2011
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When life began
You were already there
Forever my friend
Was unable to see
The unknown end
One day I left
But didn’t know separation
I didn’t second-guess
How can you miss someone who was never physically there
Never felt their touched or the texture of their hair
Never held their hand or kissed their lips
Yet they seem to be the only person you miss
MY God
MY GOD,
How long did it take to create such a beautiful Child?
I know it took a beautiful while,
Lights sparkling, snow falling.
Family's laughing, cookies baking.
Stories being told, gifts being wrapped.
Socks and slippers.
Chilli and soup.
These are a few of my favorite things.
My weary old soul cursed by another's unfinished past was given a long and treacherous path, paved and made with broken stones and questioning tones
I woke up on a dirty mattress on the floor of a friends house. It's my 16th birthday. A huge milestone in a young persons life.
The worlds a stage and we are just mere actors, But the stage is too large, the lights to bright The audience won’t like us if we aren't just right Just the right amount of funny, pretty, smart, kind We panic under the pressure but it’s all just
You see that person sitting alone?
That person hiding pain behind a smile?
Had you even looked into their file
Would you not have seen the suffering?
Would you not understand?
You see that person?
I sit quietly ignoring the pain, but she whispers to me. I try to eat, but she whispers to me. I try to laugh and almost succeed, but she whispers to me.
What is she whispering?
Hate. Slander. Lies.
I have been gone too long,
living in the past.
Trapped by all the mistakes,
I have ever made.
Remembering everytime,
I let someone down.
But it is time to move on,
Look at the world with hopeful eyes,
Never let them see you down,
put that razor away, put that lighter away
Don't hurt yourself anymore, please, don't frown.
I wish your depression would you see yourself
I have an associates degree at eighteen
but I haven't made it , to everybody else my goals are just... dreams
just because i have a limp, i have no potencial it... seems
on top of that im Mexican with a love for hip hop,
I relive the days
Of getting into your car
Riding to the place you call home
But it wasn't your home
I remember everything we did
Especially watching the "Goofy" vid
Why am I nor happy?
I have such a big porch for me alone.
I have the life that no one else owns.
I have gold that no other holds.
Why am I not happy?
I have all I want,
But something stands.
Dear Person Who Deserves to Die a Fiery Death While Simultaneously Being Eating By a Shark,
You say this pain is my fault
that i put this gapeing hole in my chest
when all i tryed to do was set you free
from your monster inside
i put myself in harms way over and over again
i tryed to help
Such a young age
they begin to ask
What do you want to be when you grow up?
Adults want to see
how their society will be shaped.
We're five
we want to be our parents
and our heros.
im falling in this hole. a place of no return.
where no emotion shows, we are forced to burn.
incinerate ourselves so that the pain subside.
Why would you lay down and concieve
If you couldn't believe
In the child you were creating
She's a creation of God and a reflection of you
Maybe that's why you can't look at her
You broke my heart when you sai goodbye
You made me cutt and want to die
You told me you love me and that you cared
You even got me a cute teady bear
I gave you my heart
And you tore it apart
i look at this blank page; or
I I try to see bend the words
Flowing from my own pen
I look and I won't see the the truth in the words I write-
I will look and I won't see that my mind is in a fight
AS darkness takes over
my plea is to be free,
but all it does
is take over me.
I hope for a candle,
but no, it's to bright.
so instead,
I search for the right.
You are in my darkness,
I am living but I'm not alive
Everynight I let myslef cry
I go to sleep hoping to never wake up
I am living but I'm not alive
I've gone through things and I wish I died
I wake up but I'm still dead
Swirling eddies down the riverside tumble and curl while I pick up a rock
I throw it; watch it collide with the simmering surface of the dark world beneath
I’m taking a bath; commanding the bubbles and soap
Living a dead life.
Full of hatred towards love.
Depressed happiness.
I take forced breaths.
Sometimes I wish I could gather up the energy to stop them.
I complain about the life I have,
Why do we hate, when we are from the same creator?
Why do we criticize and judge, when we are under the same blood?
Why can't we be friends , when we all sin?
Why is a question that everyone face.
"Why must love feel like a heart attack"?Some may sayCausing our hearts to sputter one final beatThump, thump, shhDifferent types of love lause different types
"Sticks and stones may break my bones but words will never hurt me"
why does she starve herself?
you're fat
those are just words
why does she hate what she sees in the mirror?
you're ugly
Tűz, Víz, Levegő, Föld
Őselemek lennének ők, nevüket sokszor átkozták. Rengeteg ember életét kioltották.
Velük tárgyalni nem lehet, nem állhatsz elé a futótűznek.
Screaming only not to be heard,
not a word spoken just a glimpse of the emotion,hurt
the wondering soul that just wanted to run and hide,
could only find a little corner, the girl who cried inside
I have the same routine when I wake up,
In the morning.
Put on my shirt and jeans
Go to work.
Typically I make coffee for breakfast,
Getting two hours of sleep
My body craves it.
I am holding a bladeUp to my wrist In the knife all I see is lies upon liesBut then I see youAnd your little blue eyesYou say put the kinfe down AuntieOr I will crySo I put down the kinfe
Why is it that when you lose a love your heart breaks,
if love is just a chemical addiction produced by our brains?
Why does it feel like your thoracic cavity is hollow,
A stranger...
A feeling...
True or not
Days, Months, Years...
Friends, Best friends, lovers...
One day, eyes are on her
Slowly Slowly dissapear infront...
of my eyes...
It's not healthy, I know
Like I'm just putting on a show
Writing rhymes to forget
That I am very sick.
Maybe something's not right
This worsening plight
Don’t disappear from me
I know I haven’t always been the greatest person
I’ve been selfish, stupid and just completely inattentive
Give me hope
Let me be a beautiful flower that blooms from the ashes of an un-privileged past
Give me hope
Let me feed from the opportune victals of a chance for higher education
Give me hope
The music is blaring
my heart is despairng
Tears roll down my face
my heart is starting to race
Sitting in a dark room
just waiting for my doom
Can't stand them poking at me
Some will never know the joy but only the end
they'll never see the light when the light has dimmed
I look outside and see,
The world is waiting for me,
There is much to learn,
And it all comes in turn,
all I have to do is turn the knob,
And prepare for the job.
You will need:
1 human body (preferably fresh)
1 absorbent mind
2 parts ambition
1 part hard work
3 parts hormones
1 part friendliness
16/18 cups knowledge (Depends of consistency)
I looked at him.
He was wearing a pink dress shirt.
we were both feeling a different kind of hurt.
He was much shorter than I remember him being.
It hurts me that this was all I remember seeing.
Hello, I will not tell my name right away. You have to assume of what I am through what I do to your body. First of all, I may become addictive.
Hello, I will not tell my name right away. You have to assume of what I am through what I do to your body. First of all, I may become addictive.
With a beauty like hers, no one can deny,
Her heart full of gold, and her eyes filled with such integrity,
With her locks of bronze blonde waves and the skin looks like a model.
I imagined it wouldn’t hurt me,
as much as it hurts me now.
The mother that had forgotten me,
I couldn’t seem to forget.
My thoughts swirled like a tornado in my mind.
How could she abandon me?
When will it be
Acceptable to simply be
Without society expecting so much of me?
Get good grades
Do community service
Be in extra curricular activities
When will society let me just be me?
Every smile is not a smile within
Whether its love or hate, its never an easy sin
Tears of both pain and joy are seen as one
These tears have no name, are always unknown
Dark shadows underneath those
frosty blue eyes,
smudged with jet black mascara
from a long, hollow night.
The wind blows relentlessly,
the world is still asleep as you
trudge the streets that
Dancing, swirling, threads and beads
Reaching about the fragile frame.
Entwined in the many strands
Are my many horrible dreams.
Many were caught in the never-ending web.
Caught and never to escape
All this violence,
has its range,
that's one thing
that I would change.
A bad night between couples,
two many drinks,
makes them rethinks
their own happy nuptuals.
From dawn 'till dusk I am enclosed,
In my own world yet so exposed.
Passing by, a mere obsever,
Using distance as my life's preserver.
Close enough to touch, too far away to see,
as it swayed in soft circles dangling upside down from my ceiling fan, i watched through tears as the carnations wilted white petals penetrated the darkness of my room.
Step by step we walk a million miles
Moving over mountains, through the sky
Slowly wearing out the souls of our shoes
Carving canyons in our wake
Hand in hand an act across the years
Today I woke up to painful scars and temporary kisses from my guardian angel.
My play dates aren't as traditional as the other kids in my neigborhood.
Matter of fact.. It was the day before too.
She's in chains.
She's behind bars.
She's alone.
But she's innocent until proven guilty?
He trespassed.
He raped.
He murdered.
I’m a mouse
Always have been
It doesn’t take much for me to hide in my little home
Where I am safe from the daggering eyes
Or judgmental looks of others
But sometimes I get fed up
A most interesting question if I’ve ever heard one.What would I do? What needs to be done?If I had an infinite amount of power over one thing,What would I base my change on? To what would I cling?
If I could change anything I think it would be my eyes,
I don’t like how dark they are, I want them as blue as the sky.
Or maybe I would change my thighs,
They rub together and jiggle when I jive.
I heard a story one day,
to my surprise I had nothing to say,
It was something about this girls name,
The sound? The origin? It soon all became a game ,
He stood at the crossroads, looking in all directions.
So many options open to him
Five roads is more than enough
He must find the one he is searching for.
The clouds begin to come
If emotions were exposed what would we be?
How long could we ignore our fellow man's depravity?
It needs to change so it shall,
Eventually with or without me here.
I can change thee or others;
I could be acquisitive changing my mien, and my myriad faults;
there is enough tyranny hypocrisy synecdochial koinonia in the modern day
definition of love to siphon off realness in reality enough for fantasy to have any given lover on any given day
Let's change these very blatant stories we tell our children
about how "boys will be boys"
and so girls will not be girls.
Hands raised
Hands held
Hands bound,
until one soul becomes a whole new class of genomes.
If I could change the world
I'd change the way we live today
Change the way we think
And change the way we perceive
If I could change the world
I'd fly around a mountain high
Tough times growing up...
Barely having any food to eat.
Cable getting cut off,
And surviving with out heat.
Momma struggling to keep me safe
And tried to buy me clothes.
Explain to me the difference between a house and a home,
I've tried all alone but only to find it's not in my bones,
I'm deep,
Deeply lost,
Deeply sorry,
Sorry for what I am,
Sorry for what I do,
Racism, a form of xenophobia ?
have you seen the media?
the innumerable racial discrimination
Today, we live in a society with little thought for patience,
Little responsibility to say "I'm sorry," and not enough brains
To think about given problems. I mean TRULY think.
I am constantly faced with the question:
"What are you?"
Because I am not White enough
To sit with the cool kids
But I’m not Black enough to chill with the crew
"What are you?'
How softly the music plays
A minstrel’s tune sways
I can only just feel it
Brushing along my finger tips
Tingling down my spine
The world slowly becoming mute
Yet feeling so alive
Whispering smiles indent my thoughts as I walk through the halls.
Overthinking what's past and what's present has been known to ruin me.
Every move I make causes my conscience to stutter.
I may still be growing and learning
But I still wish to leave marks
On the world that continues to make barks
Throughout my life I am always yearning
For the joy of family yet always earning
I would change the availability of music concerts because music inspires us to become more than what we are and at times better.
Some need to change how they fulfill their life. Live life. Love it. Do not waste it. I wish they would understand life is a river that will meet waterfalls sometimes.
no big words, no amaing but aiming to my soul ,before you even think of blackmailing me think of what im saying.
look, im not disciminating unless you are not the one living it and your parents paying
Love is a roller coaster
Sharing new experiences with one another
Its a experiment when two hearts are joined together
There's no point in know what the outcome shall be
It can easily be taken for granted
The first kiss. It was paradise
An awkward teenage experience
Yet it was beautiful
A feeling filled with joy and happiness
It was messy but satisfying it was my first time
A sense of breath coming quickly
The first kiss. It was paradise
An awkward teenage experience
Yet it was beautiful
A feeling filled with joy and happiness
It was messy but satisfying it was my first time
A sense of breath coming quickly
They sit there all alone/ the poor, the sick, the homeless/why does no one hear them cry/it seems that life is hopeless.Why can't we take a single day/to reach out and show grace/to help out a fellow man/to look them in the face.What a difference
Although, all the world still waits to see what we shall become.
Uncanniness isn’t wit.
When we wear a mask
We smile to cover anguish
A brave face is just a well adhered lie
Stopping to look for the cold ice bleeding out behind a sunny disposition
We see the signs of falsehoods spun into truth
Shadows keep us
Stuck to the ground
What would it be like,
To finally fly?
Shadows:
Fears kept together in such a way
To create nightmares,
Such worries keep people on the ground.
What would I change?
Nothing big,
Very insignificant,
Related to me
Because that’s who I am
That’s what I do,
I am very selfish,
I care only about myself.
It doesn’t bother me,
Living in a town with less then 10,000,
Creates an environment with little uniqueness,
Cookie cutter, cookie cutter, cookie cutter,
Everyone is the same.
How do we become unbiased if no one changes the game?
The world is not the same anymore
everything now twists, everything now turns
with all the new technology we the people are not the same
we care less and blame more
It is not about the money.
It is about what makes you happy.
The check is appealing.
But is the job base on your feeling?
Boring office job or exciting danger.
Simple life or adventure.
Like sand through my fingers
And wind through my hair,
I'm letting them slip
And don't know if I care.
So close, but out of reach,
They're whispering my name,
I can't tell who is different
It's that time again
that same Box again.
That tiny square on every test
that taunts me and says:
You don't fit in here
You don't fit in anywhere
Your skin is too pale, you non-Chicana
To change the world change must happen within ourselves
Morality compromised by the drive of selfish ambition
for if compassion is lost how can humanity change?
Aching souls sit on the shelves of the forgotten
Morphing from sky hue to minty green blue
Stretching beyond the horizon of one’s eye
With this great bundle of water there is no clue
After everything, you were ignoredLike me before, lonely and boredI chose to take a standGave to you my hand
Mental illness is never taken as seriously as it is.
