.before.
See the faith in your own light
Do not be lead by those who want you to see what captures their own sight
Fallow the path that stretches infront of you
There once was a little girl
Went home to the wrong house
Hid it all, behind a smile
Said I just need a little love
But knew she’d never find it in that place
She prayed,
Lord, make me a butterfly
Love me. Hold me and never let me go. This world is too heavy for me to carry by myself and I cannot deal with these demons of mine on my own.
I declare a war, that has been necessary since the beginning of time,
a war that has been put on hold for far too long.
A war that is without physical and seeable death,
but full of pain and sorrow.
How to be demonstrative of positive?
I suggest gladness is an evocative,
And through a consequence of the causative;
a presence of your highest prerogative.
It’s rare to find care in a world of unfair.
The person beside me didn't study but I heard they got a 92 seating looking at my test doesn't even look like I tried my best.
I was one in the dark, you know?
Following a pace
Destruction was its face
Tall and Slim
Dark and Grim
Too much to care.
The light
Was too fair
My itchy ears
Faith
People say that we are molded by our experienes
I have looked death in the face
I have seen friends perish
People have burned before my eyes
My future was never certain
Each day became a gift
When God Speaks you better listen. I’m hardheaded as shit. In one ear out the other type. I don’t wanna hear nothing no one or anyone has to say because I think I know everything.
A junior in high school,
Falls into despair so quickly,
Tries to go with the flow,
To formulate a show,
A star meant to glow,
Lost its incandescence,
Now seeking assistance,
Is it too late?
I wake just to hear
my parents argue back and forth in fear.
I didn't know what was going on.
As I listen, they yell at my sister...
every denial from her made my dad angrier.
As we travel up the steep mountain,
There are trials and tribulations we face
That we overcome and proceed on
you love to call me thick
that must be a slick way to tell me to lose weight .
You tell me to put salad on my plate .
I heard you World , to be honest .
This pound cake is too good and it already on my plate .
Why do I write?
There was a time when I could say quite simply,
Because I love it so.
But since March 21st...
It seems that isn't so.
Now all I write about is the past
I keep blocking it out
Tying not to hear it
Can't face the truth
Can't bear to stand it
Trying to stay strong
But it's so hard to do
Because I can't help but hurt
Here I sitand wonder why.Why am I here?Is it just to die?Or is there a reasonFor this crazy world?A reason to be hereto spin and to twirl?
Sometimes, enough is enough
you tap out before the going actually gets tough
nevertheless, no one else is in your position except you
battling and fightng to get through
God's HeavenWritten by Adam M. SnowA vision splendid of the Heavenly scene,filled my mind with an image so clean:
This Lost LambWritten by Adam M. SnowOh by the morning strike of dayand by the calm obscure of night,
When my wings got seared off by the sun,
when i free fell, saw the ashes of my hopes and dreams
gently floating after me, I thought I was done,
that the ocean would end my agony
The same brain, body and gender.
Having a light make-up,
We go out.
Wearing pink dresses and high-heels.
As usual...
jump head first into the
flaming inferno because he told you so
try not to sweat
when he calls you a pussy
let the third degree burns be a
reminder to never trust a soul
There is a world where society tell women their looks matter more than their brains
And shoe shopping and lipstick are more coveted than Master’s Degrees and smiles.
What would you describe faith to be?
would it be a feeling?
Maybe an emotion, an action,
or is faith a THING?
I see faith to be something unseen,
It's like walking blindfolded,
When I was three I watched the clouds form around my mother,
I watched her retreat into herself.
I watched my father leave
And I became the protector.
Oh, the days are getting longer it seems.
This technology is getting smarter than me!
Now the sun seems much stronger than the breeze,
This heat will bring my closed mouth to speak.
We could fill an entire library
With the things we never say to each other;
Volumes upon volumes
Of quiet "I'm sorry's" and tear-soaked "I love you's".
I told you once, a year ago
I live in this broad bubble that I all a life.
But i know thats not right.
I have become so scared of failing thatg I no longer try.
Dulled passion just trying to get by
Before proceeding, you must first understand one basic primordial idea that my family and I have lived with for most of our lives: the idea of one true God.
Why do I let the things that crush my soul
Bruise my demeanor, my attitude, my outlook on life?
Is it because my mind, a vast space filled with dreams of love and adventure,
Hope and happiness, splendor and joy,
Everything that I have ever known is a lie.
You don't realize it till someone say it in your face.
I was living a life of sin.
You take a step back and re-evaluate your whole life.
It rained,It rained on my parade,I tried to stop it,The incessant drizzling,The floods from God,The tears from heaven,I tried to stop it,But I couldn't, so it rained.
There are moments in the night when I wish for someone to lay next to me,
embrace me in their arms,
and not let me go till the moon finally takes its leave.
In less than a month's time,
My world will change
From the familiarity of my home and siblings
To the unknown of university.
Who will I meet? How will I progress?
The infinite possibilities dash
"You did this"
I think this as I try to sleep my first night at my fourth foster home that year.
I am ony six years old.
As that night was not cold, my heart was chilling to my soul,
I'm wondering if I'm going to heaven or hell.
I should know just that so many lies people tell.
Corrupts my intel.
They say I'm destined for damnation.
They put me on the spot like Dalmatians.
Look at me and tell me what you see.
A young black educated male is what I hope you perceive me to be.
I have God beside me, my parents behind me and my family around me and I’m going to strive to be all that I can be.
Look at me and tell me what you see.
A young black educated male is what I hope you perceive me to be.
I have God beside me, my parents behind me and my family around me and I’m going to strive to be all that I can be.
It’s vital to know, the stakes I conceive
Are heaven or hell, nothing or rebirth
But how can I know when I must believe?
Wake up expecting, Forget the mistakes worth regretting, Stay in peace when the situation is upsetting.
She never thought the day would come;
When pen, paper, and she, were one,
but what was a young foreign girl to do ?
When no one could hear her silent cries.
All she had was her notebook, who promised to hear.
Why can't we all get along and sing a song
why must bullying occur everywhere and on the web
Why can't these men be a father while the woman play both parts in a child's life
The day I gave you my life
shed tears the way you shed your blood for me
declared my love for you the way you've always shown your love for me
that is when The Chase began..
the devil wanted me
The chill from the propeller
Up at jumping altitude
Runs down the body, up my spine
And electrifies the mood
It’s a love/hate thingThat I wish I could stop.It’s a Cinderella dreamThat I wish I could swap
I want to go inside the head of someone elsethat way I can think thoughts that are beyond myselfI want to know what they know, see what they see,I wonder if they even think about me.
I reach for the canister of ash
And take my thumb and smear it
On my neck, like a holy gash.
I wear my thread every day.
I don't question my faith and
I never look the other way.
She looks like heaven
to me
She says no but that's okay
not everyone can see
The way her eyes shine in the morning
When we met, you were just another girl
But now for some reason you are my world
I havent seen you in a while but it cool
My heart says otherwise, maybe i'm a fool
The days go by, we hardly speak nowdays
Growing up you took care of me no matter how bad i was
you gave me food and a roof and a mothers love
from hugs and kisses to beatings and punishment
i laugh so much when i think of all of it
She looks at it.
It looks at her.
Like looking in a mirror.
Nature vs. Nurture.
She reclines her seat
As she watches the breeze
Whisk around the palms
And give ache in her feet.
My skin,
my bones
are crumbling.
My remains
are
becoming dust.
And from my
decomposing
self,
I hope that
your flowers
will grow,
Feel the breeze sweep listfully forward
As you creep slowly toward,
That goal you see in you mind
Don't stress about the small things
Just focus and grow your wings,
Don't let anyone tell you "no"
You are always there...
When the sun starts its rise
The stars and paint merge their glows
The night's soft demise
As the surrealism flows
No matter how unreal
Whatever reality may be
I am fragile.
To look at me you would see a young woman standing at 5 ft. 3 inches and think
“Of course she is fragile.”
But no…
My stature does not determine my strength.
4 years ago i thought,
"i will never make it",
i almost gave up,
but instead i faked it,
I was so depressed,
nothing inside,
but my friends gave me hope,
and i decided to try,
I want to do it right.
See, and that's my problem right there.
Because in my desire to do life right
I become terrified of making mistakes
And turn to what the world (the general consensus) says.
This is my life
And it will be full of enjoyment
So first things first
You've lost employment
You said I needed you
And would be there for me
But I got over 2 decades
No need for sadness for the deceased
They lay in peace
They are only sleeping
No need for weeping
Just smile
Your heart is strong, it could run a mile.
