I feel useless

I feel unloved

I feel like no one contacts me unless they need something

I know it's true because when I need someone,

No one replies

But the second they need me I am there

I know I'm alone in this world

And I know I shouldn't rely on anyone

But sometimes I get trampled by everyone

With nothing in retun

I literally feel like I'm being used by everyone 

I'm growing distance from everyone I once loved

The only person left isn't physically here

And I am the reason she is not

How do I live with myself

I am such a terrible person

No wonder no one want to help me

Because the one person who really did passed away

And I was to selfish to tell her goodbye

No wonder everyone hates me

I don't deserve to live anymore.