People critize and ridicule us with depression, saying
"Wow, you're such an attention-seeker."
If only they knew.
Job programs are being created for those with exotic skins.
I am white, where are my programs?
There are no scholarships for being white.
I am lesser, but I am told everyday I'm greater.
So you pick on me?
Why?
Do you really hate me like you said?
Or is that a lie.
Like the lies you tell to everyone else saying I did something
Like I am your enemy
Well your mine
Your my enemy
I can’t change the whole world, but I can change mine.
Change starts from within, one person at a time.
Giving, forgiving, reaching, teaching and I’m
Changing my world.
If I could change anything it would be struggle
For those people who live their daily lives in sorrow
For the families who don’t know where their next meal will come from
Sitting here just thinking what to write,
But then I noticed we're in a fight,
A fight for our lives and for salvation,
The world has gone astray with no education,
You smoke weed and don't take heed,
Scars do not mean that the pain is over
Healing deprives me of strength
Ubiquitous flashbacks of the good times
Mingling with frustration, despair and longing
I’ve been trying to retaliate
WHAT WOULD I CHANGE HUH I ASK MYSELF THIS QUESTION LOOK IN THE MIRROR TO MY REFLECTION. WHAT WOULD YOU CHANGE GIRL? CLOSE MY EYES AND BY MY SURPRISE I GET A FLASH OF THE WORLD.
A complicated notion of time
An ideology of one's self that allows us to think and believe the world to be a better place
A place of hope, joy and peace
A place where lovers from all walks of life can come out in the open
I feel useless
I feel unloved
I feel like no one contacts me unless they need something
I know it's true because when I need someone,
No one replies
But the second they need me I am there
You ask me what would i change
And it might sound some what strange
Cuz if you see me you'll say she's to young to think this way,
But one thing that must be gone is how people have no say
She came early today
She said she took the long way
And had something to say
She told me some lies
She told me some truth
She told me she tries
Sometimes what’s the use
Don’t mind me
I’m really ok
I just don’t want to be awake
All I ever do is make mistakes
Don’t find me
I’m running away
I just don’t want to be
Someone like me
We look at change
and we shutter in fear
to be ourselves
yet they won't hear
I wonder if they care
I try so hard
just to be accepted
my true identity I guard
He loves me so
I am not yet grown but i do have a mind
Like a canvas with a painter i am drawing my own picture
let me live as i believe not as you choose
for you are like the the eraser of a line yet to be drawn
I'm in a smoky bubble
and it take all of the shine
out of life and makes everything turn into rubble
It just keeps you blind
to everything else except the bad
It distorts reality making you feel confined
Fog hovering
Air crisp
Jagged mosaic beneath the feet of ignorance
Always. Endlessly finding the perfect one
Waves break
Heart break
Shells break
Embrace the break
The ability to not worry about the past,
All of yesterday's problems, never do last.
The ability to not stress of the future,
Not even about the necessity of lucre.
Peace cannot exist,
but what is this?
Hunger cannot be solved,
but that does not mean we can't be involved.
Changing the world is impossible,
but doing so piece by piece make it plasible.
They say that over thinking kills the mind.
Too young to stress but yet stress about grown folks "problems "
I can't write anything on paper without two little people. On my shoulder debating about who's right. I am afraid.
There was a little seedOne planted six feet downHidden from earths greedInnocence in the groundEach and every day it grewNever in a huryHad lots of time to think things through
Devilish deliverer of darkness
Eerie establisher of ease
Faithless father of fear
I want to change the world, and i think you know why
We can't change the world no matter how hard we try.
We see it happen daily, we see it and you know.
Yet...we don't try to change things.
Imagine you are in a box
you cannot move
the tiny space only allows you to lay awkwardly
there is a tube down your throat filling your stomach with liquids
you have never tasted solid food
Because i loved am able to let to
because i loved i was able to close
my eyes to the noise of the world
The words that shot throw my heart
breaking every lungs and bones
how am i still able to breath
I've always been a dreamer.
i've always wanted things that were just too far out of my reach.
Yesterday, I wanted to be a singer on Broadway's bright stages.
I still do, and I always will.
People say mean things
they say I'm not good enough
say I'm ugly or dumb
sometimes they are right
sometimes I am dumb enough to listen to the hateful words
I have become a nobody,I am on a road to nothingness.This road is made of pills and blades,
One thing I would change.....
But there's so many things to change..
We all have things to say,
Thoughts to portrait,
But I know who says everything that comes to mind...
Unquestioning devotion
to the words of many,
our minds become dry and useless.
Wake up! We must transgress
I try not to complain,
I try not to make a fuss,
But it is time
to make a ruckus.
Late nights
Early mornings,
Why won't it end?
Why am I a slave to this system called "education"?
“Depression”
I’m tired of wearing the painted grin
That mocks me and all of my sin.
The pain of my soul and my mind
You say that I've changed
but you're the reason i'm so cold.
Get out of my head,
the fights quickly get old.
You've made me so heartless
something I knew nothing of.
Once you broke my heart,
Isolate yourself
then ask why you're so lonely.
Tell you how I think,
now I feel like a phony.
These poisons were shared
over and over before,
between you and I,
this darkness we tore.
FLOWER,
ITS HAS VARIOUS COLOUR,
ITS HAS VARIOUS NAME,
ITS HAS MYRIAD SHAPE,
ITS HAS MYRIAD DESIGN.
NOW,
I KNOW HOW BEAUTIFULLY,
THE FLOWER IS,
I KNOW HOW NICE SMELL,
When we change the world,
we will twirl.
When we change the world,
bombs will stop being hurled.
It's completely natural to me,
Like I've done it all my life,
It helps to take away the pain,
The way they treat me is wrong,
It helps to take it all away,
It helps relieve the stress,
Grab my heart and squeeze.
Make me suffer, make me bleed.
I can barely breathe.
Dry heave, all these happy memories.
I can’t stand to watch you leave,
Remembering lost moments of ecstasy.
A thousand diamonds on your face,
Yet your eyes demand their grace.
You with me, a long embrace,
To touch your diamond face,
A Social Construct
The Cause of Destruction
The Odds Of All Evil
Coming Against All People
The Discrimination, Though'
We Stand As One Nation
Years To Decades
Centuries To History
Thick with lies I am doused in solitude - a change of events I carry from past to future. Only the bruised mirror of existentialism can open my eyes to a sad truth of careless, reckless, intentional hesitancy.
If I had complete reign,
(In a totally non-totalitarian way)
my first decree as Queen would be
to abolish hardships faced by humanity.
The hunger-stricken will never face a day without food,
I walk in.
Adrenaline, excitement, panic, and love crash into me all at once.
I look up.
Hundreds of lights, thousands of colors, and endless possibilities hang above me.
I look out.
What I Would Change
By Adde Kramer
Sadness
I have a happy voice
that can be heard by fe
ut e people that do hear
i hop are happy too.
Such a beautiful soul
Flying free
Soaring over mountains
Limitless as can be
No one can bring her down
Such a beautiful soul
Flying free
Soaring over mountains
Limitless as can be
No one can bring her down
A night to remember, a spin and a glideas we make our way through the aisle.I was too young when you left my side.
If an Author is a job than believe me my life will be changed.
I sit and pondered on what is it I want to do for the rest of my life.
It came clear to me that it would be to write.
I look and see greatness and admiration.
I always have to look pass my procrastination.
I would like to change that so I could get more things done.
Love you I do,Love you I will,Help you I do,Help you I will.What are you going to do with your life?What are you going to do with yours?I’ve helped,
Love a shadow
Gray in vigor
Gold in prime
Gone as all
Given in gifts
An endless friend
ahe looked at her scars, her bracelets and then
she told herself "ill never need them again"
she picked up the razor and aimed at her wrist
but something peculiar haooened; she missed.
More than a shadow
My sweetheart
A friend, sister
Rain in tears
Tracked by the past
My soul mate
One day
I find myself fly away
Leave this world
Above the stars
Back again
Never letting go of me
Shifting, thinking, bending
You twist my body
Whirling me around
Glamorous
My mother of Resolution
A mother of hope
A listener of wisdom
My detective of crime
Understanding of all imperfections
Loving, caring, compassionate
Golden Angel
Living time lord
Immersed in vast expanse of technology
Ingenious beyond comprehension
A man of good will
Fathering those of your own bloodlines
you are the stars i gaze at every single night
you are the sun i wake to with its rays of golden light
you frolic in my orangejuice and snuggle in my bread
you've nestled in my heart and you've rooted in my head
If I could change the world, I wouldn't change it.
For we already have the capability to rearrange it.
We are a feeling species.
Full of love and of hate.
Yet we cannot appretiate that fact.
With the world acting as her mirror
The Girl was only told harsh words
And she couldn’t help but listen
For it demanded to be heard
“Your ghost-like skin is sickening
If you find something you love; then you'll never work a day of your life. I was told this as a child. I was told this as a teen and now im just understanding the concept of how it can effect my life.
Hollow Ghost of Red Heart
Ominous with frantic rage
Yet vindictive under the Vail
Luminous as starlight nights
Hard Work
Drive through flames
Face the endless nights
Burn doubt and all else
Arise higher than the sun
Breathing Just Fine
Held under water
Gazing upon him
We fight for a way out
The sea blue runs black
I don't understand why you turn backs on friends. First you tell stories using my name,Just so you have someone to blame. Then only after you make all these harmful jokes,It's my self-confidence you've begun to choke.
Change is an easy word to say but very hard to do
Change comes in all forms no matter how
BIG
or how
As he sat down next to me
Casually pulled me onto his lap
He didnt mean it, I couldn't see
I felt my knees get weak and collapse
His smile took me away
When he whispered quietly in my ear
I know what its like,
To not belong,
To be called weird,
Just for being me.
I am alone,
I know not what I did,
I know not why,
But I stand alone.
What would you change behind a glass window in a small room?
What would you change with the words of someone who owns no voice?
What would you do with the power of someone else with power? What change the world?
Everyday I give someone a warm hug
I warm their spirits and make them snug
But I, who gives these warm hugs
Feel cold like and empty mug
For although I love to see
A smile made by me
Past, Present, Future
Trying to change the first without worrying about the second or third, im a past veteran, a present warrior, a future trooper
Fighting without so much as a sword, yet im still swinging like i got an axe
I sit on the corning and someone scowls,
I take a hit to shrug it off.
I see mom laying with a bottle again,
I take a hit so the blows wont hurt this time.
Some say you have to be cruel to be kindI say being cruel is just so you could say hurtful things to othersAnd not care what that person thinks.All my life I have been bullied and witnessed others being bullied
If I told you I was suicidal would you believe me?
Maybe I don't cut, and maybe I don't attempt,
but I sure do think about it every waking moment.
Broken mirrors scattered across the floor
Shattered mirrors and broken doors
The remainder of a forgotten, past war
And the dying bodies of a marine corps
Women and men are taught
from the time of babes
to rate a woman's beauty on the size of her dress
a man on the size of his bicep
to discount a girl on the length of her skirt
I am one
One person who has more added to his life
and gets parts of him subtracted from both left and right
Im in the negatives, but i stay positive
You were taken too soon my friend
And I sit here and wonder
Why your life had to end
Like the rolling of thunder
My one regret is not responding
In the month of November
A change is a simple concept,
One few are able to grasp.
Change is not normally accepted,
And to some, it means a new you, a new life.
From a distance much to great,
He silently seals his fate.
With a rush of the tide,
He loses the feelings he tried to hide.
His head spins,
One thought to change a world.
One dream to fly in clouds.
If only one breath could be pure.
If only one ocean could be clean.
If only one society could see,
What they do affects one world.
I have anger
that boils within me.
it erupts like a valcano.
Therapy can help you.
I'm always sad.
Moving hurts me.
All I do is cry.
My tears could fill a river.
Changing Forrest
All my life I have heard, run Forrest run!
You can't see the Forrest for the trees!
Diseases, diseasesKeep me with Jesus.
My name's not punk,Nor am I junk.To give you a start,I have my own heart.
If there was one thing I could end,
It would be Abuse.
I never experienced such phenomena myself, and I am thankful.
However, others are not so fortunate.
drifting through time
with no one to be
why cant anybody see me?
i do my best
for all to see
but no one
notices me
im in all the plays
and all the pictures
in this world filled with hate
you have managed to take the bait
heaven in
and out of hell
some love is gentle
and filled with sweets
while others are brutal
that threaten to beat
waiting for a war to begin
can't get past the sin
trying for a new begining
in a world still blooming
i always wonder what i'd be like
if i hadn't met you
im only looking
for someone who'll say
When I first learned that no one could ever love me more than mea world of happiness previously unseen was discoveredbecause somewhere along the line of aging and scrutiny and timeI was taught to despise myself
Listen.
Many questions come and go,
with wonder stirring in woe,
all the answers appear to glisten,
but with no one here to listen,
they fade away without a single sound,
Homeless individuals sleep with dreams of what they used to be
Now they have moved on leaving the new generation drowning sea to sea
No education, no temptation, to get a dream fulfilled
The Dark that cones, the dark that rises. The darkness that is the light, in all my wrong doing. If you protect me from myself, your protecting me from THE DARKNESS.
Black and Blue
Do you ever get a clue?
Black and red
do you know how much i bled?
black and green
You were always too keen
Black and yellow
Afterwords, you were always so mellow.
Why must we try,
on something that'll never work?
If just looking at me is painful,
Why even try?
If there is no rhym
nor reason,
then what's the point?
what's there to say?
kiss my petal-pink lips
hold My tinny hands
stroke my porcelain cheek
if you only knew
not every doll is a sweet little Girl ;
In life there are a lot of things i would like to change, But I think the thing i would like to change most is how people look down on others because of there lifestyles such as homesexuality, Lesbian, Bisexual.
If I could change one thingIm sure what it would beI would push countries togethereleminate boarders, I would open their eyesand make them forget the colors.
Speak.Talk.Communicate.
Empty phrases, for what do they accomplish but prove their own necessity?
Change is not prompted by force.
Yet force is prompted by change.
