crush
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What's funny is the overwhelming fear
That'll I'll never call you "my dear"
I see you three days a week
And each time, I can hardly speak
It's really quiet funny when you think
I feel my heart begin to pound
All of the sudden it feels hot
That dimple on your cheek
Your curly short hair
Your bright smile
New year.
New classes.
She's only in 2 of them with me.
Last year, she was in all of them.
I still see her.
I sneak glances.
We don't talk.
Sharp pencil.
Blank paper.
No eraser.
No mistakes allowed.
Find another pencil, my mind says.
Don't get a new piece of paper.
A blank piece of paper, soon to be something I will give to you.
I fold it in half, beginning the creation.
Visualizations of what will happen flood my head.
What if you don't like it?
You know what bothers me most? I think I saw it coming, but like... my dumbass took the joking as something serious. I also don't know how to flirt so the second he dropped some corny line, I probably ruined it.
I was there when it all started,
when my heart turned to gold
When the angels sung their praises,
and Cupid raised his bow
Now it's been many years
since I was struck dumb
My sweetest dreams
are of you
sitting by me
in all your glory
caring for me
in all your simplicity
being with me
as i see you as holy
your smile
your laugh
the way you light my path
the subtle words
turn my stomach into
a roller coaster
of want and need and denial
and self pity and self hate
your joy
your rage
Scent compelling and drawing me in
working had to find a way to your heart
trying to hide this like a fish swmming with no fin
if only I could buy love
darling, you'd be in my shopping cart
I will pretend
I will smile
I will laugh
I will play along
Nobody will know
Nobody needs to know
You don't need to know that I am pretending I don't love you
Pretending I don't care
Why do you love her and not me?
Why do you sit with her and not me?
What is so much better about her?
I know she is prettier
I know she is more outgoing
I know that she is better than me in every aspect
Why am I not enough
Why don't you love me
Why don't you want me
Why am I disappearing
Why am I still here
Why are we still in this awkward silence
Why
Why
Why
Tears rolling down my cheeks
Tears of sadness
Not tears of joy
Tears of worry
Tears about you
Tears about my mom
My sister
My brother
My dad
Tears about my life
Closing off
Putting up walls
Shutting everyone out
Seeing who cares enough to break the walls down
Seeing who will try to get in
Hoping that you care enough to break the walls
I'm trying to be normal
I'm trying to be okay
I'm trying to ignore the pounding of my heart
When I'm around you
I'm trying to stop loving you
I'm trying to be better
I will always be trying
I am always thinking, always contemplating problems in life
I always has a thought, an opinion, or something to say
Never did I falter for an answer
Then one day she walked in
And her eyes met mine
My heart beat races like someone after a run,
My face turnes a shade of red when we see eachother one on one.
My fingers move like they are on the dance floor,
There’s this feeling I can’t quite explain
But it isn’t sadness or fear or pain
It’s like a lightning bolt straight through my mind
Making me so dizzy I’ve almost gone blind
I want to talk for hours with you.
I want to hear your voice.
I want to be near and dear to you.
I want you to protect me from the voices in my mind.
I started this job ready to focus on my work and not fall in love with someone that I have to see everyday,
But it didn't take long for me to get excited to see you daily, and sturggle to find the right words to say.
I encourage the writing of love-
I do not deny this,
but to be perfectly clear with you
it is my opinion that some love stories
shouldn't exist.
The stories of the extremely fragile soul
Beautiful like the early morning sun
With blond hair like the beach sand
And red lips like roses
With blue eyes like the ocean
Your touch has made me breathless
And your kiss has made me lifeless.
Why is it we feel the need to write about love?
Myself especially.
Look around you at the world.
Look at the pain.
Look at the suffering.
Look in the places you never thought to look,
I wish I was a redhead.
But, only for you that is.
I would be a redhead for you.
I think you'd like that.
It must be that other girl from the book you just read.
The one with flames dancing on her head.
I know it's silly
...
i use to fall asleep
i would see your face
my eyelids would fill
with bright colors
and my nose would
breathe in your scent
and i would hold you close
I.
My mind is a juggernaut
of dirt and steel.
My hands on your body,
the arbiter of all that is real.
With tears that fall
like the spider crawls,
1.
Today,
I’m going to build a sky,
pink and purple and flayed
with the wretched stains of existence.
For this dawn burns my eyes
with the temporal nature of living.
1. Poetry Grafted Onto Starlit Bodies
Focused moments,hot breath tickling receptive ears.
1.Humbled intoa simple speck of star,
basking in the glowof a girl with a galaxy wide smile,
1.Exquisite exhalationssmash viciously against uslike wave after wave of ravenous,jailbreaking, thunderhearted Tsunamis
Something bad happened in 1990 on the 28th of May.It turned out not to be such a great Memorial Day.I saw a very beautiful girl who looked like she was sixteen or seventeen.
I like you...fuck.