How well is my destiny written down
That times are exact
Situations are perfectly placed with the ideal obstacles
That made the encounter with him magical
I’m having thoughts, of bitterness and hate
I don’t know why! Why won’t they go away?
I’m hearing voices of death all around me
I've listen to you for far too long
and it's time I turn back to the one
who has never turn his back on me
So you can shut me out
put me down
even hurt me
take away my hopes and dreams
Hope
mommy im hungry
and she replied sweetie i don't have any money
mommy i need this outfit
and she replied sweetie i don't have it
As several people presented their personal projects
At least five people said they were “religious”
And this word was used to describe their Christian faith
Why not just say “I‘m a Christian”
“I’m a believer”
Broken roads engulfed with rubble
A heart apiece, blind eyes focusing
Who can stand to face the trouble
The hearts that burn, spurned
Eager to face another day, wanting
You can find me
where the
dust sparkles
in the window
from the sun's rays
You can find me-
there
I'll be hiding
beside the curtain
blending into the wall
landing lights
stomp
ancestors awaken themselves
on my hand, belongs the nail of a great-great grandmother
on my face is an ancient beauty mark, belongs to a great-great-great grandfather
God will give you time
To reflect and find your thoughts,
So don't worry.
He has your back
And guards it well.
God will give you strength
I am no one important
Just a person on the street
You pass me on the way to work
Or school, or a friend activity
I am no one important
Or so it would seem
For what you do not know
could be for better or for worse.
To say this one or that one
or what about none?
For what we see hindsight
seems like 20/20
But in the midst of the rising
To be or not to be...What is it meant to be in the land of the free?Whilst many grieve in pain and agony,Searching for joy, but constantly struck with misery,Told you can be, whatever you set your mind to be,
She is...More precious than the jewels that surround her King, the Queen is flawless her love is deeper than the bluest ocean the greenest forest...
Sometimes all you can do is stand.
All you can do is keep on working, pushing towards brighter days.
My 87 grandmother has been through a lot.
She’s had five different cancers,
Multiple tumors, intestine troubles, and a stroke.
She lost all control of her body, time after time.
But she never gave up.
And I fall to my knees yet again
Say a prayer I have no faith in
Full of hope but know it's hopeless
I'm just a bunch of broken pieces
Tonight Dear father, I put aside my greed.
To pray for those who really are in need.
For the children crying,
beaten black and blue.
I hope they get the chance,
to live and fulfill their youth.
I want my faith to be like a tree,
Standing straight and tall and strong,
Always growing.
I want my faith to be like a fire,
Lighting struck and thunder crashed
And the wind howled at the sight.
The rain pounded the earth,
Love.
It comes in many forms.
The love a parent has for their child.
Instant.
The love a dog has for its master.
Unconditional.
The love a sibling has for another.
Growing.
Rusted chains cling to their hearts,
Darkness consumes them --
Children of Darkness?
Or are they Children born in Darkness?--
They cannot hear faith told,
For their ears are bound.
Religion is
more powerful
than your government’s
atomic bombs.
Mamas and papas
drag their kids
behind them
down the rows
of pews worn by
years of futile prayers.
Believed in what is not true,
Faith is what it is,
or is it?
False is what I break,
Truth is what I make,
or do I?
Destroy what I need,
Create what I want,
or do I?
They say the best writers write what they know,
But lately I’ve been losing my mental going off my rocker all existential.
I’ve been going off on points of tangency trying to crack the code that’s right in front of me.
What is there to be said
When all the pictures have been painted, when
wordsmiths more skilled have woven better phrases
Who am I, who am I?Sometimes overcome by Christ's curious effect upon the soul;
From today's family, mine is different
And I think that is quite funny
So many families lack unity
But my family stands strong with faith
and we find comfort in our Father
I believe everything happens for a reason
And you never know what that reason is
Until it hits you unexpectedly
My father who has given me eternal life.
My Lord who always finds in his heart to forgive.
My God who is there for me,
Eventhough,
I am constantly not there for him.
Oh how I wish I could change the past.
the mistakes I've made
Are too numerous to count.
I have failed too many times.
I have disappointed others,
And I have disappointed myself.
I am silent
I am mysterious
Sometimes you can't even find me, but when you do
I scare you!
You try to get rid of me and sometimes I fade away
But what's gone at this time can always come another day
Through high and low
Through chaos and darkness
Through the depths below
and when you've tried your hardest
Be still and know
All the days seem long
And the hurt runs deep
It's time to let go and let God, literally
you're blind without faith
cause it's the source in which you see,
it leads your intuition and utilizes ambition,
faith creates an image so we can imitate Jesus,
****I am not bashing other religions but rather providing my reasoning behind choosing the Christian faith. I respect all religions and faiths and believe that everyone should believe in something. This is why I believe in Jesus Christ.
They say everyone has a testimony, and a story that will break your heart. My little sister had cancer. Her hair would fall out and she was weak, so fragile that it was hard for her to walk. I couldn't understand at first why God had chosen her.
Your touch.
Your smile.
Your voice.
The beauty you allowed me to see.
Moments of laughter and words of wisdom ; I will always cherish.
"Why must love feel like a heart attack"?Some may sayCausing our hearts to sputter one final beatThump, thump, shhDifferent types of love lause different types
I am holding a bladeUp to my wrist In the knife all I see is lies upon liesBut then I see youAnd your little blue eyesYou say put the kinfe down AuntieOr I will crySo I put down the kinfe
Who told us that life would be so hard
Our past haunting us,
The future looming ahead,
We struggle to enjoy and succeed in the present.
I have given up the hope for my life to be perfect
Silent Thoughts
Thoughts,
That’s all they are
That’s all I make.
Will they ever be any more?
Will they ever be any less?
Listen, sister, for this talk unsettles me. Stop here. Because
You are not the sum of things you have made.
You are not the sum of others' judgements, opinions - no.
I need a job that could change whole life
And maybe then will shit start going right
I wouldn't have to be worried about my moms
Or my sisters and brothers crying about the lights going off
The water and the cable
I want to go into business and economyMake some money and change the way people thought of meI'm tired of people thinking I can't do it like I'm just an act of comedy
Left and right I see a place to fall,
holding tight I suffer through it all.
God grant me courage,
God grant me wisdom.
To break this world's mighty wall,
I'll come running when you call.
They said it’d be a change
And it wouldn’t be easy;
Living a life like this
Isn’t a joyride.
I didn’t expect it to be
But I also thought I was stronger than this.
Last year held challenges,
Some that terrified me, some that didn’t.
All were conquerable
With the right mindset.
I made my plans, I planted my heart
Firmly, steadfastly into them.
The Dream
Starts with college and hard work
Thats the opurtunity to make millions
My paths not cut in clear yet but I know I'm on my way
Because greatness is a mind set and that's all you
Society seems in a mess
Mothers cry, while Fathers stress
to be polite is a disgrace
as children mock you to your face
drugs and sex aren't hard to find
it seems as if the worlds gone blind
i looked for Him
in the silver strands braided in my grandmothers hair.
i looked for Him
in the brown crunchy leaves on the ground in the fall.
i looked for Him
The layered glory and weakness,
The wounded and the broken,
Finally receive good news.
Some of the lost have been found.
Some of the dying have been saved.
Some of the bad have been beaten.
God, I just want to know your plan.
I want to be able to count the number of setbacks I will have on my fingers.
I want to know if my heart will still have to endure more pain.
I want to know if I'll get divorced too.
I know that I am not alone
I know that I am loved
So ask me what my faith is
Ask me how I know
Or tell me that this science thing
Has put me in a hole
You will tell me that religion
Watch What I Become
Smile with relish
Together we still are
Mountains tower between us
God teaches us love,
Compassion,
Grace,
Honesty,
Patience,
God shows us love,
That we are all treasures,
That we are worth sacrifices,
That we are all perfect in His eyes,
A Gift of Faith
A cry, a tear, a whisper in ones ear. Can one only imagine the emptiness without the faith that fills inside?
I'm weak in the flesh.Though my spirit is so willing Jesus!Sanctify me, this total depravity.
July 7 1944
My dear beloved child,
I take with me your last image.
"Make her be quiet! She's mad! Shut her up!"
Her little boy stroked her hand.
Why do you judge me like you know me?
What did I ever do to you?
I just don’t understand
How the people around me have gone so mad.
I did nothing to deserve your hate.
