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I've been scared go to outside
Afraid to socialize
What they show to the world, I know I'd rather hide
It's hard to decide the people to confide
I told you not to look at me
For fear you’d see the real me
For fear I would expose myself
And open up a black hole door
love is the opposite of hate is the opposite of indifference. there is no need to hate because when you hate you care and when you love you still care. where love really stops is when you stop caring.
Hiding in my bedroomCrying silentlyI don't want them to see my tearsDon't want them to worry
I'm afraidOf life and change and everything elseI'm out of controlSometimes I'm afraid of myself
Hiding in my bedroomCrying silentlyI don't want them to see my tearsDon't want them to worry
I'm afraidOf life and change and everything elseI'm out of controlSometimes I'm afraid of myself
What is a kiss,
And where does it lead?
Does it lead to the dungeons
Of torturous pleasure?
That feels so good,
So intoxicating,
But where are the souls in this?
can i lay my head on your shoulder?
or will my skin melt into the sinews and veins until we are one,
connected by flesh and blood,
To take the long way
Away from
Home [...]
How to make peace with that purring engine,
Subtle vibrato?
It hurts me to say, but I know that this is the end,
Because after everything that happened, we can never be friends again.
I have to admit to myself, that I will always love you,
I have to admit that there are times when you are still on my mind,
But unlike before, it is not like it is happening all of the time.
I found myself smiling yesterday, and it happened to be sincere,
Start the healing process of getting peace and clarity
Reaching out to friends, family accepting free therapy
I'm learning to accept the idea of being alone
Although still scared of the unknown
Just when I think that I am starting to feel okay,
Something sets me back, and I find myself crying the next day.
Everything that happened continues to mess with my head,
You ruined love for me,
Because you made me feel like I could finally have everything that I dreamed it could be.
You found me when I was in the darkest place,
You ruined love for me,
Because you made me feel like I could finally have everything that I dreamed it could be.
You found me when I was in the darkest place,
I read the post and I immediately thought of you,
And I know that that is something that I shouldn’t do.
But when I read it, my brain began to wonder if it was just a coincidence,
Collecting Stones The chills to my bones.Mixed messages and firm tones.A heart that aches and moans.Overlooking blessings and the factthat I am a backbone. The lessons that are unknown.Throwing away a diamondlusting after stones.When am I gone you
Loving Without Measure Power and Lovecombined.Words are smootherthan a lightly fallen feather.No more scattered storms.No more overbearing weather.He wraps me up in his shelter. After waiting so longfinding my protector.I am a great woman, butyou
perpetually tempted to
pluck out the sole
precocious beard hair.
unruly, intertwined
upwardly in
overgrown opposition.
ritually, I tug
and tamper with it,
I tell my therapist I think I am incapable of love
At least not with someone who will love me back
And maybe I learned it from my mother
Or the father who couldn’t love me even if he wanted to
And I don’t blame you
i want you to love me like i love you
in that soft, cushioned, unrequited sense
but it wouldn't be the same for you
i love you like the astronaut loves the stars
i love you like the trees love the earth
Stark white beaches contrasting glasslike water enchants;
drawing many souls close, so close they are engulfed in it.
Hopelessly consumed selfishly by the veneer opting to idle
if oneday you hear me
through shadows, understanding;
when we've screamed out deaf
through pinholes in the floor.
then perhaps you'll discover
the me you've been missing;
unearth that lazy hammer
I miss who I thought you were
But then again did I even really know you
Heartfelt love letters one moment then the next you barely show any love
I miss your hugs
They filled the hole in my empty heart
a new relationship is supposed to make you happy
a new relationship is supposed to be the start of something wonderful
a new relationship is supposed to be exciting
I have been trying so hard to erase you from my mind,
And I keep reowrking it in my mind that I am fine.
I go through phases, and one day I'm okay and the next day I am falling apart,
Is your favorite color still red?
Because my favorite is still blue.
Do you still wear those black pants?
For so long, I kept holding on, trying to convince myself that all of this was for something,
But I wasn't prepared for all of the hurt and pain that it would bring.
I am covered in bruises, cuts and scares from head to toe,
Love is a thing that can easily be taken for granted, how did I become so comfortable with it, not putting any effort in the tasks you requested of me?
I love you today
I love you and all our sin
I love you tomorrow too
Your gentle words
They seem wrapped in twine
It can slip and free meaning easily
They hide in the dark
The first thing I remember loving was my cat-
My first best friend.
And my baby brother,
And dinosaurs.
-
I loved my stuffed animals,
And worms on the sidewalk.
I loved the people in movies,
It has taken me some time to realize that there are two parts of your body that will always be at war with one another,
And it seems like no matter how hard you try, they will never agree with each other.
Typically he prefers to be an optimist
to see the good & be grateful for everything that he does have.
Living day to day, unbound by anyone or anything beyond himself.
I see the Sky clasp cymbals of the Sun,
I see the Sky clasp tambourine of the Moon,
The heads of the Stars, as states and nations
Thank you mom
For choosing my dad
For giving me life
For giving me perspective
For challenging me
For pushing me to want to do better than what I was seeing
For showing me the toxic traits I want to avoid
Instant friends,We hit it off so wellMutual encouragementLives starting to gelIn an instant goneAs quickly as it startedReasons why unknownLeft in waters unchartered.(Chorus)
Hate to let you goOur life till now has beenhigh drama in a showWe both have given up ontrying to make things right,all we do is fight,stuck in a hopeless plight.I wish you wouldn’t go
How do you win the same battle when you don't think that you have anymore fight?
And when it seems like you have to give up because it seems like you can't do anything right?
So you ask me why I hate you
And all I can muster is "because"
You ask me because why
And I tell you "because I don't"
Well you don't what
"I don't hate you and that makes me hate you"
Why is it we have desperation and reliability on one person we want when we can’t have?
The worst feeling that won’t go away until they say yes, and deepens when they go away.
To the bird that found its way to me,
For me to see its beady black eyes
That hide no emotion, and can't dare cry
Because that's only for the weak and broken.
They’re Out For THEMSELVES... !!!
They’re Out For THEMSELVES... !!!
You Can Tell If You Properly Give Them A... Smell... !!!
And Because of Anomalies In What They SELL...
The wind howls, feeding all my fears
rain plummets like pent-up tears
thunder roars to hide my cry
you walk away
I wonder why
you fade away
into the gray...
emptiness
So Just Like My Namesake In... “ The Great Escape “...
I’m The King of The COOLER Kinda Like... " Rick The Ruler "....
A TRUE School Type Mover TOP NOTCH Rhyme Producer... !!!
It’s Pretty CLEAR That NONSENSE....
Causes Us... PROBLEMS... !!!
But Some Are Caused By MORE Than Flaws... !!!
Some Are Displayed Because of Our Age...
Ya See When Young Lacking Experience...
This Ain’t... “ Away In A Manger “... !!!!!!
There REALLY Is... DANGER...
When You’re NOT A TRUTH SAYER... !!!!
... "Wait a sec there playa’ !“...
Ya Know It's HARD To... " Come Correct "... !!!
WHEN Your Descent Is What Causes OFFENCE...
To These IGNORANT Heads... !?!
BIGOTED, YES As Well As ARROGANT... !!!
Ya Know People Like ME Are A..... RARITY...... !!!!!
Because UNLIKE Most Peeps'...
We Believe In STRAIGHT SPEECH...
That Deals In TRUTH And HONESTY..... !!!!!
And Creatively We Embrace REALITY...
Now It Seems That Allegiance Within Human Beings...
Is Something Now Weakened By Things We’re Now Seeing...
From Relationships Leaning Towards Those Proceedings...
That Cause Angry Meetings Due To Folks NOT Agreeing... !!!
It’s CLEAR That These Words Are Now Words of TRUTH... !!!
People Need To Learn To Take The... Rough With The Smooth...
From Poetic Crews To TV News.....
Everything In This World Is CLEARLY NOT ALL GOOD... !!!
So... Which One Are You Really From ?
By This I Mean... “ Where “...
Do You Think That You BELONG... ?!!!?
In A Home of WEALTHY Heirs...
Or A Home That's Seen As STRONG... !!!
Now I Know Most Heads Who Choose To Express...
Through Raps and Poems LOVE To CHAT A Whole Bunch of MESS... !!!!!
Guns, Whoring And Violence, Frivolity... And PURE NONSENSE... !?!
I Was Told Yesterday.....
That CERTAIN Things WILL NEVER Change... !!!!!
Well I Guess That Is TRUE From CERTAIN Points of View...
Like Saying Girls Will Get LOOSE For These OLD WEALTHY Dudes... !!!
Now I'm A Man of Words But Am NO EXPERT... !!!!!
On The Matters of The World Or How They Work....
I Just Use Verse To Show What I've Learned From What I've Observed...
Why do I feel
this way?
Why do I always give you the benefit of the doubt and never cut myself
the same slack?
words
spew and
Laying here in bed
Feeling emotionally unavailable
An explosion in my head
Tired of fighting for everyone
If I don't, they may leave
Or found dead
I'm the fixer
I need the fixing
Mixed feelings
Ya Know ...
It’s On The Rise ... ANGRY Vibes ... !!!
Because of The Crimes of Modern Times ...
Now It's Simply My Vibe... !!!
But Now I Believe That The Price Is TOO HIGH... !!!!
To Have That HOT Wife Whose Got Those FIRM THIGHS...
And Boobies SO FINE That They Actually BLIND... !!!!!
Tough love?
Maybe love is too tough.
Or is it too much ?
I feel like your against me
More than for me.
Your best punishment
Is my worst punishment.
Ya Know It Truly Is... INCREDIBLE... !!!
The Effect of Seeing A FlexibLe Woman Who Is... SEXUAL... !!!
By This I Mean She's Credible Cos' Her Mind's BEYOND A Vegetable...
With A Bod' That's Far From Spherical........ !!!
You've moved on and that's great
But I'm still here missing your hugs
When we met I thought it was fate
Now I'm sitting here wondering where I messed up
Because was it me?
Was it you?
Is It The Mind That Triggers ... " Pointing The Finger " ...
Because If It Is The Way You Think ..........
Is WEAKER Than The ... WEAKEST Link ... !!!!!!
That Line's Quite SICK I'm Glad I Used It .... !!!!!
Damaged I am.
Broke I am.
Numb I can be.
Anger and sadness can consume me.
The light.
Very settle starlight.
Shone on me.
It was genuine and calming.
Now It Seems That Some Heads...
Are UNABLE To GET Why I Write My Poems.... ?!?
Well Because There Are Reasons I Let My Thoughts Season...
Verses of Rhyme Through Scripture I Write...
Oh to love love,Yet be stricken by its sharp pain at every end;I find myself stuck in this seemingly unbreakable cycle.I love to love those who I loveAnd then an end comes
Nowadays When I Write My Tension Lessens...
Which Helps Me Find Some Peace of Mind...
Enabling Me To AVOID... Depression... !!!!!!
My Writing Style Keeps On Progressing...
Thus When I Write I Do LESS Stressing...
She glides with grace and charm
and they underestimate her.
She Radiates a sweet melody of summer,
As she Drowns out the howls of the winter wolves within.
Slips through your fingertips,
You marked my flesh
deeper than you know.
Sank in your teeth
devoured my soul.
Numinous wreck
I fell for your sin
Left me tattered
Is it ... Coincidental ... ?
That SELL Is A Word That Rhymes With HELL ... !?!
Or ... Consequential ...
With Joining Herds Who Forever Dwell ...
Down Below Cos' Their Price Was Low ....
So The Song Is WELL KNOWN...
The One That Bob Wrote...
Where These Builders Refuse To Use Head Corner Stones...
They Now PREFER To Choose...
The Stones That They Can USE Like A Pair of Work Boots... !!!
Now You’d Best BELIEVE That I’m... ON POINT... !!!
When I Choose To Anoint My Notepad With Speed...
With Speech That Deals In..... HONESTY..... !!!
Now I Have Had It Said That I’m Pretty INTENSE... !!!
Which I Guess Is Because My Thinking Is STRONG... !!!
As Is My Poetry Because My Verse Deals In HARSH REALITIES...
Rather Than Fallacies And Foolish FANTASIES... !!!!!!
I’m REALLY Hoping That I HAVEN’T Past My Prime... !!!
Because My Minds STILL PRIMED To Write These Rhymes...
About ... Our Lives...
About ... Why We Smile And Why We Die... !!!!
About THOSE THIGHS...
You Know Sometimes Within This Life...
You Have Those Nights That DO SURPRISE... !!!
Now I've Shown That I...
Am INDEED A Dark Knight of A Different Type ... !!!
Now They STRESS That In Chess....
It's ESSENTIAL For You To Make The Right Move... !!!
Long forgotten in the pages of your life,
What we had was a love like all the others
The build up to the break down.
Conversations of us wed, and I️ your loving wife
It Seems Most Relationships Now... CRASH or BURN... !!!
So Choose A Sound Girl To Have In YOUR WORLD... !!!
BEFORE You Are FORCED To Get A DIVORCE... !!!
So In These Days And Times....
That Are CLEARLY UNSTABLE... !?!
... " Are YOU REALLY ABLE... ?!? "
Ya Know Peoples’ Behaviour’s...
Getting... Stranger And STRANGER... !!!
Okay... LISTEN Baby...
... " Ya REALLY DON'T Get Me !!! " ...
Now When It Comes To Conversations...
And Making Sure That Talk Runs FLUID...
It Seems That Some People...
NEED To... “ Learn How To Do It “... !!!
So Is it... Uni Or College... ?
That Gives Someone KNOWLEDGE.... ?
Or Is It Just A... FACADE... ?
To Teach People NONSENSE... !!!!!!!!!!
Well Lookie’ LOOK LOOK... !!!
... ALL That It TOOK...
Was The World To Get SHOOK...
Like Some Mobb Deep Crooks...
Sometimes It’s True...
It’s REALLY HARD To Get Through... !!!
Now This Piece of Wordplay’s Gonna Speak On Frames...
But Has NOTHING To Do With A... Snooker Game... !!!
Or Where Pictures Are Placed To Make Them Look GREAT... !!!
I don't want to have meaningless sex just to get it out of the way.
I want a love that's real,
Powerful,
Exciting.
I don't want something that's based solely on physical attraction and longing.
All I was looking forward to, you;
War made you different,
Now the war is between us two.
What is going to happen to our children?
Crying myself to sleep has become the new norm.
IN MY DREAM
The clothes hanging on my line
Are not mine
Where have I been
Lost again
In my dream
A floating stream
None of the things belong to me
Not that I can see
Rocking back and forth
Waves crash and rain pounds
He is asleep in the cabin, unwoken
Alone, sea churns hammering the sturn
Tangled ropes of the sail & rigging
Ya Know I Exercise CONTROL...
When Dealing Wid’ Ho’s And IGNORANT Bros’... !!!!!
In FACT I Mean NIGS’ Who Are FULL of... LIP... !!!
When It Comes To Things That Burn Like... CIGS’...
You See... MANY Have Tried … !!!
And MANY Have LIED … !!!
And MANY By My Pen …
Are … Lyrically FRIED... !!!!
Burned To... ASHES … !!!
Grabbed And SMASHED KID … !!!
Bob Marley Made A Track That Done Explain THE FACTS... !!!
About THOSE Wearing CAPS Where IGNORANCE Makes STANDS … !!!!!
Secrets, Weakness, BLATANT, HATRED, RABID Vapid Heads YES, VACANT … !!!
So For Whom Will The BELL REALLY TOLL … ?!?
Online TROLLS Whose Comments Go Up Peoples' Nose …. !?!
Yup... I'm Used To Them Now.. !!!
People Acting FOUL … !!!
Cos' of Things That Come Out of My LOGICAL Mouth … !!!
LOGICAL Thoughts That Seem To Wage WAR … ?!?
In The Minds Now Inclined To … Live In DENIAL … !?!
Neglect
Abuse
Abandonment
The beginning of our undoing.
Separation
Deprivation
Time
The one that comes after you will be trustworthy
He will be honest with me
But I won’t believe him because
I won’t understand it
MAN I'm SICK of All The CLAIMS …
People Make Nowadays … !!!
... " CLAIMING They THIS ! "...
... " CLAIMING They THAT ! "...
Ya' Know When I Was Young …
There Was A TV Show That Was Quite Fun …
Because It Took The Ride Through Famous Peoples' Lives …
The Show Was Called ... " This Is Your Life " ...
What’s With What Comes Out of These... NEW AGE Clowns... !?!
ALWAYS Talking About OTHER Peoples’ Grounds... ?!?
In Some VAIN Attempt To AFFECT... The Drag Down... !!!
These Days It Seems That MANY...
Are Showing... They're NOT Ready...
To PASS The TEST of Managing STRESS... !!!
Like The STRESS of Work That CLEARLY HURTS...
The Minds of Those Who MONEY CONTROLS... !!!
Now My Name’s NOT Shaggy...
But It’s Clearly NOT ME Who Will EVER Be...
A Star Like Those Who Hold BIG Shows...
Where Droves And Droves of People Go... !!!
First month.
It hits me. I miss you.
Since you left me, my life has changed.
It’s harder to sleep, it’s lonely here, without you.
The house seems so much bigger now.
Second month.
These Days It’s TRUE And CLEARLY In View...
That A Whole Lot of People Have Changing Moods That AREN’T ALL GOOD... !!!
Because of PRESSURES That Are Now Due To This... " Corona Flu "...
How long will the bench be our home?
No one else is here, I'm sitting alone.
Put me in coach, I'll do the best I can.
Make us a priority, I am our biggest fan.
Obviously, its not an easy choice.
What Is It With These... “ Know It Alls “... ?!?
They Seem To THINK That They’re CHOSEN...
When They... HAVEN'T Been CALLED... ?!?
They Really Make Me SICK...
With... ALL Their TALK... !!!
I ... Fight For What's RIGHT...
And DEFY These VILLAINOUS...
...... Government Types...... !!!
Ya Know I'd Rather Be... UNIQUE... !!!
Than Join These... PHONEY Cliques... !!!
Ya Know I Try To STICK To Movements...
That Make Me MAKE IMPROVEMENTS To Things That I Be Doing... !!!
Ya Know I Hear A LOT OF NOISE...
From... IGNORANT BOYS... !!!
About Their Toys And ALL Their Ploys...
That Make Them THIS... !!!
And Make Them...THAT... !!!
From Schools To Bedrooms To Business Boardrooms...
As Well As These People In Government Crews...
MANIPULATION... Is A Thing That Is USED...
To... Maintain Control of Submissive Folks... !!!!
” Come On Now Bro !
You NEED To LET GO of That EGO ! "
These Days It Seems...
That They’re A Force With PURPOSE...... !!!!!!
This New Breed of Human VERMIN... !!!
Which Is Why I’m Now An Anti-People Person... !!!!
I'M HERE
Your eyes
your lips
fill my thoughts today....
We talk
We sway
Don’t look away....
I’m here
And there are no lies
Now I’m NOT From The School ...
of ... Protecting Ya Neck ... !!!
Because What I Now Do ...
Is ... RESPECT My Text ... !!!
And The Things I Express ...
BWOY This DISRESPECT Thing’s...
..... Really INTERESTING ..... !!!
Many CLAIM Disrespect...
Because of TRUTH Said That Upsets Their Heads... !?!
Well In My Experience These Heads Are DELIRIOUS... !!!
