Can't keep a diary
when there's no such thing as privacy
Trapped in my body trapped in my head
Who's keeping us together?
Baby boy stops her from shattering
Leaving me to keep the floor from falling
Nobody cares about the kids who tuck themselves in
Forgot to eat again.
What time is it again?
Can't eat, can't think, can't think a choernt thought
Too busy writing and escaping
The restrint keeping me encased
imprisoned in my own flesh
Can't survive the emotion that consumes
(maybe they were right to call me psycho)
It just won't end. This state of panic that I'm always in
Say I wanna die, but just don't wanna try
to keep living in a life that has never been mine
Trying to have the childhood
I didn't feel like I deserved
Won't anybody think of the children?
throwing away joyous peace and laughter
because you were too concerned about the things that don't matter
Judgmental attitude programmed into your damn mind
Just live you own damn life
and keep your little white lies.
Stomach aches and fevers.
Just leave me alone
To rot in my own
Over sensitve to the sensory
I wish I was deprived
I can't fall apart when I'm too bust picking up the pieces
of everybody's broken mind
Not so suicdial
Can't even be homicidal
Staying trapped in my constant state of panic
and private misery
Until the fianl curtain call
of your optimsitic mentality
That you read on the back of your
self help book
When will you realize
I'm too broken
missing too many puzzle pieces
to be put back together
Freak playing human
hurts. hurts. hurt.
Just want it to stop. Just want to sit in silence
and drift away into nothing
Not ignore the problem, just not have the problem
But there's no such thing as privacy
leave this life behind
Try again tomrrow
God I wanna scream
Wish I remebered how to cry