If I could change my world, what would I change? Would I change the enviroment, the politics? Would I chance the schools, the laws?
Change is at the mercy of the law,
But the law is not at the mercy of change.
You can not rebuild an engine all at once,
It is done in steps.
If there is a bad part that needs fixing,
You have heard it said so many times
Each time I hear it my determination climbs
Chase your dreams don't let them get away
For if you do in the end you will pay
So go out in the world and make a name for yourself
Change
If there was something I could change
What would it be
The mindset of so many
Displaying their animosity
Loathing and contempt
Or just simple indifference
Why does it hurt when,
I keep things bottled in?
I need to let these thoughts free,
I'm just afraid of people's thoughts of me.
Love me for who I am, I wish they would,
He took my brother
He took my father
He laughed when I cried
My mother never forgave him
The world hated him
but he went on with the slaughter
using death as his weapon
I tried to stop him
I followed him desperately
Did anyone see?
Craving him, half-heartedly
thinking till someone catches us. We
who look like thieves, however
nothing to take but my lustful purity.
It may be one of the scariest things to say,
Your heart starts beating and your palms are sweaty,
But you look over and see the most beautiful girl lying next to you,
People say that we cant change
once we sat who we are we can never go back
but is that true
others say that love can fix it
but is it possible
for the oe i love i sure hope so
Reminisce'in in the depths Of my solitude. "Why should be dying to live If I'm living to die" Looking to the clouds for Inspiration. That's where I want My burning soul to lie For my resurrection.
Love you "say" but its not true.
Its just another word for "forget you"
Told me you love me, told me you cared. But why arent you standing here?
You made it up didnt you? just to fill in the blank.
missing you is easy to do every memory like water stains on the pages of my brain they have been engrained to my soul only your hands can unfold thee only your words can console me missing you is easy to do your love is my drug with every touch e
If I could change anything,
I would start with the way our generation chooses to think;
The power of our voice is contagious and on the brink.
she lived through pitch blackness
she held siccors to her stomach for hours on end
she held bottles of bleach in her hands
her tears silently falling as she tried bringing it up to her lips
I look around and feel all the walls closing in trapping my thoughts my feelings my voice deep within I look into this glass tracing my imperfections with my fingertips a tear drops from my eye and sails across my lips a ship containing my fears
Broken bottles
lining the window seels
where pictures should be
where crosses should be
liquor soaking in the walls
yet not absorbing the blows
virbration from the seel decore
Mommy, I'm not really sure
Why you won’t cut my hair
Or why you dress me up in skirts
And dresses and in heels
Can't I wear a suit instead?
You ask meIn this world we sailIf one thing I could changeWhat thing would this be?One thing I would changeIt is simple, yet slightly strangeThere would be no left or right brain
A young child was I, innocent and free,
with my best of firends a boy named jack.
we were young and like all, carefree
only one difference he was black.
At the local corrnerstore we were the same,
The depth of it all, the rise and the fall. Room 116A, just making sure I'm okay. Tomorrow isn't promised, yesterday wasn't either. Blood steaming like fire, it's like my heart has a fever. Yes, I'm a non believer but I did believe him.
I try to find myself, but I've been lost for forever. It's like I'm going in a circle so you'd think I'd know better. I'm somewhat lost in a trance, I can't find myself. Took 34 pills disregarding my own health.
changing life...changing minds...changing hearts.
judgement passes through us all, piercing eyes like darts
quick to judge but too slow to realize...
to realize...the pain of war...the pain of loss...the pain of life
he was mine and I was his he held the love of her and I
his little hands is what I remember most, the way they fit in mine.
we are fulfilled with ideas of change
we freeze in our tracks
thinking of the fears that we have been forced to believed
we do have such abilities
but will we ever be strong enought to overcome such fear
I sit here, so brood
imagining all the words I could blend
what a dulcet way of thinking
The way you percieve things
creates bubbling revelations
we take for granted what we possess
God is a hide and seek player
He's the seeker
He sometimes intimidates the hiders
They are afraid of what He will find
He's the seeker
God would walk around a hiding place, knowing
The strength of those
who know of how
you cannot harm
anyone for long.
How can such a
short trial, be of
much harm? When they
will know how you
can never last
for long. Life is
"So What?" you say.
"I don't care about what you want.
We don't need you. You're not qualified. "
I wanted to be in your class.
How could you turn me away?
I worked so hard!
Have you ever tried rekindling a fire
While another still burns?
The heat of one draws you in,
But the ashes on the ground
Torment your heart.
Which will gain your favor?
The risk and passion
One dollarThat's all it takesTo save a lifeFrom a distraught place
Where the mosquitos buzzand water runs brownThe situation is poisedTo take one down
Sniffles and coughs.
Shoes crunching frostbit grass
and raw wind whistling its way through silence.
Generations of family shed tear drops of sorrow
as all gather around a six foot deep pit
“Asian” used to be a thing of beauty,
But now there are images of labor—
Simply that is our soul duty.
But we, just like all, are humble neighbors.
The map is drawn and the lands are imagined.
Nations formed out of mere thoughts.
Yet the places and peoples are unreal,
I try to ignore what could have been.Playing a game that I just can't win.Picking a lock that I can't open.Where the path not taken is held within.But the path of regret is where I walk.
If I could write a wordThat could strike a nerve,Incite the flight of a flightless bird,I'd write a verse.A single verb could inspire riots,Or silence herds,Stifle violence,Ignite defiance,
Eyes swelled up with tears,
As i said goodbye to YESTERDAY.
The promise of romance drowning in the ocean of my heart.
Dezmonique A. Garris
Alzheimers
I walked up to an older lady and told her, “I am your lover”,
I told her never to forget me and that there will be no other.
The artist is alone,
seeing as he does
the horrors that surround
this world of his.
The meadows repulse him.
Beneath the veneer of green,
he sees only the mud.
All the room is silent
Sounds of pens clicking
Teachers flipping through the pages of the same book
Suddenly a girl walks in
She seems different
Smells different, too
Boys snicker and tell her things
A voice whispers in my ear
Filling me with doubt
Telling me I can't do this
And I definitely can't do that
I’ve got ‘So it Goes’ tattooed on my rib cage after the great late Kurt Vonnegut; now retired and unstuck in time.
What shall I say of the seasons?
In Autumn’s throes another limb crashes down
Deceased
Used for naught but the kindling of fire
Even of Winter’s frigid squalls barreling through
Hollow
The house sits silently except for the hum of the heater Everyone is asleep but here I lay wide awake
Imagination
The most cunning of human machinations
Is, without some resultant flare
For naught, merely spare
Flame
Cannot be born without frame
For the kindling that sustains
Music flowing through ears
With notes of inspiration
Giving air to choking cells
Of my minds concentration
Finding someone
Find something
Once you find it
Once you find them
Don't let it go
Let them know
You're there for them
But here for you
Here for you
I worry for the worst,
Wistfuly hanging and hoping for the moment,
When something will be dfferent,
When something will come first,
Something besides just looks and stares,
a quasar
magnificently far from the tree outside the classroom
the tree that is somehow put together from carbon and nitrogen
exactly close to a quasar
precisely the same as star stuff
I am alone and yet I am not alone
I am not surrounded by others
I am not engrossed in conversation
And yet I do not panic though I am by myself
I am my own company
Here is what matters the most to me
Bullying hurt..
No matter how old your are
Step up and say something
More than a 1,000 kids are bullyied
It hurts... I know it does
Make a change to your school and reach out to others
A bebop roadshow, slapping and jumping
Loose and direct, structured like a wire
Going zip and zap, spreading its electrical seed,
Feeling around the corner, hiding with the lights on
Do we know what it is?
My past no longer haunts
Death has lost its sting
Pain can now be ignored
No hate lives in my heart
It is not because the pain has gone
Suffering is my constant companion
This world has a cold heart will someone warm it up?
I sit at the table with no one to pick up the other cup.
Inside me burns a fire that needs to be kindled
The power of my ink tells a story,
Its tells you who I am without having to say sorry.
Whether its the tatto on my shoulder or the one on my waist
It can be the ink on my paper either way it will not be erased.
Ignorance may be bliss but it’s time to risk awareness.
Knowledge hurts, but nothing in this world is painless.
You may have a thirst for love, but I have a thirst for wisdom.
Picking at her bloody wounds
There she hides inside her room
Reliving that awful night
Shes sinking, drowning, drenched in frieght
tears stain her mournful eyes
wishing what she heard were lies
Poetry is a friend.
It is a coach.
It is love.
A poem is like you first time riding a horse,
It scares you, but it's fun.
Poetry runs like the river flowing,
I whispers in the wind,
Wrinkled man in a coffee house, sipping coffee on his own.
People chatter all around; still he feels all alone.
Men have died of illness since, war had taken many friends.
Such strange thoughts surround me
The soul of the wise in this body of youth cries out in uncertain desire
The love of purity and strength is ignored by shields of ignorance, stupidity, laughs
Tears, like rain, stream across the world.
Mothers, fathers, sons and daughters; tears of joy and of remorse; tears of fear and of sorrow.
Each speak of another language
hate, love, anger, despair.
I woke up early in the morning
When I looked out the view was boring
All I saw was old homes and grey cement
No more green orchards
Now I was tortured
Stuck looking at the rubble
I been called the future
I been told i could make it
But I'm totured by failure
and by past defeats
I have a chance to take
to take power back
but the quiver its empty
the sword dull
I believe in the innocence of a child
The freedom of a kid
The choices of a teenager
The maturity of an adult
Don't call me a female
that's not me
always told I'm wrong by society
but I'm not wrong
don't even try
rejections sharp sting won't make me cry
I am strong
I am true
I'm just me
A little girl,
grew up so fast,
so many choices.
What shoes to wear,
what friends to make,
and who to date.
It was in the dawn covered in dew
That we begin our journey true
We had no haste, no time to waste
Our lives had changed years before, husbands taken by the war
How could one shirt
Be different from another?
A name
Can change the game, my naive brotha .
How could my pants
Bring me such shame?
An extra sharp design
She deserves all the world has to offer.
How dare I not give back to the woman that gave me life.
No matter the situation she was there for me.
You know there are days that I wonder
If it was always meant to be like this,
If imperfection was programmed into our souls
to make us live-
Or if it found us later,
They say if you drown in the oceanYou become a mermaid
You always ate the end peice of the loafNow they sit molding in a basket.
Everyone keeps asking me so what you been up to and I'm always like what do you mean?
I mean what are your plans, how are things going?
I guess I'm fine just you know the usual, getting ready for prom, finishing up with school.
The moldless block of clay stares back at me,
vapid and ugly in nature, it begs to become art.
To be made into something from nothing
My whole life I held everyhthing inside
Trying to run and trying to hide
Scared of what people would see
Never showing the real me
Until now finally feeling so alive
There is a life to the city,
a vitality not found in Suburbia.
Uniqueness, sprinkled in among the chain coffee shops.
Food trucks with steam rising from them on cold days,
please come out of your hiding
come out and show your face,
please I am watching,
waiting for you
to come out of your hiding
i need to know
there is someone
please show me,
The coffee creamer of society
I am what others believe
It is tough not knowing your nationality
For it is based on the individual and what they perceive
Natives see the refined, marble white
We all deal with monsters,
Monsters in our heads,
Monsters in our bodies.
Depression, Scizophrenia,
Rymitoid, CRPS.
The monsters kill us,
Inside and out,
To the point of no return,
There you lay, in box of the deceased.I watch as they carry you to the nest of our creator.Stiff as rock, and cold as a winter’s day.Here I am wasting away what others have achieved.
Creativity feeds on expression,It thrives on liberation,It fears oppression,And it creates affection.
So let your mind free,Let your spirit be,Be your own entity,Your act is the key.
Whenever I am lost
or lonely, I know that
I need only to pick a book
and disappear.
Whenever I am hapless
or unhappy, I know that
I need only to find solace in
these pages.
Your aroma is so pleasingYour smell is so delightfulTo my senses you are appeasingWithout you, I can be spiteful
The woods are silent tonight
There is not even a peep in it
All of a sudden there is a light
It grows larger by the minute
The animals run for their lives
trying not to breath in the smoke
I'm fighting through veils and curtains
and the smoke and mirrors
of my mind.
My fears.
My failure.
Pulling rejection out of tophats
and vanishing self esteem under cloths.
A smile
A conversation
A meet-cute
A date
A meal
A walk
A chat
A connection
A kiss
A week
A month
A year
A home
A puppy
A marriage
I'm pretty
She's sad
I'm pimply
He's presumtuous
I'm indifferent
She's trying to hard
I'm cool
He thinks I'm awkward
She thinks I'm jealous
I believe
She feels
Pain , I say i wont complain bearing the burden, words like birds fly to verbs then contain the vains
of my plain out of frame eyes
I met a man who chased his dreams
By walking between the clouds
After his other dreams had abandoned him.
He thought that standing on a rope between poles
Was the best way to be brave
I am a punk rockerRocking out to the drunken moon.
I am the moon drunken on the everlasting plea for the sun's rays to shine on him.
I am the super sun shining for a day that never ends.
When I trythey laugh,wanting me to failWhen I flythey bring me down,begging me to fallWhen I liethey call me out,praying for my sinsWhen I crythey make fun of me,
I am from the city of bright lights & the Big Apple
I am from the Brooklyn Borrow, fast cars and fast shots
I am from place to place
I am from that Haitian good good
I've waged war
against you,
in my head
and in my heart.
If there is
anything I've learned
about war,
it's that we
always falls apart.
You may hate them,
But you don't.
You know they're right,
But you still doubt.
You want to leave,
But you can't resist
Because they're your family.
They can't lose you.
In a time when all my hopes were dim,
You were the candle that brightened my day.
When my circumstances were all too grim,
You were with me all the way.
When I said I lost and was ready to quit,
thirteen weeks.
then ten days.
then some months.
that's how long he'll be away.
While he serves the country,
I will wait for his return,
for his love
is worth any wait.
Simplicity is rich to the poor mans eyes.
Why war, why rumor, why lies?
A books cover is beautiful, tho torn inside.
Leave out the war, rumors, and lies.