I'm A... " Man On A Mission "...
... WITHOUT A Conviction... !!!!!!!!!!
" So What Makes You Tick "... ???
For Some It's Simply... Being FIT...
And Living Life To RAISE Their Kids...
But Some Live Life To Hurt Their Kin... ?!?
And Follow Paths That Lead To SINS... !!!!
It’s True Like Ra’ Said...
You NEED To... " KNOW THE LEDGE "... !!!
Because A Lot of Heads...
Push To The EDGE To Be The BEST... !!!
I Believe In... " Karma "...
And Wear NO ARMOUR... !!!
So REALLY Don't Want To SEE NO DRAMA... !!!!!
I'm NO Osama... BUSH Whacker Or Blair... !!!!!
VULNERABILITY
It’s a marvelous sight
to open the curtain
and give the stage
to vulnerability
with her sweet rage
she's the sister of love
so free
THIS Piece of Poetry Is To... My Mans'... !!!!!!
Whether... GOOD or BAD... !!!
RESPECT To BADMan...
NOT For Being BAD... !!!
LIONESS
Go into your cave Lick your woundsI understand You're a leo too....
You give all of what you gotAll that you can do....
KISS ME YOU FOOL!!
I know you understand me
It's uncanny
We have a rhyme Unlike the many we spent time ....
SHOOTING STAR
Shooting star Yet so farDancing on the ocean breezeSoundless musicPlays on let it burn with ease That's what it does....
YOU, ME and THE SEA
The wind carried the ocean’s voice to me
she whispered:
“Come to me my lover
I hear you love another
Bring her to me
IT’S ALL ABOUT LOVE
Did you feel the rain?
The pictures and words
that floated by tonight...
Did you listen To the rain?
That tapped your shoulder
AND WE FOUND ALL THAT
I know agony.
I know victory.
I thought I knew love...
My nights sleeping with shadows
of empty arms.
And lonely dreams
MY HEART FLIES
My heart flies to you
No one in the world
Moves me like you do..
Wings to lift my heart
When we are apart
Until I'm in your arms
Once again
And then...
BUTTERFLIES AND SWEET DREAMS
A moment together filled with butterflies and sweet dreams.
Like the dark wind of the night,
You left the poet in my heart wanting
As you sang your song...
ELEVATION of ... " Skill " ...
Like Elevation of ... " Will " ...
Can Be Defined ...
As ELEVATION of The Mind ...
Or In OTHER Words The Ability To RISE ...
Where You ELEVATE ABOVE The Absurd ... !!!
My jack.. my wonderful jack! You have the whole world before you Your skies are blue The sun shines through....
A life so promising All that's new Stars are dancing Awaiting for you....
You say you love me but you’re notYou say you’re going to fight and give it all you gotYou say you find it hard to breatheYou say you’re mad at me but I’m the one who seethes
Is reunion
possible
after
an estrangement?
Certainly.
Though usually
much has changed...
And even if things
aren't exactly
amiss
remember,
it is said
one can never go
Ya Know I’m Getting SICK of THEM...
Heads Who... “ Pretend “...
To Be Your ...... “ Friend “......
I’ve Said It Before And I’ll Say It AGAIN... !!!
Now The ... " Potion Of Emotion " ...
Can Cause Quite A Commotion ... !!!
And NO Folks I’m NOT JOKING ... !!!
From People Out There Voting ...
To Things That Some Be Quoting ... !!!
So It Seems As Though...
It’s COOL Right Now To FILL Assholes... !!!?!!!
But NOT In The Way That Things NOW GO... !!!!!
Some find it hard
choosing between heart and head,
even when the perpetrators don’t deserve
If I were to have
my very own genie
to grant me three wishes,
as in the tales of old
I would ask for but one-
let not this new found bliss
come to an end,
although it is said
Ya Know It's Quite The Ride... !!!
The... Journey of Life... !!!
Taking In The Sights As Time Flies By...
I've Seen Myself Age As My Journey Has Arranged....
My Life To Dismay An Early Grave... !!!
So What's The... " DEAL "...
With Those Who Use Drugs
To Make Their Lives Run... ???
By This I Mean...
How Do DRUGS Make Lives For THUGS... ?!?
And BUILD THEIR... " KINGDOMS "... !?!
Now The Words...
... " Big Virge "...
Are Those That Merge...
With... QUALITY Verse... !!!
From A Mind That Works...
Like Chickens Get JERKED... !!!
Or Heads Who... " Merk' "...
Ya Know I Like A GOOD Show ...
When It's Done ... WELL ... !!!!!
From Concerts To Dramas ...
To Flicks That Hit HARDER ...
Than ... ABUSIVE Partners ... !!!!
INDEED It's True ... !!!
CERTAIN FOLKS Are ... " Cool " ...
Well Schooled And IN TUNE ...
With Making SMART Moves ... !!!!!
While CERTAIN FOLKS CLEARLY ...
Like ... ACTING The FOOL ... !?!
I.
My mind is a juggernaut
of dirt and steel.
My hands on your body,
the arbiter of all that is real.
With tears that fall
like the spider crawls,
1.
Today,
I’m going to build a sky,
pink and purple and flayed
with the wretched stains of existence.
For this dawn burns my eyes
with the temporal nature of living.
1. Poetry Grafted Onto Starlit Bodies
Focused moments,hot breath tickling receptive ears.
1.Humbled intoa simple speck of star,
basking in the glowof a girl with a galaxy wide smile,
1.Exquisite exhalationssmash viciously against uslike wave after wave of ravenous,jailbreaking, thunderhearted Tsunamis
Okay I Know This Seems... OBVIOUS To Say...
But You CAN'T Like EVERYTHING At The End of The Day... !!!
But Let Me EXPLAIN What it Is That I'm Saying... !!!
It Was The Rock Who Said It BEST... !!!
But I'll Interpret What He Said...
.... "It doesn't matter what you think, of lyrics that I kick !
.... I'm just being artistic, so, stop being a prick !"
we are not the same, but we do belong.
where we may not align, we fit.
we squeeze and stretch into one another.
So... Moving On ……………..
It’s Time To Go Beyond Corona Virus Songs...
Because Now I’m Inspired...
By Where I Belong In This World of Wrongs...
Mister Compromise Is A STRANGE Old Guy ... ?!?
Cos' He's Prone And Known ...
To Compromise His Life So That He Can ... SHINE ... !!!
And Be The Type Who BUYS A Nice ... " Trophy Wife " ... !!!
MAN What Is It With ARTISTS... ?!?
When It Comes To The Markets...
Where They... Wanna Be SEEN... !!!
SEEING Money... And Their ARTISTRY...
REACH The Peeps' Who They're TRYING To Reach...
Ya Know...
... THOSE Who CONTROL...
KEEP Playing... DUD Notes... !!!
From Musical Movements To Social Improvements...
THOSE Who CONTROL KEEP Dealing In LOOSENESS... !!!!!
It is 2:30 am, Thursday night
You’ve gone to sleep and I can’t stop thinking about you
My heart feels heavy but in the best way, my thoughts feel light
These Days I'm ... SICK of People ... !!!
Saying That ... "They've CHANGED !?!" …
I've Been HERE... I've Been THERE...
I've Even Been... SCARED... !!!
But The Places I've Been...
Go BEYOND... Truth or Dare... !!!!!
I'm A Man Who Gets... " HIGH "...
WITHOUT Coc' Lines Like Stephen Fry... !!!!!!!
Cos' My HIGHS Come ALIVE...
When I... Sit and Write... !!!
I Get HIGH OFF The Herbs...
That INSPIRE My Words And Use of Verse...
Anytime I try to convince myself
On why I should stay
It’s because I don’t want to hurt you
I don’t want to cause you the pain
We also have so many dreams
I Really Think ...
That What’s Happening ...
Can Bring Good Things... !!!
Like MORE Thinking And LESS HATING... !!!
Because In These Days Why Would You Embrace...
Ideas of Race Hate When You Are Forced To...
Ya Know I'm A Man of CONVICTION ...
Whose NOT Been In PRISON... !!!!!
Because I Condition My Body And Mind ...
To AVOID.................... FOOLISH Fights... !!!!!
That CLEARLY AREN'T Wise... !!!!!
she made me feel so happy…
so why did I feel so trapped?
I felt that I had finally found a person in this world who genuinely cared for me—and who I genuinely cared for back—and simultaneously that I was drowning where I stood.
So How Much of Our Brains Do People USE... Today... ?
I REALLY Wonder Now When Hearing The Sounds...
That Come From Some Mouths... ?!?
Ya Know ...
Within My Arms Are Lyrical Psalms ...
WITHOUT Jewish or Christian Points of View ... !!!
What They Produce Is NOTHING New ...
But The Style PROFILED STREET FIGHTS Like ... " GUILE " ... !!!
These Days I Hear... Opinions...
From Lots of Adult CHILDREN... !?!
About How Their Lives...
Have A UNIQUE Definition... !!!
It’s not hard when it’s not present
When we’re working together and we have to hide
When you’re 1,500 miles away
It’s not hard when we don’t think about it
Ya Know I’m Sick of Them Talking Yeah Talking Bout’ WARRING … !!!
When Wars They Be Courting Are Weak Like … “ Steve Hawking “ … !!!!!
So Who Do You … “ TRUST “ … ?!?
Do You Trust YOU To Make SMART Moves ...
And Pick WISELY In Who You Choose To Be WIFEY' ... ?!?
All Of Me
I go to check if my heart is still there
It’s not, you stole it
And all I can feel is blood filling up the empty space
These Days I Stay... “ Elusive “...
While Some Would Say... “ Reclusive “ …
Ya Know I Appreciate The Fact …
That Sometimes... Being Black …
Can Lead To Attacks And That’s JUST THAT … !!!
Some From Whites And Other Skin Types …
And Some From... Blacks … ?!?
Ya’ Know My Poetry Shows …
That I’m … “ Taking Notes “ …
Yes … “ Mental Notes “ … !!!
Notes of Quotes …
Quotes From Those Whose Rhetoric Shows …
PLEASE .... FORGIVE Me If I Curse To Quench My Thirst ...
To Poetically Let My Speech Run FREE ..............................
How deep can a man go?
As long as he cast shadows
He will never grow shallow
My father taught me
That life can be as
Curious, and dark as the sea
Full of arcane mysteries
That we may never see
How many girls are thinking what i'm thinking right now?
This kind of crazy makes me want to start drinking.
on and off again
Confusing me, making me think i'm in love
Do You Ever Have … " Those Meetings " …
That Somehow Leave You Feeling …
That Something of … DEEP MEANING …
Was REVEALED Within That Meeting … ?!?
My girl had sparkly blue eyes
And told the most fantastic lies.
I sat, looking into her chest
As she put me through another one of her
Twisted tests.
She had me addicted
To her peppermint tongue,
I’m So Glad I'm The One With Whom You Have Fun ... !!!
A Kiss And A Cuddle And A Glass of Rum ...
On The Day That Begins With Letters Spelling .... " Sun " .......
Vast-The way I feel can only be explained if you were to be able to listen to my heart. These feelings are ineffable. No amount of words in the English dictionary can begin to explain the beautifully ironic feelings that I have.
Some People Are EVIL ... !!!
Some People Are Nice ...
Some People Believe ...
In The Lies They Contrive ...
Black People White People Yes ALL TYPES of People ... !!!
She Was RIGHT She Was RIGHT … !!!!!
My Ex Girlfriend Was … OH SO RIGHT … !!!!!!
She Always Said,
... "Virge, you do realise, i'm low maintenance !"
By This She Meant …
A Lot of Hot Women Have Got PROBLEMS … !!!
I'm going to start this out like I start everything else I write you
Even though I doubt that you'd ever see this
I swear to God that I'm not mad at all
There is no hate in my heart toward you or anyone
How the hell are you so blind?
Yes I'm the Devil in disguise
Ask the God you love so much
If I am worth his saving touch
Ask the spirits that I see
If they will ever, ever leave
Don't Do It Bro, Don't Do it ... !!!
... " NOooooooo' " ... !!!!!!!!!
A Sentiment Sent Because I've Lost A Friend ...
In The WORST Kind of Way Leaving MANY Dismayed ... !!!!!
***ADAPTED FROM ORIGINAL LYRICS WRITTEN BY ME***
I'll quarantine my heart
Keep it close but keep it far
From anyone
Who might say they love me
You should have been my cure
Your medicine was never pure
Dreams that taste like memories,
My tonuge twists in my mouth.
I feel your hand caress my cheek.
You catch a falling tear and wipe it, gently, away.
But your kiss is sterile, empty bland.
Okay It's Time To Say … " Hi " … !!!
To The … " Rhyming Bad Guy " … !!!!!
NO Bats or Gats or Violent Raps ... !!!!!
Just Poetic Words That CLEARLY HURT … !!!
Those Who Like Fables And Dishing Out Labels …
These Days It Seems ... " EXPOSURE And SHAME " ...
Seem To Be The Themes By Which Most Now Play …
Playing The Game of Lying Away … !!!
About Who They Are In Their World of FARCE … !!!!!
I Used To Play … " Cricket "
So I Know About Boundaries Grounds And Wickets … !!!
Don't Catch The Ball Beyond Boundary Lines … !!!
Cos' It'll Be Your Downfall If You Step Outside …
it's been a year
a whole damn year
and here i am
sitting across a gym
full of people
and all i see, is you
your obnoxious smile
your loud voice
and your annoying friends
it's been a year
a whole damn year
and here i am
sitting across a gym
full of people
and all i see, is you
your obnoxious smile
your loud voice
and your annoying friends
So I Was Told The Other Day ...
That ... CERTAIN Things I Had To Say ...
REALLY Were NOT ... " NECESSARY " ... !!!!!
These Days I'm ... " Hearing " ...
LOTS of Things About Peoples' Relationships ...
ALL Kinds of PROBLEMS Between Women and Men ... ?!?
When we feel sparks fly
we hold on for the ride
and that's exactly what we did
acting like carefree kids
Eyes meet, instant chemistry
we forget it's not compatibility
Watching you drive away
was like trying to stop the rain
so I stood there watching
wishing you'd come back
Watching you drive away
was like being ripped in half
I watched you push the gas
I wear my hair up the day after
And a low, sweeping shirt collar
I make no attempts to conceal your marks on my neck
I'm looking for a love with no strings attached
No love at all
Just the push and pull of need and want
Two bodies filling empty spaces
What Is It Wid' Girls And Their CRAZY World ... ?!?
Headspace FILLED With TWISTED Curls ...
When What's Instilled Is FAKENESS' Served ...
Upon Those Platters That LACK REAL Data ... !!!!!
you breathed a song into my mouth,
a melody so beautiful that if he should hear it,
Bernstein would write off his symphonies
as nothing more than empty refrains.
I couldn't sleep right,
I thought I was texting you all night.
You seem to take advantage of my kindness.
I never thought it would ever happen.
You explain things as if you're always right.
Oh my Love
how it is you try & do love me
how you get & desire to be so close
Oh my Love
how that desire
will get you crushed
But in the end we were stranded on islands of memories,
looking across the sea--so close to one another, yet so irreparably far--
And all I could see was a stranger
With eyes that I recognized from another lifetime.
OH RIGHT I SEE ... It's The Things I Speak ...
That ACTUALLY Affect The Way ... " YOU Feel " ... ?!?
OH So Things I've Said Have HURT ... YOUR Head ... !!!
If I were to have
my very own genie
to grant me three wishes,
as in tales of old
I would ask for but one-
let not this new- found bliss
come to an end, although it is said
all good things must.
So What Is The Deal With ... " The Relationship Game " … ?
Because Truth Be REVEALED I Can't Take The STRAIN … !!!
My Soul Wishes To Sin ...
And Embrace This At A Whim ....
A Wish To Kill ALL THINGS ... !!!
Kill The Human Race ... !!!
And All of It's FALSE Grace ...
My heart is like
an unformed
lump
in the hands
of a sculptor-
you.
Who with love
can transform it
into a thing
of beauty
to be cherished
and admired...
Or-
I have grown and bloomed,
but my color is wasted.
Unnoticed.
Unwanted.
Untouched.
I gathered my spirit
and threw it atop yours
in hopes that you would yield to comfort
I see the city lights
They’re a little too bright tonight
I’m going too fast in the fast lane
I’ve become a little more reckless
Since you left
I miss laughing with you
About everything and nothing
Laughing until we cried
And crying until we laughed
We were this unbreakable unit of people
It was a long time ago
That you tried to kiss me
In the creaking book store
Next to the little red diner
It was a long time ago that i thought
Our table isn’t set for two
you lost me and I lost you
there are splinters in my wrist
for the night we could’ve kissed
can you feel me slip away
if you love me let me go
your words: an axe to my throat
blood is fucking everywhere
you ripped it out of me
what happened to forever
it’s easy to be lonely
in the lights of this city
wondering why you can never look me in the eyes
when you tell me that im pretty
“i never knew a mind could be so dark”
well i, i have never known a mind so light
flower petal eyelashes
flower garden you
growth sprouting from your palms
the white of my body
more snow than skin
ice cold to the touch
i know you think i’ll thaw
this ice age has no end
my fire stopped burning
do you remember the fireworks
back then
when we hid behind purple walls
praying they wouldn’t see
the clouds of lavender smoke
that our passion
MAN I Sure Can Pick Em' ... !!!!!!
These ... CONFUSED Women ...
It's Like I'm DRAWN Somewhat Forlorn ...
Like A King That's PINNED On An Old Chess Board ...
THIS ONE Was TALL ... Waistline Small ...
i fell into you-
i wasn’t quite ready
but we were smoking cigarettes
Under the stars
behind my car
and your smile said,
you left before i got better
you left before i could make things right
you left before things could get really good
and i cant blame you
for getting tired of waiting
i drink to forget
so many things
i drink to forget
what you look like
what he looks like
what the inside of his car looked like
i press the blade to my skin
i breathe
into my lungs
out of my lungs
when does the pain
of your world falling apart
begin to end?
i am sorry i let you
stain your hands
in my dark places
i am sorry i watched you
ignore the orange signs
“danger ahead”
i took my life in my own hands
and i decided to resuscitate myself
i folded my hand over the other
and beat down on my chest
i forced air into my lungs
full disclosure
i think about you more often
then i would like to
i think about you when i see little things
certain flowers remind me of your smile
you have a million suitors
anyone who meets you
becomes entranced by your beauty
the better men try to look a little deeper
i want to write about happy things
so i find myself thinking of your lips
i find myself hoping that tonight
i’ll finally get to kiss you-
at least in my dreams
you weren’t the one
and that pill is sharper
than the edge of the gold and black knife
you gave me over a year ago.
you weren’t the one
tell me who broke your heart
i am a master at stitching up wounds
a master at emotional first aid
let me heal you
with hopeful words and kept promises
no matter how much bleach i use
the blood stains won’t go away
i’m scrubbing and scrubbing the floorboards
the wood turned cherry
I’m ripping my brain out
Piece by piece
Cutting it into little squares
I’ll serve you our memories
On a silver fucking tray
I’ll feed them to you,
i can drown myself
in alcohol
it never really
helps at all
no matter how much shit
i inhale through my nose
if we want to talk about being hard to love
that definition begins with me
anxiety
insecurity
paranoia
chewing me up, throwing me out
you said you were taxing to love
as if that could ever be true
loving you is like loving christmas lights
loving you is like breathing
shackles and chains and being tied up in you
wrists glowing crimson like the sunset
on an ocean of razor blades, the ones you dropped in there
before i began to swim
typewriters and rainbows and there isn’t any rain here now
poetry and books and your hand finding mine
on the drive home
street light shooting stars
This magical bee-
doesn't sting
it is soothing, pacific
and lights upon my eyes
with fuzzy feet
turning my tears to honey
thus sweetening
my bitter pain.