Fuck is probably all you have in mind when it comes to me
But these feelings keep growing and my heart is breaking, why can’t you see
I like you.
i fell for you
like the stars
fall for the
moon
and most days
i wonder
if you've fallen
for me
too
Time goes by so fast when I’m in your arms
Us is such a distinction
In you, i am all your worth
In you, i am all my worth
Such a beautiful gift
Just a dream I wake up from every time
I call your name
Like every girl, I have a crush.
Someone I know that makes me blush.
He makes me laugh and he makes me cry.
So much sometimes I think I'll die.
I try to stop because I know
That no relationship could grow.
you’ll never know
that i drive away smiling
going over everything you’ve said,
your sweater is on my chest
but i wish it was your head.
If I could
Come back in time
To that moment
To your arms
I'm locked now
in this timeline
watching you in loop
Maybe you've even forgotten
But I keep this alive
Never will I be yours
Nor will you mine be,
For your hand does not fit,
Nor will it ever sit in mine.
I like you a little
and I love you a bit.
But-
If again we ever come across
I shall then to you explain
The streets I had to cross
To keep you far away
It's hard to come closer
Sometimes try to hide
But closer driven
The time is ticking
It's what they say
I'm lost into some limbo
Whatching you all the day
From this tragedy-like dream
Until my sanity fades away
I still dream about your look
It's been a week
we met
Since that,
life's mare
How long
shall it last?
You're so unique
You're the one
with whom
my life
I may share
I want to hold
I wonder about your feelings
You didn't try to hide
You were shinning, dazzling
Then I repelled you,
Choosing a different side
Even in between the lasers
And all those party lights
SITTING ON THE WINDOW SILL,TRYING TEXTING YOU. THERE'S A LITTLE DRIZZLE OUT THERE REMINDING OF YOU
I feel like a bubble of emotion
Floating in the ease of your presence
But I think I am always waiting
For the inevitable "POP"
And knowing it wouldn't be possible
To put us back together
I drank your poison, you stopped my breathin.
I have a confession, you were my first crush.
You'd always make me blush, and it felt like such a rush.
You were mean, but I thought it was okay.
a feather at one’s nape:amidst that cocktail ofsound sight scenthis piqued some part of me;wafting, it beckonedand stroked my core.
that pit in my stomach
it’s gone
i sit
next to you
and i see your eyes
drifting away from the world
but then
I think about you everyday,
I always keep on planning what to say.
You dont have any idea nor clue,
how much I've been thinking of you.
Everytime you look at me
My world stops and it freezes me terribly.
i've been trying to forget you
i've done an awful job
i'm crying once again
at clair de lune.
i'm just so tired and angry
and summer is closing in on me
i wish i could just stop thinking about that dumb boy
all fucking day
i'm wasting away
i want you to tell me i'm the girl
you can't get out of your head
your muse
your motivation
the only one that matters at the end of it all
before grabbing my face and kissing me slowly
"I wish someone would write about me like this."
"Someone does."
You didn't believe me but you were all I wrote of today.
My day was shit
Until you came up in conversation
And then I went on about you
My face lit up and I felt all sunny yellow inside
Even my cheeks went strawberry pink
I'd Get hella shy wenever
And when paths did cross
just a "gasp n sigh"
brain sending orders
[ somthin like ] saying Hii
allat shit mush just
after briefly locking eyes
second guesses ..silence Then
it's the sound of rain out her window late may
it's the way the sun danced off her eyes on the train
it's how we laid there under the trees reading
My heart is still yours if you want it
it's up for grabs
Hanging by the hooks on the back of my door
Waiting to be picked in the garden beside my house
Sent in a letter, sealed with a kiss
Snakes are all around me.
And, it becomes harder to know who to trust.
I want a friend, but are you just using me?
You say you'll change for me and you are.
I wish you would take what you need and just leave me alone.
I push you away, but you keep on insisiting.
My smile is barely there, but it's there.
What do I want?
I don't know.
u use a bright pen that is last to be
picked in the packet. may u speak ur true
feelings on paper and pray. she can’t see
where ur love starts and ends. but she has to.
As I listen to music late at night
The lights in the ceiling became bright,
You gave me something I never knew
You walked in and all I could do is stare into your beautiful eyes. With my heart beating through my veins, I drew up courage and that’s when I realized. I had no need to fear. Day and night I would sit and talk, here.
You figured it out?
Sure
I announced it to part of the student body but you understood it?
My monologue was masterfully mysterious so that it drew
September 4,2017 my life was changed
I met someone special that the feeling I had for everybody else was estranged
I was walking in the lecture room and I saw her in the corner
"Howdy" he wrote
From a mere click my life changed
He made me realize that emotional connections are worth it
That he's worth it
The pain and worrying that he might not be safe
It's all worth it
I spy something blue
Don’t be sad, I’m here with you
I spy something sweet
You make my life complete
I spy something smart
I love you with all my heart
I spy something funny
Look in my eyes
What do you see
Do you see a cheerful girl
No faults in her skin
A perfect family
The will to live
In this poem,
The name of my crush has been redacted
And replaced with the word "god":
God,
you’re hot
But that’s another poem.