A book was not meant to attract flies.
I'm helpless
I'm broken
I have no rights
You cut me and pull me
while I try to fight.
In my plight this is
What I have to say:
I love you mom
Do not with your tongue speak,
Those three words that make fools weak.
Love we say, and is that okay?
When you look into your reflection, what do you see?
Probably the rippled mirage of your blue, glowing face.
You and I are different
You and I are the same
You and I are pieces of the same game
You and I are black
Inertia, drifters' neccessary companion and most fearsome adversary.
Inertia, she carries the car through the drift, or carries the car through the wall.
Inertia, the maker or the breaker.
Go
Don't go
Stop
Don't go don't stop
React
Don't react
Think
Don't react don't think
Decide
Don't decide
Feel, because as you grow
A warm embrace
After a long day.
Your breath on my face
Telling me it's ok.
That's how you can make me fall
Because that's what I'll never make.
That I'm safe with you
His hands are rough as stone.
His eyes are filled with fire.
His hair is brown like a mocha.
His head rest perfectly on top of my head.
His hands maybe rough but they are gentle when he touches me.
To sleep perchance to dream
But you got it wrong Shakespeare
I dream perchance to sleep
I only sleep eight hours a day
But I dream constantly
I dream dreams that give purpose to my life
You look at me with star brightened eyes.
You see my moment of weakness -
As you watch my wall that I've tried for so long to build -
Crashes to the ground.
Because, you see, unlike you, I had no walls.
While we walked up the gravel path through the hills.
I looked upon these stone memorials.
Simply thinking to myself about the days that are flying by, so fast.
The days that mean so little, yet so much at the same time.
The wide eyed girl, who stares up at me with curious yet confused eyes.
She looks at me with admiration, yet as if I am a puzzle she is trying to fit together in her mind.
I’m cracked from where
She threw a book at me
Heavy and thick,
her arms shook with the effort of tossing it
What is it with people?
Is it my face?
Is it my hair?
or perhaps my race?
Does it really matter,
Or should I really care?
I mean, after all...
It's my life, not theirs.
The hours she spends to be perfect,
the hours tries to cover her flaws.
She cannot see the beauty within,
she only sees the ugly outside.
If only she could leave the quarrel;
just disappear into thin air.
As I lay here
Staring at my husband
Wondering what is on his mind
As he slowly
Turns his head and stares at me
The apostle Paul, in the first book of Corinthians and the thirteenth chapter said: "When I was a child, I spake as a child, I understood as a
Giving Up So Easily
Seems like the best thing
Youve tried to make it work
but everythings tells you no!
Giving up or Giving in
which one has more of a consequence
Why do we worry and where do we place our values
life is not as simple as pass go and collect 200 dollars
the ideas you are fed help none what so ever
struggling for self identification and reconciliation
I have been told, to do this and that.
I listened but I brushed it off.
They want me to think inside the box,
I said "even the tiger in the Bronx zoo wouldn't".
I have been plated with,
I stare at the mirror.
Ugly!
I blink back tears.
Fat!
I know it's not true.
Don't I?
I look fine.
Hidden under clothes!
People think I'm cute.
They pity you!
Drop back fade to black
Vanish now away, away
Never be seen, never be heard
Vanish now away, away
To be unseen is how I am
To be clear like glass, away from their eyes
We're caught up in our own world,
spiraling down in a never ending twirl,
or maybe we're drowning in a never-ending swirl.
We try to catch our breath and gasp for air,
Layer 1
I am quite,
I am meek,
I am smart,
I am shy.
That is the mask I wear.
Layer 2
I am quirky,
I am fun,
I am sponatneous,
I am loyal.
Only a few see this.
Words give life,
They create magic,
They create new worlds,
Colors and shapes form before your very eyes,
You are no longer you but someone new,
You live in a distant land far away.
I need an escape,
I need to leave,
But how can I?
I can't run from it,
It ever leave.
The demon inside is too strong,
I can't run,
I can't hide.
You tell me to fight,
If i could change the world, i'd change how we treat our girls.
The way we judge them like pearls...
The way we make them feel, the things they have to deal... The pain that is real...
Acceptance is what I choose to need.
To get away from my misery.
I trust those who hurt and love those who use me.
Acceptance is what I choose to need.
To get away from my misery.
I trust those who hurt and love those who use me.
Like robots, bodies fill the halls
Lifeless, uncaring, unseeing about those they pass
So many people, heads hung low with lips turned down
Others move in groups of two or more
Like a breath of cold air, i am lonely with fear,this pain i feel ,i just can't bear,it is painful enough to kill,ones fragile heart,Like a breath of cold air,to repair the heart,that was taken apart,by one careless words,by me taking out this bla
***This Poem was written to help others who have difficulty coping with depression and bullying who need help**
The time was...where the sun and its light don't shine.
Darkness...for the moment and the victim were right.
I laid to sleep but was awaken from my dreams.
Laying on my sheets, was a demon next to me.
Cracks
The forceful rush of the wind detained me, clinging to my back tightly.
No longer seeing red, no longer filled with anger and deceit, I reached for the ridge up above.
I was only ten when I became anorexic.I was starving myselfin order to become plastic.Now I am strong, but I look around to seePeople trying to tell memy lack of beauty.
It’s a drink on Saturday nights,
But you better be at church on Sunday.
It’s high school football, Friday night lights,
We all dread work on Monday.
The late summer nights, starry and warm,
I'm looking at the waves, entranced by their strength. They throw me under and thrust me aside, as if my presence isn't a bother at all.
In my short 16 years of life I've put myself into some crazy situations.
I want a home where I can be me
A place where I can just be, free
Somewhere my heart can really live
Somewhere my heart can truly give
Home is where the heart is
But that's just where we started
If love is a fire burning brighter by the hour
Does it require fuel or burn by its own power?
It always begins in each of us the same
A spark from the eyes,a smile, a flame
Don't do it
So you aren't perfect after all
No one asked you to be
Neither am I
Neither is he
Neither is she
We all have a purpose
Find it
Lets make a difference
When it hurts will we still see why we got together promise not to ever be temporary
Because I can’t take it anymore
I need you in my life
You make me laugh when I don’t want to
You hold me when I don’t your love
Outside it is cold but I am warm in soulmy mind is ever focused my goal is clearsitting in the woods to kill the goalI watch as he moves back in the brush eyes showing fearLooking ahead with uneasy mind
After the shot
Breathing slowly
Crimson blood flows, and
Dreams fade to black.
Everything I once knew,
It's funny right?
At first glance people think they know who you are
There isn't a second chance
another glance
just that one and their mind is made
That makes me wonder what they see
So here's the thing-
We're all on earth.
Everyone is
from the moment of birth.
And while we're here,
our goal should be
to love others
instead of loving "me".
Sanity
My secrets are safe as my sanity retreats further my mind,
The longer I wait the more i lose,
Freedom -a return of serotonin and peace,
without any drugs there's a pressure release.
Relief from worry, suffering and pain,
light and sound don't bother, being simply plain.
When you look at me what do see?Do you see an original or do you see a copy?
Do you see beauty or do you see ugliness?
When you look at me what do you see?
Do you see a rich person or do you see a poor person?
It calls my name late at night with no one left to hear
My hands cover my ears but still it slinks into my brain
It's touch is so forceful I feel my head about to implode
Poetic days
Lyricas dreams
Emotional nights
and Sensational dreams
Elements of life
Events to me
So poetically dedicated
and proud to be
Luxurious thoughts
beautiful scenes
As I look around the street
I realize that I'm not where
I'm supposed to be.
Somewhere someone has realized I haven't arrived and is searching
just for me. I have to hurry.
But I forget about that
For as long as you've lived
they''ve helped you stay strong
kept a place amongst them
where only you can belong
your Family is there for you
even if all seems to be grim
Give me floweres while I can smell em'.
They're the only little presence that keeps me in the heaven of heavens.
they say "oh here we go again"
again with the misdemeanors, with my brother who gave a meaner,
From space, you are a speck of dust,
A delicate flower,
Swaying for the amusement of others,
Underestimated to the point of insult
From across the horizon, you are but a wave
Wrapped up in a thick material
like a fragile piece of glass.
Down to my thighs.
Solid black.
Unobtrusive.
Hidden.
Afraid.
Eyes look out into the big world.
They don't see you.
When you are feeling sad and blue,
And your darkest nightmares are coming true,
Go to your window in your room,
And when the sky is at its darkest,
Look for the moon.
Why I tell you this?
I've learned my lesson
Want things done for me
Used to things done for me
I strive for my independence, that feeling of success
But to ignorant to see I hardly scratch the surface
The young quiet girl with baby blue eyes,
I see her in school,
I see how she hides,
But hides what I dont know.
The young quiet girl who never did speak,
I see her get bullied,
Tears trickle in little troughs down my back
Poor babies, poor children
Crystal vases in Heaven shatter when they hit the ground
Like a living thing they stumble haltingly down my back
Sometimes I wish I could just hide
Sometimes I wish I could be eveyone else
Sometimes I wish I could smoke pot
Sometimes I wish I didn't play music
Sometimes I wish my hair was a normal color
Misophonia
Overloaded tortured table, stunning silver, growing feast, smells good.
Stomach grumbling, mouth drooling, tongue twitching, can’t
Somewhere in between the brightest most beautiful place and the most darkest grimest place is where I resign. No smile no frown. Down with no thoughts of tomorrow or now just left with the constant tick-tok from the clock I stare at.
New horizons
The old and the new have come unglooed. The habits and freinds that i once knew, now renewed.
She looks in the mirror who she sees is not who she is.
Lets see where to begin,the process of that fire burning passion,first started talking and things were popping .But eventually reality started crumbling down and things stopped.The guy I thought was my knight and shining armor was just a dumb azz
Rain can make a the day gloom.
Rain can make the day shine blue.
I sit back, relax, and enjoy the soothing sounds of rain droplets hitting my window's side.
Eventually it all sound's as one.
The Suit of happiness, It is all that they see.They think they know everything about me,If they just take one good look at me.But they cant see.Their blinded by this so called happy me.They cant see the depressed,lonel
Beating of heart
Growing ever faint
Your smile still strong
I try to smile back
You first came into this world
So very unique
I did not want to fall in love
I did not want to get hurt
Beating of heart
Growing ever faint
Your smile still strong
I try to smile back
You first came into this world
So very unique
I did not want to fall in love
I did not want to get hurt
For years and years I sit and I learn. About the stories of our past but the real stories I yearn. I hear of an America that is powerful and great. But I don't hear about the America, our state, the Hate!
Who is he who protects our life?
The patriot, whom we often disregard
Why? His honor and love so rife
Living in a world of pure strife
The patriot gives all
Who is he who protects our life?
If music is a mirror revealing the depths of my heart
Then I will write the darkest song
For without forgiveness my soul is lost
All that is hope within destruction comes from You
Every little kid admires an adult
every adult wishes to be an minor
as we grow we realize that not all is for us
and not everything was made for just one
Every morning is a fight to change the future
Pain
I feel it taking over me inside
The cries, the struggles
The pain that needs to be set free
Why did you hurt me?
Why must I feel the way I do because of you
So many questions gone unanswered
Who are you?
You! With your surmising glances,
You who lies in wake, desperate, for blood
Funny.
You are beautiful,
You are love,
You are worhy
You are worhy of love that you cannot even begin to comprehend.
This love is everlasting, unconditional, unfailing, never ending.
My heart is like a puzzle set,broken clear into.From all the guys I've ever met,who hurt me through and through.But you're the one who heals the breaks,and turns away the blue.
when your support fails. you feel unworthy, uncompitent and most of all shame. that you put them trough it, untill they hit the breaking point. when your foundation crumbles you dont know what to do. the only thing you can do is cry.
Standing there
Talking to a student
My teacher
Is making
A new world.
She is as
White
As the moon.
But she talks to
Us,
Black people,
Like we were
look at yourself
look at your thighs
do you really believe
people would care if you died
your eyes are to small
and your stomach too round
feel the adreniline pumping?
So many people are lost in their ways,
Having lost their bearings, strayed in sea,
Drops of water fall on my plate, ready to spill. The search for answers, the clock is ticking still. Answer my question...why am I still alive? Is it for a reason, to find the meaning of life? I'll just have to do or die.
It's amazing how you can fall for someone, who see's you as invisible, doesn't care is they break
you
They ponder at you wondering who you are I wish they would know me just like I did for him.
Tears run,And shadows crawl,For all of those who've lost it all.
Food is less,And hunger more,All our hope is out the door.
Sorrow hearts,And weakened souls,As we hold our empty bowls.
Dear Bully, what you do not see is that I am stronger than you.
Dear Bully, if you stood in my place you would see the hell you put me through.
Dear Bully, why, oh why, do you do what you do?
What is this feeling I can't seem to control?
Deep, deep inside me I no longer feel whole.
The world around me seems to be moving fast,
but no matter how hard I try, I'm stuck in the past.
Engrained in the very fiber of our culture,
Fundamental to our identity,
They say it empowers and protects us,
They say that guns make us American,
Our language is corrupt with its influence,
I feel it on the inside. I feel it in my soul. I feel this certain something that makes my body whole.
Now he's dead
No one knows why
He committed suicide
On his first try
No one knows the thoughts
that went through his mind
They're afraid to delve deeper
For fear of what they might find
Her voice is fading from my mind,As time rushes on without her.The time for warm hugs to bindus have long since passed.
Staring at walls, out of mind
Dark despair calls, like no other kind
Shadows swirling, thoughts racing
Emotions twirling, no point in chasing
Alone.
A hole.
A sadness.
A blue comfort.
My heart is a lonely hunter
Who spends its life
Ever since i was small, all ive ever had a heart for was children. Sure im generally a chill person but there's always this thing with me when it comes to adults.
If words could be tasted
Would idiot be sour?
Would oppress be foul?
Would morbid be bitter?
Would smack be acidic?
Or would finesse be like honey?
You only write once is a very true statement. My generation is motivated by money, power, and respect. My hunger was always driven by intellect. A good education is something intangible that can't be taken away.