He brings other
bees,
So What Does LOVE REALLY Mean To You .... ???
Your Lovers' Touch Or The Things They DO .... ???
That Make You FEEL Your Love Is REAL ... ?!?
Why did you invite her
The night before our last
Why did you invite her
I had a whole night planned
Why did you invite her
I was going to take you to the moon
Why did you invite her
I miss the quiet
When my brain wasn't on fire
and I was still a person
My heart is open
so you tie it
Cutting of the circulation to every
nerve inside of my body
You're laying bricks on my chest
I'm wearing them like a bulletproof vest
I'm trying to breathe but my lungs feel like concrete
My heart rate drops and there's barely a heartbeat
I'm afraid of my future without you in it
I think of you going back
I hate that my mind plays tricks like that
It's an obsession
I think about you and him 24/7
Does she love me? Was I an out?
You Know it's Funny To Me How Some People Be ...
It's Like HYPOCRISY ... DEFINES Their Breed ... !!!
Like White Girls QUICK To Run Their Lips ...
About Racists Who They Sleep With ... !?!
It's About THAT TIME ...
To Use STRAIGHT Rhymes To EXORCISE ...
What Rests Inside My ... ANGERED Mind ... !!!!!
A Mind That Tries To OPEN Eyes ...
of Those With Sight Whose Vision's ... "Blind" ... !!!
YES ... Something For THEM ... !!!
Those In The Audience Whose Acts Are ... " Pretense " ...
PRETENDING Their ... " Friends " ...
When They Really STAND AGAINST ...
The Ways Some EXPRESS Through Raps And Poems ...
He molded thee with his own mighty hands
Thy beauty is shown through his fine, personal touch
He madeth thee to beest farest in the lands
you promised we'd make it
your love, you promised you wouldn't fake it
the thought of me leaving, you said you could't take it
yet it was you who left
me in the place you promised i'd never be again
WOMEN ... Raise Children ... !!!
BITCHES Have ... " Kids " ... !!!
WOMEN Are Forgiving ... !!!
BITCHES Have STINGS ... !!!
BITCHES Will Say ... "Men aren't nice to them !' ...
Yeah THAT'S RIGHT I'M NOT YOUR BITCH ... !!!!!!!!!!
Say What You Like But DON'T EVER THINK ... !!!
Who does not take my kind heart for granted
Won’t have to give him chances after chances
Knows what to do and how to do it when it comes to satisfying me
It's Time To MOBILISE Those Who USE THEIR Minds ... !!!
For MORE THAN A Prize Or Bling That Shines ...
Those NOT inclined To Live By LIES Or Hide Behind Their PRIDE FILLED Lives ...
What You CHOOSE Can DAMAGE You ... !!!!!
So Choose WISELY And Make SMART Moves ... !!!
Before You Find Yourself In A BIND ...
That Leaves You TRAPPED With NO Backpack ... !!!
They ... HATE IT Don't They ... ?!?
When You ........................................................... IGNORE Them .....
Some Girls And Women Nowadays ...
REALLY Make Me LAUGH .... !!!!!
They CLEARLY THINK They're SMART ...
So CHOOSE To PLAY The ... " CHASE ME Game " ... !!!
Well ... "Not me babe !" ...
Listen Man … " What you waiting for ? " ...
A Housewife And Mother Who Acts Like A WHORE … !?!
Good Luck With That Man ... !!!
If You Find One Like THAT TRUST Me She's UNIQUE … !!!
One Must Show COMPOSURE When Facing Exposure ...
To Ignorant Heads Showing ... DISRESPECT ... !!!!!!
Like Those QUICK To Run Their JEALOUS Gums ...
Who ACT As Though They Fear ... NO FOE ... !!!!!!!
She's One of THEM Who DISMISSES Men ... !!!!!!!
Because She Says She's INDEPENDENT ... !!!!!
And In This Case THIS ONE Is French ...
I Was With A Female Friend ...
When Our Conversation Led ...
To ... Condescending Sinners ... !!!
Who Are CLEARLY ... Walking Sphincters ... !!!!!
A fresh leaf of paper, never used
Placed before voracious palms
The paper takes in each and every anxious qualm
He scribbles his notes between the lines
Hidden meaning behind mendacious eyes
LADIES If Men Ask You THIS ...
"Would you like to go out, for a couple of drinks ?"
DON'T Reply ...." I've got a boyfriend " ... !?!
That's NOT An Answer To The Question ... !!!
... " I Just CAN'T SLEEP " ... !!!
Because of THE HEAT On The Third of July ...
The Sun's Up HIGH And Shining BRIGHT ... !!!
My self worth will pour out
the cracks of the piggy bank
On the day I decide to steal the coins
you walk so heavy on your feet. you are one-hundred and twenty pounds
and your feet clonk like you have never felt gravity before.
I Could Write About Women Every Single Day ... !!!
Because Their Ways Leave My Head ... SPINNING ... !!!
She smells of hardwork and motherhood
Her scent permeates the room immediatlely after she enters
Her eyes are forced open and the bags beneath droop lower than yesterday
Do You Ever Get The URGE To Write Down Words ...
Which When Observed Help People ... LEARN ... ?!?
I Now Use PRECISION When Making ... " Decisions " ...
Thus AVOIDING Collisions With Places Like ... " Prison " ... !!!
My Form of Conviction Informs My Decisions ...
I Sit Back And Listen To Those Who Spread WISDOM ...
These Days I See So MUCH IGNORANCE ... !!!
From People On The Street ...
To Those Who CLAIM To Be The BEST of Friends ... !!!!!
And Those Who've Made Your ... " Acquaintance " ...
"Nice to meet you !"
love is love
is love is
you, is love is
love is love is
don't fret over what you don't have,
fret over what you do, is
love is love is
the universe, watching over the two
Cry me a river
as i melt through the drain
Your love brought me nothing
but bruised wrists, heart, and brain.
So don't you dare leave me
with these glow-in-the-dark scars.
What A Shame ... What A Shame ... !!!
You Like To Play Games And CLEARLY Like To SNIFF Cocaine ... !!!
Why Let Your Brain Go Down The Drain Why Be Like THAT Babe PLEASE Explain ... !!!
Adopted honest behavior
but it's easier to lie about it.
Though we're now strangers,
I still cry about it.
Will I ever see you again?
I highly doubt it.
Wrote out the letters
of your name,
You Girls Who Play Games Should Be ... " So ASHAMED " ... !!!!!
of Things That You Do To Get Your Own Way ... !!!
You Play With Mens' Minds So Much of The Time ...
That Guys Now Do Things That Aren't So Nice ... !!!!!!
These Days It's REALLY HARD To Find ....
People Who USE The ... " Power of The Mind" ... !!!
So MANY Walk Blind And MISS The Signs ... !?!
Because They're STUCK Behind Coc’ Lines ... !!!
I'd Rather Feed Brains Than ... " ENTERTAIN " .... !!!!!
How Many Who Do ... Now Use Cocaine ... ?!?
I'm Saying ... I'm SAYING ... !!!
These People Maintain ...
That Doing Cocaine Helps raiSE Their Game ... !!!
Take Your Time Man USE Your Mind ...
Before You Try To Ride With CRIME ... !!!
Take Your Time When You Design ...
Your Prose To Flow Poems In Rhyme ...
I'm Building Blocks ...
While Those On Top Prefer To .... " BLOCK " ....
That's ILLOGICAL Ask ... " Mister Spock " ... ?!?!?
Human Nature Goes With DANGER ... !!!
As It Now Does With Greed For Paper ... !?!
Are You The ... "Top Man" ... ???
Or The ... "Middle Man" ... ???
Or The Man below Wanting To Be Them ... !?!
I'm NONE of These I'm Simply ... ME ... !!!
I Believe In PRECISION When Making Decisions... !!!
And Find That THIS Helps Avoid...................... COLLISIONS..... !!!!!
You’ll never let me go.
I understand that.
You have pride, beliefs, things that keep you from leaving me alone to fend for myself,
Why Girls ... WHY ... ?
Do You Like To TRY ...
To MESS With The MINDS of .... " LOVING Guys " .... ?!?
Be True My Youth Be True ... Be TRUE ... !!!!!
Don't Do The Things That Make You ... " Blue " ... !!!
DON'T Lie To Yourself Because Those Who DO ...
End Up Having ... PAINFUL Moods ... !!!!!
Ya Know …..
This Is A Question That Leaves Me Confused … ???
The Question Is THIS ... " What Can YOU DO " … ?!?
I never was one for roller coasters,
I like my feet firmly on the ground, thanks.
But I’ve bought a ticket,
I’m going to ride,
so push your fucking mood swing higher.
Look, ma,
no hands.
Girls ... DISTRACT ME ... !!!
Do They Distract YOU ... ?
There's SOMETHING IN The Way They MOVE ... !!!
They Look SO GOOD In ... " High Heel Shoes " ...
Why Do We Struggle And Create TROUBLE ... !!!
Because Most People Are Happy ... " In Their Bubble " ... !?!
Girls These Days Are So Confused ... ?!?
They Seem To Be In ... " Alices' Shoes " ... !?!
YES ... " Wonderland " ... ?!?
Acquaintances and Friends ...
This Nonsense NEVER Ends ... !!!!
Who WITHIN Your Crew ...
Will Be There Til' The End ... ???
Who Are Those Who You Can TRUST ... ???
Who Will Make You Want To CUSS ... !?! ...
Sickened
I find myself
Unsettled
By who
I swore
I would never become
She would never
Hurt me
Not like that
I tell them
Bruises
Internal
I don’t know
How to fight
With you
Like you want me to
My apathy
Exhausts
Even you
I make an effort
To care
About something
But
You
See through
Me
It is impossible to say what she is like
as she is incomparable to most earthly things
She's not a wildflower,
she is a whole meadow
A secret kept by the forest
If it hurts, at least I know what I feel is real
So goddamn masochistic
Let it hurt, I think
Just let it hurt
I'd prefer the pain she inflicts over letting go
I can't imagine a future she’s not a part of
I remember the first poem I ever wrote about you
how at first I had no intention to share it with you
I'd never written anyone a poem --
at least not that I'd shared with them
I think about a lot of things when I stare into space,
But when asked, those things immediately fly out of my head
Then I remember them later and think
Thank God I didn't say that
I sometimes believe that someday
You will wake up
Next to me
And wonder how and why
you settled for what you see
I fear my pretty words
Insecure, she says
I look at her across the table and think
you're perfect
I have a vendetta against
whoever made her feel less than just that
She deserves more than
You. It always comes back to you.
You say you know you will hurt meBut you don't want to.
I am terrified, so fucking scared.
The thought makes my heart pound,my ears ring,my mouth dry.
It used to be
just you and me.
There was no other way
that we could see,
til you dropped a bomb
You went on you're way.
You talk a lotta shit about me
Im hard to live with
I have a mean streak
An attitude thats nothing but rude
I cant be talked to
I Guess I Am THAT GUY ...
Who'll Get The EVIL EYE ...
For Being WHO I AM ...
And NOT Giving A DAMN ... !!!!!
A DAMN About What You Think ...
When I Use My Mouth ...
Stars that waver in the night
Its cold exterior rippled by the comets shed
The aurora night sky blooms in unknown emotions
The cosmos is all she weeps for
"Let's Just Be FRIENDS !"
NOW Those Are Words ...
That KNOCK Most Men ... !!!
IF They Come ...
From Their Girlfriend ... !!!
But When We Men ...
Hit Girls With Them ...
What Is It With ...
... " Modern Women " ... ???
That Makes Men Want Them .... ?
Cos' Women These Days ...
Drive Men Round The Bend ... !!!!!
I've Been TRULY SURPRISED ... !!!
In Fact ... " MESMERISED " ....... !!!!
By The Volume of People ...
Who ... Tell Themselves Lies ... !!!
These Acts I Believe ...
Give Liars ... " Relief " ...
There was once a moment
Where I was blinded by city lights, trampled by tall towers,
stepped on by city streetwalkers,
And all of it seemed so small in comparison.
People Are Funny ... !?!
They Now Make Me Laugh ...
You Talk ...
They Don't Listen ... ?!?
MP's Keep ... "Restricting" ...
IGNORANCE In People ....
Has Now Become SICKENING ... !!!
Kids Seem NOWADAYS ...
To Be .... " Impolite " ....
Well Me I Was Shown ...
That This Just ISN'T Right ... !!!
Sometimes, I see it in their eyes.
Their irises are green, like a spring day
And their pupils black, like a midnight sky.
When they are awake,
Their irises are the color of green grass,
Why Do Young Boys Run Their Mouth ... ?!?
Probably Cos' ...
They've Got NOTHING Down South ... !!!
So Let Me Explain What I'm Talking About ...
Some Young Boys ACT Like They're ALL THAT ... !!!!
Now here's a story
most fellas know !
You're chatting in a bar
and see a SHINY STAR !
NOT one up in the sky
but one with female thighs !
She catches yes your eye
when you utilise the mic
Grounding me, similar to the acts of a ship’s anchor
You are my stability.
Anxiously waiting to hit land,
We met,
like wave greeting beach
I think the worse thing is imagining what I feel for you right now
isn't what they call love,
True Love.
It's an inflamed obsession,
more temporary, something that'll fade overtime.
I am not going to write about you.
I am not going to write about him.
I am not going to write about it.
I am not going to write about me.
I want to write about the world.
I want to write about changes.
Can we take a moment to just stop?
Just stop.
Stop and think.
Think about people.
The people in your life.
How your life is with those people in them.
How your life is without those people in them.
So baby tell me what's up.
Why are things getting rough.
When I try to text or call you, ya' never pick up.
It's such a shame, I gotta take the blame.
You only think that love is a silly little game.
I don't want to find love.
I just want to be free.
I only care about the people who believe in me.
It's hard to find a truelove out there.
Sometimes, it just ain't there.
Love to be longed for,
thinking it existed no more.
He builds up my hopes,
then tears down my dreams.
Never knowing how much,
to me, he really means.
i thought i did something that made you mad
made you hate the way i blink
or hate the way i shiver when it’s cold outside
i thought i did something that just
Europa, Io, and Semele
Three took part in a marriage disassembly.
Zeus played his wife like a chess piece.
He visited clubs, went downtown, and attended rancid parties.
I sit here thinking about tomorrows,And all the evenings I'll be asleep.I'll sit and watch the stars go be,Sitting here alone with me.
Have a unique beauty about them.One can lose themselves simply looking,let alone swimming, perhaps the mind itself islost imagining what it be like to swim in.
if i was her boyfriend
i’d invite her to stay
the night at my house
if she likes, she would say
“yes!”, we’d grab snacks
i would nervously rest
my head on her shoulder
o why did I wear a dress?
Dance with me down the path of life
Beautiful and tragic, I know there will be strife
I don’t know how long we’ll last, maybe a song or two
Papers stuffed neatly into their respective folders,
Textbook clenched tightly against my side,
I turn to face the dawn.
My mother stands against the light.
Te amo...
The words meaning I love you,
What is the meaning I love you?
To some people it is a chemical in the head that shows attraction to a man or woman,
Wear my poetry.On your skin.Recite parts of me. On your stretch marks.Carry my sensuality.On your tongue.
Speak.
Only about us.
What is love?
What is trust?
What is pain?
What if love is trust, and trust is pain.
In order to love , you have to trust.
Trust that it is love and not lust.
As I fall,
I wonder if there is anyone who will catch me, love me, make me feel like I’m wanted
Sometimes I ask myself, “damn am I haunted?”
Because it’s like a chain reaction… domino effect
I live in a world where everybody lies
I live in a world where if you do anything you get despised
I live in a world where I do everything alone
And I've made it this far so look how fast I've grown
I just stood there
Almost paralyzed by your beauty
Yet, Letting your hurtful words cut me so deep I started to bleed from my wrist
My blood was as red as her matte lipstick
He sits so close,
but the silence turns the inches into miles and
every slight noise causes an avalanche in my chest
as I wait for him to say something.
Anxious Reticence.
I have changed so much.
Story time
From the past to the present
From the present to the future
From the future and beyond
As a kid
I developed trust issues
Because of what my parents did
My parents created a ruse
Heart Breaking
Tear Inducing
My world stopped when you left
Sleepless Nights
Numb Feelings
I couldn’t pick myself back up
I wanted to forget
I wanted to stop existing
All together
Sitting next to my peers,
Who have consistently filled my eyes with tears,
Is a painful exposition into the realm of self-hate.
I’m constantly thinking: “I deserve this, right?”
I’ve always thought of heartbreak
As something from failing romances,
But I am learning with such a high stake:
Heartbreak does not discriminate against acquaintances.
Moving On
My dear,
Your scent still lingers on my clothing
so on lonely days I make sure to breathe you in, zip you up and pull you close.
you really could be delectable
but…
i can’t take you home
you’re too much
i wish you were less
What have I done?
He is restless without my touch.
He needs constant reassurance.
Is there no faith that I can give him?
I have done no wrong.
No reason t thing of another.
Stress eats me whole.
sixteen
Lips on lips, never felt more sure,
that I'd give myself up and make me your own.
The sunlight could not compare
to the glistening specks of hazel;
It’s been over 2 years since I’ve seen you
And I still get chills whenever I think about the way your hands grazed my thighs
I feel blinded by the disappointment in myself for not letting you in
You were the breath of fresh air
That I didn’t know I needed
Until we met
I have been so used to suffocating
That I forgot what it felt like to breathe
A new face won’t erase the scars an old face created
Needing sedation after seeing your fingers on the trigger
You can’t put a bandaid over a bullet wound and expect to heal
I haven’t been sleeping well
Tossing and turning
Hurting most when I close my eyes
And see your face taunting me
Haunting me like a ghost
A Cat and a Change
Constant scrutiny and miscommunication.
The silent critic made life unbearable.
Home was ripped away again,
You wake up angry and leave me
Hangin
Sayin "I love you" to your back,
Wishin I could retreat
Back to bed
Into myself.
You don't mean it you're just angry
At yourself
Once upon a time there was a sad little girlwho sat at the swings alonewaiting for someone to occupy the empty swing next to herso they'd swing togetherand she'd feel a little less lonely
A breth of fresh air never tasted so sour,
I bear the heaviness of regret on my shoulders,
Again with your games of deciet and lies,
Your words cascading down the mountainside,
A breth of fresh air never tasted so sour,
I bear the heaviness of regret on my shoulders,
Again with your games of deciet and lies,
Your words cascading down the mountainside,
Strong arms and even stronger abs
A smile that could make the sun himself so drab
Eyes so piercing that they gaze into my soul
This was my idea of ‘boyfriend goals’
Then college comes
Entering a relationship at a young age
can feel like starting a new page.
Rushing something that is special
can cause it to not be sentimental.
