Nobody understands me

No matter how hard I try 

They will never see it

Without looking through my eyes

Every once in a while I break down

I can't seem to shake this frown

And no matter how good I do

Someone always brings me down

But I don't like this 

The silent crying at 2 am

And I don't like this 

The feeling of always having to hide

They say stay strong

They say carry on

But do they really mean the words they say

I just don't know

Anymore 

Where I am

What door

It is that I need to close

In order to feel whole

I just feel broken and let down

Not only by others

But by myself

I told myself to never get like this

To hold on no matter what others did

But now I feel stuck

And i don't know how to get out of this rut 

Have you ever wanted to be alone?

You hate feeling alone but you like being alone sometimes? 

Do you know what I mean? 

Whatever, what does it matter anyways

I just feel kinda lonely

The worst feeling to feel, yes

But at least I still give my best

At least I try 

But maybe it's time I don't hide

Maybe it's time I open up

Let people see the real me

Time I say who gives a damn and do things my own way

And If a mistake is made, brush it off 

It won't be remembered one day.

I just have to do it.

To break free if this cage that's locked me away

Made me afraid

When I used to be strong. 

It's time I find out where I've gone.