Those long nights
You believed would never end,
Filled with tears and fright
That push you from the mend,
Will one day join together
By the hand of God on high,
And become a feather,
These big and strong trees
Have a great tunnel like view
with their evergreen leaves
Eyes closed, mind focused, heart open.
Her hand trembles in mine, gently.
Hundreds of voices shouting, whispering, mumbling,
Cries of help and gratitude to the man above.
She sobs, unable to catch a breath,
At the top of the ladder is your goal.
Each of the ladder's poles represents
Your steps and efforts to get closer to that.
And your soul plays a major part in your pace.
Peer pressure is crazy!
But only I control me!
So you can’t make me see, anything I didn’t already see.
You say “Go ‘head, try it! It’s not gone hurt!”
But I’ll be the judge of that when you’re six feet in the dirt.
If I could change one thing about the world, I'd change the way it's ran.
It'd be a place where people weren't afraid to take a stand.
In the world we live in now, there's a unanomous point of view.
clickclickclickclick
goes the key board as i sip my morning tea.
Spiling, gushing ,spewng my deepest trauma and heatache.
My therapy, your guilty pleasure.
The best job, if you ask me, is that of a writer.
Daddy, you are my heart and soul and I the same to you,
When I hear "I love you" I say "I love you too".
The day my life changed forever,
was the day you were diagnosed.
I love everyone in my life,
I had a dream in the past before,
a woman so perfect who made my heart roar,
her voice echoed through each waking moment,
I would feel her touch when my body jolted.
My mother of Resolution
A mother of hope
A listener of wisdom
My detective of crime
Understanding of all imperfections
Loving, caring, compassionate
Never Forget
You Stained by bloody waters
A past haunts your present being
I see the pain in your eyes
The beauty of humanity
Rests under your soul
Struggling constantly
Through this relentless fight
This battle won't kill me
I will climb past this height
I'm scared of the outcome
I fight to overcome it
My heart beats like a drum
Hollow Ghost of Red Heart
Ominous with frantic rage
Yet vindictive under the Vail
Luminous as starlight nights
Breathing Just Fine
Held under water
Gazing upon him
We fight for a way out
The sea blue runs black
I once was
A girl caged in lonliness; living nightmare
The devil on my back
Crawled in my head
Homeless individuals sleep with dreams of what they used to be
Now they have moved on leaving the new generation drowning sea to sea
No education, no temptation, to get a dream fulfilled
Dreamer,
I am a scatter brained, introverted, unstable dreamer.
My hope is rooted in my faith,
my faith is in these cereberal illusions
that cause denial and confusion.
I want a partner that is so rooted in the bossom of GOD;
A partner that is in LOVE with GOD
Who places GODs Desire infront of their own
fleshly desires...
"Mommy, can I be skinny like those girls on T.V?"
I hear these words and put my head in shame.
"Mommy, can we go to McDonalds today?"
I hear this constantly and feel the same.
What to say to the ones who feel small,the ones who are hungry,the ones who have no home, whose everyday battles without an end,those who are lost wishing to be found again, for those who suffer,the ones filled with fright,those who pray to liv
I am the strange man.
The man that is a boy.
The boy that is a man.
I play words as a decoy, I refuse to write and wrong
with the same hands.
So I try to write as well as I can.
I try to find myself, but I've been lost for forever. It's like I'm going in a circle so you'd think I'd know better. I'm somewhat lost in a trance, I can't find myself. Took 34 pills disregarding my own health.
Darkness fell with innocence in tow
The serene sky marred by gunshot smoke
Signed by Death’s fiery signature
And crossed with wails that frayed stable ground.
Little Things by Dillon D.
Our selfish desires can blind us
when they become our god.
They make us forget
all of our blessings.
Be thankful of the little things.
A roof over your head,
A society that tells the younger generation
YOLO
Live for today, dont worry about tomorrow
YOLO
Live on the Edge
YOLO
But WE are not called to live for OURSELVES
YOLO
What do you do when someone is hurting,
And you try your best to help, but nothing is working.
When you love your best friend, and you hate to see her crying,
But even when you make her smile, you know inside she's dying.
What happens when God himself falls from heaven?
When the heavenly grace is stripped?
Since being a young boy in the hood
My life has never been good
Gunshots at night and standing under streetlights
I told my self I shall rise
If I put in hard work there should be a prize
Since being a young boy in the hood
My life has never been good
Gunshots at night and standing under streets lights
I told my self I shall rise
If i put in hard work there should be a prize
A crickety seasaw with an invisible old man on the other end.
You go up and down,
sometimes close to falling,
but you hold on, nonetheless.
The taste of blood on her lips,
She opens them.
It drips,
On the floor,
She lays,
A dark pool in the midst of a glittering forest,
She wipes away the red metal.
Eyes open.
Searching.
So as I type what I did last night don't judge me
Don't judge me because everyone sin and nobody’s perfect
Talking about sin... that's what i committed
I do believe in one God, but sometimes I have my doubts.I do believe in prayer, but it does not have to be said aloud.I do believe in going to Mass, but why particularly on Sundays?
Across from the ocean,
I sit on the beach,
I'm lost in tranquility,
As my soul tries to breathe.
White clouds moving slowly,
The breeze calm and still,
I'm caught in the moment,
Crying to You was not what I wanted to do
For You to see me laying on the ground
face down caused sweet shame so I refrained
Who He Is, Can't Be Explained
He Is Called Many Names
He Has Given Many The Strength They Need To Proceed,
Adversity what does that word even mean
Does anyone know?
I think the last man to feel it
Denying your presence is known todayYour blood and body keeping us goingSeems people are praising every SundayAlthough looks like thoughts haven't been flowing
"No dream is too big, no effort is too small.
My dream is to make a change.
My dream is to change it all.
We spend too much time handling mistakes and crimes,
The thoughts I have here,Will never be found anywhere else.The feelings I have here,I'll never feel anywhere else.The love I have here,I'll never have anywhere else.
Oh Hollywood, oh Hollywood
How I long for thee
If I could go to film school for free,
A happy flimmaker I would be
But I have no money
So I must save
In order to pave
Where am I going?
To the unknown, far but close. Scary yet wonderful.
Where am I going?
Who knows? Do you?
At times I may think to know where.
At other times I may feel lost.
Where am I going?
To the unknown, far but close. Scary yet wonderful.
Where am I going?
Who knows? Do you?
At times I may think to know where.
At other times I may feel lost.
Searching for something to hold on to, can't find nothing to grasp
You sing him hymns, hoping he'd see you through.
You tell me his words cannot be fathomed.
But what if they were never true?
Where is Waldo?Well he's somewhere I knowPlaying some kind of gameMaybe its Tic-Tac-Toe?Where is your wallet?Well I'm not sure butI'm sure that if you really lookedYou saw itWhere is God?
Welcome to the Mourners' Bench
Where I can not say no
A place for all the burdened minds
What do you do when there are no words to expressall the thoughts you've barely fathomed into a conscious
You can damn my God,
You can wish me to Hell,
But what's it to you?
Just a barren prision cell?
I'd take that instead,
I swear I would,
Is there a nail in your hand?
Are you mounted on wood?
Eternity...
Eternity, means forever
forever greatful will I be
greatful I am for this life given
this life given is one that has been borrowed
borrowed from your radient golden rays of sunshine
You can feel your heart explode
All the pain
Running through your vains
How could love hurt so much?
How could your life change with just one touch?
All the lies you told
Made me so cold
I'm sitting and I'm waiting
I'm just waiting
and there are people around me
whispering amongst themselves
as if everything is okay.
I cannot figure out
why they are here
From Genesis to Revelation
He’s held me at high elevation.
From listening to the Word and going to church
I’ve read my Bible and did my research.
God is my strength to him I belong.
He will never leave me nor forsake me,
Therefore I will never be alone.
He will always be there, just call on his name
I belive in angles, in love at first sight.
I belive in dreams and nightmares.
I belive that giving up is the easy way that's why we must never give up.
I belive in God, he's the only one who loves us more than anything.
Confusion.
Confusion between my legs
that goes against what God says
Feeling wrong but feels so right,
It sometimes disturbs my dreams at night
That tingling sensation, I feel it in my core
Twirling beacons glow warm in winter’s night
Bright white souls swiftly growing old
Sunlit sidewalks fill with chalk
Rain, feather dust and flies
A sloping sleeping heat
In the silent waves she saw herself,
Lost and confused, she cried for help.