There’s no greater joy than to be in love
First love, that is
He took me so high, we soared miles above
There was no greater comfort than in his kiss
finally found someone who makes me happy,
so why cant mom just be happy for me
she doesnt even know him and she chooses to hate
is there something im not seeing
how do you tell someone something so crazy
that you cant see the light at the end of the tunnel
that youre an angel thats just been begging to go home
how do you tell someone something so personal
I'm breaking heart
sitting here everyday thinking
i should man up and tell you
I'm breaking my own heart
letting occupy my thoughts
the better part of the day
I'm breaking my heart
Baby, why can’t you make up your mind?
It’s killing me and wasting time
You come over and make me feel wanted
The next day you’re gone, now I’m haunted
A feeling so brand new,
But as I saw it in my rear view mirror,
The image became crystal clear.
The words that echo through my mind
You love have brought along
new ways in which I view myself.
I was once selfish and yearning for acceptance but now I know I am not
the only one who matters.
You make me selfless.
It is bittersweet.
I miss taking you to eat
and I miss rubbing on your feet.
I miss having someone to trust
and to be vulnerable with and to lust
after..
You'd eat my broccoli and I'd eat your crust.
I was probably too excited to meet you. I've
sat on this bench for the past two hours,
here, just daydreaming
and secretly hoping you'd be early too.
I met loads of people. One lady
The pain he leaves you with
is not your identity.
You are not what he said you are
and “crazy”,
You sap my life of joy, Rival,
With those words of doubt.
I love and you can't, Rival
And drive affections out.
All I feel is negativity. I love to go to school. Life out of school is too much to handle. I love Him. He is sweet and kind deep down. But, he is broken and lost. I am lost. I feel like the walls of my life are closing in on me.
You can’t walk into a relationship with expectations for the future.
When you find a man, let him stand, let him stand alone
Don't drag him down to get your feet off the ground
My love, you are my everything and my nothing at all;
you are my dream and my nightmare;
you may be my happiness and yet the cause of my depression.
You are my never-ending purgatory:
In your heart's
native tongue
tell me you love me
So that I am forced to
learn the language
of your heart
Waxy lips,
Purple ‘n thick
Rear view,
A devious kick
Sing-song giggles,
A soft purse
Stomach churning,
A biological curse
“How do I look baby?”
“Pretty mom,” I say
It’s the worthwhile fight I trek through,
Knowing that at the end I’ll be next to you.
The longing wait, filled with sacred conversations,
A lovingness with hints of preservation,
I want you to tell me again,
because I couldn't say what I wanted too.
I need you to tell me again,
because I wanted to say what you expected me too.
Please, just tell me again,
Your flame-seared name...
It burns...
When I learned of you,
Dear Flame,
The games you play,
The hearts you slay,
When I found this out
All thoughts of you
Just went away
I am walking through a sea.
Not of wind nor of waves,
but of souls,
True individuals with names.
Aren’t we all that will pass,
From this big empty rock mass?
In the end,
There's nothing so much that scares me more,
Than the soft and prickly things that start small,
In the cracks of humanity, growing like sponges,
“We need to talk.”
White bay windows overlook the block.
We always closed the blinds up here.
Keeps the neighbors from shock.
There was once a time I could look at your face,
let myself stand there, when I knew what you did
I was silent then,
And then I wasn't, not anymore
And when I opened my mouth you asked me,
As my mind says Stop
My legs carry me far away
from the people I love
I am afraid to lose them
Yet I grow smaller everyday
why?
I’m sitting you down here today because we need to talk.
You know what? I take that back.
I need to talk. You need to listen.
Fights begin and end,
But what is a world worth living
Where there is no one there to start them?
Not just because there will be no fights,
Benign snowfall acts as a reminder,
Of the months that have elapsed;
Falling softly, directed by the breeze,
And tender in its tracks.
A year before it became a symbol - a mascot of two hearts:
It all begins with a simple smile,and little giggles that draws their attention.They wonder and explore to find something vile,nothing appears so they start to question. The digital signs shows their devotionin happy emojis that tell their emotion
You have no idea how much I love to look in your eyes
Your eyes tell me all I need to know as all the wisdom in the universe lies within it
I could spend eternity
For the small space between our eyes is my refuge
You painted me out to be desperate
But theres a difference between desperation and being hopeful
I waited for you because I was hopeful not desperate
I was hopeful for us but I didn’t need us to workout
cOaStEr
a lost girl, unwanted in a world of wanting
he’s. the. ONE.
that made me fall in love
to not see him smile
Shorts onSmiling wideDown the sidewalkStrolling, strolling
In the distanceHe treasured herCalling, calling
I open my mind's lid like the drawer of a filing cabinet.
It is the place where thoughts, dreams, and memories thrive.
Letters of knowledge organized just like books in a library.
I see his face and her face, I see all the rest
But do you not see the hole in my chest?
I hear his voice and her voice, I hear theirs too
But darling, where's your voice? I only want you.
A bird who loves his cage and his view of the tree
Is still a bird in captivity
The loveliest of cells still has the power to derange
I wanted so desperately to be free
The tempting breezes to leave me be
Dandelions sure do look like flowers
But they're weeds that wilt in just a few hours
To my untrained eye, it looked like a real dollar bill
But a distorted George screamed "Counterfeit" and still
Dear strangers
“Excuse me，Which way to x street？”
I ask pass-by pedestrians ，politely，
He/She ignores completely，even–
No cast of a cold eye．
You feel like you've found your light
You feel like the darkness surrounding you is dimming down
You finally have a vision in sight,
You suddenly feel like you are not going to drown.
You turns Me into We
this letter is me saying goodbye.
this letter is everything i couldn't say
when you were in my room that night
when i asked you to stop
to leave me alone
and you persisted
in touching me
when you say my name, you say it like a poem you will never write.babylon boy, when i whisper your name in the pale moonlight,
I pushed you away thinking you would fade away
but you didn’t…
I thought I didn’t want to remain with you, almost avoided you
but nothing was true…
I wanted to explore dating guys to find out all the lies
Sheet
She is nothing.
Just a black sheet before your eyes.
But out of this apocalyptic world, a special set of eyes see more.
I see love all around me
young kisses placed on heads
cheeks and lips
It reminds me of the love
that pecks my temple
even as something slips
why do you expect me to be okay?
to be okay with your actions,
to be okay with what you say
i'm not
why do you expect me to forget?
the words you told me,
the words you said
i can't
It never works,
And I'm an idiot for trying.
I feel like you've unpopped the corks,
'Cause I'm suddenly crying.
Asexual is not a lie
We don’t want attention
No one simply needs a good fuck
We are people too
According to biology sex is a necessity
We disagree
Sex is a pleasure
But not for me
Your hands are wrapped,
Entangled in mine.
Like the blue Flowers
Apart of the vines.
Your lips are pressed
Against my rosey Cheeks,
Causing my legs,
To become mildly weak.
Because I am a nice person,I will mother and worry over you.Because I am a nice person,I will let you have your way.Because I am a nice person,I will let it slide.Because I am a nice person,
To seal the dealOur little fingers lockTangling like the boondocksThe promise now annealed
I want you.
I don't tell you but I think it every day.
I want you. Putting emphasis on every word I say it three times over.
I want to kiss you unil are lips are raw and there is no emotion left to be shared.
And then three years later and look at us now..
We were talking about marriage & having some kids in the house.
Man nothing ruins a relationship quicker than doubt.
Used to say you were so confident in what we had.
They say, don’t kiss and tell,
They say, don’t tell after we kiss,
Shaken inside, coz I can’t miss, every taste of the feel.
Maybe I’m crazy,
Maybe I’m lazy,
I was white bread, sticking to the roof of his mouth:He was all bones and warm brown skinWe leaned into each other,
If you are in a relationship
Rule number one is don’t stay silent about your issues
Rule two, speak your mind and if you assume something talk and fix that problem
Breathe, breathe
One, two, three
I am a happy daughter
Who loves her mother
Not a hint of loathing to be found
Exhale, exhale
I mustn't tell lies
Enjoy the way the breeze feels nice
Sitting in a black hole
Surrounded by own warmth
A single light
That may or may not be mine
A distraction
An object
Hundreds of objects
Various different kinds
Which should I choose
The air filled with sounds of chatter and late night melodies, as the dj synthesized
Patrons shared stories swayed to the beat
Drinks of all sizes and varieties
I'm tired of the lies AND misconception
Long to be held, seeking attention
Covering up my discontentment
I've ran out of makeup and forgotten how
I thought about this poem and what to throw under the bus
I realized that the only thing on my mind, was to talk about us.
When I think of the beginning of the end
My hands shake, my breath shakes, my head shakes
I thought about this poem and what to throw under the bus
I realized that the only thing on my mind, was to talk about us.
When I think of the beginning of the end
My hands shake, my breath shakes, my head shakes
the winds blow through the leaves of the trees
as words drift from ears to ears
of those who want to hear
Creator speaks in many voices
through many people
selectively we chose
You taught me to be kind You taught me to be great You taught me to take time You taught me to appreciate You taught me my love for trees You taught me my love for photos You taught me my love for bees You taught me my love for Coco You taught
12 AM
No messages.
That’s been something recent.
Communication lessens.
Your phone is at sixteen percent.
12 AM
No messages.
That’s been something recent.
Communication lessens.
Your phone is at sixteen percent.
I felt it a few times as a child, being tickled, laying next to you
whilst you slept - watching your beautiful face, peaceful.
Another time we went picking for daffodils and blueberries.
Everyone else seems to be used to this
They've all been through here
This beautiful water
Many my age have practically sailed
Through this whole ocean by now
I know I'm behind
I hate that my heart yearns for you
It will look for in the hallways of our overcrowded school
It wants to give itself to you again
Let you break me
As the heat of day is flung
into evening's dusky sky,
I, beneath straw-brimmed hat
glance askance at you, reach for your hand,
point to soaring pelicans and sea birds
as they pass over palms, masts,
I never saw a facethat I Saw as much as yours
that golden part
it sent me into such a spiral
wringing together hands
that invariably aimed to only touch yours;
On cold nights like these
Where I’m happy with
People in my lifeAnd without you in sight
I can’t help but wonder
How did you turn out
Stare into the outside
Neon lights and street signs
She holds me
It’s gonna be alright
She said, but she fades
Moonlight turns away
Why assume I am always busy with work?
Why assume you are bothering me?
Why are you acting like everything is bright ignoring the darkness?
Why can’t you confess you suck at communication?
“Sleepless nights abound
Sleepless night above
Sleepless nights are found
With a lack of love”
"All this time I thought, all this time I thought things could be fixed, like that time I broke the door open with my fist. Left a hole in the wood, splinters on my skin, was bleeding from the knuckles, felt the pain set in.
I don't want to leave you
I don't want you to never see me again
I know what to do
Color in the lines
Darken the edges
Don't let me fade away
You used to be my comforter,
Now you are my tormentor.
You used to be my guardian,
Now you are my warden.
You used to be my protector,
Now all you do is hover.
With careful cadence, ink steps on pages
And rhythmically, words stride to our minds.
They serve all the troubled of the ages,
With careful cadence, ink steps on pages
And rhythmically, words stride to our minds.
They serve all the troubled of the ages,
Life is tough when you fall so easy, you never see it coming
Smiles make you melt, words shatter dreams of the lonely
It's tough when he only looks at you, you fall faster
I can feel her force
like a tsunami.
Her crashing, all-consuming presence around me;
Leaving me breathless and my lungs aching for air...
I drown in her.
It takes a minute for the Sun to move
From North to South, and
Back up again to marvel in his splendor
Of the motion, she grew tired
Low bronze and crisp lavender fork through her eyes
Lunae Lumen, moonlight so bright I forget I’m in the dark
The night is cold and empty, a mirror of how I felt
After I hurt you.
You are there beginning through end
You encompass us before we are even given a soul
You shout at the thought of the fears we do send
We met one night
You made me feel alive.
Your eyes pulled me in
and your lips collided with mine.
Love is a fragile word,
and I feel it in me.
You say I'm too young
Personally, I've always liked sunsets more than sunrises. Call me sadistic, but I've always found endings more beautiful than beginnings, if for no other reason than to watch how the universe ties up the strings.
feelings we disect,
fail to digest.
we're both so depressed.
emotions repressed;
show reason less.
we scream and we shout;
dont know what about.
I saved this for us.
you stressed me out.
People don't see the importance of self-tax
Instead, they see anyone and become lax
They don't pay attention to the signs you need
They become one with the Devil's creed
You see this happen everyday
As I make my journey
goals ahead, pushing through,
I take the time to reflect,
I take the time to make some sense
of all that I have become.
What has brought me here
I knew it when she touched your shoulder
And I
Walked into the public bathroom alone
And the distinct smell of
Urine and nail polish remover filled
Me with a sense of urgency to
Finish quickly
You're a good song title
You're nothing near full
A misconception of the mind
There's something missing in your kind
Where do I begin?
How do you tell a tale so weathered yet so fresh?
So foreign yet familiar.
Your palm that once warmed my thin fingers
Anterior View of a Fragile Abdomen
By Emma Roy
Inspired by Monica Ong documentary poetry “Silent Anatomies”
***Please note the media attached is the original version of the poem
you can
be as
kind &
as loving
as you
want.
but
i still won't
believe that
i deserve
you. i'll
disappoint you.
suck the light
how funny it is
that after three days of lying next to someone,
sharing secrets, matching heartbeats, and pressing lips together,
one can fall in the first stages of what may very well shape up to be love.
I hope your husband treats you better
than your mom's boyfriend treated her.
I'm sorry I mentioned their violence when we fought-
a bad time to bring it up
but I guess I knew we were through.
I've been broken and abused
Ripped apart and misused
But yet, somehow,
I still function.
I've found fields of sorrows
And hopeless tomorrows
Yet I still yearn to feel something
I have these two friends...
In school, they both have goals and dream.
Both got pregnant at eighteen.
Sweet girls that fell victim to all of the lies-
Of “Love” they thought they had from other “Nice Guys.”
To be happy in loves eyes Is as simple as a couple pretty lies To care less what is true Just as long as I'm with you
I am slowly stepping instead of falling for her.
I never learned how to love so instantly.
This feeling is far from what I prefer.
She is like the seasons of winter and summer,
I love the way you smile at me.
I love the way you kiss me.
I love the way you hold me close.
I love the way whisper in my ear.
but...
I hate the way you lie to me.
We fit together like raisins and water
As if by some minor miracle we could turn out to be what we once were
Like bleach to amonia
We are volatile
Even if we have the same dream
It only lasts for a little while
no amount of time can save
my baby sleeps past ten
on the floor of our new cave
she calls this hole a den
another relationship
another breakup
today, our one month anniversary
she breaks up with me
after isolating herself for days
blaming me
not even trying to fix things
flowers need more than water to grow
maybe that’s why I run away at the sight of them blooming
I can’t even remember to water them once a day
how can I sustain them for years?
be someone
extra special
rise me
rise my energy
make me high
it might be
wild desire
my body
on fire
just a dream
maybe I need
new ideas
Last night someone asked me,
"Are you not interested in someone right now? Or even have someone to flirt with?"
"Theres no one right now." I answered.
They were dubious when they asked,
Let's be lonely together
We'll sit by the fire and you might call me a liar
Cause I stole some Monopoly money while you turned your back
Or I stole some of your food and had a light snack
Imagine waking up early and feeling all happy
Then by nine pm, you've got all snappy
The girl you loved is now a whore
And you're one wrong word from a hole in the wall
Something about this generation irks me.
And it's how we use the word love.
It's used Loosely, without passion or meaning.
And I was one who did the same until I met Him.
I could never figure out love,
But I could put the letters on a page.
Letters smacked on a page.
If I looked at it sideways,
it kinda looked like him.
Maybe this was it?
They knew they should be happyBut it had lost its spark.The light of the relationshipHad faded into dark.They didn’t want to tell h
Miscommunication,
miscommunication leads to bad reactions.
Bad reactions,
bad reactions lead to bad attitude.
Bad attitude,
bad attitude leads to anger.
Anger,
anger leads to silence.
Oh look how the rose withers.
Oh look how the petals fall.
With time it begins to shrivel,
Till time fine’ly makes its call.
A real man will know your body is sacred
His desires are more than fruit from a tempress' garden
He will be pactient
He will not try to decieve
If he is a man
Then he will only see you
Speak softly into the chambers of my heart.
Never let go as you kindle me like a fire on a frigidly cold winter night.
Touching your raven black hair, running my fingers through like a comb.
The first time you asked for a hug I flinched.
It was because of you.
But it was not.
It was all about me.
My head was playing a horror movie.
When I told my friend that I liked a boy she was ecstatic. She gushed. She squealed. She urged me forward.
When I told my friend he asked me out she screamed. She laughed. She yelled. She asked me when we were going out.
Sticky sweet jolly rancher kisses
I realize that I´m going to miss this
We say our goodbyes and I pull away
But something really urged me to stay
Every rib in my chest breathes in for a smile
my heart
aches
at the knowledge
that i’ve loved you for forever
but
forever is coming
to an end.
He tasted like mangosi couldn't place it until the next daywhen his lips were no longe
Love, just like chocolate
Comes in different forms
Sometimes it's sweet
Sometimes bitter
At times, there are nuts involved
i feel tired at 7:30 (p.m)
sometimes i go to bed that early
sometimes i stay up to a grand 8:30
exhausted of putting my feelings into jokes
metronome heart
allegro to affrettando
pump
hair rises like furtive
ballerinas on strident
piano keys
dear crush
can you hear that?
the sound of my heart
breaking?
breaking like claps
each syllable you spoke to someone else
I'm Lost
My heart has encountered it's own holocaust
Love with all you've got, they said
Only to unpull all my thread
Rooms capture nothing
Without wallpaper
Coverless books
Dangle bare
Eroding the roots
Of cotton-bound truths
Glassy eyed vixen.
I stare into thy eyes.
Sparkling like a wildfire;
Such feelings I can't deny.
Long black silky hair
Oh I did not dare touch.
But my thoughts are impure;
I am among the unseen
And you are the light that stands before me.
As I close my eyes to sense it,
But it never reaches me.
I am among the unheard
And you are the voice that echoes so faintly.
This little bottle of chardonnay;
My escape, my stimulation. And you
My every motivation, unending infatuation.
Each glass with every momentous sip
The taste of grapes dance on the edge of my tongue,
Time waits for no one
And I stand still, frozen,
Unable to keep up.
I chase and chase,
Yet the seconds speed up.
Round and round, the seconds speed up.
Minute by minute, the distance widens.
You forsake me for another
And leave me cold and lonely.
You torture me with your eyes,
They greet me yet they ignore me.
You taunt me with your smile,
It sends comfort but mocks me.
When sunlight becomes the dark,
I pray that you are the path
That illuminates my heart.
When sunlight becomes the night,
You are the shield I run to
Behind your glorious sight.
When you smile your smile
It takes me away from this reality.
And when I see those eyes,
I'm suspended in a life-like fantasy.
Speak out a fresh breath of air;
Orchestrate a conversation for me
We've been through ups and downs
(The good, the bad, the smiles and frowns),
But I ain't giving up on us.
So believe in me, this is more than lust.
It's you or bust 'cause YOU is a must!
I didn't mean to lead you astray;
I'm weak, as weak as anyone or anything can humanly be.
But the passion that melts me inside is for you.
I lay besides an emptiness that is only meant to be occupied by you,
Even though you tore my heart in two
I'm still in love with you.
And if one day I can love someone else,
I'll have forgiven you
And I've learned to respect myself.
