Why? Can you tell me why?
My heart is crushed, sad, blue
My heart and arms are aching
To hold and be with you
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I close my eyes and think of how
You brought such joy to me
The boundless love I felt for you
"I'm going to have a baby!"
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Your little life inside of mine
Filled me with with such glee
To think of things I'd show you
And how you'd smile at me
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Bright-eyed gaze to look at me
That soft and gentle cooing
Warm and safe inside my arms
Vain thoughts! Dark trouble brewing!
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What? I'm angry; knotted up
The day your life departed
Remember how I cried and cried?
And since, I've felt half-hearted
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"You're wrong, it can't be true!
I screamed "It's all a ruse!"
Despair, pain, those awful words
"We're so sorry, it's not good news."
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I felt so angry at myself,
What warnings did I not see?
Can't I protect a little child
Who totally depends on me?
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My arms are empty, I'm all alone
You couldn't stay for long
Waves of sorrow fill my heart
I'm trying to be strong
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My thoughts, your birth, your babblings
Crawling, walking, the first
Time you'd sweetly say "Mama";
I think my heart will burst
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I couldn't say goodbye, my child
That fills me with such pain
But deep inside my heart, assured
We'll meet, on Heaven's lane
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As soon as my time here is done
I'll spring beyond the blue
I'll lift you tight into my arms
And whisper "I love you!"
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Please know I can't forget you
You're mine, you'll not depart
I love you darling baby,
Sweet Angel of my heart
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by David C. Rogers