Through the screams and moans that came tumbling out,
The distorted images that filled her with doubt.
No longer could she stand alone,
Tiptoeing past my shame,
Where once again,
I start to question if I’m worthy
To eat that extra slice,
To role the dice
To tell me if I’d ever pull off “curvy.”
Smiles watch me now;
We are ever-changing,
Constantly running through a cycle,
Sometimes in circles like a unicycle.
We are the washer and dryers of life,
Rolling onto our second load.
The scarf that rests upon my head
In Arabic, "Hijab"
May seem to some a fearful threat
Mysterious to some.
The names, the teasing. Whispering.
The silence of my tongue replies
I Gotta Real Good Feeling
That Its Time For Some Healing
The Healing Of Your Heart If You’re Really Willing
No Time For Games Just Let It All Out
I Really Thought It Was All Over
& Time Once Again For My Heart To Take Cover
Even Tho My Happiness Seems To Come & Go
The Love Always Seems To Linger On
The sun smiled down upon the summer trees
That waved back with delighted desire.
Yet it shown not where she stood amongst herself,
Afraid to touch the face of death.
You have to be willing to try, try again
Your mind set should be, "Yes, yes I can!"
Do not let fear strike in your heart,
Worrying and fear will tear you apart.
Don't let the little things get you down,
The ship sat anchored to the shore
The captain, skipper, and crew working at her core
Sails being raised and decks being scrubbed
Dear Mom and Dad, how are things with you?
Has everything been alright?
Did everyone sleep tight?
Me in a shell, to tell you the truth,
I can't complain, it'd make things worse.
Am I under a curse?
Once there was man who loved me and who loved you.
Because of this love this he did what the Lord called him to do.
Dear Lord,
And then the thought vanishes
Like ink words never written on a page.
The words that fall like glistening coins from my lips
Lack backing in a truer currency.
I remember the first house I lived in. It was white with green shutters and chipped paint. The door was an off purple that, from a distance, appeared to be forest green, but, up close, was actually blue.
Belladonna
A beauty that illuminates such carnation hue
You defiled me with your sinful pleasure
We're often exposed to music
We're often exposed to violence
What you don't really hear of is becoming greater than yourself.
You can achieve greatness, you can achieve more.
ACCEPTANCE©
Glenn Johnson
Today longing burst into the blooming of acceptance.
For how many eons . . . into how many worlds
Faith: one motive, a solitary pebble,
minuscule in size, enormous in spirit,
burning the demon’s evil plot;
where disloyalty to self’s morals
crumbles like the Twin Towers,
the disrupted chariot as horses
I will speak of truth,
Diminishing the amount of lies that continue to consume our world.
I will forgive and forget,
Understanding that my own mistakes are equally corruptive.
I will never give up,
I allowed them to leave their misery between my vertebrates, attach their lust on the wailing wall of my body
Hide their redemption between my hips
The clang of a single coin in an empty tin
Alerts the man to sadly look down.
He fishes out the nickel
Holding it up to the light
Dreaming of what it must feel like
Isolated from your peers,
alone and rejected,
different from the others,
you feel diseased, infected.
it's impossible to change everyone,
difficult to get it through their heads,
The moon is my Goddess, for she creates the waves, and the songs that lull me to sleep.
The Goddess is my moon,
the Goddess is my earth,
the Goddess grants me her boon,
the Goddess guides me to her hearth,
You see a homeless man
Standing on the corner of the road.
You see vehicles
Passing by him.
You see women and children
Scurrying to the opposite side of him.
You see the world
Your out of line
And God said to get out of line.
Are you too blind?
You are no longer bound
Bound by material things!
Yet tears come to your eyes,
Cause your soul is dyed.
I heard stories from my aunt, who was a nurse.
In a hospital. A baby nurse.
I wanted to be a baby nurse.
I wanted to hold the preemies,
Feed them their tiny bottles.
I wanted to wear blue scrubs like her
What is faith to me?
I need your guidance right now.
To make the right choice.
Depression takes hold.
Choices mold on my future.
Guide me the right way.
Stop my actions now.
She means more to me than what you will ever mean.
We walk down the street hand in hand,
Yes heads turn and a few comments are heard.
Do they matter?
Does it bother us?
Is it okay?
Drip-drop, drip-drop
My head throbs to the rhythm of the moist cave
Sinking lower into loneliness,
World pushing through my blockade.
Jehovah- Rapha
So I fill up my glassThe minute you past meI knew we would make historyBut the future is a mystery
Through halls painted white, I walk to my class.
With courage and pride, I look through the glass.
Though scared I am of another new school,
I will do my best to not be the fool.
Now I could just leave you out of the listthat I madeof princessesOr decide to giveyour princess to youas an ironic thinglike saying,here ‘princess’you self-righteous brat
Is my heart perfect towards thee
Is my soul longing for thee
My prayer for the day
But not a perfection Lord that makes me you
A perfect heart and soul
Perfection in the since of sincerity
It started very unexpectedly
A quake that hit Japan at two forty-three
At first the earth began to moan and grumble
And then the Rising Sun sank and crumbled
The buildings were like jelly in a bowl
When I was young
I had a special friend
And right from the start
I knew he'd be there thill the end.
We didn't need to talk
He knew my every thought
Sometimes I ignored him,
The world turns dark, the lights go out
And in my mind there is not a single doubt
They can’t see what I am going through
They can’t see how much I need You
The match in my heart is slowing burning out
For it is not I that speaks of love,
It is not I that vocalizes the words in a praise or hums to a song.
The creation of this earth was not by my hands or the living creatures scattered on this planet.
Telling the untold story of my childhoodRewinding the despicable memories that withdraws me from fully happinessTo me when I was a little girlpeace meant warand joy meant agony, because it came with sacrifices Rewind.......... Back to the time w
Accusations to self-realizations do wither convictions of mine
I doubt my motives, facades, my devotions, my own I can't seem to find
Oh deep inside of me there is
an uncertainty that I must grip
I feel the gazes
All the sages in the world couldn't take away the problems
The lie they tell
Is only a part of the pie they say sell
When we all fell
We were told that it was what we were all sold into
God? God?! Can you hear me? I scream your name every day. I patiently wait for an answer, but I never receive one. I want to her you speak to me.
I believe in the power of grace,
The strength that lies within us,
The act of forgiveness which can repair hearts and end wars,
The power of love that dwells within a family,
Force fed faith,
She refused to swallow.
Knowing not to bite
The hand that feeds her,
But she still snaps.
Her only way out.
I’m slipping
You see, some days I wake
Not fully realizing the opportunity I have to cease the day
And instead of treasuring such beauty
I become distracted by the essence of myself
A beautiful creation we look at every day,
A beautiful we must say.
You created the stars, the heavens, the skies
You hear all of our painful cries.
We don’t know all you have done,
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Have you heard the motto,
"Keep calm, Carry on"?
Yet, people still fret ~~
Staying Panics Pawn.
I try to keep Calm,
For every situation ~~
Little girl
don't be so blue.
I know what you're going through.
Going through alot of stress and
you think the whole world is against you.
But that's not true.
You're going through a storm,
forget, to, take a, shower10 feet under, love -perfect scars for hiding in.the waterfall cascadesthe barrel breaksunder pressurelegs, muscle strainedarms, finger holding on for dear.Life
We are like one crayon,
in a box full of crayons.
There are bright ones and dark ones,
sharp ones and dull ones.
Sometimes we get lost and unused.
We feel dark and dull and without hope.
Our faith is our sail
Intuition the wind
The life we've built for ourselves is the hull beneath our feet
The world may get rough at times
The seas shaky and the winds turbulent
The ground beneath my feet
Tremors with Soul and rational
Choking forth a dissonant harmony
A seed is cast into the wind,
And the process of a destined love begins.
Though it may encounter much vexation,
And endure both trial and tribulation,
A lucky few in the faithful spot land,
I once met love at the front door!
And, when I glaced it's direction
Love, beautifully, smiled back at me.
That was love. My first sight!
I became instantly drawn to love.
I'm lost in these rivers of peace, Hope swelling and gushing through every pore within me, Love dragging me down in the currents. When His grace oh the unfailing grace sends me drifting up to the shore, And who awaits me there?
I wonder when will my light glow brighter than our sun.
Am I just a star? already shining bright but oh so far.Moving ever so quickly and changing ever so slowly
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I'm subject to my opinions
my views
my decisions
But within the chipped paint walls I'm not.
Within these rooms majority rules.
