To Be Alone
Location
No one undestands what it means
To be alone
To be ignored
To eat your lunch in the library
Hidden behind stacks of books
So no one can see your shame
To look at your feet when you walk
To keep their eyes away
To stop the secrets from spreading
And the lies from breeding
In peoples mouths
To be on display
As the fat slut that
(That*
Not who*
I am no longer a person
I am a thing to be looked down on)
stopped going to church years ago
To be mocked in the cruelest of ways
To be cat-called and have your named
slurred through the teeth of the
Nastiest thugs
To be friendless and hopeless
To cry in the bathroom instead of
Facing English class
To say to your mom, "I don't want
to go to school", and not be able to
Tell her why
To dream of ending it all and to
Wake up somewhere better
No one understands what it means
To be alone in a high school full of
People who don't know your name,
But seem to know your story.