Success is engraved in my brain
More knowledge –I don’t complain
Stupidity is the cousin of ignorance
Why y'all still messing with racism
Lets change the world a bit
Our generations was left with shit
At Eight years old, you believed superman was your real hero.
At eight years old, my mom was mine and she needed to heal.
You didnt believe superman ever took off his cape.
It's a peculular thing; life,
One goes through everyday struggles,
Yet never does it end,
The endless torment,
So what can be done?
We can kill the problemers,
Hah! Death, I scoff at the word. How silly people fear what they know NOTHING about. "Death; the destruction or extinction of something." Destruction? Extinction? You have no idea! The person is at a place far better than this world.
Growing up can be something to get accustomed to
You don’t know who you are just yet
You try to find the real you
I had a bestfriendHer name was MiaShe gave me tips to ease the painHeld back my hair as I threw up my sinsTaught me how to gag quietlyTold me to never eat hot things
Your words no longer faze me, they can’t hurt me. I cried at night you made me hate me. Your words cut, cut so deep I watched myself bleed. You with your pretty hair and your perfect skin how can I fight back.
When I was little I was fascinated by my body.I wasn’t even 60 pounds and yetalready known for looking down.People thought I stared at the groundbut instead I was watching my feet,
As it arrives everything diesThe leaves change colorNature's beauty diesBut one true beauty remains in galore
If life were only poetry,
I would write my life away.
Avoiding the constant struggle,
When hardships stop to "play".
If life were but simplicity,
A constant epiphany i would vow.
I've never been the superstitious type, but there's something about that's so supernatural. But yet it feels so natural everytime I look at you. And I felt us drawing close before I even met you.
I wanna run away
Away from all the hurt and pain
Painful mistakes and irony misplaced
Crying................
That is all I know
Pain like Fire
This pain I’m feeling,
is unlike anything I’ve ever felt,
Lost,
Confused,
Heart broken,
it’s an everlasting nightmare.
This pain I’m feeling,
A lot of people wonder why I’m so concerned on listening to people’s problems and respecting people.
I was 13.
Looking in the mirror,
It never dawned to me why,
Why the window between my teeth,
The disproportionate nose,
The “five-head”,
Too sufficient for just a bang,
Not brown
I miss you. What can I say?
My burning desire of wanting to be with you grows by each passing day.
I see the world in black and white now because you're not here with me.
Soon flowers will growin the deepest and saddest partsof you and you'll bloom
You will always have people in your life that test you
There will always be people there to knock you down
It may seem that all the negative people are stuck to you like glue
It's the absence of warmth.The familiarity of a hand upon your shoulder.It's departure leaving all but an imprint.
Darkness floods you veins,Your eyes have become reflecting pools,Black like dreamless sleep,You ache for the affection,
I want to fall into you,Like butter on warm toast,Snow on a summer day,The fragrance of a slow cooked roast.
FOOD FOOD FOOD
Every ravenous soul cries for
What is food at all?
Is it Satisfaction...?
Or a remedy to survival...think about it -
I see food as Cruel, Enemy, Evil, Vicious...
When love gets a little easier
Maybe I'll be able to say hello and not have my eyes rain
Maybe the tulips will finally bloom properly and maybe the dandelions will finally blow in my direction and cover my face with their wishes
I sit among the trees looking up at the sky.
My thoughts ponder and ask the question why?
Why does it feel like I’m slowly dying?
What do when everything feels like it is falling slowly into a million little pieces?
Just one thing after another,
Crash, crash, crash,
I want to cry but don’t know how,
Crash, crash, crash,
I cannot touch you
Not physically
Yet emotinally and mentally I manage to do.
You're so far away
But so close to me
I tell you goodnight at the end of the day.
I wish I we could meet
When will things be different….will I ever get back the innocence I’ve lost. Will I ever smile again and have the light that twinkled in my eye?? Every day is a struggle to go on and to push through all the demons that haunt me.
One step out the door
Come back!!!
I can't do that, I've gone to far. I've stepped into deeper waters and I'm drowing. I've dug my own grave and the world is slowly closing in.
You can't do this!
Where I Am From
I am from coffee in the morning to Maxwell House at night.
I am from the feel of soft carpet mixed with the vivid smell of roses.
I live to see the sunshine, brighter than the green on pine
I live to see the rain, gloomy and forever a pain
I live to eat, stuffing my mouth whereever I find a seat
I live to drink, only to end up in the kitchen sink
Shes beautiful and she knows it,Even though her body disagrees. Shes weak physically but doesn't not try,As she has a strong will and doesn't want to die.
Close ur eyes go under luke warm water an stay there for 5 minutes
thats how life was for me
'picture a darkness that is trying to take over
think of trying to scream
i cant hear
All i want to do is play
instead of doing work all day.
With all the homework and the tests,
Its a miracle I have time for rests.
As more work piles up and you start to stress,
Whispered sweet nothings, I find nothing sweet
The cliched line just burn my aching heart
With nervous glances they hurriedly meet
Falling "in love" even before they part
Black holes come from broken hearts... so much disparity in the world over loves now lost
A lot of the time I’m Mid-Night Black
Fearing to be seen within the day
Hurting to fit in with all that call me prey
Now a day's the 90's generation is so much different the males are growing up disrespecting us women calling us bitches and sluts but
I look up at many faces,
at all the many places.
so what if I am shorter?
Between me and them, there is no border.
I don't think people should be judged by height.
Toward others, my thoughts are bright.
I saw her there, out in the crowd.
I saw her there, my mind cried aloud.
She wore black, the shade of her hair.
She wore black, the hue of despair.
Alone she sat, in an empty pew.
Who really is family ? A question that now at my 17 years old, I'm stuck asking. I was always taught family is only blood and we all watch out for each other. I come from a huge family , so there is no such thing as close family.
Heartbreak is not something that is easy to take
For it clouds the mind and causes the esteem to effortlessly break
Hours upon hours are spent of you picking up the pieces
Wrote this in the wee hours of the morning, sort of in a trance like state.
Warm, soothing,
purring soft ones.
Family, gathered for
communal peace.
Sarcastic, judging,
hurtful words, freezing hearts.
Undoing what a roast has done,
with another.
Alone..Always I will be,
No place to call home, No one to understand me.
Pain turns my heart cold,
I'm permanantly sad even though I've got a smile of gold.
Alone..I won't ever fit in.
I wander lonely around,
As I watch the world move as fast as lightning.
I watch those that fall leisurely get up and move on, unbound,
While I'm stuck in the black hole I once found shiny.
Life is all stick and stone.
Looking out across recent life's sea,
Or shall I say looking in,
I'm looking at what used to be.
I'm not excluded from that life and its kin.
I'm sitting here in the midst of it all,
And wishing that I'd never took the fall.
I'm hoping that you're somewhere happy,
While I'm saying that I hope your life's crappy.
This is my revolution of letting go.
I'm sitting here really thinking hard about you,
Remembering the good & what made me blue.
Thinking of all we been through,
How many times you've referred to me as your boo.
Nothing lasts forever.
I Try To Act As If I Don't Pay Attention,
I Know You Feel The Stares,
Maybe You Actually Don't At All Feel The Tension,
You're Too Busy Hugged Up With My Worst Nightmare.
There's a quiet thunderstorm inside my head,
the thoughts strike across my brain,
neurons illuminate with light, transmitting more than what is visible by sight.
There's a quiet thunderstorm inside my head.
I'm irritated
Frustrated
Angry
Everything is botteling up
Like soda
That is shaken up
Ready to burst and make a mess
Showing my emotions seems like a test
I once met a farmer whose name was Brain
He gave me a packet of seeds
All that was needed was sunshine and rain
To grow these flowers, trees, and weeds
And I planted a seed into the ground
My piano plays only for you
For you, are the only on it remembers.
One touch from your hands will make it new.
Its black and white keys have been touched by few,
The notes escaping like fire from embers.
Do not be fighterDo not be curse that person or animal outinstead be a peacemakerDo not steal a thing that you really wantDo not kill that person
Floating through an abyss of tears and fears.
Do they notice me? Can they help wipe the errors?
Dancing, twirling; I scream to be free.
One day they will see, it was me they always needed.
The skies become dark
The wind picks up
As the rain starts to pour
Everyone runs for shelter
But as if none of it ever happened
Everything stops
No wind, no rain, even blue skies
This damaged girl coming from a broken home, no hope left leaving it all torn,
Not a single soul for help in times of discord,
What happened to all the love and care from her supposed friends?
She always comes & goes.
It is better to leave, before she is left.
She always comes & goes.
She leaves before she is left.
The friends she makes,
Are kept for years –
We live in a world where double standards bloom around us
Waiting for the picking
Like fresh lillies in the spring time.
If you have acne, you're ugly
If you don't, you're stuck up.
They judge before they get to know me, they see an alien not a human being. I am a threat to society, so they say, yet all I ever do is stay the same.
I've waited for change
But no change has come
Maybe I just realized
No change will ever come
I'm never myself
Or happy at that
Well I could never assume I were happy with that
Because if you are to love me
there are some things you must know
for one i am broken
and hurt
and my view on love is blown
I have to start from scratch
and learn how to love again
It rises
and falls
only to rise again.
A circadian pattern,
until one day it falls too hard.
Shattered and torn,
It attempts to rise.
And as the days go by you rub away at me and peel back the pages of my skin
Soon I shall be raw,sore and broken
And as the days go by you rub away at me and peel back the pages of my skin
Soon I shall be raw,sore and broken
I know am not the most perfect, beautiful women in the world, you took me to your home, you gave me love, happiness and affection.
Pain is temporary but welcome it's relief where hurt once stood its a cold blade and a restless night a breeze that blows just a shy to cold pain is me mum doing nothing as I'm used pain is me dad turning me into his whore pain is me friends leav
Love is like a drug once you've taste it
Searching for that same feeling
But I forgot to pace it
I remember that day when we first met
you spoke naught and only looked at me and shyly smiled
but
that day I somehow knew that we were meant to be
your brown eyes ripped through mine heart and saw me
Life is a let-down
So am I
Streams of blue rain
And all I do is cry
Sitting on a cold bench
In a cold house
Kick me when I’m down
And tell me I don’t matter
I want to feel I belong
That’s all I ever asked
Now really can you blame me
You always thought, your kids will never know the feeling of addiction, but I went to re
My bear is with me nightly, as i fall into smooth slumber.
Sometimes i dream, most times i don't, but its there through it all,
Its there when you aren't. My only friend, confidante.
My anger pours out as I scream for some release.
I want to be gone and away from this beast.
Nothing I say is ever enough for you.
I cannot be content as long as I'm being used.
Set me free I repeatedly scream.
Despair and darkness have taken over my life
This is nothing new
I've gone through and put up with a lot of strife
What is one more day of hell when your life is a pit of fire?
You ruined me
Ooh farewell
Ooh farewell
Sorry to see you go
My hopes where
For you to come home again
Praying for the sun to shine on you
Never to be rained on by falling bullets or falling bombs
You may have had a rough life, present & future – but who are you to judge the future?
In this universe, there’s too much pain
From people to people, it’ a non-ending train
Trying not to give in time
Wasting is not a try
Good, bad, jealous, uncaring
A rose, but one, none other rose did I have,
A rose, one rose, and this was a wondrous creation,
One rose a rose that brightened earth and sky,
One rose, my rose, that sweetened my breath and air,
I was not born mean
I was born into treachery
Riding on glaring black wheels
My heart's left black eye caught feelings
Who knew a handsome fellow
Had inherited Jack the Ripper's thirst
The point of the pen cuts deeper than the bladeIt leaves its mark, on my skin, the pageFinger print lines, lies on those lipsIt dripsInk glistens, follows veinsA sick beat trailing after your blood
The case of a bladeIn the darkest placeI clutched it through fabricThrough every feelingA portal to a memory long goneThe blood on your handsThe smile on your lipsf̶e̶l̶t̶ feels so good
They say just let go
But I hang on to the edge
Of everything
Is letting go such a good idea?
We've All had that kin of love,
where we fall so hard
we've all fallen for the one person who can
do no wrong
to us
we've all gotten to that point
We've all been wraped up in
the phenomena of
My soul is like an empty sock
Cold and pleading for a foot.
But my soul is allergic to feet
So it weeps at night for the homeless grass.
I also like to watch the moon smile at the stars.
Hands in the sky
On my knees
Nobody heard
My piercing scream
The broken remains
Of the world around
Shattered and fell
With a deafening sound
as she sped down the interstate going 90
she saw things
she saw her father hanging off a power line
a tv cord permitting him death
she would see the cord murdering him
A carefree soul
With a busy mind;
A gentle heart
Trapped in a little girl.
Smiles fill her face
And laughter fills her air,
As she wanders aimlessly
Through her days.
Four golden hearts
In the silent waves she saw herself,
Lost and confused, she cried for help.
Through the screams and moans that came tumbling out,
The distorted images that filled her with doubt.
No longer could she stand alone,
Honorio Freeland
Lost in the World
Who am I?
What makes me, me?
Eighteen years young,
With not plenty to show for it.
School is a place where I love to go,
Where I stare at a board so my mind will grow.
I love it so much I could go all year,
Yeah, that's right, no sarcasm here.
I love how I learn just what my teachers say,
I am not a number.
I am not a rank out of my class, which is a bummer.
I am not a number on a four-point scale.
I am not just a student, and I like to rebel.
I am a person.
Always last in Gym Class,
I Never stood a chance in Debate.
Immediately chosen for any Group task,
That science Fair was a piece of Cake.
Teachers love me,
Oh how they praise me.
Others not so much,
Alex Noe, I love you
You make me feel very special
But you have to know
I won when I first met you
Only been a month
It feels right to say “I love…”
I believe in us
I know we can make this work
Everyone’s a rebel,
we all want to change the system.
We all shout until our throats are sore
but the government won’t listen.
School funding is paid by
the local property taxes.
I am the girl you laugh at every day
I am the boy with scars on my arms
I am the geek who hides behind books
I am the jock who's scared of sexuality
I am the cheerleader with the imperfect body
T'Was the Christmas season,
Where a little boy glees with reason.
He's filled with joy,
As he waits for hid favorite toy.
