Worthless Flaw
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He said that it was such a stupid thing to have
that I must feel embarrassed
And I was
embarrassed
for the sheer innocence of it all
I didn’t understand why he scorned upon it
hated me for it
spit to the very ground for even the idea of it
This rejection of one to another killed me inside
“Stupid, stupid, stupid!” he laughed to my face
And he told them all how ugly and horrible I was
they all laughed and joked about it
left me feeling worthless
like an empty pit of nothing
Mixed emotions of worthlessness
embarassment
hopelessness
filled me to the core
“I didn’t choose to be like this,”
I said to him
I was forced
I was born with the flaw
I wish I could change the way
I looked
speaked
lived
And at that very moment I wanted to die
a shot bird from the very sky that it flew from
But
I didn't die at that moment
That piercing
hating
stabbing moment.
I took up all my dignity
which diminished to almost none,
and walked away from he who hurt me everyday.
I, that scared little bird,
flew far away and fixed
my broken heart.
But I knew
deep
down
inside
It wasn't the end of the hurt and pain and suffering.
Maybe for me
but not for all.
he would go and hurt another
and make what worthless flaws do feel.
A flaw on that very sky and earth and planet,
one that should have never been born.
So I go back to that place
where I was scorned
and knocked upon
and layed down to die.
to change the fate of those who are hurt by him
and let all those who are suffering know
It's not a worthless flaw,
It's a gift.