If I wanted to die I would have swam the depths of your touch
And if I wanted to hurt I would have broken to the sound of my own cry
But with you there and I’m so far away,
There is nothing left for me to deny.
As the rain comes pouring
I realize what has been left behind
A picture of me with a sparkle in my eye
Dreams come and go
But this nightmare stays alive
She grows in a special pot.Made of wires and fear.Commonly broken and torn through.But always put back in her place.She's cared for and dusted,Her eyes behind the glass box,Sees a world she can never touch,And a world that will never touch her.Sh
A heart pure and strong
A mind so quick and clever
A voice that can reach out
A world to be made better
My faith has been tested
My love has been stretched
I've learned so much
But am blind to the rest
My mind has been trained
My heart has been weighed
I've lost so much
But my hope has remained
I used to believe in 11:11 wishes,
Used to dream of midnight kisses,
I believed in these things and much more,
But all that was in a time long, long, before,
Before the boy ripped at my chest,
All the radiation, chemo, and every pill,
Through your smile shined such strong will.
It gets harder to breathe every breath of air.
You skin goes pale, and slowly starting to lose your hair.
How come we can't belive nor will we receive the golden medal of grace? Is it because
we can't pin point a gift or talent, or we've ran astray? Or maybe it's because we can't
How come we can't belive nor will we receive the golden medal of grace? Is it because
we can't pin point a gift or talent, or we've ran astray? Or maybe it's because we can't
I knew that I loved God
and I thought this was enough
I lead retreat, I said my prayers
I clung to him when times got tough
so now you say I'm wrong
in believing what I do
I dream of magic and dragons and fairy tales,
where there are women in vintage long dresses and men in chainmails.
The fairies are dancing in the moonlight,
and pixies are hiding just out of your sight.
DARKNESS fills my sould. HATRED fills my thoughts. The LIGHT is too far. I will NEVER see it again. Fuzzy...different...this is quite serene. I now realize what those words mean. HOPE is written out. LOVE is within this text. I FEEL it.
We all must face
At some point in our lives
An insurmountable force
Impossible to push aside.
Something
That challenges our strength
Our character
And our pride.
Wide sky
Hanging like a dome
Over mountains and valleys alike
Palm lined avenues
Wave in the breeze
Between homes of the rich and poor alike
Sol, the sun
This fog gives me a sweet sense of what is to come,
While the sun is hiding, ready to take its course.
I am ready, for my story has just begun.
I want to sleep...I really do. He's calling just beyond the avenue. Tight curb, love in the low life suburbs. Patiently waiting for me.Sich schminken to hide a brutally gentle tide.
I am not who you say I am.
I am who, I am, says I am.
You say you know me, but in reality you don’t even know yourself.
So wrapped up in that bottle, you forgot to ask for Jesus help.
Can you take the raindrops from my brain?
They blurred my vision and the path to admission.
Can you take the raindrops from my brain?
They hurt my ambitions on completing the mission.
Our World... Rapacity!
Where Men usurp the youth.
Men who manifest greed, lust, power
Illimiuniting Freud's Id through actions
Alas! The youth replicate their Teachers.
Cloned as the Men
Willingly time is not ending, Separated are the hallow gaps of evergreen trees, A thin line of mutual grace, at the face of an abandoned cliff. Stands the breath of a lone wolf, calling to the premature night sky,
Life is a perpetual cold.
It is said to cure it
"Do what you're told.
Don't stray from the norm,
or life will suck."
But I am not a sitting duck.
The status quo is getting old,
"You make me feel, You make me feel, You make me feel.."Perfect.And if I'm perfectly honest I can't help it.All my attempts at being disaffectedAre utterly demolished,When faced with your affection.
From the moment I first heard her heartbeat;
that I felt her move.
From the moment I first saw her;
my Darling’s eyes so blue.
How anxious I was to hold her;
embracing my joyous fate.
Sometimes....Sometimes it feels like I'm all alone. Alone on a earth, filled with beings that have no human soul
I feel like I'm alone with no being to relate to.
I know its not true
Would you wake a lion in it's slumber?
If you stir the soup before all of its needed ingrediants are put in; the soup would tast awful.
"...Do not stir up nor awake love before it's own time" -Song of Solomon 8:4
It's something that science is yet to fully explain. It's something that humans are yet to fully understand. It's something that we are born with and it lives with us in the world alongside its counterpart. Love is a mystery.
My flesh, it aches; it burnsMy calloused bare feet are scorched by the rugged earthI am wandering and I don't know where
Trapped up in emotions will she ever get out? Living without fear but still facing doubt. So many things in this world she would love to obtain, going through so many phases but still trying to remain sane.
Shadows eclipse my weary soulBattle wounds can take its tollWhy am I to be this way?To make that choice this very dayThoughts driven by doubt revolveFears dimmed by peace disolve
My Love,
You are my heart, my joy, and my bride.
For you, I took the nails and the wound in my side.
For you, I was beaten beyond recognition.
For you, I lived knowing I’d endure crucifixion.
I want to go into the field of nursing
Since nurses make people feel better,
And that's what I enjoy doing.
I want to give people a second chance,
And to give them some hope when there's none.
He rose again, to raise me up.His light was sufficient;His source was illuminated. Spectrums exposed in between tree leavesFocusing on every point of the Earth;Every being, every chloroplast, every poreSoaked up His life. Th
Poetry is hope
It means you don’t have to be alone
Even when you are
It’s the light breaking through
Darkness swirling, spreading, growing
Poetry is beauty
They're finding their way closer.
Within this thick underbrush,
I cannot find comfort.
Delirium driving me insane,
I am the only to blame.
All I can do is wander,
When you see light breaking through the trees;
When you see hope among the distance leaves;
When you see a smile that never fades;
When you see stars in the darkest shades;
I don’t write for myself
I don’t often write poetry
Words are use to express emotions
But what happens when the words don’t come?
God.
He sends a message,
a plea,
a vision.
So I keep pushing through..a door with the words "trials and tribulations" written across to let me in on the other side. I wont back down so I keep pushing through. Graduation is now over. Time to get ready for college.
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When I was younger
I would sit in the back of the classroom without saying a single word
My teacher would always call on me
i am a selfish being, with words that amount to nothing but space.in between the lines you will find i am a crack within the human race.and for so long i begged for you to speak loud enough to hear.
Momma, don't you feel the water?
The water that drips all day?
Momma, it pours harder,
It will not go away,
I haven't read the Bible,
Don't recall the date,
But it's when I was stronger,
He calls them all
Into The Throne Room
The Breezes, the Winds, the Whirlwinds
Ready they come
He tells them His plans
Sends them off
The Freezing Breeze
I have Faith.
In everything I do.
I believe I will win.
And guess what,
I lose.
I have Faith.
Tomorrow will be better.
The sun will shine brighter.
Still, the next day
She's beautiful.She drinks, smokes and parties all night every time she can,No one has truthfully told her she's beautiful, She thinks she's not worth it,
Watch the rain drizzle downIt threatens to ne'er endBut all wounds someday healAnd wings will always mend
So many struggle to find reason for their lives
So many struggle to go on
So many struggle
Yet so many miss on the simplest joys in life
So many regret their past sins
So many live in their failures
A blue and grey feather
Floating down the stream
Lying on its back
Head towards the sky.
A boy, just a few yards beyond
Sits by the flowing current, slow
Letting out the tears
Love is such a simple word, Made of fragile truth, Often just a careless word, Monopolized by youth. As the passion burns within, It's time to take a stand, And add more meaning to the lives, Of every open hand.
My creative it's not so good but I never give up I always I always I always do my brst always putting do my best foot forward I try hard and fall hard but my creative is to make me stronger even if no one else as t
There came a time
In the month of enriched
Ebony Skin
I was called to right
A poem
Not knowing this journey
That lied within
I took the time to become
Entwined with the words in my mind
The algae, the moss, and the mud.
While they could never understand the chemical reactions going on inside our heads,
They remain ever accepting of our presence.
(poems go here)
Why I write…
I write to get my feeling out
So that when people read my poems
They’ll say,
Set a melody in my heart
To sing only for You
Let the harmonies of all nations arise
Just for You, Lord.
He who holds the universe in its place
Holds my heart tonight.
He who makes the heart beat
The kindness in the smile of a little girl.
Fearless and free...the world not yet clawing away her freedom to love,
sees through eyes as clear as the sea with an embrace as warm as the sun.
What do I stand for?
I dont know anymore.