The little boy couldn't wait,
but it was just too late.
Alone.
Always I am alone.
No one to turn to and nowhere to run,
it isn't on purpose and it isn't fun.
I try to stand up,
I try to speak out,
but always I am told that without a doubt,
I can't do it!
Everytime I try,
I Fail!
You keep pushing,
But you don't understand
Everytime I try,
It feels like I been here before I feel familar with this scene these words theses actions I feel like its on everyones minds thoughts lips tounge, its been in every corner of the world this feel to familar yet it has no shape, nor organic matte
Allow me to clear my throat first
Ahem,
Fuck you, English Teacher, with the same capital F
You gave me on that paper you refused to accept
I know my ABCs and my punctuation
I'm nothing special
Not beautiful
Not talented
Not funny
Not smart
I'm just an average girl
Destined for an average life
For meaningless experiences
And dismal opportunities
I feel like
I'm walking upstream
through a current strong enough
to pull me under again.
I
Just
Want
To know
If I died today
Who would cry tonight
Who would miss school tomorrow
Who would regret their actios next week
Would anyone stand tall like a mountain for next year
I grew tired of sleepless nights-
Contemplating life while simultaneously
Managing to not participate in it.
as of right nowI'd rather be a poor woman on the street no food to eati don't wont no but if i have to crylooking down seem like i had it all
Believe me,
I am aware
Of every single flaw
Or imperfection
That creates my
Monstrous existence.
So who are you
To come and blame
My imperfections
For making me
If only they knew , if only i could say..i hate coming to school everyday.
Not because of the lunch, or the switching my class rush.
I came home and found you in your usual spot, hiding from the world.
Dark despide the sun being awake.
Your eyes are open yet nobodys home, you stare straight ahead without following my movements.
I can't cry,
Because that is admitting defeat,
I can't cry,
Because if I did you'd tear me down more.
I can't smile,
Because you know if I do it'll crack into a thousand pieces,
I can't smile,
i
i w
i wa
i wan
i want
i want t
i want to
i want to b
i want to be
i want to be f
i want to be fr
i want to be fre
i want to be free.
Where are you going,
I can't find you,
where are you going,
I just trusted you,
Where are you going tonight.
I just wanted you,
and I just needed you,
I am waiting, I am alone,
My life is like a bad fairytale.
Dragons lurk in every cave,
ogres in every shadow.
When I get to the place where the castle should be,
what do I see?
The evasive palace has escaped me.
I am reaching out to youBut you cannot or will not hearCan’t you see that I am in need?You look without seeing my tears I am so lonesome. All by myself
Powerful word:
Ignored. Emotionally and physically.
Why does the world have the mentality of every man for itself?
Feeling lonely and unimportant.
Both in home and the world.
I want to love you for forever and a day.
Til the sun comes down, and its time to lay.
Til, the wind blows and the seas roar.
I wanna be with you, but dont forget theres one more.
My blood ran cold as he looks at me,i shiver as his breeze past me, i look apon his face and i worry... why is this i wonder?
Hand in hand
our gazes met.
One quick smile,
one skipped breath.
Is this love?
Do I have faith?
To lunge head first
or am I too afraid.
Numbers, books, words, they're all related in a way
It all relates through school I must say
Some things just don't make sense
And yes I have spent most of my life in school
Some may call me a fool
This is the blood i bleed
There is a reason for this pain
Some people just never understand
The pain i go through is too much to withstand
This pain i go through is worse than any other
frusterated .. miserble .. that is my school life .
teachers on the other hand makes my world go upside DoWn.
with their i dont think so, and NO you cant
ughhh... this is miserable..
teachers these day.
Eventually
Eventually you’ll run out of tears,
Eventually you’ll run out of fears.
Eventually you’ll run out of sadness,
i know im not right for you but i wish i was. i try not to fall for you but i just cant. i keep holding these feelings in because its too soon. but if you give me a chace ill prove it to you. if i get hurt i can only blame me.
Love
a 4 letter word, though it holds so much gravity
yet we throw it around like something thats only worth a penny
Hate
Words of honey can lead to arrogance,
And words of vinegar often sting.
It is your job to educate and enrich,
There is an empty place in my chest, an empty spot where my thoughts use to flow and my memories use to play. The familiar rhythm that's kept me alive for so long is slowly coming to a halt.
Life: the inevitable,
it can throw you to the ground,
or it can bring you up,
either way it treats you a certain way.
I've always been the one to experience this,
Its coarse taut roots embedded themselves within my chest,
making it harder to finish my quest.
Its icy cold petals blossomed within,
Heavy hangs the albatross
Around my neck like pearls.
Passed from an elder,
To a little girl.
Knowledge may be a gift,
My heart sings the words
Of my soul
It feels all my weeknesses
It hears all my screams
It tastes the chalking of my blood
It smells the fear of my aching beat
It sees the nightmares that I
There's nothing i wouldnt do just to see you again
All the words i've said have no meaning
With this mess i've made i must do all the cleaning
I told you i loved you
But you left me with no clue
Let's pop some pills, Fall in loveCut our wrists and spill our bloodDrink come Gin, let's die tonightCome on Demons, help end our lifeLet us bleed, for what we see
Let's pop some pills, Fall in loveCut our wrists and spill our bloodDrink come Gin, let's die tonightCome on Demons, help end our lifeLet us bleed, for what we see
I am from hearing babies cry changing numerous diapers a day, from an innocent kid and team work.
I know this girl Who has a broken heart Who wants to cry Who wants to die Who wears a fake smile But has a friend that tells her "Stay strong , everything will be okay." She wants to scream She wants to shot But wont....... She remembers all
All the cliques laugh away
While I sit and watch
Wondering where my friends are
Wondering where you are
Wondering why distance keeps us apart.
The teachers will lecture
Used to be friends our first year
Fast-forward, I’m standing here
Halls are deserted, no one in sight
Here you come from behind and body check me on the right
That’s how it started
Every day's a waste.
I'd rather have just died.
I try to get though it.
Believe me, I've tried.
I am so tired of feeling
Like no one gives a shit
Not my friends or parents.
Im so done with it.
I always said it couldn't happen to me I always said my heart cant be broken I always said I would never cry I always said I don't fight for boys I always said NO FATHERS ALLOWED I always said I don't believe in love But now I say that you change
I'm tired of looking at you
Wondering if I'm doing what's right
I'm tired of watching you kill yourself
Fighting to save your life
I'm tired of you destorying who you are inside as person
Love is hallow as a cave
Led by its beauty, a great quest
Love is a path for the brave
It will never settle for less.
What is something you can't say to your teacher?
Is it a thing or an action?
A place or person?
A problem or an obstacle?
A struggle or problem?
To tell you the truth we can tell all of this
Little girl why are you crying
Is it cause everyone keeps lying
Saying its gonna get better
But your face just keeps getting wetter
Little girl why are you so sad
She was a very young girl
Life just started it would seem
About fifteen years old
Life being torn by the seams
Fond memories, led astray
No glimpse of hope, such disarray
Scornful judgment brings out a beast, so tame
Blinded by its fear, naught bravery remain
Tearing at the wounds that reject
Love is something I don't understand.Hell, I don't think anyone does.When you say "I love you."And they say "Don't."How do you expect me to changeThe way I feel about youIt's not much of a choice.
Kiss my lips and empty me, love me long and set me free.
I'll give you it all, even me. Or crush me quick and leave me be. Our love is strong..in harmony
Love is only temprary.
What do you say-
When no one will listen?
Who do you ask-
When no one will help?
Where do you run-
When there’s nowhere to go?
What do you feel-
When all you feel is hurt?
In the valley of the Shadow of Death,
There’s no place to hide, no place to rest.
The demons there, haunting your every step.
Choking you ‘till you have no breath.
The light at the end of the tunnel
When your pain is tangible
You can reach out and touch it.
It’s everywhere, consuming you.
You don’t even realize how lon_____g
it’s been eating away at your insides, until
they finally cave in and c
I’m walking a thin line,
I’m running out of my lifeline.
They’re letting go, they’re moving on
How come I’m so far gone?
Why am I so worthless?
My life so pointless?
I thought about it once or twice,
maybe three or four.
About suicide, and what it would be like,
if I didn’t live anymore.
My world is dark and gray,
filled with sorrow and lots of pain.
Society has spoken,
nobody cares.
He cries all alone,
for the truth he cannot bear.
He bleeds all night
yet no one is there,
not one single person
nice enough to care.
You clenched at my chest,
For a sweet rational moment.
Heart drop.
Bottom rock.
The bitter grin
Made my face numb like gin.
The only
Substance
That can
Be
Absorbed
There she was alone again
she made her choice
so we'd hear her silent voice
maybe I was so stupid,
for not seeing this before
This is why,
she cried to sleep at night
I'm a glass house.
Just take a glance, you'll know if I'm home or not
Maybe a light is on, music is playing
Peer a little deeper to be sure that I'm not
Survey my windows to see if you can find me,
I'm sorry that I fell in love
Sorry that I think you're perfect
Sorry that You're the one
I didn't mean to bother.
I didn't mean to push you away
Didn't mean to go insane
I just wanted you to stay
To whom it may concern,
It is healthy food for which i yearn.
For it's called chicken but looks like a log.
Then after we eat, we continue to learn in fog.
Nights of terror seem to pass
And days of sorrow fade.
In every moment that I laugh
I slowly crawl out of the shade.
Bits and pieces start to form
But some parts are still gone.
Hey you…
Yeah, you.
The girl with all the scars and stories to tell.
The boy who sits alone in the corner,
The child with a black eye from “falling down the stairs”,
I’m here for you,
Now and forever.
Fret.
Regret.
Anxiety.
Worry.
These are the things that held me down.
These were the things that haunted me
One big confusion. one big disaster, spinning out of control,
I remember when it used to be just us and the music.
We blocked the whole world out to hip hop,
and every now and again, I could convinvce you to try something else.
Like Carolina Liar, or Of Monsters and Men,
Living in darkness seemed the best way
Light never reached my face as I lay
As the fabric of life seemed to fray
Hateful words spoken in spite
Light was no longer in my sight
There are some students who don't respect. There are those who don't care about their teachers. Respect them and they will recommend
Stuck in my mind,
but I must rewind.
Death seeks everyone,
its part of life.
There is a limit of time,
passes by like the speed of light.
Containing wonderful memberies,
I miss your smile,
i miss your face,
i miss your strongly supporting embrace.
I miss your voice,
i miss your words,
that made me feel like, the only girl in the world.
I miss your laugh,
They tell me I'm not quite right,
that I don't meet their standards
Reminding me of my imperfections
and screaming at me to be better.
Their words sizzle against my heart;
Singeing the delicate flesh,
As she closed her eyes she imagined her life before her
Her eyes were bowed down in defeat, in weakness
She reminisced on what she had lost, what she had gained
If you only knew
What we carry on our crooked spines
When we leave your room
The torment
The pressure
The never ending gloom
If you only knew
What our futures hold
Society killed the teenager.
What did we expect?
That the words would roll off their shoulders?
No responsibility to collect?
Society killed her.
They said she wasn’t pretty enough.
Its 2012,
December 31st,
It all started with a Facebook message saying I had a crush,
I made you laugh and I made you blush
You gave me your number we would text and we would flirt,
Your the love of my life, The bright star that shine in me, The inspiration that put me to my feet. You mean the world to me. Everyday dreaming about the day we will meet again. Your the sorrow in myy heart, I never knew you and i was like stars.
Today is the last day I'll feel you breathing down my back,
My love for you is gone,
I don't know if I'm sad or relieved,
Because falling in love with you was the best thing that ever happened to me,
A rainy day is like a sad day, Sad day with me fill with tears. I search the days to shine but no sun is found. Everyday i mock a sunny day but really it a rrainy day inside of me.
I was alive when i met you.
Alive but cautious because I always feared death...
feared what it would be like if you left....
You made me live reckless on the edge..
and the times i spent with you....
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You yell at me and I stare, I don't know what to do.
I know what I want to say, but the message won't go through.
The words are stuck in my throat, I can't speak cause of the looks you show.
In the past, i never talked about my needs. I never wanted to tell my needs.
I was alone because i had no one. I had family, but i never saw it. I had friends, but i never saw it.
I was getting help, but i never saw it.
Gently they take her wrist
And break it
They stroke his hair
And pull it
The hold her hand
Then smash it
They teach him well then let him go
They want to teach her about the world
She strokes my hair gently
Kisses me passionatlely
Hugs me tightly
Always loves me
Wants to be with me forever
Cares about me more than anything
Spends every second of every day by my side
You can be a real pain at times
coming whenever you feel like it and make me feel
small, worthless, tired,
I have enough problems already
why do you have to make more for me?
There is no day that goes by
I feel angry with the world
I sit quietly in my room
I pray for a better tomorrow…
How would my life be
Without fear and sadness?
How would it feel to be
I could always jump, you'd find my body in a dump.
Body broken like my soul, for its spirit no longer could hold.
I could always cry, sometimes wishing I could die.
Two lovers intertwined in a complicated web.
One compromised by word.
The other compromised by heart.
One chained.
One free.
As the sun rises andAnother day takes flight;The blessing is fulfilled again.As the dew begins to lite;My heart flutters,For my love is forever in sight.
Why must we fight
Instead of being friends
Why must we fight
For what reason should it be
Why must we fight
When we're all the same
Why must we fight
Just because someone is different
I know she is tired,she hates feeling this way,She weeps and she cries,tears of pain day to day.She deals with much hurt,and is put through much strife,her skin sticks to her shirt,
I don't know where to turn anymore or where to go
I feel like where I'm at has turned into a black empty hole
How can I ever get out of this mess O how I just don't seem like the rest
I remember like it was yesterday
that we talked, joked, and laughed
and now that you are not here
that is all in the past
I can see clear as day
a smile spreading across your face
Its always a secret
We cant go here, we cant go there
So and so comin, so we cant go
I cant follow you on social media, cause people might know
You put me in a little pocket and take me out when you want
They think she's happysee her smile and just assumebut what they don't know might kill herit might lead her to her doom Little do they knowher mind has the controlshe is slowly dyingsoon she may very well go In her eyes is the painon her arms ar
Don’t try to speak to me
I have nothing to say
Despite forcasted developmental trends
My etymological roots have decayed
Only half-formed ideas stumble lazy from these lips
Misguided thoughts
I ask for your forgiveness in writing this to you, and I can assure it will be my final interference in this delicate matter.
