Every night my mind plays melodies

From a song I haven’t quite learned yet

Perhaps I never will

But she also weaves thank you letters

 

Thank you’s for all the people in my life

The ones who left me

And the ones who had to go away

Thank you for the lessons I had to learn

 

The times I cried alone on tile floors

Licked the ice cream off both spoons

Picked each petal of a dandelion

And taught myself how to smile again

 

I’m thankful that my past led to a better future

That my suicide notes never became obituaries

And that I’ll see you every night when I close my eyes

 

There is still blood coursing through my arteries, each pulsating vein.

I am thankful for the air in my lungs

The grit in my teeth

And all the scars I have collected

 

I am even thankful for you

And the memories we shared

And the plans we made

And the nights I will never forget

 

And that you let me go

Before you took everything I had left

Before my heart be burned to ash

I am thankful for the flames