You call this a crush?

I feel like shit everyday you avoid me.

I feel like I deserve to die because what I've done.

God has cursed me and left me to wilt in this ditch.

Is it called a crush because I am utterly crushed when you stop talking to me?

I hurt so much inside, and you just call it a crush?

I'd do anything at all just to get you to speak to me again, and this is a crush?

If this is just a crush, then I don't want to find real love.