God,
let me write poems about you.
A girl online I've never met is stalking me
Asking where I live
Asking me how old I am
When she texts me, "I love you" I laugh
That's why I made sure she'd never meet me
Because, unknown to her...
She looked at me and her eyes lit up.
It was the day after Halloween
And everyone was sorting through leftover candy.
She picked up a blue-raspberry sucker.
“I remember, on the first day of school,
Dear crush,
Thank you for existing
Thank you for being perfect and reminding me that I’m not.
I love to stare at beautiful men
their hair flows just right.
looks like their jawline can cut me open in one slice.
a hug is just like paradise
just fell their body next to mine
with those muscles
I know we just met
And I don't really know you
But I listen to my heart and I'm really feeling something
See ya name on my phone and I swear I get to blushing
Only been a few days but I've really started crushing
Today I painted my nails black
so next time I
dig them into your warm
cold, indifferent back
you might feel my anger
under your skin
and maybe my kiss might
That darn boy!
I mean he's not even that important,
But he's found an empty corner of my mind
And he won't leave.
What do I do?
How can I dislodge
This adorable male entity
There's a definite gleam in my eyes,
the moment they set on you.
A smile comes across my face,
at the phenomenal view.
The glow from your skin,
it brightens the room;
The curves of your body
In your dreams,
He's there
Closer than ever
In your mind,
He's there
Far away
In reality,
He's there
Beside you
Wishing to be closer.
K N
unfortunate feelings
I had completely fallen for him
I loved him
Undeniably adored him
I loved him so much that i forgot to love myself
8 Months ago...
That's when I first met you.
When I first saw you.
I didn't notice you before, but your divinity and your aura brought me to you.
It's been a long time since I've written anything, but I have the biggest crush so... there's that.
I'm sending you a
Party invitation
I hope you'll respond
I don't remember when I first heard the word
I don't remember when I first knew what it meant
I don't remember anyone telling me
In a last minute tribute to you, sir,
I write this poem.
Hopefully, then I'll be able to go on.
It started when I first laid eyes on you.
It was a Wednesday evening,
I had my head in the clouds.
My happiness was noticeable as I spoke out loud.
I hadn’t told anyone in particular.
I love the thrill of it,
of that feeling I get
when he smiles at me.
He acts kind of shy,
but how could anyone not love the guy
I can only wish for the day that he will see.
When you went in last night
I dreamt of you
And my dream
God it was torture
In my dream we were beautiful
You sat beside me with your tall stature
Five years old, I picked you out of my homeroom class
I thought I would marry you one day
You had a hat with your name embroidered on it
But it was in homage to a football player
Dear Time,
When we first met, I was stricken
by your tall body, towering over mine.
Your silky whispers make me shy,
Your faceThe sharpness of itTypical strange beautyClear as the water stillOver the river on the hill
Dear ------ -----:
"You just have to say it. Tell him. Trust me, you'll feel better."
I wonder if it's really that easy.
Your hair flows within the cold winter breeze
and the scent of it causees me glee.
I feel strange as a girl
to enjoy hair of this earl.
Its curls have enticed me to approach thee.
I hope you are okay with me.
as soon as the thought of you comes forth in my mind
my whole body tingles
and i feel like i'm holding my breath
patiently waiting
for any semblance of love you throw my way
Dear Fate,
Since the day I was born
exposed to the empty canvas called life,
that I was never in control of,
we’ve been playing each other.
Locked in a stalemate.
I play as the mighty king;
Dear boy with bluer skies,
Since you're the one who makes my heart race,
I hope that my eyes weren't wrong,
When I saw you behind the stair case,
As I sang that old Spanish song,
She's my sunshine in the rain, quite figuratively when thinking back to that day
One of the first days I realized I loved her
She pranced like a child- or a reindeer I'm not sure which is cuter
So I see you’ve met him.
You, whomever you may be, whatever you may be, are about to marry my best friend.
Hey, what's up. How's your day going?
Honestly, mine's a little bit boring.
You're probably asking, "What is this thing?"
But all I ask is just listen,
Please don't throw it away like it's nothing.
i don't know how to tell you this in person, so i'll do it in a poem.
had a crush on you all this time, while i've been telling everyone else, "no, i don't know him."
i'm sure it's teen love but this time it feels so real;
To My Crush,
I have a crush.
A elephant pounding, butterflies floating type of crush.
When she sees him her heart flies.
Yet she tries to hide her feelings with lies.
Deep inside,
She hopes they will die,
He looks at her with wonder.
She seems different from the others.
I wish someday she'll notice me.
I wish my crush would like me;
(If not love me)
But I doubt
They would ever feel the same about me.
If she had to choose
Within the crowd:
To be picked;
11/24/17
8:16pm
dear heart,
as i am writing this;
a proclamation of my emotion,
a diary of my feelings,
a jumble of words i have strung together in a depserate attempt to show you
me.
Having a crush on someone is not something intentionallyCrushing on someone secretly is inspiring and frustrating Crushing on someone is the lightest feeling ever
You are my rock.