I know the voices in your headThey've reached down into your coreI know the lies that they have said because I've heard them all before
Maybe it's time, that I give you a simple rhyme. A reason to listen, as my eyes glisten. I'm tired of the lies, those that binds and ties; my very soul from becoming whole. I may not be the poster child, but I wasn't raised up wild. Don't mock
Your thumbnails are very beautiful, I’m sure you think so too;
You must be very proud of them, gorgeous, pink, and small;
I can tell you love them very much, because staring at them is all you do.
Sticks and stones may break my bones but words will never hurt me
We've heard it, said it, learned it.
But tell me do people choose to take their life because this rhyme is right?
As that horrible that gets closer day by day the more I fight back the tears :( nothing makes letting you go easier and knowing my memories are all I have left kills me, litterly hurts my heart so bad I'd rip it out if I could.
The perfect girl,
That's what everyone saw.
The one that everyone knew.
The girl without a flaw.
But when she looked in the mirror,
She hid behind a facade.
All the scars on her wrists,
Say what you want, do as you please
for I know that whatever you doin ain't
gonna happen to me. You can scowl,snarl,
and glare but I'm untouchable like the air.
You may say your wicked taunts and do your evil
She’s far from an innocent
For deep in her past
Lie memories in waiting,
Coming on fast.
The shame and the guilt
Are too much to take,
So she closes her eyes
And accepts her fate…
Fireflies
In a wide black sky
You hold my heart
I hold you tight
Kiss my cheek
Please don’t leave
Baby, I’m here
You belong with me.
Summer breeze
Crashing waves
You are the shackles to my oppression, more similar to my depression
You say I can't succeed just as it says I can't be free
I am oppressed and depressed.
Have you ever felt Depression?
It's like a dark cloudy day.
Everyday.
That warm blanket you crave,
Smothers you until you can't breathe.
It's that tightness in your chest.
Clenching.
As a little girl I played with dolls behind your back,
Until that one time you caught me and I got smacked.
You wanted me in school and make friends,
But when I did the new friendship would eventually have to end.
I've been knocked down before someone knocked down my door. They been down a street where you didn't want to meet, as well as me.
I keep thinking about you. But I'm not sure what to do. Maybe If i stop dreaming of what could be.Maybe If i stop thinking of it as you and me.Maybe letting you go is the key.
My feet smell
And neglect appears to be my only friend.
People hang out and talk with me
We share only words
Though nothing articulate.
So heavy,
My breath deep and aching in my chest.
To go to bed
And sleep,
Not for better weather,
I miss that feelingWhen I felt the surgeThe boost of spiritsThe sound of birdsThe world was laughterThe peace, like rainBut since it happenedIt won’t come again
i want to read the lines of your hands as if they where peices of paper with a story to tell. I want to kiss your hands so that my lips could tell the verystory of which your hands plead to speak. I want to swim in the river of your emotion
We all cry for help don't we? We are in need of help for every little trouble or bump along the way in our path. But there are others in the world and in our communites that are in BIGGER trouble and they need OUR help.
Sticks and stones break bones,
And they aren't always alone,
Cause sometimes words hurt even more,
Leaving behind a heart truly sore,
And beating three beats behind,
My wrists... like paper.
The knife... a pen.
The blood it savors.
The ink, it sends.
My skin is torn.
The paper is ripped.
Blade like a thorn.
The pen, it shifts.
Every scar has a story.
I am the ugly sister. These are the words I can’t escape. I cannot escape the rejection, or the hate. I am the one that no one comes to claim. My sister says the muffin top will go away, that I need to work harder.
Come with me to the room of doors for some funTake a deep breath and open door number oneIn this room livesA teenage girlHiding awayFrom the cruel cruel world.Her eyes are hollowHer soul a shell
What do you actually see when you look into these dark brown eyes?
Do you see a girl with happiness all around her or a girl galloping through a meadow filled with dasies.That's what you think you see but you dont really see the
I'm always dreaming,
Even when I'm awake.
In my dreams, I have control
Usually...
Until one day,
There was a razor in my hands
And I awake to lots of blood
Everywhere...
lonely. oh what a word. one that you cannnot completely understand until you've been there...done that. and i know how that feels. it's like a part of you has crawled off somewhere and died. like the song you once sung doesn't sound the same.
Why would someone do such a thing?
Someone please tell me why.
He gave him so much of his effort.
So much of his money and time.
Between the two was everything.
He'd helped him stand back up.
His Holding Into My Emptiness of my universe , while my mind is out of earth ! A start wont probably reach to my hopes ! While im here left in the back with a bag tht was left ! It was left to the wrong person
So many lovers have loved and lost,
they never tried to fight the cost.
Love doesn't conquer if you don't help it win,
for love is a feeling that can't help but to give in.
The sun
Never looked bright
Anymore
When you arrived
Our souls
Taken
Right before our eyes
The night sky
Is Darker
Than ever before
When you arrived
We hear the kids
they laugh at the weak
They mock and taunt
the people who are not passing or meek
The taunted hide
they can't handle the stress
They feel stupid and worthless
They expect so much out of you
And you wonder if they see you breaking
Like how you parents do
when they see you
when they walk past your room at night
there's a little creak of light
Love, love comes and goes without a trace
It holds you, and leaves you when you need it the most
It's everywhere and nowhere !!!
It's magic, tragic, and fantastic
Walking aimless in eternal mysery
I came upon a great mystery-
A hidden pathway in a hill
Gave my senses a big thrill.
And so I followed the path 'till the top
And found a graveyard in the stop.
Your Love is like the
sun shining down on my face
my heart, like water to a flower
i could not not survive without it.
Your Love is like a wonderful dream,
that i dare not wake from. i am scared that
Your love is like the sun
shining down on my face
warming my heart.
Like water to a plant
i could not survive without it.
Your love is like a wonderful dream,
that i dare not wake from.
Something so unreal, it can't even truly be described. It has so many conditions that this world could never fulfill. This world is too imperfect to keep with the what ifs and alsos and sometimes and shoulds.
Day to day this pain arisesPeople don't realize that happy days are prizesHappiness is something I wish I could findBut when it comes to it, I think I am blind Day to day I wish I could riseFrom this pain that might result in my demiseI am sick an
Your subtle whispers
scream in my ears
exclaming hate
pronounce my fears
I can see your staring eyes
looking through me
judging, spreading rumors
lies
But I am strong
I'm drowning. I can't keep my feet on the ground. I say "save me from this pain." But things just remain the same. There's no one else to blame for the scars on my skin. I don't think I can win. I can't hold on any longer.
I stand here touching the breeze in my hair,
feeling unconscious full of despair,
I feel the touch of freedom.
You told me i have legs, so I walk.
I stand here with the darkness in my eyes,
I sit in a world
all alone
lost and confused
with nothing to call my own.
Sweating my past
as memories flood my head
i want to leave
because i have nothing to dread.
I think to myself
ou claim to know me. Yet you don’t see my pain, my suffering, my black, shriveled up excuse for a heart. All you see is the smile, the overweight child, the kid that sits alone at lunch. You claim to know me.
Day 1: My feet hit the cold tile and my eyes strain at the board.
I hear your monotonous bore,
I think, I think, no more.
I am just another one of the horde.
Day 2: The straps pull at my back
You saw the ache under her artifical simper yet you sat and said nothing as her eyes plead for a cure to relive this agony form her casket everyday you watched her tear bare her skin in hopes of becoming free of her hollow soul and
Everything felt grey today,
The sidewalk, the sky, what people say.
Sometimes I wish I were a tropical bird,
or that I lived in a fantasy world (with magic).
That way I could conjure colour,
I get to school take my seatYou take roll while we all eat Our breakfast and listen to your dumb rulesWhich have all of us acting a foolYou slowly go down the roster You peer through your ugly bifocals that make you look like a monster You start t
Life sometimes can play tricks on the distracted eye. Sometimes you see the horizon but not the road ahead of you. And sometimes there is no road and you have to find your own trail.
Sitting in this hollow room alone ,
Screaming , crying , cursing at whats unknown
If there were some way to make it through the night
If there were some way to make everything right
I'd give anything tonight ,
Walking to a court room at the age of 7 was very frightening. I knew I did not do anything wrong. I was getting adopted, but I did not have a say in anything.
We sat on the steps of my eroded muck stained porch.
We contemplated our lives and our identities while sipping on unclean glasses.
We laughed at my awful past of abuse,
neglect,
and
insanity
Night and Day your at my side,
my friend my heart my peace.
Lighten my mornings,
watching you run and play and chase.
Brighten my nights,
next to me close warming my dreams.
I cannot understand my current emotions on the relationship I am in, I don’t understand how I feel anymore. My emotions don’t talk I have to but if I can’t understand them how I can explain them.
Everything is normal,
the people are in a hurry, the animals running around,
my heart is beating.
Then just like that
something sets me off.
Hispanics are considered a minority because most of them are not educated
and barely make enough to reach the minimum wage.
Living in a world where that’s expected from you can be tough
One heart two different worldsOne body two opposite girlsOne chose love the other hateOne chose corruption the other faithOne always tries to devise a planThe other simply follows the great I am
Because The Sound Of Voice & My Lips Were Close !
You Told Me Just Repeat "Strawberry" My Heart Beat 100 Miles per hour!
Not Knowing How and When To Say it !
Poor Child only 9years old !
Love is like a wild stormWith a shower of broken hearted rainIt will swing you like a tornadoFlood your heart like a hurricaneIts hard to love someoneThat doesn’t love you
I don't understand why you hurt me or make me have these scars
you always say no one cares of course i'm going to take that to heart.
your suppose to love me and take care of me but you havent been doing that lately
Knowing that I have an attraction for you makes me so upset with myself. How could I let this happen to me?
you've been here with methrough thick and thinyou knew i was hurtbefore i told you you fought my wallsgot yourself ini cant get you out nowno matter how hard i trydid not want to trust you
What's deep but very shallow?
What's thin but very thick?
What's white that could turn to black very fast?
What could cause joy but then fear?
Boom Boom, Swish Swish
it's possible to have a house-
but no home.
it's possible to be surrounded-
and completely alone.
i'm trying to concentrate-
without staring at my phone.
the scars on my outside layers
You see it all the time
the loss of energy
Sitting in a lit room and then
a light flickers off, suddenly
everything becomes more dim
Except it's not as easy as
changing a light bulb, or
I want to be perfect, I don't want the pain. I want her to be happy. I want everything to gain. I want people to disappear, her attention I crave. She makes me strong, she makes me brave. I don't ever want to argue, I don't want her to hate me.
As the years escape my eyes. You try to say your final goodbye. But your hand won't leave mine. Thoughts of you fill my mind. Life without you is full of pain, no laughter, no smile just gray painful rain.
A steady rhythm,
A speedy pace,
My heart now seems to race.
A race,
A fight,
What we do in the night.
Loving, leaving,
I begin to start bleeding.
Remorce and grieving
He's a failure
In my class he won't survive
17 and black?
I'm surprised he's alive
He's just a stupid football player
Is that all you think I am?
Just another statistic?
Disgracing Uncle Sam?
I miss how you looked in my eyes that first night
I could not recal anything else
the way your soft skin felt on my cold hands
The blurred memory gave me a rush
I miss when we layed recalling the past
I dont understand why this can be, almost all alone in this journey.
No one seems to see anything from my point of view.
Only a few see my perspective, it is even harder when your
She’s kind
Though she never really says much
She smiles
Though it never really seems real
She laughs
Though she never really seems to enjoy being around
She’s here, doing what she has to do faithfully
Love can be a poison
Like a snake wrapped around you,
Suffocating you,
Injecting the poisonous venom
Those tears that hit your face,
They burn like acid
Why must this happen to you
I want to disappear I wanted to fade into the background......
I thought that losing the weight would make them like me...... They don't...
I started to get more involved in school no one seemed to notice either.....
My mind is going insane; I can barely even think. I'm letting myself go, faster than a blink. Friends and family form a line that is longer than a mile; but even with them here, my life still feels like it's not worth while.
Look at my face, you'll see a beautiful girl. Look into my eyes, you'll see something hidden. Look at my smile, you'll see it isn't real. Look at my soul, it's the biggest pain you could ever feel...
One love doesn't last longbut here is one thing it is going to be alright once a pon agogo out and find another one when you are lonely everytime you like of him or her
Floating
Leaping
Screeching
Clawing your eyes out just to
Spite you
Spite me instead
I can't live the way you want
Me to. The way you look at me
Tells me that you want me to respond.
Im making my mind up to express.
Living this way is just a mess.
Laughing at nothing
Is funny when its serious.
Im Living life to the fullest
So im a gangster.
Living is dying.
and there’s a whole in my chest and it aches for you
and I’m going crazy in my head, I don’t know what to do
and I’m sad because you’ll probably never feel the same
and because I’ll never see you again
I can't sleep; the memories keep me up at night,
All of the things I should have said,
Should have done,
To make you mine.
The thoughts of you won't ever transcend,
The time you were almost mine,
You are my South Wind,
There to uplift me
There to surround me
But never to falter.
You are my Sun,
There to light my way
There to give me hope
But never to dim.
I push so hard everyday
I know it angers you so much to wake up knowing Im not with you no more to drive you crazy
I wake up too but here or not you still drive me crazy
Maybe She Would Be Alive Today. If I Spoke Up And Said What I Needed To Say. If I Thought Differently and Choose A Different Path. Crazy Thing Is I Didn’t Think She Would Last.
She screams as the light beams pushing and pushing the wall of despair.
Times of love from above is just like a dove resting on my shoulder.
Times of love, Times of love, Times of love.
You ask why, but I cant give the real answer
The story cant be heard
No its not correct to say the things that happened
Get personal,
NEVER! Its inappropriate..