When I finally learn to let this go
Hello. I’m Christian.
We’ve talked a little bit over text and i didn't think much of it,
But standing here in front of you.
Suddenly my breath is gone
"Are you leaving?" she said.
I informed that im to return soon.
Her stare blanketed in dis-array,
I inquired if something was needed.
"Can you leave my heart on the table until you get back?"
Looking out the Window I see my slight reflection, notice my brown complexion and see all the weathers pondering whether I should wear that red sweater.
When we part for the day,
I sit and I say,
"I love you, I love you, I love you."
I hide from your face,
I whisper your name,
And I love you, I love you, I love you.
A minuscule moment in a gargantuan globe,
Not significant at all,
But the day my baby passed away,
I swear I saw the heavens fall.
"Where did the connection go?" He asks as he sits on his phone, his body language screams, "Engrossed in a world that's not his own."
The sort of familiar feeling of falling
Envelops me like it's always meant to
An ocean that only goes down
Devoid of light and air and feeling
I find myself reaching
(The surface is miles away)
It all seems like a nightmare
My eyes can’t even meet your stare
They burn and sting with the power of a thousand bees
Lord knows I’ve cried more than the seas
We didn’t fall in love
I just can’t stop thinking bout you
No we’re not meant to be
But everyone you’re with reminds you of me
tell me that you want a tree,
an Apple Tree.
the fruit you desire, it will produce
but, if you, plant it first.
the tree will give you many years
but, if you, will give it drink.
The closer you come
the more I crack
you tell me you love me
when I know it's a lie
you hug me the hardest tonight
because I know is good bye
I wish it had never started
How are you so stupid, so naive?
You brought this on yourself.
Walked in a locked room with no keys.
Don't bother blaming anyone else,
Don't cry, beg, or plead.
How do you expect to get out?
drawn to each other
We ignore each other
we talk all day
we’re stuck in silence
smiles, laughs, bliss
frowns, cries, sadness
our first kiss
our last fight
I've outgrown my church shoes
And all my pencils are dull
The world stops spinning when we are alone.
Away from work, away from home.
Dear you who I don’t know what to call anymore,
In between frozen touches and blank
stares I knew it all along, hidden in your cryptic answers.
Chaste messages. I figured
It can’t be so bad.
Dear K,
Intoxicated were we, but intoxicating was your kiss,
the night we first expressed ourselves to each other.
Wrapped in your sweet embrace,
unaware of future regret.
To Them,
Today I looked at you through a glass dome
I watched the tears fall from your cheeks
Your eyes creased, cheeks growing red
Your voice cracked in the middle of your sentence
Dear Untouchable,
Proven divine, your soul glows like gold
under glistening sunlight; its own halo that just doesn’t
happen to gleam right.
Dear Mr. Almost PerfectYou're a dork, but that's one of the things I love about you.Warm breath colliding with mine you never make me feel uncomfortable.What I see as flaws in myself you wrap up and make beautiful
It’s been a few months now
and I don’t know why I am writing about you.
It feels like an obligation,
but what will this really do?
Your faceThe sharpness of itTypical strange beautyClear as the water stillOver the river on the hill
He has many flaws, and i know that,
but he's him, and i love him.
He makes me happy inside and out,
The kind of happy you see in childrens books.
I never do this you know, but he's different, oh so different.
My words are lost tonight.
They are in your mouth,
Because you always seem to win the arguments.
You can either trick her into thinking your special
Or
You can threaten to leave her
Which one would you rather kill her with?
You are the blood in my veins,
The only way I would let us part,
Is if I cut my skin and let you out.
You had me fooled to think that you were right about everything.
But no you were trying to convince me to your side.
Or at least the side you thought was right.
We are all wrong in different ways.
Hey Samantha
I must say, I'm glad I met you
I am grateful to have been introduced
By a close friend, and it is amazing, the spark it produced
Though you're a bit far, I feel so close
I see it in the shadows,
behind me and below.
It follows me everywhere,
everywhere I go.
This burden that I carry,
from every day to day,
May one day prove worthy,
Everytime we argue, we create a storm.
You say things you don't mean- please don't make a scene.
Those vulgar words you say, I wish they could be unheard.
And as we separate- the clouds they turn grey.
We are Lost when we're together but I'll follow you forever,
'Cause 'together' is the nicest place to be;
if this world should end in flame, we'll burn together all the same,
'Cause I don't need anyone else to be with me.
I need you and you need me
We give, we take,
We show, we see
We laugh, we cry
We live, we die,
Together
Half of enough
You said " everything isnt meant for you to understand"
But I understand that you will never be MY man
I dont think you know what you did to me
You made me believe that i was going to be your everything
Honestly,
I don't think you exist.
You're like a unicorn
with your beauty abundance,
majestic prescence,
magical countenance -
I'm not really good at this.
I,
Dear D,
You’re my worst enemyWho is always there with me,
From the moment I awakeTo the thoughts that I make.
someday a boy will break your heart in two
consider this a forewarning to you
his eyes
brilliant baby blue
will consume you entirely
You take it all, my love is simply yours to take
you frightened me, stripping me bare
heed not, for I am not freed from this heartbreak
"But I love you, it's true" you swear.
Do you think about me the way I do about you?
Do you reminisce about the past we once shared?
I await the day when I can hold your hand again and smile because of our love
Do you think about me, too?
I know you don’t understand this, but my heart thinks about you literally every second when I’m not talking with you.
Don’t worry, my heart is thinking of nothing but you when talking with you too.
salut, mon petit!
that's how i greet you
since we're both french minors
and we're both multi-ethnic
and we grew up in the same hometown
and we were born 11 days apart
dear lover,
there are pieces of myself that simply belong to you. when you leave, you take, & you fill me up with lies in exchange for what you drained of me. this is the best way manipulative men will get me to stay.
Dear Hurricane Victor,
A hailstorm commenced when I agreed to be yours
And you, mine…
I often wonder if it was a sign.
Sometimes you stay in a relationship because it’s easier,you suck up the misery and deal with him even if it’s sleazier. You don’t realize that boys change your life, even when you know that they won’t step up and make you their wife. They control
Dear lost lover,
I miss you in the morning.
My coffee doesn’t taste right without the hint of
your laugh
that you used to add to it.
The birds don’t sound as good as they used to without
The ring
Oh how I loved that ring...
Shining oh how it shined...
Finally, the man I loved would be mine.
Dear Sasha,
Today I walked along the edge of the harbor
In Medemblik, the Netherlands,
With my grandmother's arm in mine.
I noticed a boat among the others
That looked like nothing extraordinary
Fire was he
He was the one who scared
He was the one who burned
But he also was the one who warmed
You were saying you were fine
Acting all alright
Because you loved him way too much to leave him
Some days
I grow stronger
and say
”I don’t need him”
other days
i grow weak
and wish
to talk to him
a monster of
pure anger
wants to somehow
destroy him
I cry in the middle of the night when you're sleepMy face wet with lonely, misunderstood, broken tearsAlthough you don't get the one you fell in love withyou don't get me deep insideI do express myself thoroughly you just don't understand my expre
wrap me in your love again.
blanket plush,
velvet crushed.
make me feel again.
misery, over and over.
Take my hand
Out of here we can run
Open doors and chances
Let go and walk away
And steal what's not yours
You said, you said that we'd last
but now the flag flies half-mast
You said, you said this was true, so real
so how is it you cease to feel
You said, you said, don't give up
yet whose eyes look away so abrupt
You are the closest image of home I have ever encountered. I buried my secrets into your crumbling foundation. My truths filled the holes of your cracking backbone. You loved it; more so you needed it to survive.
I need closure.
Set some things straight.
I was insecure and vulnerable, and no, I don't want to go on a date.
Why do you taunt me?
Stupid, silly, fate.
I am graduating this year and you won't see it.
I will walk down that aisle, I will accept my degree
I will take a step forward and then I will take a step down.
I will bow to the past and face forward to my future,
Last night of October—we lay on the floorWarmly aligned from our shoulders to hipsBy the orange soda fizz of a loud movie scoreLast night of October—we lay on the floorIn the dusty blue attic beneath the trapdoor
I have dreamed of it,
A warm, tender embrace with a lover I cannot see.
Sweet whispers flow from his mouth like honey, filling my soul with joy beyond measure.
Raspberry juice seeps through her teeth
and drips out of the corner of her faked-smile.
Her lips are stained by blackberries,
each one delicately plucked
at the exact moment she was least ready for it.
I revel in the gloom:
Bright choosing to be dim
Light barely reaching shelves
Hiding pulp and leather
Those curiosities
of old man Father Time
I thought I knew you,
The you sitting there,
With an eager smile,
You would take to a chair.
A chair beside me,
Next month will be a year since we been broken up. But every time I look at you old feelings get woken up. I finally have the girlfriend I think I've always wanted. But how can I fully be happy if in my thoughts you've haunted. I'm not saying I wa
I didn’t mean to choose this.
I didn’t ask to feel like this.
But I do.
I want to feel like normal people do, but I realized that I just cannot.
Long live my Father
Who is the wisdom in life's eye
Who upon his shoulders rest
Who is never willing to die
Long live my Father
Who upon a chariot was born
Empty Pages
Writer’s block is
like thinking you’ve met a man
you could give your all to
at the stage of his life when his ego is inflated like the dollar
I love you
Yes, I love you immensely but
the inevitable
is inevitable
Everyone gets bored.
People like you and me,
get bored so easily.
The most exciting people to me
I've witnessed your suffering
Your deep pain unparalleled
Open yourself Love's flower
only to wither and die
I've heard your secrets bemoaned
Intimate and euphoric
Here envelopes you a cave
You look
And you see
A pleasant home.
The flowers are bright,
The bushes are trimmed,
The shingles are painted,
Two wicker chairs are on the porch.
One white picket fence guards the path.
dear Lover,
I played Odile when you wanted Odette--
but Melpomene would agree that the best
romances perform as tragedies
I think you knew we were the same girl
Dear Matthew,
Your eyes tell me they love me,
even when your mouth does not.
However, I cannot remember a day or night
that your mouth forgot.
Your hands tell me they want me,
Dear Pain,
There are things that need to be said
but the words always seem to run
There are actions that ought to be taken
but the rhythm seems undone
The tears appears all dried up
One person
Made me so happy
Yet so dejected
At the same time
We used to sit
And watch the leaves fall
During the most
Once again that my heart shattered
Lights went blackout, no more flickered
My head went full blank
My life I had hang
I thought my life doesn't matter
Our bodies are a kaleidoscope,
limbs entangled in damp silk,
hearts pulsing to the drum of now,
yesterday, today,
tomorrow.
“You’re so perfect” you breathe,
calluses tracing my veins,
I gave you somethingyou probably shouldn’t of receivedI’m weary eyedthinking about how you seemed to lead
charming sweet smiledemeanor honest and truthfulwhy did my heart have to be so couthful?
premeditated achievementwarm kisses sporadically laidin a sea of bewilderment between the cotton waves enclose me in your pillowsdeep in the feathery sandour smiles graze the skies
dear boy i almost gave everything to,
i am not a glistening bar of solid authentic gold,
i am not a crystal clear 50 karat diamond,
i am not a smooth pearl that shimmers in the sun.
i am a ruby.
i get scared on the longer days,
dear
and you, inquisitive, know the blush…
...the blushing reason why
i get scared
The truth is, my darling, that time has passed and we have grown. And yes, I do love you. And yes, that has everything to do with this poem. Loving you has everything to do with who we’ve turned into, and who we’ve grown to become.
I try to love you,
But I can’t.
I try to accept you,
But it is impossible.
They’ve told me to caress you,
But I only have blades.
They’ve told me to take care of you,
I am in love with the way you speak,But more than that,I am in love with the way you think.How your train of thought twists and turns amongst quicksand,How you walk to Jupiter and back,
Tell me what you want,And I promise I won't give it to you.
I know, it's harshI know, it's not what you thoughtI know, I love you
Look to the line of morality.
Your mentality, lost from actuality
Where my red hand stands in a land you don’t understand
And you try to reprimand me? Listen, I demand!
Perhaps I am reticent, hesitant
Blonde hair, blue eyes,
sometimes he makes me ask why,
His heart is cold,
he likes to act bold,
But I love him like Sally loves Jack,
There you are
where I could always admire from afar
See your light, Its radiant colors
Melting into the ocean waters
Here I am
I think of the past.
I think of the sensitivity.
The moment that the aclcohol touched our lips...
I think of promises.
But who did you give the painting to?
I love you,
That doesn't even begin to cover how much I care for you.
I love those mischievous hazel eyes that you flash with all
your devil's mind games.
Liar, liar
you broke my heart first
you set my flesh afire
I gasped as you let go of my hand and watched me burn
liar, liar
why would you do this?
She’s been living in a white dress,
since you got down on one knee.
She’s been living in a black house,
I miss the smell of alcohol on your breath,
The haze of smoke in the air around us,
The half smirk you always have curled up on the left side of your mouth,
Dear Seniors,
Sometimes instead of putting down your stupid small town
That nobody has ever heard about
In the depths of Ohio,
You should appreciate it.
Dear Seniors,
Sometimes instead of putting down your stupid small town
That nobody has ever heard about
In the depths of Ohio,
You should appreciate it.
Let's start a fire
Let the world be wrapped in flames
We'll watch the destruction grow
As we sit in silence
On a gasoline soaked field
Find the beauty
In the illuminated clouds
To Those Who Gave Up on Me:
Sometimes I feel like I'm too young to be over these boys already.
Honestly I haven't been in a relationship yet
At least not by my terms.
Dear Mom,
It’s dark
I can’t see you
I can hear you
Your voice soothes me
I know you didn’t want children
But here I am
The wind is on my face
So is the ice cream
I'm sorry I'm such a mess and you gotyourself tangled up in this but pleasedon't fucking leave me because thesky and the stars and the moon don'treally make sense without you
I can't get your fucking taste out of my mouthand you can't get mad at me for the ways I tried to
I kissed him and I kissed anotherbut I think they could tell I whispered your name into their mouths
dear love
when i began, so did you
i felt you for the sky
for my mother
dandelions
and then i grew older
i craved to feel you more, differently
i wanted you to grow up
So close.Close enough to admire the part in your hair, Close enough to study the creases of your face, From years of laug
I was in love with you Closed my eyes and dipped myself backwards knowing the enemy laid beside meI was in love with you And the way you talked about blue skies and how gravity tears us apart. I was in love with youWith the way you leaned over an
dear my love,
everytime we are apart
i wish to relocate closer to your heart.
i love you so very much
and i tell you this everyday.
still, one day i wish to hold you closer
Even through my thick skin
When wits should fit, no quick send
Though I won’t miss your shit friends
That night, I met my wit’s end
Maybe my intent had its rest in
The tent I’ve pretended to pitch, in
To the boy who stole my life,
They say sticks and stones may break your bones
But my back still aches from the knife
I never deserved because all I ever did was
Wanting what you can’t have
Enough to drive you crazy
Feelings getting stronger
And now it’s scary
Fear of rejection
Show remorse
When I ask if you want this
When I go for the last kiss
Spring, summer, fall, winter
Joy, passion, love, reality
Seasons and emotions are one in the same
Everybody has a favorite season
Everybody has their own reason
But the one thing that stays true
I like love in the most innocent of ways,
Like a warm hug,
And not to be swept under the rug.
I don’t like sex,
Or kissing,
Or making out.
THERE ARE A MILLION AND ONE WORDS I CAN THINK OF TO SAY TO YOU...
BUT THE ONLY WORDS THAT COMES OUT IS, I CANT STAND YOU ...
WHY MAKE SOMEONE ELSE FEEL PAIN JUST BECAUSE YOURE IN PAIN...
In the warmth of the brilliant, early morning sun,
comes a shadow only I can see
marinating in its holy scent
the delicate gradations in between.
It is a virus, a pathogen particular to you, but, as well,
hey, eighteen is a weird transitional phase
youre naive to think you know what you want but too young to realize you dont know anything.
youre going to travel halfway across the country
Just a number in your book
Another jot another check
Adding up the scores of all the girls you've slept with.
Treated like an object, just your little play toy.
When you take away his kitty over something so kiddy
The money You Be Getting From What Be Giving
Dear College,
I've heard a lot about you.
People say you're great, a real relationship,
so much better than high school.
But I'm scared.
Really scared.
Dear God,
He just committed a fraud.
He promised to never leave,
And made me believe.
Oh, why?
Have I been told a lie?
Now I lay confused,
And my heart is bruised.
Oh, please guide me,
It’s not about me and it’s not about you
its about us and what we do
never too late to see, never too late to do
follow your dreams and hope the rest falls through
as the sky clears up from dusk till dawn
You are the one who is truly worthy.
The type of gift that I will always cherish.
You come from a culture that is earthy.
Our mutual love will never perish.
My mind is tough, but my heart was broken.
You are my rock.
When I need you, you're always there.
You are like a blanket from my childhood.
When I need your comfort you are there to wrap around me.
You are like the ocean.
you insisted every masterpiece had a signituture as you relentlesely carved your name into my skin with blood running down your knuckles. "you're mine" may be music to the ears of a lover but there was nothing romantic about how prisoner
my eyes leak
like the old pipes here
a little bit broken
unless you angle them right
but i’ve been off kilter
since you left
bent me out of shape
careless
I want to cry
Screw up my eyes and bawl
Scream into a void about the unfairness of it all
But the tears refuse.
They won’t come to my eyes.
Won’t allow me release from the torture you brought me
You never know what will happen,
Life goes in unexpected ways.
Through the hard times,
And good times,
Even the indifferent.
They say “when life gives your lemons,
Love is but an empty field,
a bitter sweet emotion.
A one-sided feel is something to yield,
because it’s a dead-end notion.
Don’t let love lead you blind,
it’s never worth the pain.
Was it love when i felt his hands around my neck more than around my waist?When his touch bruised but in those anamalistic markings I felt passion?Colors defamatoryThe rainbow was bright but it wasn't beautiful.My eyes couldnt handle the light I s
We got apples and oranges and all of the greens
We got salmon and soup pea and vitamin C.
From farmer's markets, to Whole Foods, to your mom and pop shops,
Together we have made our health a priority, but this has to stop.
You don't need to utter those words
I love you to the moon and back.
You don't need to tell me
I miss you more everyday.
You don't need to remind me
I care about you so much.
Sometimes I have prophetic dreams
Where I see something before it happens
Exactly the way it is, no surprises
I like it that way
I love how I see the world.
I love how I love the things I do.
I love how I love my family and friends.
I love how I am able to look into the mirror and be okay.
I love how before I couldn't love.
It's not knowing what to do
But knowing it's okay to ask you
The power you give me to get out of bed
The power to move forward when I know what's ahead
It's safety and knowing it's all true
Every day you tell me I'm worthless.
Every day you make me focus on you.
Can you not sense this sadness?
A sadness that is new.
Every day you try to change me.
Every day you ask for money.
My darling,
I know you're scared
of this love in which we’re falling.
“I love you” used to be a curse
shackling you to another
Ask me why I love you,
And I shall tell you what I love most about you.
No lies spill passed my parted lips,
Only truths that swell from my heart and fall out my mouth.
Ask me what makes our love healthy,
because i love you
i only smile as i watch you tilt back the milk carton
white drops running down your chin
the lips softly parted.
i only smile even though
Healthy love can be hard to find but when it is, it’s a special kind.
