Who I Am Now Isn't Who I Was
Dear My Past Self,
This is the part where I tell you that you're going to be okay
Each day might seem worse than the last
But, that everyday is truly a new day
Before you even open your eyes, your heart strings have already cast
The stars in your eyes into what's left of who you used to be
Attempting to escape the present and search behind you
Every last breath that falls out of your mouth becomes your symphony
Everything you would never try becomes all that you ever do
I'm asking you to save a little hope for the stressful weeks
When you feel alone and completely empty
It's okay to feel less than confident after every deep, red streak
Truth is, your demons are never going to let you be..
Who you are when everything seems destroyed
Happy when the world takes away how you feel
Almost like a wishing well filled with no coins
Your heart strings take the rod and begin to reel
Until your starless eyes are sparkling again
And your dark black skies have become grey
All your bleached clothes with previous bloodstains
Every tiny, happy moment in a bad day
Smile exchanges between strangers
Giving the truth that not everyone is a danger
Using the early mornings to sleep the day away
These are reasons why you're going to be okay
Sincerely,
What Do I Do Now?