But what if my story defines me
Trails of gray blazing the untrailed canvas
It's curves at it's masters every whim
Success! The man says, as he puts it aside
and reprints with the black.
It's work shaded by the of ink
For Everyone who is in school.
For Everyone who has been bullied.
For Everyone who has been in a sport.
For Everyone who is battling addiction.
For Everyone who is working.
For Everyone who is a parent.
I avert my gaze
contemplative and serene
we think the same thoughts
memories come crashing back
fake civility in hand.
Let me tell you that nothing is wrong with me,I have all four limbs and no deadly disease.No blindness or deafness and nothing that oozes,no broken bones or scrapes or bruises.
The time passes by,
So fast.
The light seems to,
Fade away.
I sit here,
Watching,
The sun rise,
The moon shine.
Thump Thump even steps on the floor
A rhythmic monotone inciting horror
Who is it that makes such a beaten path
Is it death or man with a thought to pass
Watch.
Wait.
Run.
I Watch him walk and wait for his return. Watch him run and wait to feel something. Anger?
Lots of it.
Sadness?
Not enough.
Resentment?
It boils in my blood.
Lost in the world around her
The kids in school call her names,
Mock her ripped clothing
No one knows the truth.
She goes home to a drunken father,
A broken mother and a missing brother,
clouds are thick, the ground grabs
It weighs you down, It tugs at you
slowly pulling slowly drawing
walking against the wind
heavy feet heavy head
forced back held back
no movement, no progress
I can't move. I can't see. I can't breathe. Nobody cares. Nobody listens. I'm not me. I'm not you. Who am I? I haven't got a clue. Someone please help me. I still can't move. What's wrong with me? I have got a clue. Depression.
I am a silver moon. You are my world. If you do not desire this gravitational pull any longer, then I shall take myself elsewhere. I can find another planet to orbit my heart around. Someone who does not consider me to be a meteor.
Cold ice stretching over a fortress of falling beams. Rolling from blue eys come the diamonds of a sad day. Once strong the brick buildings fall in a crumbling rubble of distress. In a silent room a fire is ignited.
what seems so easy
isn't to some
makes them feel queazy
terrified of whats to come
speaking in front of a variety
for a simple presentation
those who suffer social anxiety
I am like a ceramic bowl, and this bowl has many assets.Beautiful from a far, but up close you see my cuts, scars and bruises put there by all the hate and doubt of the world.
The Inner Me.
It's the soul you cannot see.
The pain, the struggles, the beating, and troubles.
I cry out for help.
Suicide thoughts.
No one there to tell me, stop.
I'm am confused at the mind.
theres many ways to show love
actions speak louder than words
many people may recall the scene of pain
to overcome pain forgiveness is the key.
Holding on to that one last kiss.
Remembering what it was like to hold you like this.
My heart is slowly burning to the ground.
With the passion in the love I had found.
Your words still linger in this place.
Welcome to my world
Of lies,loniliness,hate, and depression
My world of tears and loneliness
Of fear and scars and rust-tinged razors
That smell like fresh sea water
somehow don’t satisfy me anymore.
A pit of despair embarks upon me.
Dragging me deeper, catching my breath.
Gasping for air, I grieve.
Clawing for space, I breathe.
It is only then that I notice my need,
That I find what I grieve,
Everything in life is temporary,
the people you love, the people you hate.
Life, Love, Happiness, Smiles, Tears, Pains, Sadness, Doubt, Anger, Fear, Everything.
Every emotion you have right now is temporary.
There oncewas a boy who rode my bus,
with wide green eyes,
who sat alone...
and didn't seem to care.
There once was a boy at my school,
who was quiet
but had the most beautiful smile,
You think school is all sweet and all.
And you think teenagers like me are the generation to fall.
But you don't understand that outside those silver gates.
Life soon becomes a brawl.
Why are you so depressed?Your sadness only seems to festerI want to make your heavy load have less But first you need to clean up your mess
Broken Rear View
Many times we alloy our curiosity to spoil of future,
More often than not,
We obsess over our rear view.
Have you ever taken the time to think,
What if your rear view-
The Hill That Never Sleeps
Have you heard of the hill,
That never sleeps?
We’ve been properly acquainted,
In my virtuous sheets.
Watching-your every move,
In search of flaws.
Baggage Claim
To those who view their past,
As a lesson.
Simply sit back and do yourself a favor-
Commit to confession.
Sift through the bags which look-
Oh so similar on the outside.
I wish my life was over,
My world made of broken clovers,
Falling out of place,
going into a dark space,
filled with blood,
nothing to love...
No one can see through my facade,
Can a heart still break once it's stop beating can you believe me even though you know I am lying will you be there when I need you even though when your in need I'm never anywhere to be found when your in need will you catch me when I am
Your eyes are so stunning,
that they could cover the night sky,
and outshine the moon, and stars,
and even all the galaxys combined.
Your smile is so strong,
it rocks me to my core,
3AM
(One Cut)
Don’t ever wake up at 3am
It’s scary enough falling asleep
Waking up out of a state of rest
Takes a lot of energy mentally
Like your mind gets tired, fatigued
Overthinking starts.
I want a ......Guy who notices my sensitivityGuy who notices my heartGuy who understands my confusion and pain and where it comes fromI want a ........guy who confident. In saying i love you day one.
I remember the way you told me
You loved me
That it would never be you and I
It would be we
I remember your beautiful
Smile
I remember holding hands on the beach
Walking for miles
It is five in the morning as twilight sheds tears down my face,
The dancing horizon teases my mourning
eyes yearning for sorrow
But bleeding condescending sympathy
The sun rays invade,
Do you see the pain?The pain in my eyes.Do you see the hurt?Hurt buried deep in my heart.Did you search to knowKnow what I have been throughOr did you just wishI let go and never looked back?
I breathe.
Inhale.
Exhale.
Two easy movements.
Involuntary.
Necessary.
The difference between two ends,
Life,
Death.
Breath changes everything…
I breathe.
I like you a lot but don't know how to tell you...why can't we see eye to eye?
Set standards for each other? Everything is just so paper thin. With not enough time,
You see smiles they glisten,
There's nothing else but listen
Dark shadows, cold walls
You hide and try to ignore the calls.
You ask yourself is it worth it?
Not one bit.
Your Kiss infects me
like the flu infecting young children
it finds me
and absorbs through out my body
taking a few days to leave my system
forever i remember the 1st time
the feeling so new
I knocked on the door just to listen and see if she was home
For some time I waited, cold winds flowing past me and down my back my mind started to rome
Alone is what I began to feel but then she came to the door
A minimum amount of words were said, and time was spent together. Before we knew it. Time was over.
Betrayal, Bruised, Left alone, No one to hold, No one to love, Blessed I’m sure, How can you be blessed? When no one loves you When someone toke your love. Forever alone. Forever apart.
A man who's life was strife by death left mights in his regrets.
Life can be a pain and with punishment they may blame,
but one thing that it gives,
its forgivness for you'r sins.
As the man shouts to death
how dare you put me in a box
labeling me because i dont fit in with the hollywood image
how dare you belittle me because im different
i rather be happy being me then being sad trying to fit in with this asshole society
Is it my time? Is it my time to shine?Is it my time to die? On the outside I look like I’m doing just fine. On the inside, I’m trapped inside these happy lies. Is it my time? Is it my time to be free?
Tearful eyes. / Burning throat. / Stiffled cries, / So they don't know, / I scream inside. / I miss my home. / On my outside, / You'd never know. / I'm tired of sadness. / I'm tired of lies. / I'm tired of secrets, / That everyone hides.
Life turns to death, as the present fades to the past
Its the bleeding of pure silence...
The slow thumping of a partially broken heart..
The twinkle of a knife
Hidden by the night
Her mind flooded by judgment and oppression
Her body aching from hate
Her soul yearning to escape the cage it was forced into
She is only accelerating her fate
She is only accelerating what is intended
Beauty is the eyes of the beholder
That's why he always found beauty in my body
And you always saw it in my eyes
He was only looking for one thing; and liked what he saw
It’s funny how someone who was supposed to love me, never did.
It’s ironic how that a person that I never knew hurt me.
But it’s even worst that I hurt myself.
To Open Her Eyes
When I look in the mirror I see a face
The girl looking back at me is so lost
She feels lonely in a crowded room
But is suffocating in her mind
What do I do to make her smile
I like how the cereal screams in terror as I put the little guys in my mouth
Mmh how sweet, cereal blood between my teeth
Snap Crackle Pop! goes the bones of the breakfast mom bought
I didn't know before how to light a candleTo set by the picture of us on the mantleThere was no flame to light the wayThere was no night to darken the dayThe monsters came to devour the heart
Tears roll down her face as she sees her lover with someone else
Disgusted she feels
She wishes she was someone else
The anger inside from the lies he told
Disrespected from his actions
He is so bold
How can you claim to "love" someone when all you do is hurt them ? What is "Love" ? People say its a big word with so much meaning... Everyone who said they "love" me, all ended up hurting me.
Why do you pretend you're happy? With that fake smile on your face, pretending everythings perfect. You go home and cry... Because you're living a lie. With tears rolling down your face, you say you're okay.
Tell me you love me because you want me in your lifeTell me you love me because you mean it from your heart
Tell me you love me because it's written all over your face
It’s strange.
This feeling.
This heart felt feeling…
Sigh… not again.
Could I… could I really?
No, no, no! I’m not!
I’m probably just sick.
Yeah! Just sick…
Damn, who am I kidding?
Another white tee
Tie dyed in four shades of red
Out of the twelve you’ve already encountered
Bleach will do no good this time
Neither will a Band-Aid
You never have to worry about people getting in your way
Cast over me, a sheet of confusion and foolishness, and yet it took more than one rude awakening in my life to help pull this sheet off my head but I still wonder why do so many tragedies had to come for me to finally understand a part of life.
Crying in the snow will do no good
The tears you cry will never come out
As the touch of blood feels like snow
The animal that lived before you must move on
Letting go is sometimes the only choice for us
DEPRESSION
Depression is like the color black, and is darker than the dimmest parts of space.
It sounds like thousands of screams echoing in your ear, and bashing at your eardrum.
As I walk through the valley of the shadow of death I can't help but feel like there is a hole in my chest I keep searching for something that cant be found until I hear a voice saying "Turn Around" When I looked I couldn't believe just what I saw
When I looked I couldn't believe just what I saw I saw a man Sitting on his throne With my mind blown I fall to my knees Screaming out "LORD HELP ME PLEASE" He says "Son what you're looking for isn't on this EarthBut if you can trust me you wil
We are young.
We are strong.
We are capable of anything.
Sometimes we are wrong.
Colorless and yet so colorful. Madness but mostly wonderful..
There was a place and timeDon't ever go back to thenIt is just filled of memoriesAnd sadnessOf people who don'tRemember you, andPeople whom you wish to forgetYou've visited your past
In, out
Right, left
Yes, no
Go through the motions.
What if you can't?
The walls are caving,
The ground is shaking,
The world seems to be falling apart.
There once was a girl who could never stop crying,
who had so much pain she envied the dying
Her eyes were red as a recent cut's splatter,
but she could never stop crying, so it didn't matter
I don’t want to be heard anymore, but you are starting to listen.
I finally tell you “no” and you’re finally on your knees then,
Education is spoiled by the rotting brains
Disseminating by the television cell membranes
As learning decreases
Society let's ignorant fame and material things sink in
Getting rich quick is more motivation
Time elapses where the world was spinning,
the spinning stops,
the world collapses
Collapsing and falling we all break silently
in the spot that counts
soft, red tissue unmeasured
Can you see her?
can you see the acid rain falls from the skys,
every time she crys?
She walks through life with her head held high,
They say make love, not war
But there’s always a constant battle
With my heart
I’m always fighting for another
And with every battle
I grow weaker
Losing soldiers, losing power
When the rain falls at night
It helps me to sleep
It washes away
All the pain that I weep
I try my best
To look beyond the bad
But it keeps coming back
Like my pen to my pad
Spinning,
Whirling,
Flailing,
Falling,
Dizzy,
No where to turn.
Distant,
I'm alone, with everyone around me,
Drifting like drift wood,
In a mind boggling sea
I thought my first love will be my last
I thought its you that I belong to
But now, what I once thought remains as thoughts
For you are now waiving goodbye.
All your smiles are for me
Behind the door there is another lie
With these two I don’t even get a break
Having to deal with these two until I cry
Staying there will be another mistake
Was walking away, forgetting it all
We have forgotten,
Summer’s last innocence at
Sunset,
How the colors melt into
Oranges and
Yellows and
Purples…
And that faint breeze
That
Used to tell us
We were forgiven.
Why I write
all we did was make eye contact.
but in that instant
between my blink and her smile
She enters the setting,
With a mindset cluttered in utter agony,
But her beaming grin seems so effortless,
Despite the distress staining her heart and soul,
The loons call in the night,
spreading my heart open.
Scarred feet slide across the tile floor,
slipping away in her nightgown.
Down the newly wet grass gateway,
advancing into the shocking water.
Born into a world were it’s not guaranteed I’ll succeed.
I still reach high, breaking stereotypes as I go.
I graduated from High School; I am in college.
What else is there left to achieve?
As I sit and think… LIFE.
Dark brown eyes with a personality that brightens any gloomy situation
No one can pronounce the name but remembers the face and the smile
It surrounds me,
It smothers me,
It hides me,
It even protects me...
Without it I can do nothing
With it I can do nothing
In my time of need it lifts me up
Before my known days
The sun shone splintering rays of diamonds
With gorgeous scenery to complement
Bliss was rampant
Faith out-lasted
And dreams materialized into obtainable goals
But yet
She rests in painful slumber
Drips with salty sweat
She is unaware of what it means—
Means to be sick with fear.
She chokes on spittle—spews up spittle
Chokes on angry, violent spittle.
Turtles from Madagascar
Marmosets from South America
A Noah’s ark of endangered species
Sinking under the weight of the elephants.
Captured from traffiikers
Seized from smugglers
The world moves at four hundred and ninety thousand miles per hour
Having trillions of crazy things happening in it every second
And here I am, with some paper and a pen