Loving fires bring no pain just warmth and light through pouring rain.
Not always will we walk in step but each stride should echo a promise kept
Because I love you
Everytime I see your smile
My heart melts straight into goo.
I’ll do my best to cheer you up when you are blue
A healthy relationship huh?
What about those relationships where you start off as friends?
Take things slow, get to know one another?
A healthy relationship is where two people can compromise..
It is not a writhing mass
for you to take.
It comes without shape
or size, or weight.
It's not quite a feeling,
A healthy love
has a sort of glow.
Both of us share it
And surely know.
A mutual respect
has an understanding of the hearts.
The keeping of boundaries
even when miles apart.
What is love?
Is it just a word to say?
Is it a belief I can use just to get my way?
Is it the voice inside your head that says, “Because of me, the verbal abuse is okay."?
Warmth. Drowsy. Burrowing into your chest, arms around my back.
And then, like a gunshot, shaking. And tears. And disassociation.
“did you get home ok?”
this is my love language,
the static in my ear reminding me of the fuzzy feeling I get down the back of my spine
when my name crosses through your lips
“did you eat already?”
I just want to feel like someone cares about me. It's the little things, like a goodnight or good morning text or a compliment out of nowhere.
Love my friends
Love my family
Love my face
Love my fantasies
Love my funniness
Love my failures
Love my falls
Love me forever
And I will faithfully do the same
There isn’t just one shade of love
Many shades of love aren’t one color only
Love is a kaleidoscope of shades
Not just one solid color or form
Red is usually associated with healthy love
When I look at you, I can’t help the smile that spreads across my face.
I’m in awe.
I’m in awe of you - your beauty, your talent, your kindness.
The days are slow and the calls come fast
“Where are you?”
“Who is there?”
“Why did you wear that top”
Questions go back and forth in little blue boxes
Love.
A crazy little thing.
It sets our hearts aflame, makes us brighter, radiating stars in the crowded galaxy of existence.
I love you.I can bite, and I can heal your every wound.I can make you cry with silent screams or smile with good intent.
I've loved you all my life.
For the luminous teeth
that reside in your mouth
and for the bloody tongue
that rests upon them.
For my sweetheart, Ben Gustafson
I promise to hold you close in my arms,
And always keep you away from harm
When you’re feeling down, I’ll be right here
because i love you --
we talk
about the hurt: you wouldn't say I love you, because they didn't, and I acted like HIM
we talk
and find out: miscommunication, the intent was lacking where the action was the same
She looked in my eyes and asked me, "What other things have you said before me?"Darling, where do I even begin?
Blast! Blast heartbeat at the smallest gesture,
Quietest thought, quickest glance. All of the best for
Expansion in each’s willpower’s might.
In Eve’s diary written right,
Even unofficial and undivined
We were like any normal couple.
Had the same interests,
Liked the same things,
Laughed at the same dumb jokes.
Only,
I didn’t feel the same way as him.
Distance is a funny thing.
To others, it is an investment of time worth laughing at
Simultaneously a vicious corruption that will always,
Without fail,
I am human, so are you.
I am learning, and you are too.
The mistakes we make, we learn to forgive.
This is the real love, we have to give.
But not to worry, not to fret.
I. Just. Love. You.
No words in the world are more true
People say that I want many things
Maybe a dress and maybe a ring
That I ask too much
I should love for a touch
I used to think that love meant
Sitting on dirty air mattresses and
Going to the bathroom while balancing on
Broken toilet seats,
Ignoring the messages he was receiving from other girls and
Because We Love
Amanda Aman
Love is conflicting like April weather
An incessant downpour sequenced by rainbows and delicate sunrays
Like love, the sky surrounds us and knows no boundary
Love reminds me of a Spring Day
Just warm and light
Sun-kissed skin and soft pink lips
Green hues of bunches of fresh cut grass
Your green eyes just reflect the sunlight
You rush in like a wave of cool air
Sharing giggles, locked eyes, silly faces,
Midnight phonecalls, dreaming of futures.
Arcades, Sci fi movies, Civilization matches.
He introduces Legend of Zelda.
I'm sorry I woke you
You used to say I could.
You crossed your fingers, nodded your head, like I knew you always would.
You whisper sweet words of decit, as you look into my eyes
What good is it to first love you
When love was never dealt?
Why should I seek to put you first
If the same has not been felt?
But who am I to make that call,
And desire to receive,
I love you
But it doesn’t always show.
I love you
But you may not always know.
I don’t always see your clothing
Static and unchanging
Plastered to the wall was our words
We fought and we screamed at the top of our lungs
Everything about everything
Unsteady and uncertain
Waves in the ocean our hearts
I love you because you love me
Me, a broken person who cannot trust
Trust you, can I?
I love you becuase you respect me
Me, a person who has been treated like an object to society.
Because I love you, a smile tugs at my lips at the sound of your name.
Because I love you, my stomach becomes a butterfly garden when I see your smile.
Do you remember that one night,
when we first got together?
Pure and innocent
Beautiful yet risky
I wanted to be with you too.
#BecauseILoveYou
It’s cool and early in the morning
And the sun is peeking over the horizon
I slip on my shoes
And skip down the front steps
I did wrong?
Ok.
I'll take it, but just know you did wrong too.
I lied?
Yea.
I did, but you have been lying too.
I've been doing a long time,
I know.
But I'm sure you have been too.
Love is not firecrackers burning your hand
when you trip and fall and knock over the can;
Love is cool rain on sticky hot skin
washing off those foolish transgressions.
A healthy relationship means we are both happy in this.
It’s not a burden.
It’s amazing, It’s wanted.
The downs are worth it because they build up the relationship.
October 7th, 2017
Today was a horrible day.
There have been more and more days like today.
And I met a boy.
He smokes cigarettes, and hits me when he drinks.
He tells me I am worthless.
Because I love you, hurting once, hurting twice, given in the impact of love. When will it stop? It doesn't, this is love. Relationships, simple word right? Meaning more than a word, it's phases of life and impact of actions.
there is a girl
with gaps between her teeth,
and with hair loose and uncontrolled
that wraps around your fingers
like vines around a hardened trunk.
there is a girl
The day that I met you,
We were stuck like hot glue.
Because you were all I could cling to
When everything inside me felt dark blue.
The way you wanted me,
I always strived to achieve.
It's the high that never comes down.
It's that buzzed, zazzed feeling
of alcoholic blood
intoxicating every inch of
your throat, lungs, brain.
It's the lust, the desire
“How was your day, Sweetie?”
“I should get one for my partner too.”
“I mean… Would you want to?”
It’s as simple as that.
I talk
When you
Don’t have the words,
Because I love you.
I listen
When you
Have news to share,
Because I love you.
I smile
When you
Lack the strength to,
I sit and wonder every night why you left.
I ask myself if it was because I wasn't good enough or was it because i had too many flaws.
I'm just a girl who tried to be the one for you.
Going in blind
Make up my mind
Where is the one?
They told me about
Forgot my intentions
Rose-colored glasses
I got distracted
Cause I was imagining
Love must come before perfection
The damned who thought otherwise
Oh, my love. Will I ever know affection?
The culprit who looks at their reflection
I gave you my body. I gave you my soul, I gave you my all.
I gave you everything you asked for all because I loved you.
Your cold hands trailed down my body and your eyes were laid across mine.
Sisters-
If a man ever pleads
with you, saying, "It's
what all guys do
to girls," it is
your job to tell him
but one thing:
be different.
Love is
Having a bad day and instantly getting cheered up by your loved one.
Love is
Having a constant, walking reassurance standing by your side
Love is
Feeling Homesick when they you are apart
your voice used to sing
clear as a whistle
putting those two consonants together
calling me
those two letters
your pet name for me
I always wanted to be by your side
When I am with you I feel free,
like a bird flitting from tree to tree.
When I am with you I feel warm,
like when we sit at home
watching movies with popcorn.
I see you as my equal,
your opinions are important to me, too.
We won’t always agree,
We have the right to say no to each other at anytime.
I am not your property, and you are not mine.
Believed in you like a religion But too bad people change every season Did things for you, some hasn't even been mentioned.And held you down, to now from the beginning.Dreaming about mansions and cooking breakfast in the kitchen. No one was for yo
Love isn't always easy,
Challenges may come your way.
But as long as you hold hand in hand,
You will live to see another day.
Everything is up to you,
You have your pen to write.
Two people.
Two very different people suddenly meet.
One and the other see each other and finally make a conversation.
It goes W E L L
at least for one
Because I love you, I decided to stay
I listened to every possible excuse that you had to say
Because I love you, I clung on until the very end
That gracious meet
Of whistling woos.
Oh yearning quivers
Filled by pursing riverruns.
To question tines
Now posed by
Both feather jacks.
To know their times
Laid surged in an infinite.
Because I love you
I will let you be your own person
Because I love you
I will help you succeed
Because I love you
I will give you the benefit of the doubt
Because I love you
Because I love you I will look out for you I will take care of you I will not hurt you Because I love you We may argue sometimes We might get angry, but We will always say, “I’m sorry”. Because I love you You will never be alone You will never
Because I love you
I like making you smile
But
I let you laugh at my expense.
Because I love you
I want you to be happy
I’ve written you many a letter before
Till my hand ignited with a sinewy burn
And I would have writ you one thousand more
Had you not become a lover scorn’d
On a quiet eveningas I touch my pen to this padI can hear a guitar strumDespite an absence of wordsyou can feel an overwhelming warmth
Love is a two way street
Compromising from both lovers
Willing to abide by the rules as one
Everyday isn't always guaranteed perfect
Though a healthy relationship can be done
My heart glows,
A fiery flame consuming,
When I think of you,
And when I try pursuing.
We eat,
We walk,
We study,
We talk,
We do everything together,
You love me, right?
Yes, I know you've said it.
Yes, I know I've heard it and yes.
I've listened.
But!
But nothing, I know.
You do, BUT--
My brain doesn't believe you.
They love all your little quirks.That explains all their smirks.The way your eyes are in the light.Brightens up their whole night.The way you present yourself.Makes them realize that you're enough. You surprise them with a Golden Re
am I dead to you yet
you almost killed me that last time
when my eyes glazed over and you fucked me anyway
This poem is about breaking
Because you loved me.
this body is riddled with breaks
Because I love you,
I’ll be your mirror, reflecting that gorgeous light that you shine when you can’t see it.
Because I love you,
Because I love you,
I’ll be your mirror, reflecting that gorgeous light that you shine when you can’t see it.
Because I love you,
There was a room, and in that room were three things. One was a lightbulb that was off so no one could see what was going on. Two was a chair that sat alone in the corner with no one there to watch.
Because I love you, I will forgive what you did with her.
Because you love me, you didn’t mean it.
Mistakes are made.
Because I love you, I will apologize.
Because I love you
The weird smell your feet give off,
your inability to answer messages (in a timely manner),
the twitch you get before you sleep (that wakes me up),
and your love of country music
I would do anything for you
I'd fight a dragon
or go on some magical quest
Because I love you.
I would turn up at your door,
For nothing more
Than to hold your hair when you are sick
She said baby dont tell me youre in love
Cuz I wont believe you
And I'd hate to see you run
When I dont say it back
Yea I guess it is like that
Cuz love aint a word you use
My coat has missing buttons
It simply will not close
The open coat sends shivers
From my head down to my toes
My coat lost all its buttons
When it caught on something rough
Maybe there's a time bomb in your mouth,
In your fists too.
Maybe you want to stop,
Hurting Me
But you don't.
To talk to sing to sigh, the sounds we know.
The looks, the smile, the physical fall.
As ever beautiful as the sun burns,
But not the language of us in awe.
Though if there be words of his longed return
Because I love you
I will help you when you're down
Because I love you
I will do my best to never make you frown
Because I love you
Because I love you, I will always reminisce on the times we had together.
From holding hands in the stores, or cuddling when it was rainy and cold.
From getting daily "I love you texts", and kisses on the forehead as reminders.
Because I love you...
I see no flaws. I see perfection.
A true gift made from heaven.
The way you smile, how the corners of your lips begin to wrinkle.
You do not deserve to be mocked.
You are worth more than that.
People do not get to take your success from you.
You earned that.
Our Love was like that of paper.
In the beginning it was
Weak and susceptible to tear.
But as our bond grew stronger,
Our paper folded,
Still vulnerable but unbreakable.
You held me when the weight of the world was too much
And combed the hair out of my swollen eyes filled with tears
You left chocolates in my locker
I'm splitting apart
Every version that I've been
Wants to weigh in
Romance takes her chance
There's a gem of a truth
I can believe in
Loving is listening-
every way you move converts my eyes to indescribable glistening.
You never take for granted or advantage of the effort,
when life gets tough, you are always there as my comfort.
Because I love you,
we will have small arguments
that we will learn from.
Because I love you,
you will not strike me,
you will stroke my cheek instead.
Because I love you,
I love you
and because I love you
I'll never take you for granted;
Because I love you
I'll be there in your best,
I'll be there in your worst;
Because
I love you.
I don't love you because I need you, I need you because I love you. You don't have to listen, but you do. You don't have to hold me, yet you do. And I don't have much to give, but I'll give you my gratitude, for you found me and you comforted me,
love to grow
i. Baby Love
When I was a child, I spoke as a child
The most musical language I’ve ever known
Look, I am not a rapper,
But I could rattle off a million rhymes about the way you look tonight,
The way your "messy" hair hugs your face as I would love to with my hands,
You don’t judge me for my flaws, you take them into appreciation and pause
It may be the way you look at me or the way you make me feel
But inside I’m certain that you help me heal.
It is because of this,
Pain, gaping hole in my chest, torture,
All consuming, obtaining me
Screaming, dying, depressed unchecked
With my clenched fist, white knuckles
Gasping
I used to believe that lovewas in the way you made me feelon the best of days: the days my heartwas the feathered wings of a hummingbirdbeating so fast, I no longer touched the ground—the days you took me up to where the stars were so close, I cou
Being there when you need it
And when you want it
That’s love.
Getting that little something “Just because”
And not expecting something in return
She is everywhere
Even now, I swear she never left
She’s in every car ride
When rock songs play
The echoes of the way she sings
The Sweet and Dashing LassBy Briley Wells
It seems the ever astounding and perplexing pen has called me yet again to expel it's ink onto paper for the sole purpose of bringing a smile to your face.
buried deep in his chest like a molehill inside a mountain,
i made my home with the broken ribs that aided in protecting
paper lungs and a glass heart, and skin designed to hold
Although things may become difficult...
my love for you is never ending.
We may set fire to the world in an attempt to burn eachother down,
Because I’ve learned to love you, I’ve learned to love myself.
No longer am I empty, like a forgotten dime-store shelf.
Because you let me love you, I’ve learned what love should be.
Love is a concept that is hard to describe
Love is not depending on someone
Love is not a parasitic relationship
Love that is true is mutualism
The girl who makes the stars explode
And the boy with a mountain for a soul
Oh to be the girl
Loved by both
Oh to be the girl
The first time I realized I loved you
You were sitting in front of the TV,
It was glowing around you like you were
Something holy
I think break-ups are so hard because
You’re not only severing yourself from the person
But from the symphony, and the sandwich shop
You used to go to before each show
Looking into blue eyes
Two guys, one love, nothing to hide
Starry nights, clear skies, stars aligned
Adventures to live for, hands held combined
Because I love you, it feels like it was only yesterday,
You looked into my eyes and I told you to stay.
Because I love you I’d get nervous around you,
I didn’t know what to say or what to do.
You told me you didn’t have room
On your phone that was true
But even more so in your heart
So, I you asked for my number
And I handed you my heart
I texted you first
In just three hours
I knew from the moment I met him,
that we were meant to be
His face was kind, his words were sweet
He said he would never hurt me,
but things can change in a blink
When we fell together my heart was full of hope. Butterflies then Autumn leaves swirling around us was all I could see.
Because I love you, I want you to know the real me.
The Art of Respect
“Don’t worry,
I love you.”
He reached down for more.
Beautiful,
Wild,
Because I Love You
Words on a paper, words on a screen,
A phrase said outloud.
Powerful when spoken, and hurtful when taken.
Because I love you
I stayed up late listening to your day
Because I love you
I chased after you when you got mad and walked away
Because I love you
I spent an entire day watching your favorite show
Because I love you
I stayed up late listening to your day
Because I love you
I chased after you when you got mad and walked away
Because I love you
I spent an entire day watching your favorite show
First.....you don't want it to end
Then realize, in those eyes, what you
See is pretend
And you believed you were friends
Till she leaves you again
You beg and plead, and say she's all
You need
You’re far away
too far away,
and still you’re my best friend.
And thoughts of you don’t go away,
but I don’t want them to end.
And as times progress,
with every breath
Once I was broken
Shattered beyond a million pieces
My sorrow could drown the world twice
I felt beyond repair
Losing almost all my hope
My brother couldn’t fix me
My mother couldn’t fix me
This morning I woke up beside him
He kissed me ‘till I was awake
We laid there for hours, limbs knotted around each other
Until I rose to cook breakfast
The night before, I came home, exhausted
You told me you loved me
Ain’t hear that in a while
i’m just so used to broken heart aches
and wearing a mask over my smile
Don’t tell me that you love me
and 5 minutes later you’re someone new
Love is beautiful
Love is kind
Love does not hate
Nor does it discriminate
It takes effort to build
yet takes none to destroy
Though in its purest form
One can see
Because I love you, I'll forever push you to be the better you. Because I love you, I'll forever be the ear to absorb your worries. Because I love you, I'll forever hold your hand to combat your worries.
Because you love me
You would answer every shaky breath of mine with "are you okay?"
Because I love you
I kissed away your tears and held you so tightly
Because you love me
Because I loved you, I learned the difference between healthy and unhealthy.
Because I loved you, I learned the difference between concern and control.
Because I loved you, I learned the difference between love and possession.
My body is cold.
My fingers, frostbitten and blue.
The hairs on my arms protrude upwards, bumps litter my sugary skin.
I see each breath I take fogging the air and the window in front of me.
Because I love you
Your mistakes slice my heart
Because I love you
Thoughts explode my brain
Because I love you
My lungs cling for air
Because I love you
I get angry
Because I love you
sophomore year liturgy of the body
once a week for four weeks
the girls and boys were separated
and we learned about healthy relationships
healthy - catholic - relationships
As this sprouted, there were no expectations. No hopes or predictions. Just children searching for support among their peers. Life had taken a toll on us, and without this love we would fade away. As this blossomed, this love became something
Because I Love You I am patientBecause I Love You I let you make your own decisionsBecause I Love You I will support you
I hope you read between my words
Because I unfold stories with just my tongue.
I've created lilac skies inside empty minds,
And you have burned cities down to just ash.
What does it mean to love?
Is it a title?
Is it to act like a vital?
No, it is much more.
Much more than I can implore.
It is a feeling
a feeling of believing.
I do this for you
Not because I want to,
just for you.
I've left everyone behind,
I've turned on my friends,
said goodbye to my family.
I did all of this for you,
and what did you do for me?
Because I love you
I will always tell you so
I never want you to forget
You warm my heart and make me whole
Because I love you
I will wake up with you when you’re sick
Why?
