The hold that you had found in my veins,

was not found without warning.

It was preceded by a feeling

That weighed heavy in my chest.

The former pain that I have seen in the eyes, of the lovers I had made

 whose names sounded like much your own.

It is only there when you are

The  pain that you alone can bring

Your unique inflictions are often unseen

And those hands of yours are bleeding with repetition

There is no change in you

One can only hope for a different outcome with you

I have asked for you to change endlessly

And you, insanity, have only changed me.