Not Who I Was
As I sigh my past replays. A pulse
Beating in my head. Remembering my old
Cruel self. I was
Desperate, desperate to be free from my
Ever present fears and
Failures. Remembering my tears and pain.
Giving in to things that
Harmed myself and others.
Instead of learning from my mistakes, I
Just repeated them and
Kept my regrets locked up inside me.
Lately, I've been imagining what
My life would be like if I didn't change. I wonder
Now how I could ever begin to thank the all
Omniscient one. In times of struggle,
Prayer is now my crutch. I still have unanswered
Questions but by faith I am
Reassured.
Softly spoken and a
True believer is what I want my legacy to be. What I
Used to find pleasure in cannot compare to the
Vibes I get knowing I am free.
Words cannot explain the change in me.
xcited for the future, but remembering the past.
Yesterday is gone, and so is my mask. A quick
Zip through my past, and I am thankful that I am not who I was.