When I need you, you're always there.
You are like a blanket from my childhood.
When I need your comfort you are there to wrap around me.
You are like the ocean.
Didn’t think I’d be the type
To be like the stereotype,
But I can’t stop thinking
I’m falling but not sinking.
When I look at you,
If only you knew.
That you are without a flaw,
The days are getting shorter and shorter, and I just don't know how much longerI can hide it.
the sarcasm in your blood
cuts cold through my heart
so screw you
the look in your eyes
slices my intentions in half
so screw you
your constant questions for me
I wonder if you know
what you do to me
or what happens
when you look into my eyes.
And I wonder if
a heart could break
from strain of
staying away too long.
Here we are, you and I
you think our time means nothing
but I know how much it really is
the laughs we share are priceless
and there's no more musical sound in the world
than your voice when happy
Your artistic views and intelligence would render...
a part of me that made you more than a class member
Hall way confrontation was slightly embarrassing
The Sweet and Dashing LassBy Briley Wells
It seems the ever astounding and perplexing pen has called me yet again to expel it's ink onto paper for the sole purpose of bringing a smile to your face.
I like you
If the way I'm feeling is anything to go by
If the way my heart is fluttering shows something
I smile when I see you
When you're laughing and happy
When you're passionate and frustrated
Before you was warm, natural and comfortable.
The beginnings of a life so old, yet new.
I could be happy, mad, bland, or blue.
With you I felt so vulnerable.
Emotions grew, good and bad,
She has hair that falls over her shoulders in straight caramel colored strands.
She has blue eyes that are perfect pictures of the ocean .
She is a good 4 inches taller than me and looks great in everything.
And she has you
Just because I wrote your name
Thousands of times on my paper
Does NOT mean I like you.
I wrote it for a gain,
and if you had looked closer,
you would have noticed I only wrote YOUR name.
Once upon a time, I believe it was a Thursday when you held the door
For me, I had walked into school, with you coming in after me
Flash forward and we'll be roaming these school halls together
I wonder what makes your eyes glitter
On looking, sad guys become better
Please don’t be mad when i don’t look away
And don’t think i am a sheep gone astray.
There are softballs in my mouthWhen I look at youEach thought is another home run right into my front teethIt's supposed to be easier to say these wordsBecause I'm a girlI'm supposed to be open with my emotions
13
She should’ve chosen me.
Instead, I watch closely to the boy, the wasn’t me.
I wish I could be a He.
I wish she would like a She.
This morning I caught the blues.I stood on the edge of the spoon with nowhere to go.I tied my shoes and searched for my muse.There she sat, distance postponing an ooze of stew.With the end of the ladle short.
My world often gravitates into a dark side of the universe, sinking deep into that darkness without any light, moon, sun or stars.
Do you ever have that moment where you just need to think? It’s not about anything specific, but you just need to let the weird stream of consciousness you have flow out of you. I do. That’s what’s happening right now. Just letting my mind flow.
Once upon a time...there were three bears. Yeah, I bet you think you know where I'm headed with this story.
I can assure you, it's not what you think.
Miraculously magical, some people may appear,
But no one's near as noteworthy when their smoke and mirrors clear.
Everyone has their own kind of magic, and it's obvious in you,
I haven't forgotten the girl whose name no one knew.
She never let herself be
The person people didn't see,
But she never was reason for rumors either.
She only did what made her content.
I saw you for the first time
My heart went falling in love
I did not know why it suddenly happen
But it was something called crush
Iam the girl with the thick hair
Full lips and thick thighs
Look me in my eyes
And i'll take you there.
With every step I take
You can tell I've been broken,
every time you pay me mind
i think i'll find
a new light in your eyes
and every time you brush by
i think you might
decide to hold me tight
but every time i think i'm right
you kindly remind
They caught me off guard on a normal weekday afternoon,
They matched your smile when I first saw it come through,
They danced and sparkled when you laughed at my expense;
I wonder if you think of me
During the time in between
When I saw you then
And I see you again.
Do I linger in your consciousness
Like you have settled into mine.
Ready aim, After the frst few days
She walks up coated in chocolate and then says
what is it that you claim and why do you live in vain
Just caught up on how devine she looks as I think
I think about you more than I should
And if I knew how to make it end,
I don’t know that I would
I hear your voice in the wind
You’re a sweet addiction
I try to fight it,
But I always give in
The things we realize we won’t ever obtainOh, it kind of hurts at timesSo far away from each other and I have much to sayyour voice is like flowers and it makes
Squeezing My chest is ...Squeezing Calling out for you to Squeeze me Hold me close and Acknowledge my existence without making me feel kiddish Like a child with a crush on a teacher
They smile as they remember how they met.
She laughs until her eyes are wet.
He can't help but look at her face,
A moment he would never erase.
He's staring at her and he starts to laugh too.
You call this a crush?
I feel like shit everyday you avoid me.
I feel like I deserve to die because what I've done.
God has cursed me and left me to wilt in this ditch.
what should i do?
Can't stop thinking about you
what's with me?