You forgive
Even when I don't deserve it
You give
When I need it
You hold me
But never things against me
When I am mad
You are calm
I wonder why
It was when you told me you loved me
that I really began to faulter
the words that came to my ears
from the mouth of my love
but instead
made my ears sting
So every gesture
You choose to make
And the response it elicits in me
Could we keep it up
Throughout time and endlessly?
Lest we base a love on nothingness
That fades with the seasons
“Our Love”
All our lives we’ve been taught that we need food, water, and shelter to live
But my love, all I need is you
“I do it because I love you,”
He will say when he goes through your things.
“It’s not because I don’t trust you,”
He will tell you, but he enjoys the fights that his actions bring.
Your love is true,
It is authentic.
I am not just some trophy for you,
Another accomplishment checked off your list;
The love I have been craving,
The love I have wished
To find, I have found it
I never was in a relationship, nor did I ever have a crush.Not until you asked me the question that day.We were each others' firsts. First kiss and first real and only relationship.
I sit and listen while holding your hand
You cry as my shoulder gets damp
You dont understand how I can
Because I love you, that's why
Your feet are so achy and sore
LOVE IS.......
Hugs & Kisses
Snuggles on the sofa and Netflix
Holding Hands
Listening
Laughing
Inside Jokes
LOVE IS NOT......
Lies
Cheating
because we care and show it
i can confide in you, my
love, and I can cry to
you
because we trust one another
i don’t have to worry,
love, and neither do
you
Because I Love You, I gave You My hand.
I held on Tight.
like a Babe to its Mum,
like a Newborn to its Blanket,
like a Girl to her Dad.
Because I Love You, I told them No.
I said I was okay,
There's so much I want to say
So much I want to do.
But hey my mind and heart isn't made of clay.
There is a pulse,
An impulse
To reach out
Because I Love You – Scholarship Slam
You say,
“We can work through this slump. We can get through anything…
… because I love you …
Because I love you....
I will hurt you and you'll never understand why.
Because I love you...
I will look you in the eye and lie and tell you it's the truth.
Because I love you...
The boy was rich, the boy was wealthy,
But their relationship, not so healthy.
When they got together in the tenth grade,
“Make him stay” she prayed and prayed.
He loves me he does, he always will,
Because I love you,
I worry.
I worry
about if your day is going well,
and if you're doing okay.
I worry
about if I am doing everything in my power
to keep your head above water
having an eating disorder means wanting everyone to know and no one to ask
it means accidentally leaving your lunch at home and proudly telling friends no thanks when they offer to share
because i love you,
i see ultraviolet whenever i close my eyes.
i see my shadow, my reflection in the mirror,
and i am no longer afraid.
because i love you,
i look at the world and i feel safe,
True love is bringing me my favorite chocolate filled donut in the morning,
Not because I asked, but because he was thinking about me in the donut shop.
#Because
We were young and naive
#I
Thought we could “love” each other
#Love?
Or obsessed with the idea
#You
The first time I saw you,
I felt nothing.
Unimpressed and numb.
So much for love at first sight.
The fifth time I saw you,
I wanted to be your friend.
Someone to bother
Healthy Relationships. That's a phrase I aspire to.
Healthy Relationships. What does it mean?
Healthy Relationships. A goal and a dream.
I wish I could stop.
It’s getting too overwhelming.
This uncertainty about where I really stand with you is getting old.
It’s consuming my thoughts and I hate it.
I hate how much I want you to be mine.
I'v been cheated I'v been lied
I know everything you wanted to hide. Your comments, your dirt, the way you always had to flirtYet you said I was enough, you told me to be tough. You said you loved me so much and that I had nothing to worryBut th
Maybe it was him.
Maybe it was me.
Maybe it was the world around us that never wanted us to be.
Maybe it was the wrong time to give us a try.
Maybe there was a hello that started with a goodbye.
His hands were blades
He had no problems pressing them into me
I knew it would hurt but I stayed
No one has ever touched me so deep
explaining that scars he left
Were romantic
His hands were blades
He had no problems pressing them into me
I knew it would hurt but I stayed
No one has ever touched me so deep
explaining that scars he left
Were romantic
I fell in love with a boy
He asked to hold my untouched heart
I was afraid
To let him into my world
To let him see my flaws
Why do yours shake when they reach my waist
why do they make me want to grow smaller and smaller and
dissapear
why do your fingernails
dig into my skin as I speak
True love is an emotion everyone thinks they are receiving.
Yet ones' thoughts can dishonor ones' perspective.
To truly love, is to take ones' heart and care for it as if it where their own.
tell me about what you love
tell me about your dreams
tell me about what makes you giddy
let me see your eyes light up
Because you “love” me.
I’m left wanting more?
With where we stand,
You’re still “never sure.”
Because I love you,
I ask for “too much”
I make myself your wings.
You,
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When we met, I loved you.
And when we grew, I lost you.
a waltz through the house
toes sliding along the kitchen floor
giggles drift into the living room
harmony in a routine
a smile, a sniffle, a silence
comfort in merely existing
Him and Her.
You shouldn't fix what's not broken,
unless your in denial,
but I don't want to admit,
Love is a beautiful thing, when done right
Love can be amazing, without all the fights
You should always be happy, never sad
Never tell your partner things you'll regret, just 'cuz your mad
yesterday you were out sick
you missed the history lecture
so i copied another set of notes for you
I love you, you said, only it came out as “thanks”
In unconditional love,
I won't make you prove to me,
That you will do whatever I need.
In unconditional love,
I will support you in any way I can,
But I may not put your needs over my own.
You are crisp summer grass, the crunch of fallen leaves
You are dandelion tufts floating on a spring breeze
You are the muffled crunch of winter's icy freeze
You are the sun and moon, the mountains and seas
Because I love you, I'm not going to let you go out Friday night; it's for your own safety.
Because I love you, I'm going to go through your phone; to make sure nobody is trying to steal you from me.
Because I love you
I know that you like your eggs scrambled,
Your bacon extra crispy,
And your orange juice freshly squeezed in the morning.
Because I love you
Because I love you,
I stay strong through our fights.
In getting past our hardships,
true love takes flight
Because I love you,
I can see past a flaw.
They make you unique
I deleted it. Another one gone too. You don't have time for me? Well this what I'mma do.
Association is the killer The bleeding heart upon my sleeveI don't want to be remembered I just want to up and leave
Our first kiss
felt like a supernova,
explosive and iridescent,
scattering my universe
with cosmic dust.
The weight of the world, a weight on the shouldershealed with the bonds of the hearts and their holders
Busy the world, the hassle it can bestill standing side by side the holders that see
Because you love me:
you take me to lunch at your least favorite place,
and you help me study during your lunch break.
Because you love me:
when it's pouring you throw me your jacket,
Because I Love You, but not really,
I will slip my hands into your mind,
Your Heart,
Your Soul,
Your Body,
And I will slowly destroy everything that makes you,
You.
mirror, mirror
on the wall
who is the fairest of them all?
perhaps it is the boy who used to pinch me in preschool
thinking hitting girls was what made rugrat boys cool
I don't want to drown in your sea of sadness.I don't want to stand in your rain of madness.
I was a prisoner in your cave of sweet nothings.I was frozen in your winters, in love with your springs.
What’s mine is yours,
What’s yours is mine:
Time,
Love,
Attention.
Why?
Give and take,
Like a cake is baked.
The ingredients:
Time,
Love,
Attention.
Smile.
Relationships
Such a touchy word;
Made are many misconceptions
Anytime it is heard
Most associate it
With love between two sexes
With lust between two sexes
So I will explain it:
Love is fighting
Love is arguments and tears
Love is uncertainty
Love is doubting and fears
Love is disagreement
Love is pain
Experience teaches many things
for when you're shown that diamond ring
Mama always told me "love yourself first
you are a mirror beware of dirt
it's on their hands
let them touch and
The bruises and scars I received for sixteen years define me. I am broken and damaged almost beyond repair, my hopeful heart was shattered into a million pieces.
Because I love you, I trust you
Because I love you, I don’t look through your phone
Because I love you, I don’t follow you when you go out
Because I love you, I give you space
I can tell
By looking at you
This is love
You like the Broncos
I like the Colts
You are outgoing
I’m an introvert
You have an Xbox
I have a Wii
But, still, we work perfectly
Here we are,
Once again.
Through this cycle
Of ups and downs.
Here we are,
With the misunderstanding,
The miscommunications.
Here we are,
The back and froth,
A relationship must be like the spring
When I am free from feeling winter's breath
Which tears up my skin, leaving a burning sting.
A relationship must be like the cherry blossom tree
Sturdy and rare
My eyes rest for a second
And for that moment it’s there again
That grey stitched texture of the back seats
Not what you can do for me
Not to serve my desire
But because of what I see
Because of what you are
Because of what you do
Your braces are like magnets that attract my love.They are the first thing I notice and the last thing I say goodbye to.Your braces are like you.You stabilize people.You keep them from becoming out of hand.Your braces exemptilfy balance,the balanc
I let you in at the beginning, because I love you.
I grew to like onions and watching horror movies, because I love you.
I lost every friend, every other relationship, because I love you.
Because I love you
I still get lost when I look into your eyes.
The simple thought of you turns my frown into a smile.
Every hug makes me feel warm inside
I have always been a vacant lover.
Communication does not come easy when you're a child from a verbally abusive home.
Because I love you,
My words flow freely from my lips
Spilling my secrets and sharing my hopes
With you, love.
Because I love you,
Because I love you
I don't press
When secrets slip between your eyes
Because I love you
I wait for you to tell me
Because I love you
I hold you when you cry
Wipe away tears with tissues
Love is just a word
until meaning and feelings are brought along with it
It’s just a feeling
that describes the joy that fills you body
However love has a story
he went crossing oceans
and climbing mountains
but turned around to see
she was skipping puddles
and picking flowers
as blind as she could be
I love him.
I say in my head.
Over and over.
I love him.
Of course I love him.
Why wouldn't I love him?
There's no one better.
I'll never find anyone better.
I don't deserve any better.
As I'm lying in bed
He'll touch me with gentle fingers,
Carefully knitting together the tattered ends of my heart,
The places where my soul has been frayed.
There will be nights when I think the sun may never rise
If you are a seedlet my love be your water,andyour sun.I know that you are destinedto rise,and I am devotedto your growthbecause,I love you. And I'd wishfor you,to bloom,into a flower.
Soft words, soft hands
brushing back your loose hair strands.
Loving kisses to say goodnight
two strong arms when things aren't right.
Wiping away your tears of pain
not restraining you like a ball and chain.
my love for you is beautiful and lyrical and poetic, it is pure and it is natural - it is good and it is real -
SOMETIMES I WONDER WHAT IT’S LIKE IN THAT MAN’S SHOES AND WHAT IT’S LIKE TO BE SO LOVED, AND UNAPOLOGETICALLY YOURSELF
Because I love you
You aren't my sunshine
Why would you assume
I need you to be a better me
I'm better off without you
I would never say
I love you every single way
All you do is drag me down
Connections are risks
Sometimes the wrong ones make blood boil and hiss
They can make you feel like you were just one off the list
Even push you to the point of a knife in your wrist
However with care and trust
Life can be tough in ways that we never ask for.
We can pretend that we don't wish to have someone next to us
when we weep into our sheets at night.
I know I did.
However, I met a woman.
All I could Ever Ask
I want you to succeed
because I love you
and I want you to breathe easy
because I want you
to scale the highest mountains
and swim the greatest seas.
There was an eclipse this morning.
I watched it. All I could think about
was how you plunged me into such a
terrifying and dark place.
You look like an angel,
but you lash out like a solar flare.
No control,
No marks to hide,
No taking its toll,
No scars inside.
No blackmail,
No control,
No marks to hide,
No taking its toll,
No scars inside.
No blackmail,
A healthy relationship.
What is "healthy"?
Saying I love you when you get off the phone?
A good night and good morning text?
A like on instagram?
A tagged picture?
Drink from me until there is nothing left.
Once my waters were crystaline,
so clear in the sunshine.
The many secrets you kept,
turned water to ice.
I became a monster only plotting your demise.
Because I love you,
We should agree on what matters,
And not care about our ideas,
On kings and mad hatters.
Because I love you,
We should speak with grace,
And not yell at each other,
Everything you say starts with, “Because I love you.”
But you don’t. You never did.
If this was love, you wouldn’t say everything
Is always my fault.
I once saw a star
In the midnight air
shining straight towards me
Though it was lovely,
it was manipulative
Though it was manipulative,
I kept wishing
Wishing to the star,
i need to be saved
but who’s there to help me
and with all this sadness
i cannot find the key
i’ve been trying too hard
Just as a boa constrictor, an unhealthy relationship suffocates those caught within its coil.
Smaller and smaller, the world is slowly constricting,
Gasping for breath, an eye-opening realization comes to mind.
Loving you was like grasping oil
Always treated you like you were royal
Only to have you slip out of my fingertips.
Loving you had me inhaling flames
Didn't know who to blame
I used to think that love ment vacancy.
so i carved out my body,
left me hollow and empty.
Set up a bed in my rib cage,
auctioned off my teeth to
buy a new rug,
shed my skin and made it a coat,
When was it that love became a trap
A way to keep someone from running away
was it true when you said you loved me
that I was the most important person to you
that no one compared
In a relationship, you can lose yourself.
Society says:
You “complete” each other.
You’re “inseparable”.
Two halves of a whole.
Because I love you, because I do,
Please tell me what love means to you.
Make me feel beautiful, make me feel wise,
But don’t do it just to be kind.
Leaf falling down a tree
A whole life attached to a native bough
Clingstone to freestone, pinnate to palmate,
Persistent untill the wind sets it free,
Far from crown it goes now
Hate's leaf scar on its state
When you can fight freely knowing that you will get through this.
When you can play and wrestle like children over the smallest things.
When you can support each other, sometimes like a house of cards,
And maybe love isn’t always
a passionate kiss and intimacy,
but rather,
a tight embrace that whispers,
“I’m sorry. Let’s not fight,”
The world is so much rosier because I love you,
the sky is full of gorgeous colors and I don’t feel so lost
Because I love you the world is in slow motion again.
I will not use the knife
dug into my back from you
to turn around and return your woes
when I have better things to do.
Because I love you, you are not only my companion but my best friend as well.
Because I love you, I accept you for who you are and not who I want you to be
Because I loved him
My heart was caged, belonging to a single owner
Not myself, but to him
my keeper
My actions not my own
My words coaxed from my mouth
Following wherever he lead me
You liked to look at old things like houses.
It was like a system check to make sure you were alive.
Then one night, while I was resting
under the hazy watch of a dark sky,
you made my body your house.
Because I love you, I stay when you tell me to go
because love is a choice, and anywhere without you is a place I don't want to know.
Because I love you, I will reassure you that you're enough for me everyday
Love isn't something that can be explained
but felt.
Love isn't something to take for granted
but to cherish.
Love is putting someone else's pain and suffering before your own
with no hesitation.
Love
What is this mysterious emotion that everyone feels
A deceptive commutative property
In Self discovery
I gotta find who I am
-Open My Heart-
Give me lifeWake me up in the morning,Kiss me at the crack of dawn and tell me that you love me.Show me that your expectations can exceed my expectancy.
“How was your day?”
“Please let me know when you get home.”
“I miss you.”
“I promise.”
“That’s my girl.”
“Let’s go somewhere.”
“I’m making you cookies.”
“My family adores you.”
While we were innocent and happy
you made me feel like flowers
And I couldn't keep them to myself
So I decided to plant them all over
and make them as beautiful as you made me
Is it bitter
Is it sweet
Is it tasty
Is it savory
What is the word
To describe something
You use to dull pain
Everyone has atleast one
Mine is alcohol
Seemed so exciting
I love you, but you don’t see
I call out for you
Oh, how I reach
Do you hear me?
Do you feel?
Just tell me now
Sorry
It’s not enough
I would give you everything
But
You can’t take it
All I wanted was for you
To know how I feel.
What do I do now?
You're slipping from me, fading
And a part of me somehow
Just watches as you call out to me
Screaming to follow you
Screaming to grab onto your hand
love is patient,
it is also kind
it can be hopeful and sometimes scary,
but it can also be evil
it is selfless, maybe selfish
love is an experience
it can be everything you ever hoped it would be
Fall with me, down into the depths of the earth
I want to show you what you are worth
We will meet at the planet’s core
And hear each other’s voices once more
She believed that it was true, reality.The touch that lead to a warmer sensation inside.The laugh, the voice, the comfort.Complete silence, and pure happiness.She soon found out that it was a moment.
She melted the sun,
He took away the moon.
She plucked the stars from the sky,
He organized them into neat piles.
She painted the roses white,
He ran them over with his truck.
As his eyes met hers, once again,
memories filled with colorful bliss
suddenly awakened,
the past quickly met the present,
but only in his mind, and only for a moment
There once was a princess that did everything right.
She didn't lie,
she didn't swear,
and said her prayers every night.
She kept up with her studies
and aced every test.
Black hearts bleed red
I would know
For there is a sword in mine
It glistens ike embers when I turn to the sun
And it's red blood twinkles as it drips
As if the drops are falling stars
Talking to him he has never even heard of Blue Velvet
But with you we discuss the details
Small things
He thinks it's his favorite
Mine is Mullholand
we discuss
Mulholland is scary
#Day2 - August 2017
Love shot down like a thug on the street..
Heart shattered like broken glass on a beat..
Sound waves rumbling through my head like a stampede..
How do you sleep with so much in your head
like a train circulating a mountain, full speed
it's hard for you to go to bed
like a victim fighting to be freed
my mind gives me no peace
In the coldest Winter
you were the coat that kept me warm
Made from many patches
all my favorite colours
I trust you like the fire
treading through snow storms
With your embrace comes wisdom
Not ready to see that face of yours again
The only thoughts I have are memories of mine pressed against yours
That so-called love we used to pass the loneliness we feel in our hearts
Your vibe up lifts my soul while your brown eyes keep it at bay..
The touch of your skin gives me peace and also energizes my dark side...
My Strawberry Cheesecake with a Milkshake
The inexplicable display of perfection that occurs when you smile and
That initial start comes with a burst of excitement, special thoughts, high hopes and some enlightenment
Ready to open minds like books and share content that is never written
We are defined by the simplicity of a few words.
Morphed out of nothing, as if expectations should really come from a boy in your chem class.
He says he likes his girls skinny.
What once was a mirror, is now a window pane
Different photos in the same frame
I'm trapped in this gallery, yet I once was the art
and everyday I wish for a fresh start
but everytime I look it breaks my heart
Ya nigga played you but you blamin' bitches,
throwin the blame because you know he was wit us
fuckin' other females but sayin he love you,
the reason you take him back because he admit that he does it
We were kids turning pages,
in a couple year long love story
and it ended pages ripped,
i'm sorry.
My starry eyes didn't last, dear diary,
I kept them waiting, then left them
Only can bottle it up in glass
one at a time. My second hand
right on Rome, lemon lime ticking
and itching into unseen wants,
leaning into what I hide when
my southpaw mainhand
You used to take my breath away with just a single glance,
Suddenly appearing behind me,
You'd beg me to slow dance.
I was captivated by your confidence,
And eagerness to impress,
Lyrics amidst flames
You looked at me and said
I see it
Lying there next to you
Feeling the veins of your sheets
Pump forever into our skin
You love me right
She wasn’t alive when you were finished with her
You ripped apart, piece by piece
limb by limb
until she was gone
You didn’t start with her heart
I've been spending all this energy on you but you're taxing so I never have enough and now I'm spent.