I used to stand for family.
but It fell before me.
then I stood for hope.
Yeah, that was a joke.
Next came my parents happiness.
That was my weakness.
Should I write you letters,
or a post card maybe..
Do you even listen to me,
or do you choose to make me wait?
Dear God, are you listening?
I can hear it's heartbeat,
can you hear mine too?
A single drop of water
Soon became a stream
I closed my eyes to stop the flow
Was harder than it seemed
The stream kept going on its way
Continuous it flowed
Crawling in her crib, she was the main topic of discussion. Would she look the other way and pray to God; tell her father that she loved him?
I rise and so I stand.
I stand, because I can.
breath of life in the morning I awake.
as the wind blows I smile,
in which, It comforts my mistakes.
lessons to be learned, always enough to be taught,
So let me tell you, it started with this girl,
you already heard alll the shawty stories but yo son let me tell you about this one girl.
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A girl to begin my poetry,
a girl to hold my heart,
a girl to talk with me,
and never be apart.
She inspires the words,
she creates the lines,
if it not for her,
I would have never shined.
In a dream that seemed distant
my soul still recalls
when my heart still remembers that love struck fall
When your eyes glowed through me like a summers night dream
your scent is gone now
Take me to the open road
A place where possibilities are endless
Where times will be blissful and free
And where times will be hard and troublesome
Take me to the open road
Where I will make it to my destination
Love, What Is It?
What Should Be A Simple Question?
But Yet Is Asked By Many
Do You Have To First Lust To Love
If You Ask Me You'll Receive A Shrug
Said Often Only Out Of Curiosity
Feeling ashamed of what i have become
Not wanting to look back to my past
running away from the only light there is
stuck in darkness and not wanting to get out
finding a savior is my only option
Creator of Waterfalls
I look up slowly to capture in my vision
the full splendor of the
Bright and powerful cascade.
With dirty hands and a torn up heart
I kneel, waiting for good-bye
Instead, I see tears in Your eyes,
And welcoming, outstretched arms.
I hear Your cries,
"Come back to me my child,
"My Beloved!"
I have been kissed by your grace.
Saved by your son,
kept by your mercy,
inspired by your word.
You are a relentless lord,
head strong on holding your children.
I'm lost, I've run around, fallen down
I turn to you, when for so long I felt pain
You revealed yourself, in my weakest moment
You healed me
Now I start fresh
Guide me
I wipe the black from my eyes
Breathing in the fresh salty breeze
I'm invincible on that shoreline.
The waves come up and brush my bare feet
As I run through the wet sand.
My body is about to burst,
But I never want this moment to end.
My head is spinning, round and round.
My legs lose power, I fall to the ground.
My scars are burning, brighter and brighter.
My hope is soaring, higher and higher.
In my mind, their voices say.
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Things are changing.
It's become hard to maintain,
the connections we once made
to the people we sent are previous years with.
We will always remember the way that we felt.
I look out into the world with one swollen eye. Some days I ask myself why haven't I died? The hurt doesn't stop. I'm not in any shock. What a life. I'm all grow up and I am free from your hands. You are not worthy to call yourself a man.
Dear The Ones Who Keep Hurting Me
See, what I don’t need you to sit there like you already know me
Don’t look me up and down like that right there, that look you just gave me
The shit I go through
I yell at you day after day, begging you to take this pain away. I ask you why you have allowed such things to happen to me but all I get in reply is an empty silence and my own sigh. I have been good I say, so why do this to me?
Okay God,
what do I do now?
I've prayed and rebuked, but the feelings of everything cloud my mind.
It's not that I don't try, I won't lie, I do try...
But, peace never seems to pass me by.
This is my personal armageddon. My Body grows numb from the constant wreck I've become. Sick and tired of feeling alone. Trapped in a lifeless body with no one to hold. I surrendered to the cold.
Lord, you're with me every step of the way.
You call my name and I call You friend.
Reach up my hands to You,
I give You praise.
Every minute.
Every second.
Of everyday.
Your existence is the speck of light which illuminates my darkness. I am lost when I can’t see you. My heart craves to be satisfied by the appearance of your face, body and soul. When you are not here, I am in deep despair.
Life is hard,
it is a battlefield.
I’ve had cannons balls thrown at me,
but I kept going
wanting to make my family proud
From the start our love was forbidden.
My parents were strict on making you staying hidden.
But against all odds we found a way.
Our love forever just couldn't stay away.
Young precious girl, What are you doing?
She said: "I'm giving up. Too stressed up, to get lucked up. I'm sick of the society putting me down and my "man" wearing the crown..."
Young precious girl, Where are you going?
Lord, my God
to you I give my wants and needs,
my cares and worries, my thoughts and dreams, my deepest and most passtionate desires.
Lord, to you, I surrender.
Father, Creator of all things
It hadn’t troubled her at first
She knew early enough that fairy tales
Were for those who could afford to dream them
After all she’d been stepping in
The shattered remains of her glass slippers
I know why the caged bird sings
To be let free to flap her wings
But she knows one day this will be
If faith can move mountains and can calm a sea,
imagine what would happen if everybody believed.
Faith is a substance of things hoped for, not seen,
so don't go looking as if it's an everyday thing.
(poems go here)
Lady, you are the Goddess of the Great,
But you are also the Goddess of the Small.
The infinitesimal gravitational constant,
Without the exact value of which
The universe could not exist.
Sometimes in life things change
We watch what we used to have start to fade
Drift back into outer space, like Pluto from its planet name
People we used to know go as strangers as we walk by
May the lighters light
May your heart love
May the sun shine
Right above us
May your actions be worthy
May your hunger be hardy
May your drive have engine
May your soul have a mission
In a world full of pain and fear she finds peace
In a world full of darkness and cold she finds light and warmth
In a world full of despair she finds faith
She knows not of the life outside this dark room
When the sky looks haunted and the night reeks of death
Where can one turn?
Sleepless nights and restless days of doing nothing
But feeding my endless craves
Never satiated
I was young, and I was Different
Even though I was odd, I was also still innocent
The agony, the deceit right in front of my eyes
Yet I was too blind, maybe even paralyzed
Scared.
Have you ever been
so scared of losing it
(your Gift from God)
that you'd never get
that lucky break,
the prize you'd win
if only you could change the stakes
erase the fate
In a church, in a house, in a town, in a state
We are just visitors no matter how long we stay.
And when they start to ask questions, we pull away.
We know that they won’t understand us, no matter what they say.
Oh no
Who have you encountered? Who’s done you wrong?
Who’s turned your heart so…?
I can’t imagine what that feels like, but give me the words and I’ll try
As long as you got breath in those bones, as long as blood runs warm
There’s still a chance, a chance to make things right.
You don’t have to pull yourself together
He holds the glue to put your pieces back
Everyone,
No matter what size, shape, any variation of human,
We all hit rock bottom.
Some are deeper, some fall harder.
The choice is yours;
Be the one to immediately grasps at the loose dirt around them,
You got me thinking
Of what’s out there and what’s inside
You got me thinking
Of how we came to be alive
You got me thinking
Of whether we contain a soul
You got me thinking
Hey, I see everyone looking my way.
They’re talking about my addiction.
Hey, I know what they’re going to say;
“It’s all just science fiction.”
NOTE: My poem is in the image.
I am traveling somewhere in this poem. If you can't figure it out, the answer will be in small print at the bottom right.
The devil sits beside me,
undresses from his clothes
Says he wants to love me,
the only love I've ever known.
He kisses with his lips,
but doesn't mean it in his eyes
The only thing he loves
The stockings hang
As He did
A tree will rise in lighted splendor
With dozens of round twinkling eyes
All iris- all colors- they hang
Children and all expecting
Bring out the blades, we're ready to go
in the night, in the day, in the storm
the enemy is all around, his darkness masked as light
you'll see him only if you look,
just like the Father, bright
"Daddy?"
"Yes, Sweetheart"
"I love you"
I write for the one who gave me brown hair and eyes,
For the one who sang me my favorite lullabies.
The swing set he built, my rocking horse by hand,
Faith. The only friend that gives you hope when you've just left sorrow and ran into fear. Faith.
My body is weak,
my mind is strong
determination will peak
at the highest throng
Pushing and weaving through the crowd
praying someone will be kind
but everyone is loud
with an unsound mind
I was six when mother, golden hair and bright eyes, said
Angels were watching over me
And that I could do anything and I could be anyone
Nothing, no one, would hurt me
Day goes by without knowledge of it
Day goes by just living it
Day goes by doing what we know and love
Day goes by doing what we can to stay who we are
You and I were the best part, of the worst combination.
