I'm at war with my mind

And the only sense of peace I can find

Is if I go back and let my mind rewind

Back to when I didn't think much

About what I looked like and where I'd sit at lunch

All I can think of now

Is how I keep on acting like a clown

I paint a smile on my face

When all I want to do is erase

My feelings and emotions

Are stronger than any ocean

They pull me down, I'm sinking fast

How much longer will this last?

I give my heart up to people who don't take care of it

What I would give to be able to sit

Back and relax without a care

Until then, I'm stuck with this cross that I bear