Reaching
The sort of familiar feeling of falling
Envelops me like it's always meant to
An ocean that only goes down
Devoid of light and air and feeling
I find myself reaching
(The surface is miles away)
Out towards you, trying to stay subtle
Keep my cool as you turn away
Cause I'm not desperate for your hand, I just can't
Keep calm in this cold sea of indifference
Faces swimming in and out of focus all around but
Suddenly I'm sinking into solitude
Like my stomach sinks into the sea floor when
Rejection is my anchor
There's no light in the deep but the luminescence
Still somehow here hurts my eyes
Crystallized, I don't even try to swim away
I've drowned down here a million and ten times
I never learn my lesson.