we are earthquakes & we are earthquakes
We are both earthquakes
because we are scared
and I don’t think I can kiss the moon beams
anymore.
My lips
have become raw
and bruised
and scabbed
from whispering your name.
I am a body
tangled in the sheets
of a secret love affair
with an empty house.
tie me up with your words
& hide me in the cellar
of your thoughts.
Release me
when I have decomposed
& send my remains to the sea
where I will be scattered
like seeds
among the coral
and find me
when I have risen to the surface
sweet & sticky.
I no longer want to
dig up the remains
lost at sea
I no longer want to
howl at the moon
when it is not full
because then
I am just a fool.
I will roll with your punches
kissing and hugging them
as I fall to the ground
scraping my fur
off
onto the pavement.
We
are earth quakes
& we are earthquakes
because we want
ruin
because we want solace
because we want to be
what couldn’t.
I am waiting to not sleep
I am waiting
for the hallucinations
to creep from behind my eyelids
and convince me
that I am alive
convince me
that i have two feet on this earth
& one hand in the clouds
reaching
for more stardust
to sprinkle on my lungs
breathing it in
and exhaling the universe
convince me
that we’re not fleeting
convince me
that we’re not fleeting
but most of all
that we’re alive