Am i going crazy?
found myself smiling
picturing you in my head
you're adorably laughing
with this corny head
Didn't mean to drop your call
I just now saw it on my phone
Come swing by, I'll show you a good time
And afterwards when we're together
You can call me later
Now that I have you on speed dial
Her body is loud
She shifts her weight, her hips cheer like a concert
When she tosses her hair, it chatters like the babble of a brook
The roll of her shoulders like a chuckle on the breeze
To all the boys
who might fall in love
Please take caution
I'm no angel from above
This is a warning
Do not take it lightly
Don't let your ego inflate
Its amazing,
someone who was once a stranger,
Has become so much more.
An installation in my life.
A part of every conversation.
A bit of every thought, all the time, every day.
His hair spills around his face like a halo of curls His eyes are dark and careless and captivating They are black holes and I am falling, falling in His laugh sounds like a waterfall Rushing out Spilling out When he laughs his whole body laughs S
My king of the sun, Golden and unreachable My heart hopes, but it knows. Knows that you are nothing but a dream A beautiful love that will never be real And I think it's because It was I who trapped myself. You were the shining hero clad in gliste
my eyes will not enchant you
friends will not ask why can't you
escape pervading thoughts of me
like a stream dreaming shots of sea
you will not wonder how i cross a room
She was completely engulfed with his presence. Never in the world had she seen a man so beautiful; what amazed her more is the fact that he had no earthly idea.
When it's dark deep inside, there's no point to hide since he brightens me up like the sun in a gloomy time.
I wanna know what you’ll notice
Cuz you’ll never say no
But know this
I can’t get my mind off of you
And I find myself smiling
Imagining we kiss
And I stop to think the way you just don’t
what exactly must i do
to attract the gaze God gave to you?
and what exactly must you hear
to suddenly know you want me near?
i know it's nothing i can say
to change my image in your brain,
it is not my shame
for i am proud of love
nor is it my fear
that rises above
above my wings
that ache your name
above my eyes
that avoid your gaze
the one they long for
I'll never tell you I like you.
I'll never admit how much better my day iswhen you talk to me.
I'll never say"I want you."
I'll never tell anyone that you're the only one I look forin the hallways.
His locks are thin,
too thin,
almost as thin as his arms,
his slender skeleton,
one so fragile I fear I will break him if I hug him too tight.
I hope you blush when I compliment you.
Oh god, sorry.
That was weird.
Can I start again?
It's just that-
I like you.
A lot.
To Whom this may concern,
Did you ever stop and look at me?
Seen the infatuation in my eyes.
You may have found it a bit creepy or even a tad freaky
I did too but I couldn't help myself
I sit and stare at you
And ponder upon your beauty.
Wondering if you find me beautiful?
Wondering if you realize how handsome you are?
I sit and peer into you.
Wanting to see deep into your soul.
Beautiful lies
But once it turns
Into truth
It's ugly
And painful
I trusted you
With my bare heart
And even though
I gave support
And encouragement
When I prayed
And your intellect is wasted.Let me tell you, your words will lose their depth.Because she hears them and smiles,but they are hollow to her.They are just an extension of you.
I regret laughing,
Laughing when Haley told me he liked me.
Freshman year I had a chance to get what I wanted,
A boyfriend,
but that was ruined because I laughed.
“The Color ‘Blue’”
written for those of us who love something that doesn’t love back.
Blue sparkles under the sun and glares up into the clear sky.
all these colors
rushing up to greet me
all these ups and downs
adrenaline running
all these beautiful voices
surround me
exceat for one
thats in my head that's in my heart
Sugar-coated cinnamon sticks,Your fingers pluck them from a dusty glass jarOn a honey-baked solstice day. Sun shining bright, bright in my eyes,And in yours,
My soul has been closed and hardened
by the weariness of the world so that
no one is allowed in.
Grass has grown through the cracks
of my cement heart and
I have never encountered someone who
People all the time crush
Some even believe its love,
But thats a rush
Expectations are high above.
Looking for that one.
I have this feeling.
Its not the one of healing.
Searing pain in my heart.
I need a restart.
Hey.
Three letters of a word I cannot, say.
Wish you could say them for the first time, today.
With that smile in your eye.
Hi.
i think of you and the butterflies, swarming my stomach, swim up and up to my throat in a tornado.my gums are growing flowers, making meadows of messages i can only wish to speak to you.
I tried to fall in love,
and love fell away from me.
Music tastes and edited imagery
can’t disguise the doubts of the reality
that you are not good or true
for who I am trying to be,
There once was a time when you came into my life
We were once just a friend, teasing each other with playful remarks
And giving witty comebacks to each other’s responses.
I can't seem to contain these feelings
Bottled up inside me
Every time my heart sees you it sings
Of what I want us to be
Crushes seem so complicated
why is it so difficult
it just gets me frustrated
I’m catching feelings for you mighty fast
so if I put you to through the tests
I hope that you will pass
‘cause I would hate to not have you around me all the time,
When I'm alone, I frown. When I'm around you, I smile.
