Suicide Note
Im writing these words so that if anybody is to find this, they'll finally understand
The pain I was going through and just how deep it went
How blinded i was by the darkness
That its not their fault and they couldn't have saved me
That im (hopefully) in a better place and not suffering anymore
That i loved them but lost sight of the fact that they loved me
That i hope i didn't hurt them too much in this decision
That i tried but i just couldn't take the pain anymore
That i’de been planning this for a while
That i was already gone before i left
That my soul was already dead, i was just disposing of an empty shell
That there was nothing anyone could have done to wake me up
That my demons had tightened their grip and i had to let go
That they shouldnt mourn for me i'm (hopefully) better now
That it was over for me even before I ended me
That i was falling but there was nobody to catch me
That I was drowning and couldn't swim to safety
That i'm sorry, im sorry, im sorry
And thank you for everything you did for me
Goodbye.
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weepingwillowtree
You are worth it.
Trans-and-tired
I hope that you see this reply and it doesn't just sit unread but about a month ago you commented on one of my poems. That was the first-ever comment I've ever gotten on my works and it made my day because I put a lot of myself into my work which makes me feel horrible when that work is received badly. I've been to the psych ward so while I don't understand the struggle you are going through I do understand the struggle. I finally got a laptop and checking my power poetry account is one of the first things I did since my parents check my phone and I didn't want to risk them seeing my account. I finally got to look at the account of the person who commented on my poem, you, I don't know if it helps or even if it makes a difference but your comment has gotten me through a lot. I don't know how much thought you put into it or if you were just being nice but that one comment helped remind me that I have allies and that I won't be in the depression hole forever. Know that when things feel bad and that when everything hurts even your smallest actions can make the biggest difference for somebody else and that you have allies too.