I was the sun,
radiant,
passionate,
fiery,
bringing the brightness of a good day to all those that I touch with my glowing beams.
Hell is his empty syringe
And the searing pain of his emptiness.
Hell is the heat of the absence
That grows hotter in his presence.
Hell is the tears that evaporate
Why am I me?
The air I breathe is so thick at times
Days like these I just close my eyes
The tears fall at the wrong times
When I laugh I wipe my wet skin
When I'm sad my skins dry
I cant stand missionaries
No let me rephrase that
I cant stand the idea of it
Cultural oppression at its finest
The idea that you are right
And therefore everything else is wrong
It started here.
I walk through the door.
Did you ever glance?
You never notice me.
I sit next to you.
You ignore my presence.
Tried to interact.
But, you blew me off.
It started here.
I walk through the door.
Did you ever glance?
You never notice me.
I sit next to you.
You ignore my presence.
Tried to interact.
But, you blew me off.
As I sit here thinking about the present
And the life that was destined, for my future
I can't help but think back when....God first called my name
I've tried walking that narrow path and it was too much for my lane
God had a plan.
From the foundation
From the beginning
When in his palms
He formed a man.
And that man
Would stand in his image,
Every part of him
Perfectly fitted.
Here I stand with a poster board in hand.
I look at you as you try to avoid me.
In your A/C, as you turn the radio up.
I'm struggling.
I am dying on my knees, when I want to stand on my feet.
I’m walking down, corner to corner and I can’t see
Searching around and I don’t know where to be.
I see a light and I follow it.
I see a light and I follow it.
I hear talks and laughter and love.
Initial diagnosis, devastating and extreme,
The cancer festering inside
Determined to destroy his dream.
Tell them it’s not me.
Tell them it’s not me anymore.
Tell them I’m not quiet,
That I’m not shy,
That I’m the one they should adore.
Tell them they don’t know.
All is not lost
Blossoms bloom through frost.
Can’t the impossible be just a myth?
Did not David beat Goliath?
Everyone faces trials,
Fear, doubts, and denials.
Grin and bear it.
Now I can’t quite understand, & I can’t quite comprehend,
Why anyone in this world would want to hurt my best friend.
He’s my baby brother; he’s only twelve years old.
And he’s unlike any other, with his heart of gold.
Is it so hard to believe,
For what you cannot see nor hear
Is it so hard to believe
That you can be touched by a spirit that is not their
Is it so hard to believe If you close your eyes
(poems go here) It’s like finding the lyrics to a song
It’s got to fit its got to belong
You got to do what’s right
You got to know what’s wrong
In a life like this you got to stay strong
Struggles violently clash against my body,
seeping inside,
deep into my soul.
Causing me to fall into despair.
His love-
Never changing, always constant
Unending, everlasting
Irreplaceable, indispensable
Limitless, boundless
Incomprehensible, unfathomable
Infinite, immeasurable
Compassionate, gracious
(Our vision to move forward in our different paths is constantly fogged by doubt and uncertainty often spouted by the voices.
The Voices,like the fog, can obstruct the view of our desired path.
Hello my name is Benjamin
Like I don’t know what rhymes with Benjamin
Or this bed I’m in
All I know is how dead I’ve been
Laying in bed
thoughts are running through my head.
I remember you, I really do
I just wish I had one last moment to speak to you.
All the times we shared together
those memories will stay in my hear forever.
Everyone has dreams.
Only few wake up and chase them.
The sleep are sheep.
who can't release,
grips, from the nation.
Stricken in poverty.
This can't be life,
Obviously.
GOD didn't put us here
Girl I promise, It's all worth it. This I'm certain.
He'll take away you're hurtin' and turn it into a curtain.
When pulled back; Shown peace.
You don't have to struggle, Don't make him a puzzle.
It's not a hollywood movie
I can feel you when you come close
It's not like a book where I only go as far as words scripted
I hear your heart beat against my chest
This is a rush I musn't forget
There is truth to your word,
As my walls come down.
When you're around
Something unpredictable,
Something unspeakable
Even unexplained.
Yet our lips speak of it softly
Will the slightest touch burn?
We live in the Middle East,
on a wealthy estate,
born of the opposite
color.
We see an enemy,
a complete stranger,
a brother
in a war overseas.
It is best to be a beautiful fool
When others are being cruel
You should pretend not to see
You should never believe
The truth behind the lies
The truth behind the cries
And stay in a fairy tale
Let the walls come crumbling down
My heart is open to You
My words speak of what to do
I'm lost
I'm scared
I'm broken
Give me Your word
It'll comfort inside of me
Nothing compares to Your love
I will never, never have the chance to become successful according to the eyes of the elders.
I will never, never be able to survive in this world simply because the world has no place for someone like me.
They scatter stars
And take all light from laughter.
Across the skies they turn
summer's soft blues
Into stormy grays.
They delight in
All that is tainted with sin.
God, what I really need to confess is this...
It's all the things that I have planned that I can't afford to miss
When times get hard and days are rough
I must confess, sometimes you aren't enough.
Even when you feel weak, to me you are strong
To lay next to anyone else and breathe in their air
Would feel asphyxiatingly wrong
Like a touch upon the heart
He touched my hand.
A feather, caressing my pain within.
I fell apart..
I fell, melting through the tiniest all seams.
Like that feather knew
I fall for you like shooting stars
As you become my night sky
I rise for you like the golden sun
For you are the horizon in which I rise
I fly free
Because you are everything around me
She's waiting by the door
Sixteen passed
she very blue
no one understands
what she is going through
I’ll never be able to comprehend that mind of yours.
How easily your hands are able to create a world of unopened doors.
Your mind it twists and turns into the surreal thoughts and images it produces.
They are the only people who will love you unconditionally.
Even when you don't particularly like yourself.
They are the only people you can truly trust.
People that you can put your faith into.
My Christ,
lord and savior,
reign down on me.
I just wish everyone could see ya!
And the truth to be seen!
How can I show my God,
when all i do is sin.
Ball my life up in a wad,
Don’t quit on me.
I won’t quit on you.
Go ahead, walk away
my words hold true.
You may not understand
that, just how you feel…
I’ve felt it before.
Pain is just as real.
Hope is never gone,
Save me, Lord.
You're the only one able.
My faith seems to be dying.
My Bible gathers dust.
My list of trespasses grows alarmingly.
My relationships are imploding.
You're all I have left.
It is hunting season and I must be the deer
My huntsmen finds me and shoots without fear
It hits but does not hurt and I do not die
The reason of this I’m not sure why
I fall from shock but it’s a soft landing
I feel the cold
Bursting through my body
The darkness calls my name
Urges me to follow the sounds of his voice
His voice is full of temptation
He wants me to reject the light
And give him my soul
I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me
God’s love will never end
I will honor Him being all I can be
Temptation, created by the one and only…true abomination
He used to sit at heaven’s gate, before he betrayed our God and sealed his fate
Forgive me Lord for I have done wrong…You watched, You saw, You knew all along
You stayed by my side…even when I tried to hide
Now all I can do…is apologize to you and even that won’t make me anew
Deceiver of Men, Conjurer of Fools…I’m not scared of you
No evil spirit or demon, for I have the Tools
To take on you all…bring it on, for I stand Tall
Imperfection is easy to see, it is in every one of us…including you and me
How to be perfect then?
It will never happen…not what, not who, not where, not when
So you ask why?
People in this world talk bad about others…I hope they realize we all sisters and brothers
From our Father up in Heaven is where our words should be
Jesus is my hero,
My hope,
My Heavenly Father.
Jesus is my love,
My life,
My Living Water.
Jesus is my passion,
My patience,
My Prince of Peace.
Anger, bitterness, and hate
That was my lost and given fate,
But then you, Lord, stepped in.
You forgave all of my sin
I'm scared,
Where am I?
In darkness,
In light,
In knowledge,
In ignorance,
Where have I come from,
And where am I going?
Confused,
I cry out,
Who am I,
Who am I but his?
These tiding waves will crash and we won’t last.
When this storm arrives you will only be;
This aching in my heart is only vast.
We can fall into this river, but flee?
Who am I? I AM someone who's heart haven't stop beating because of the purpose that hasn't been fulfilled yet. I AM someone who can do all things through Christ who stregthens me, but it's funny how I never understood the real meaning of that.