When I'm alone, I cry. When I'm around you, I laugh.
When I'm alone, I want to die. When I'm around you, life is worth living.
I remember when you walked into the room
Your eyes touched mine, then flicked away without a second glance
Honestly i didn't know anything could be so good
Then you spoke and my world crashed and scattered
You won't even begin to understand how I feel about you!
Why can't you look my way?
Maybe even say hey?
Can you just speak for a day?
Could you please be potential bae?
looking like just my kind of troubleoverworn jeansthreadbare t-shirtholding a pen like a cigarettehalf a smirk for all who lookedhair too long, nails too shortyou told a joke and the
I want to bite my tongue off,
even in silence,
I somehow say the dumbest things,
The world, you,
are too pretty for me to ever wish,
that my breath may touch you
Regret never tasted so sweetas when learning to regret not meetingsooner in love, sooner in life.
Do you even know who I am inside?
Did you stop to look deep into my eyes?
How could you not know, how can you not see,
In everything you do what it does to me.
On my busiest days, I think of you.
Trust, there is nothing I would rather do,
Than just sit all day in a thoughtless daze
Imagining you returning my gaze.
At times, I hope we never grow apart.
I feel like a mime, doing eye-catching sign language to someone that is legally blind, but hopelessly I'll continue to look,
One noon, my friends pranked you,
Pretending like they always do.
They texted that I want us to meet,
Even if I don't want to greet.
Once I was in love,
To the person who I thought, for me, was enough.
He was funny and tall,
Courteous and all.
He makes those crazy jokes,
But gentleman the most.
Blank.
Nothing.
Just fine.
Peachy keen.
Him.
Him.
His face.
His eyes.
His cheeks.
His mouth.
His smile.
His laugh.
His perfect teeth.
I still dont know what it was when I fiirst saw you
You were different from the other guys I seen before
I was wondering where you been all my life
Nervous glances we exchange
across the lunch yard,
our eyes locked in a nervous dance,
bounding apart the second they meet
Too nervous to say aloud,
that my stomach is aflutter
Please just take my hand today
I need to know things might be okay
I miss the hugs, I think of them sometimes
I miss you so much I dream of you at night
Tingling sensations oing through my ear
and your distinctive lips draws me near.
Vibrations going through me bed.
Is this love or lust instead?
Wake up early in the morning and i'll be here
If I said, “I love you,” will you be by my side?
If I said, “Stay with me,” would you still be close by?
As I get to know the true you, my heart starts to skip a beat.
That night I felt beautiful
I was confident
It showed
I went alone
A couple friends and I
I was beaming
And giddy
And happy
Until my date left
Feeling like a princess,
Undistinguished by the makeup
I’m the same though,
Same smile,
Same naïve personality
You are there,
Looking like a young Johnny Depp
With a tux
Oh my darling,
It is not your fault
the fact that you
cast blame without a second thought
I said, "Life is wonderful adventure," into her scarf on the train ride home.
I grabbed her hands and attention with my soft words and wide shaky smile.
"Your knees are beautiful.
I love your short hair.
When I look at you
I see different shades of blue
It's on your backpack
On your shirt
The color of your eyes.
When I look at you
I see a best friend
Someone I could joke around with,
I think I could fill up
An entire book
With the feelings you give me
With just one look
The shivers; they sliver
Up and down
They cover me
Like an elegant gown
I wish I had the words
To make you fall in love with me.
But you are
So much more than I deserve.
I’m terrified of
Scaring you away…
Please don’t leave.
What's wrong with not wanting to be like her.
Not caring how your hair and make up look every day
Not caring if your jeans make your butt look good
Not caring if the clique accepts you
Whisper in my ears “I love you”
For it is an act of my ecstasy
Those words I live for daily
The love we shared eternally
Whisper in my ears “I love you”
For it etched a tattoo in my soul
'French,' she told us, 'Is the language of love'
She sounded like she knew what she was talking about
She was a professor after all
So I wrote it down in my notebook
Your scent reminds me of blossoms
Your smile is the light of my mood
Possibly seeing myself in your eyes
That swift touch like heavens bliss
Treasuring those senses
For those smell, sight, and touch
Your demeanor fooled me.
Thug hood hard ass sending chills down my spine I despised you at first glance
Your not real to me, your just a dream
without a tear i can think of you no more
your slipping away
why won't you stay?
your happy now-with her
im just in the way
your always on my mind
Preceeded not once by a warning sign, and prior experience forgotten, a crush
Is discovered when one spots The One and their heart abruptly pulls the brakes.
All of a sudden a sensation of falling,
You are perfection
the curves of your face are perfection
You are beginning to bewitch me
Your eyes and your beautiful nose
You give me a feeling
Relief, and love
You intelligence allures me
Is it wrong
that i want to observe
everything you do?
just simply watch you,
and breath in every quirk
and restlessness of your being
sometimes you absent mindedly jitter your leg
An Arizona Moon
The moonlight that replaced the gleaming of the sun
And cast its reflection over the dark, sullen landscape
Saw you again today.
