Unhappiness
Looking around, there are smiles everywhere
The more I'm surrounded by people, the more anguish feeling of lonliness I feel
and then you realize, nobody cares and you feel as if you will never heal
Why can't I be happy like everyone else?
Why is it that when everyone else is happy, I'm always the one who's not?
The thought of realizing how alone you are really does hurt
Thinking about the burdens you have to carry overwhelms your whole body
Sooner or later, the weight is just too much to carry
and then you hit rock bottom
When I hit rock bottom, I don't have anyone to help me up
It's just me, in this deep black hole
The only person I have that will help me up is myself
I know I can't do everything by myself, but what choice do I have?
When I think about it, it seems as if rock bottom doesn't even exist anymore
It feels as if I'm falling into a deeper hole that leads to place filled with darkness that never ends
and then I realize, I have no true friends
I'm alone in this deep dark place
feeling like a disgrace
I'm so worthless, pathetic, stupid, I'm never good enough for anything
and then the tears start falling
This is too overwhelming
I'm drowning in these thoughts, suffocating in them
No one truly knows what I go through everyday and no one ever will
No one will ever know my true intentions and the real me
and that's how it will always be
I have no one that I truly trust
I'm always having to act like I'm okay so no one worries about me
when really, I need someone to talk to
but I have no one, and I'm not of any value
With all these thoughts running through my head
it makes me feel even more dead
My mind is such a scary place
I do so much self-loathing and my self-esteem is so low
all I ever do is drown in sorrow
Sometimes I think whether or not I'll ever be happy
but then again, there's reality