What Is The Age When A Black Girl Learns She's Black

what is the age when a black girl learns she's black?

  

the black girl learns she’s black after the orgasm.

    when her fathers sperm reachers her mothers egg

    from the moment of conception she learns the truth.

    for nine months there’s a black queen growing in your stomatch

    the black girl might know but she doesn’t realize she’s black until she’s nine years old at target with her cousin. hopes set on buying the barbie doll with the snowy plastic skin and beach blonde hair.

    little black fingers reached towards her with the galazy in her eyes until her cousins words cut destroying hopes like stars losing their lights.

    “Why don’t you get the one that looks like you? you know the black one.”

    she just stared blankly as the galaxy in her eyes morphed and transformed into black holes

fast forward to the future

    the black girl knows now

she bleeds red blood

full of struggle but laced with pride.

it’s from the naps in her hair and the curves of her hips.

it’s from the questions she hears on the regular.

    “ her little mama whats your name?”

    “ you still a virgin?”

    “ when your legs open?”

    “ how  many baby daddys you got?”

this is when the black girl learns shes black

    after her first  egg is released. when the blood flows out with it only leaving the essence of womanhood even though she is still a child those hips that were once only meant for the sway of the hula hoop now ready for the weight of a child.  

    the black girl leanrs she’s black while in history class and everyone looks at her while they’re learning about slavery

    while watching BET and seeing black asses clap louder than the clap if hands

    when she gets rejected by the boy the white boy she likes because she’s too dark

    when she’s flipping through her dictionary and sees the definition of the word black: evil, wicked, depressing, gloomy, dirty, angry, sullen, absence of light.

    “she’s black”

they spit as if she was carrying some deadly diease that coursed threw her veins but you can’t catch this “diesase” of being black, you can only be born with it.

this is a leasson no teacher can teach her

    no parent can shield her from

    or God save her from

    because the experience is cataclysmic.

it can make or breakher and if her backbone isn’t strong she will get washed away with the tsunamis of ignorance

you see this she knows that she is a black dahlia in a field of white lilies.

what is the age when a black girl learns she’s black?

the black girl learns she’s black after her first orgasm.

when his sperm reaches her egg

    she now knows there is a black queen growing in her belly.

    this is when the black girl learns she’s black.

when she looks at her round stomatch and questions how does she teach her daughter blackness

wondering how long it will be bfore her daughte can look at her own reflection and see beauty.

    how do you teach a black girl to love herself?

    you become the north star so when she looks up into the night sky she knows one day she’ll shine that bright.

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