Made me insecure because
I didn't know which I wanted to do more;
one day i had a crush
and pressed me to the side
it rolled me flat upon the ground
and topped my heart in stride
helpless 'gainst the weight
my body flattened till
We all want to be loved
But what is love if we're all blind
Not able to see their mistakes
We think our partner is perfect
I guess we're just too kind
We don't umderstand why
On my mind are words from you,
that I'll keep there a while,
and in the hallway, books clung to chest,
It's a whirlwind, you feel like you no longer are in control of your heart because you gave it away unintentionally. It feels like constant emotion of happiness and want.
I’m confused in this world.
My Parents tell me one thing
And my friends tell me another.
I watch all the movies.
I thought what I was feeling was real.
What happened to love, live life.
I had seen him before, more than once to be exact, hell I passed by him everyday. I knew the lines of his jaw, the way his chin poked out just a little too much, and the stubble of his beard which was patchy in some areas and full in the others.
I have liked you since the day we first met
I want to tell you but I don’t know how
Fearing rejection I can’t tell you yet
You never really noticed me til now
You put a smile on my face everyday
Strolling towards the front of the classroom
Clear gray eyes
piercing
seeing all
adorned by lids heavy with knowledge
eyelashes impractically long
goofy smile that melted all self-erected shields
Her summer dress is red as a ripe September apple,
a pink sunset dances upon her cheeks.
I steal glances as she scrawls
rapidly, frantically, a diligent worker bee,
Do you remember when you helped me with my books in choir
Or when you jokingly asked me to go out with you?
When you pressed your hand against mine or
Girl you're a cute one, a quiet one
The one I really really want one
I was lovin' you from a far
But I stepped in to feel that fire
January's never been so hot
Till I shot the question...
The way he looks,
The way he smiles,
The way he says my name,
It makes me fall for him,
I'm crushing hard,
He's everything I want,
He is caring,
He is fun,
Not a day that goes by without you on my mind
The smile you showed and the voices you make
You were something else, something I can take
My dearest boy, you're the one to blame!
Hurrying in to work, late again.
The cold still nipping at my nose,
The heat of rushing burning in my legs.
I try to calm my heartbeat
But it’s useless when I see you.
Warmth fills my stomach
And because he seemed to be trapped within her mind,
With a pitter and a patter,With a pounding, a fleeting flutter,
I miss you,
because without you,
my life feels like,
a punch in the gut,
a curse word yelled in the middle of a public prayer,
falling,
falling hard,
I can feel it burn my heart,
With every beat,I breathe in and out,
With every beat, a bead of sweat leaves my brow.
You smile at me and tuck a strand of the night behind your pale ear.
Your haggard look
And your
Mohawk
A combination
That I
Haven't thought
Initially
It gave me
Such a fright
But that all changed
On a
Thursday night
The mirror stands before me
after four years.
Finally I can rid myself
and make my skin clear.
Pop!
There goes my first "F."
I cringe and I make
noises not found on any clef.
I want to like to unlike you.
Rid my skin of the craving of yours on mine.
Take out the thoughts of you that linger in my mind
For they slowly incapacitate my mental abilities.
You entered my world by chance
Like the rising excitementfor a special daysoon to come,And the first dayI held a puppy.Like the butterflies flutteringaround in my stomachon the first day of school,
I have a feelinginside, deep likethe kind of lovekept secret for years.The kind of lovewhere just seeingyou walk byfeels like somethingdomestic.I feel
You've said repeatedly that I'm the girl you want, the girl you need
But, you can't just have me when you want her
Long talks on the phone at night when I should be studying
Sweaty palms when I see him,
I can't even stand up straight.
Give me a break,
I want to give him my heart to take.
Or to break.
I need to shake this is feeling.
Go ahead girl,
That day, when other boys were crumping,
My heart was racing fast and thumping.
To my crush, I had to confess.
I was nervous and nauseous, at best.
I couldn’t hide from you any longer.
Butterflies
Fluttering in my stomach
or
Crocodiles
Gnawing at my innards
I don't know which
But it's somewhere in between
I know a girl
She is coming over later
We haven't seen each other for a long time.
We text
She liked me
Once upon a time.
She says she misses me
I say the same thing back
So I have a secret
Every time you open your mouth
And you twist a boring book into a dreamy drama
Or a magical memoir
Or a fascinating piece of fiction
I feel a radiant romance form.
This is about my pathetic crush
The victim is sitting across the room
I look over once in a while
and
squirming wih embarassment
admire the nape of its neck
'wow'
Hey there, my love
Don't you know that you're my universe?
You turn my world upside down
I miss you so much it hurts.
I love you in every way
Don't ever think that it's not true
I said I liked you
&
you said you do too
but youre only you
when they're not around
But that smile & your wink
it's getting to me
I got under the covers
You laying to my right
I don’t know if it’s fate or chance
But I swear my heart was pounding so loud I thought you could hear it
My body reacted to his sudden presence in the room.