They call me "Churchy"
I believe in God
Christians
The glorious facade
how easy my life must be
because when things get tough,
I get down on one knee,
I have problems like everyone else
Our poor forsaken generation
Focus...focus....focus
Man if I don't blow this it's like I can't focus
Feeling like I'm choking....but I know if I'm not blowing this
You are there for me when I am crying,
And in you I console.
You support me in my time of need,
When I require reassurance.
You comfort me in my tragedies,
When I can’t find another friend.
You gave me life,
my first breath taken was yours first.
You loved me before I knew who I was.
You watched over me while I slept,
Letting peaceful dreams take me to a world not my own.
In some parts of me I hate it;
In some parts of me it feels right.
But nothing in life is peachy,
Nothing in life is gray.
Tough decisions and
Hard changes.
Easy miles, then cruel sprints;
Three years ago
I couldn't understand
the concept of missing someone
because they were always
a phone call away.
Until I woke up
to tears on faces I'd never seen before
and my rock crumbled
the scars on my back show the long nights i had to work.
the scars on my back show the srtuggles i been through
the scars on my back show the pain i indoored when i lost my grandmother
The bedroom is silent and still as shadows tucked away in a blanket, was a small boy
his blonde hair painted to the tousled sheets.
The only movement that stirred the room was his breath lifting his chest;
I’m in the dark
Loneliness trickling over me like dripping pipes
Hope has ran away
So far away that I cannot breath
When I reach out
I expect to find nothing but the damp air
But instead I feel a hand
There's nothing much I want to say,
but I'll pour my heart out to you anyway.
All I can think is no more talking.
Only out of faith, we gotta keep walking.
Never spoke a word to you before now,
She is Precious;
That girl who has so much inside her is here
She is the one that hides beneath an unseen frame
Lord, Lord, you know
There is a battle in the heart of that joy
It’s almost there, just you wait
Within the embrace of your arms, you lay your head down,
You cry out, yet there’s no sound,
You search for hope, which you know can only be found from looking up,
Yet your eyes cannot leave the ground,
Please excuse my hard exterior
For I see you have to chisel slow
In order to force through me
To form the creation in your mind
That you see
Thought I could make it without you
Thought I would be ok
Going at it alone
Started my journey out into the world
But things got hard
With no friends or family by my side
I broke down
My never ending love
To stand by the challenges of your life
The attachment I give to you
The strength I see in you
I come from love and holy words
I've memorized many lines
I am welcomed by the sound of singing
The songs I've grown-up to know
(The video is slightly different that what is written)
I could not imagine life without you;
Though I never see you, I know your still there.
In my heart I can feel you,
My soul aches for your loving care.
Downcast was I, down to my soul
for I had failed yet another goal.
Cast in front of me, my shadow
My eyes do comply
Yet they disagree on the reason why.
One eye sees dark; the other, the light
We have faith in are heart
As the sweet sound it is
Just like the stars
Please tell me why we cant have faith.?
As the world end
Just make a little mistake
Take upon your love
I've yet mine eyes to see the day
That Grace doth fail renew
This hollow cup; my truths laid bare,
Thine merices, Lord, they see me through.
She wraps her tiny hand around my thumb
as tears run down my face.
Her green eyes ask so many questions
that I just can't answer.
Not now.
When I read,
their tearful words appear to echo in my mind.
When I listen softly,
Their desperation clings to my soul.
When I ponder,
Their fate may rest with my words.
~faith
when your friends have walked away
and your parents said you can’t stay
and your problems don’t seem to fade
and your bills are due today
and you forget to pray
and things don’t go your way
I see you running towards that ball in the fields.
I hear your laugh when you fall in that pile of leaves.
I think of that day when you won’t need me to fight your battles.
However, I was touch by an angel of strength,
I wandered through my emanate life as though
My praiseful mother, who placed me above her shoulder,
Never taught me more
I am her only, there is no other.
There is a girl.
She has the whole world a head of her,
watching her every move.
Standing alone in front of everyone,
Pounding her chest she rips her very own heart out.
This world gives me a feeling of starkness
So many places growing with darkness
Setting that place on fire
Cause Lord need for you is dire
It's so dark they're becoming blind
I was once lost,
Unnoticed in the crowd,
Never knew who I was,
But now I am found.
I was floating through the days
Wondering where I would go,
My soul was in a haze
But you brought me home.
What will be revealed?
What will you convey?
Will you proclaim I have followed you and your words,
Both by speaking and by action?
Will you proclaim I have broken your laws,
Used you for self-glory?
November's cold night illuminates my chest. Deep breaths include the faint smell of bbq and secondhand smoke.
He holds my heart within his hands
Bending, Molding, all to plan
Sometimes it hurts, but he always works.
The black is now out of my heart, leaving a hole for a new start
I feel all empty, sad and alone
Tackle the dreams of a thousand human beings
Gaze upon their souls to serve a meaning
Failure is not an option while tormented
Road blocks are plowed by the strength of senses
The Sun is our future,
The Moon is our Past,
The Sky is the Love that never seems to last.
The Flowers are our smiles,
And the trees, our laughs.
But, the cry?
The cry is our universal question... Why?
Your love for me is everlasting, second chances only you are casting
Seeking for love all I got was lust, as time past my heart will rust
Despite my past you are still grasping, unto me while I was still dancing
There is nothing that can keep me from believing
There is no one that can change my heart
I can say that the Lord is my Savior
But are my actions following my words?
My heart says I love my Heavenly Father
With a quizzical frown, a child asks me Where is Heaven?
To which I instinctively shrug. I often times have wondered the same thing myself.
On my hands and knees I pray
For this world to see a new, brighter day.
Not with the eyes of humans we should see,
But with the eyes of how it was meant to be.
We are the people of this world
We are the people of America
What are rights?
Does rights have a color, a ethnic a gender, a race?
NO
Rights are something that is given but yet earned.
My God isn't her god, Isn't His God, Isn't your God. My God has a different name, a different form, and claim to fame.
The Ocean pulls it’s body back and forth like my lungs that breathe in life.
And my heart that drums it’s final beats.
I’m sitting on a bulk of sand from the high tide line.
With a new school year, a new start, but friends depart.
And we’ve led our whole lives together, but suddenly we’re taking different paths from each other.
Faith;
Such a simple word with much deeper meaning.
How can we describe a vast concept with this small word?
We are not meaningless, faith shows us that.
What happens when the logic takes over,
A book of an aunt
Who no longer is here
Turn the pages
Listen
Do you hear them cry?
Torn and worn down but still prized most
This book that is broken
It tells a tale of sleeping beauty and her prince
There is something inside of
each of our
souls-
this desire
for the things
that will destroy
us.
We crave to
behave
in ways that leave
scars.
Go, little sheep, from this
bare and desolate land.
Go from this wicked place
with its whips and brands.
Go, press onward through
the cold gates that bar the way
Go, leave this dark world
I wrote this a few years back before my confirmation of my faith. Hope you like it!:
Everyday I used to see you smile,
When I would see it, it would warm my heart.
But now I only feel the remaining cracks of my heart stabbing my chest.
I would trust you.
Trust you to no end..
Think I should lay down beside her,
but no, not behind her.
it might get intense if I decide to fold blind her
I mean blind fold her.
high thoughts announced sober.
I'm saying shawty, my heart's colder
never undermine oneself to make a change
always have the ability to trust yourself and know that things will get better
to have that power to strive to be the absolute best
as long as you don't quit, you will never lose
I questioned my intelligence
And life’s depth and relevance
Mom should’ve remained celibate
Or at least used a contraceptive
To give me protection
Against my own conception
It’s got me mentally arrested
Afraid it will come back
Up like a shadow
Up like his smoke
Rolling in with the tide
Even when I hide
I'm afraid it will find me
I'm afraid I'm still to week to fight
Because I remember how
Where is your faith?
When is it going to be enough?
Are you ever going to put your faith into me
Or are you going to continue looking into the world
For something that you could always look for in me
Explosions of galaxies
fill the night air.
Prayers of a hundred hands kneel before the sky.
And I'm weary, Lord.
I need hope.
A sublime being is watching over me,
Calmly offering me peace
And in silence giving me relief;
Easing the pain,
Erasing all fears,
Forgoing all doubts
And everything that’s drear.
MAN OF GOD? MAN OF GOD?! YOU’RE NO MAN OF GOD…YOU’RE A BOY WHO’S HARD…THERE’S A DIFFERENCE.