With tense muscles and a dangerously increasing heart rate, I choke out a “hey” and plastered on tight smile.
One glance
Two
Three
Stop
A quick touch
One flick of the wrist
To a hand that's always been open
But never accepted
Avoid his eyes
Ignore his emotions
Thoughts of her
Dripping into my sternum
From all the way up there
In my brain
Where she has implanted herself
Like an alien egg
Sweet lost silly
Puerile Poetry
I make because I am so young and
Pathetically infatuated
A nostalgic lust—a crush.
I had it for some body.
Something about their sitting near
Probably the pheromones and molecules of shampoo
That I breathed
Was actuating
Of a lurching in me
I'm spinning.
Is this a drug?
'Cause I'm addicted,
Can never get enough.
Just one hit,
Yet, I'm craving more.
I'm either flying or falling,
Don't let me hit the floor.
I can't explain it
She walks down the hall
My cheeks lit up in flames
I'm fallin' for that smile
Miles and miles of confusion
No one expects me to
like her because she is a her
I want to know you
Not in the, “yeah we’re friends she’s great” way
All of you
I want to know your favorite book and why
I want to know what makes you smile
A hunger.
Impatience catalyzed within soft veins.
A thirst.
Lips cracked with a desire to be touched.
I feel him,
From a mile away.
His body chemicals and mine react
Please, just look at me. Do you like, what you see? I feel, as if I am falling, for you. I told myself no, but you made me see,differently. You talk sweet, but are your words true? Or just a bunch of lies? How many girls have you, said these to?
His eyes meet with hers,
she looks donw,
grean with jealousy,
red with anger,
What is she a camillion?
she's stuck on him,
she's got a crush on him,
when she's not paying attention,
I rubbed a lamp and a gene appeared.
I said, "Wishes?" He said, "Three."
I told him three wishes would be great,
But one is all I need.
I wish I was invisible
I'd walk among the stars,
Their wings tickling your sides and fluttering through you.
They kiss you from within and make you feel afloat and nervous.
They spew uncertainty into the air and it hangs in your throat.
The room is dark.
There’s nothing surprising about the void. The silence in my head. Or the drumming in my heart.
Have you really forgotten about me?
tossed me aside in the deepest corners of your mind,
Hidden away in shadows of neglect.
As though the connection I felt with you wasn’t real
And the words you said weren’t true.
Sandy beaches
Peaceful, content
Tickling
your feet as you walk along
Waves crash
building up power
Crushing seashells till they are no more than
Sand
You stoop to retrieve one
Waves crash,
Though only sometimes
The seagull flutters about;
The sea turtle sits in wait
Will the seagull ever tell the turtle what the waves are meant to be?
We exist only behind the words we speak.
Standing at this distance, we forever reach.
We swallow the affinity because we know deep down it can never be.
We put the dreams to rest and embrace the reality we live in.
Its scary how much you know
and also how much we don't
the fact is the only thing
the wanting comes in waves
not just the lustful longing
a sincere relationship wanted
I am a silly girl for letting
Blinded by a love that’s not there
Comforted by the idea of having you near
Analyzing everything about you
Hoping to be the one you turn to
Staring at you as you walk by
Knowing you will probably never be mine
Let’s break it down to the dirty details.
You broke my heart, but have yet to know.
Maybe you won’t either.
You look at me with eyes that
Don't know the truth
You look at me with eyes that
Will not acknowledge the truth
Because the truth is,
I'm in love with you
I'm in love with you and,
She'll always know
Invited to steal my breath away
with words that impact me
like a bullet to the back.
Destroying tissue and preconceptions,
morphing muscle and precocious prototypes
of grandeur.
I found a way to communicate
It's not like everyday talk
I've thought of ways to ask
But I just get up and walk
It is loud.
I find it hard to move
and sometimes it's hard to breathe.
Claustrophobia,
and a fear of the unknown.
I'm just ten feet from the target now,
and he stops me.
What makes me a nervous wreck? Could it be thoughts of kissing your neck? Cheeks, lips, down to your navel. They say its quite corney cause to me, your an angel. I'm not weak, but I'm not so strong.
Coward you are.
It was hard for me.
I wrote you a letter and asked for a reply.
How hard can it be when I sit behind you every other day.
All I wrote was that I like you.
Two years.
You’re distant, a behavior I wouldn’t usually accept
The thought of you has consumed my mind
Confusion arises, I have yet to truly witness your emotions
Please don’t leave me dangling, only to fall
Hold me close, keep me safe.
Tell me you love me and that will never change.
Dry my eyes whenever i cry and tell me everything will be alright.
I never thought of meeting with my childhood crush again
Never expected it to happen this way.
I looked for him
He looked for me
and at the end we found each other
Yes, it may have been awkward at first
Just more and more time passes,
Since i first saw you those years ago;
My heart was in shock,
"What is your name?," I had to know.
Yesterday, today, the same
I’m too cowardly to speak your name
I’ve never feared rejection like this
I’ve never been afraid to shoot and miss
Maybe… with you, there is too much at stake-