You've twisted my perception that I am not good enough for you, but that is a lie. a fairytale. a fallacy.
I keep holding on to fragments of you. Shards of possibility glitter with promise.
I feel you slipping through my fingers.
I grip you tighter, cutting myself as you leave my grasp.
My pain stains on your beauty.
At the time I didn't know I needed to hold on.
To the moments.
The memories.
At the time I didn't know I'd miss them.
That I'd want them back.
A man from the moon and a woman whose been raised by the sun. One of them has found powerful bullets while the other holds the gun.Seldom thoughts of this thing called intimacy that is foreign to their minds.
Baby steps.Just remember the baby stepsOf forgiving, and just forgetting.Forgiving the hell you put me through during and after us.Forgetting the amazing times you put me through during, and after us. Fuck You.
His hazel soft eyes were enticing,
Flashing their way through her soul.
The feel of the valve..
A sure way to tell..!
She couldn't stop the gaze
Locked in his cage...
It was forever.
you said i'm beautiful,was it true?
you said you love me,was it true?
you said you wouldn't hurt me,was it true?
you said you wouldn't leave me,was it true?
Thought I could stay,That what I felt as strong enough that I would'nt feel like walking away.Thought I could stop this;All my doubts,But they keep me up at night,Trying to win this ceaseless war,
Finally I've come to this realization
That you've never planned on staying
Even with all of your dedication
Listen, You're Beautiful
So why do you hurt yourself when you're dying?
You're so precious
And above this melancholy hourglass
That is your adolescence
Your mother tells you otherwise
How do you feel?
Are you in love?
Or is it lust?
Shall I be a port in the storm?
Or will I be with you for as long as we both want?
A beautiful day with just a few clouds.
Cool breeze blowing around and around.
So peaceful I seem to be on what seems to me the perfect day.
Until thinking of you turns my world to grey.
Your hands hold
our fate within them.
Intertwined within your fingers,
you play with it like
puppet strings.
You are my puppeteer.
Her words can hold rhythm with the way your heart beats
Her mouth spews promises
I wish she could keep
Theres whole galaxies in her head
But she's afraid to leave the earth
They say God is in the cosmos
I remember how we used to beUse to be happyWithout a care in the worldUse to spend every day togetherDoing everything yet nothing at allThen one day everything just changed
My body is paper.
I fold myself to what you need
Scribble pretty words on myself
So that you’ll think I’m
Pretty
Smart
I'm tiredI'm Oh so tiredI don't know if I can take this anymoreIf I can stayIf I can play alongPretend to still be happyThe small upsAre no longer worth the crushing blows
Sometimes I just wanna sing
So loud it makes my ears ring
But it's not enough
It'll never be enough
I've got no better way to say
I love you, I need you, I want you, I miss you
It's so strange and almost silly that I noticed little things about him, sometimes things he might not have realized about himself before...
“If”
All we do now is just question the feeling
Always thinking the other plans on leaving
I told you my goals a long time ago
You the one to decide to stay or it let go
Gotta admit, you did a number on me
And I guess I should’ve seen it coming this time
But I’ve recalled how to live without you
So rest assured, I’m doing just fine
I wish hindsight came before foresight
You hurt me again
It’s written on your skin
Circling around your wrist
As well as your arms and hips
The scars on your skin
Would you stop if I paint my name over them?
I prefer permanent pen
Why does anyone care for red roses?
Their scent alone is awfully violent
And the pain their thorns often impose is
Not worth the money many have spent
I am from Fancy Farm, Kentucky.
From Brookport, Illinois.
I am from Reidland, Kentucky.
(Still crazy how that sounds).
I am from Fancy Farm,
Homemade chocolate oatmeal cookies
It took a year
To learn more than I could have in the other sixteen.
It took a year
For me to accept that you can outgrow people
As you outgrow clothing:
Insecurity (“”)
Why aren’t you happier to see me
Why don’t you look nicer when we go out
Why do you always have to be so smart. . . or clueless. . . or dumb
17 years.
I had been asleep for 17 years.
Lost in a world of dreams, hopes, and aspirations, I forgot that i was a teenage girl, almost out of high school, with no "teenage girl in high school" experiences.
When we crossed paths,
There was already a connection
You caress me with your voice and penetrated me with your words
You aroused me with your knowledge and made me throbbed with your touch
and i can't love you the way i should
the way you deserve
though i want to
i'm just scared
scared that loving me,
the broken mess that i am,
will leave this black mark on your soul,
In the beginning
I always considered myself to be like Sherlock Holmes
Logical, a little impractical, stubborn, and
Alone.
Not by anything other than choice of course.
But alone nonetheless
ACT I
The thing that shaped my year?
Well…it was not a what,
or a when, or a where,
or even a why…
It was a who.
But who…was this who?
I will always be here for you
I will always hug you
I will always kiss you
I will always tell you good morning
I will always tell you good luck
I will always look into your eyes as if time has stalled
Seems like forever
A boy with a Peter Pan face
Walked into my life
A split across the people
The candidates speak on TV
A passion is born
Feel the Bern I’d shout
A year has passed
I was always told hands for holding,
For calling,
For comforting.
But now I belong to someone else
My conscience will always point its way back to you.
A year ago your angry handsLeft red and purple sunset marks on my porcelain skin.Your lips dripped honey-covered apologies,But nothing ever really changed.
Why do men look at love as being a contagious diease
instead of a feeling thats here to fulfill your needs
its mind bottiling to know that some men look
at love as something that will never grow
As i smoke
I’m seventeen years old.
The real world is coming at me fast,
Not quite yet at terminal velocity,
But I’ll be getting close.
I have a new hand to hold,
I remember when realized,
Our favorite song was the same.
I felt like you had looked at me,
And seen right through my brain.
You hold my face while kissing you,
Your eyes they look so deep.
About this time last year, I thought I knew what stress was,
as I walked through the iron gates of a gold and purple castle,
waiting for Nostradamus to tell me my fate,
taking classes that I thought I would hate.
I started the year being heartbroken,
But determined for my future.
I longed for apologies.
I knew Harry was a total player.
He was a bad boy.
Yet I fell for all his words.
He broke my heart.
Before I get into it
I'd just like to say
I don't mean to offend
Anyone, anyway.
I don't know how I keep falling
in and out of love with you
you would have thought after all this time
my feelings would be clear by now
the day we first met was a fire started with a spark
So suspicious It makes me wonder I never ponder the situation we had because I trusted youSooner the truth will come And to someThey think I'm wrongBut I'm really tired singing the same song Been hear for so long trying to be strongBut that's not
This year has passed just like all the others
It's last moments a whisper, before it joined it's brothers
On his deathbed, I spoke to my old friend
While we both knew that he would never mend
You called to ask me how I was today
Though the last time we talked I was breaking your heart.
You were yelling and you were crying and you said I was to blame.
Smoke cascades like soft grey velvet,
past cracked lips that slowly release the worries of the world,
Kill yourself a little bit every day,
because that's better than living long enough to think about you,
If I sit still
tilt my head
to a certain degree
memories tumble
trickle down
And knock a screw free
I conjure up
A vague image
Of what you used to be
Things about you
I should never have written poetry for you.
I respect that you care for yourself,
But I hate that you never learned how to care for others.
"...Half asleep, I hear a light rustle outside my window then a sunk on the right side of my bed. You lightly shook me and smiled. As always, conversation turns into an argument.
My heart is choking, Pain trying to silence it.Every beat more painful than the last.With every tear held back the pain strengthens.But no one must know the pain inside.
I didn't used to feel this cold. I was the kind of kid that kept summer within them. I went barefoot through the snow, I wore shorts late into the fall. Never brought a coat. That was before I met you.
they cannot breathebut they can seethe trees turn greenand the colorof the lake doesn’tmatter. they rememberthe color
leaving their face,
their body
forgetting
We live in a world where we allow Facebook to run and control every situation we face.Even in our relationships we ran to Facebook to relay shit. When we in our feelings of course let's get on Facebook and see how we relate t
We have what others call, an unhealthy relationship.
You come and stay with me during the night,
But leave me early in the morning.
Looking back at me sighing before you leave,
As New Years day came, the words "new beginnings" engraved my soul.
I was tired of playing games, and from us taking it slow.
I made my decision, i was moving to miami, cause you had my heart.
Sutures
heal the wounded
but doom the healthy
Sutures
are more than stitches and seams
for injuries
seems they can be for hearts too
Sew your heart to mine
I feel the end is near.10 minutes till the credits.Unused film on the ground.There are no more edits.
By all means,It was a great movie.From the mysterious beginning,To the ending that threw me.
"The blacker the berry, The sweeter the juice"
Is the first quote I think of when I think of you
you
you are a black hole
you consume
everything you touch and
collapse
in upon yourself
when there is no more
for you to hold tightly to the void
that trickles like ink when you speak
You were a neckalce that HE gave me
A gift, a present, a statement of commitment.
Oh how the tables turned as that pearl of loyalty faded.
I was happy, In love, naive to your shiny gloss
I want the ugly pictures back. I want them plastered on social media and loaded in your phone. I want the screenshots of every single snapchat or selfie back.
What are you, but an Itch I cannot reach?A dark poison, flowing so slick, carefreePsychological warfare, please don’t preachBegone!The pain in my neck, leave us be!Little Hippie you, get chained to a tree
I cannot grasp enough breath to express a single word from my mouth.
I can feel my heart beating like a drum with a rhyme that can’t find a pattern and I can't feel the pulse drags through my heart, body and heart again.
I'm doing this because I love you,
Don't you get it?
What happens when I'm gone,
And you have no one to look up to.
Huh? Huh?
When the phone turns on
A smile appears on my face
All my worries are gone
Because I get to have the grace
Of seeing my love
Who smiles back at me
And I feel truly free of
once i reached for the Moon,
fishing pole in hand,
i grabbed for it
and grasped-
DESPERATE
Love and Lies
The feeling in my chest,
Is one I’ve felt before.
All so easy to notice,
Your lips crash onto mine,
Cracked, pink, and divine.
The bittersweet taste of you
Touches my tongue,
I crave your lips even more,
You're beauty is like starlight, but more like the spaces in betweenBecause you're so much more than just a pretty faceYou're so much more than the precious pearls you hide behind
I haven’t told my family and friends about these feelings,
How I find girls more appealing.
I wish I was freewheeling
Because my heart is what she’s stealing.
My heart pounds when she’s near.
I recently wrote my first poetry book and I thought I would share it with the poetry community.
If you would like to support it you can type in Gissel Grizzle or Untold Verses into the Amazon search.I'm not able to post the link here.
This pain is simply pulling me apartCaught between you and the freedom of hopeThe simple irony of your oath"I promise to let you breathe," Yet your hands are around my neck."I promise to let you see," Still you are all I know."I promise to let you
I guess I always knew you would move on I don't blame you for it, In fact I'm happy for you. Still it hurts knowing that I haven't moved on. I know I made it seem like I never liked you as anything more than a friend, But that simply wasn't true.
‘Today’ my mother says, triumphant, ‘we are bottling peaches’.
When I ask why, my mother tells me that it is ‘our tradition’
As though I have bottled peaches before.
I have never bottled peaches before.
Don't ever leave
I want you to stay
Don't hide how you feel
I feel the same way
Don't keep me waiting
I've been very patient
But don't rush either
I'll savour each moment
Rose colored glasses
Rose coloured glasses
My heart was like the desert, so I always kept a pair
Hoping they would show me your rain
So my roses could grow again
But you were just another sandstorm
On Monday, she’s weary, teary, and unsure. She is sure that she’ll be able to fake a smile, but unsure if her friends and family will know it’s fake.
You were once the man that made my smile grow wide,But now you're the man that makes my smile die.Every time I see you, my heart decides to break.Every time I remember you, my organs inside me ache.I'll never forget those really good times, when w
I can hear but you never tell me- how you feel that’s why I’m drowning- in these ashes of flames that we caused, caused to burst since we showed each other our flaws.Though we try we just fill with hatred- for the agony of the other in the other’s
When we started off, I was all too worried.
Hoping your son would grow to like me and that you would be comfortable with a new man in your lives.
From the moment you said hi I knew I was hooked
By the way you laughed, your eyes, and your love for books
2,244 miles to see that northern smile
I'd stay up at night wondering if it would be worth my while
The smoke from his cigarette slowly left the ember end into the air,
disappearing and only leaving a lingering smell.
That's when I realized it was like our relationship.
We keep drifting apart from each other,
Once upon a time,
He once looked at me in my chestnut eyes and told me I was beautiful
He once said the only person that could set his soul on fire was me
How does one grow tired of a relationship
Do you just wake up and realize that
you’ve invested the bulk of your precious attention
I told you I loved you over text. You told me you would love me too, if I had a penis inbetween my legs. I begged you not to tell anyone about what happened, and cried in the shower, wondering what was wrong with me.
He stands before me
He stands beside me
Yet also he stands behind me
He is my world
He is my soul
He is my everything
He is all I need
Their noses are higher than their IQ's
they step on sweet innocents as if they roses.
When will they relize?
We fumble around as if we've been shotten ,
but in reality we are all just rotten.
Parents.
I no longer view this word this way
P4r3nT5.
Now this is much better
A mess of stuff that is put together to make it look, decent.
Do you remember that night?
When you and I lay on that couch,
That couch with stains from different nights,
And you said you’d never live my side,
Come rain come shine?
When I met you I knew it was too good to be true
and I was right
while I thought gardening is what was bringing us together
it was actually tearing us apart
My eyes invite seductive.
A smile will ignite a flame.
The warmth of your skin on mine well drive you insane, whlie wishing and begging for more.
I have this feeling deep inside,
not quite like or appreciate.
I open my mouth to call it love,
but then I pause, I hesitate.
I test the words: "I love you!"
They echo, cold, empty.
He used to walk under nothing but a raincloud,
Until she came,
Held his hand,
And showed him the sun.
Whatever is true
And whatever is right like you and me
Just like your fingerprints that are tatted on my skin invisibly
With every unsaid wordbetween us,a new brick is addedto our wall of silence.
This silence begannaturally as wegrewboth up and apart.
I don’t love you at all.
And before you glare at me with those squinted eyes,
Before you place your hands akimbo,
Before you wiggle your neck at me and say, “Excuse me?!”
Excuse me while I light my spliff.
My life is in shambles.
Now I know how the cookie crumbles.
Never have I ever been in so much trouble.
But now so burst is my bubble.
My worst fear led to my jubilation,
Soon she will march in through that door,
And my head will be struck by the abrupt reminder,
A painful thunderbolt reminding me of our repulsive love,
The sight of her prompts the formation of indescribable feelings in me.
Her hypnotizing eyes, so full of life look at me.
Her luscious lips stretch into a charming smile.
She reaches out for me.
Her warm, sweet breath hits my face.
I embrace her, but only manage to hug empty air.
Walking down Eastlands in Nairobi with my head bowed and my hands pocketed at 3am has always been such a beautiful thing to me.
Now when i'm single, that's when i have feelings
I go from happy to depressed
to even know what i am thinking
I sink in
To these emotions filling in my body
then I start to dropping,
As I write out my pain, I tell you love's not a game
This heartbreak's driving me insane, slowly numbing my brain
I try not to let it show, but deep inside my sadness grows
Wen I first met you
I felt like I had known you forever,
telling you my secrets
and what I didn't want ever.
you listened to me
I bet you thought I'd never end,
who would have thought
At the end of a long day, the beautiful girl swings by her ‘friend’s’ place.
Funny, isn't it?
How the more the days pass by, the heavier your essence weighs on my shoulders?
I shut my eyes and see you,
Feel you,
Sense every aspect of you,
The music is blazing.
It makes my father smile.
We listen to it every day
As we drive another mile.
My sister writes a stanza.
It reminds me of my father.
I read that words have the power to change us and for the longest time, I refused to believe it.
He made everything better
I don’t know how he did it and I don’t think he did either
He could help me through anything
After you destroyed me
I wanted to cut off your hands
Rip your fingers to shreds
Tear your lips off of your face
Gouge your blue eyes from their sockets
Slice your legs to bits
Love, a thing of beauty
Love, a relationship as sweet as chocolate
Love, something I have waited far too long to see
Love, I embrace you as you walk your way too me
Love, now that we have met, I accept your offer
Her skin: soft as the edge of her sword
And her hair: carved from the volcanic ashes.
Her heart: away from advancing toward
His hardline lips; and her faint eyelashes:
Disguising keys to his grave, shallow as--
Oh society how dare you Promoting skinny as beautifulAnd fat is insecureBut at the same timeFat should love their curves And skinny should eat a hamburger You create these controversiesThat being single sucksAnd to strive for relationships But who
I’ve spent countless hours of my life thinking and brooding,
Considering the complexities of my past relations.
And it is during these times, with my emotions moving,
Which cause more oft than not unsightly ruminations.
I need you to promise me you'll pick up the pieces of my heart that are broken,
for I am afraid that if too many pieces are lost,
I'll lose myself completely,
ONE. We meet.A while later, we start talking.Later still, we discover that the term "soul-mates" doesn't just apply to the romantically inclined.
Oh my weary loving king, rest your mind, and see what dreams the night will bring. Put your worried mind at ease, and know our love, no boundaries sees.
You fight with me
You fight for our land
You fight with we
You fight to stand
Your fight has come
Your fight must be won
You fought for me
You fought for our land
leave
leave
leave
i am sick
my mind is sick
my heart's lost its fullness
but beats sadly onwards
I saw blue book in the storeyesterday, but I did not pick it up.
I was preoccupied with another and did not want to read two things at once.
My first book was short and filled with lots of hookups.
I am stuck on the idea of forever.
Of being with someone forever.
Trips to the grocery store together, forever.
Waking up next to someone, forever.
Loving someone, and them loving me, forever.
four months ago we came to a close,
you came into my room and said "you have a lot of books in here." you ended it,
and we lay for fifteen minutes, with you holding me as i held my tears in.
Spring turns to summerThe hottness growsMy love for you weakensYou cared for me from your head to your toesWhat happened, what happened
The tears ive cried
knowing that i have lied
to you i should have never
the pan i have to take forever
The guilt i would gain
to know i caused you pain
its all my fault
You and I were like fire and gasoline,
each time we saw each other, you inflamed me
my mind, my soul, my heart was alive
but then the depression hit me and I was just trying to survive.
Start of something new
Never ending soon
From football and cross
Now running on the track
Oh the memories, now a loss
you are the reason the ancients worshiped the sky.someone so beautiful could not have come from the dirt of the Earth,you were born in the aftermath of a supernova. you have galaxies blooming inside of you
Shit...that's all I could say on the night that my dad made us go different ways.
I said it three times as I put on my pants, and he knocked on the window as you pulled out your hand.
Again I feel my heart crumblingMy spirit is twisting and tears are wellingunder all this pain.I’m happy for him,He’s going to make himself a better lifeBut inside I feel empty,without his strong arms around my waist, his warm breath in my hair.My
I'm falling deep,knees are shaking,I'm feeling weak.I don't know what to say,When I open my mouth to speak. All these fucking feelingsAre attacking me. Weighing me down,
Which way should I go?
My heart says yes, but my head says no.
Should I go up the path,
or down the road?
My hopes are high,
and then they're low.
Waiting for answers,
chasing dreams.
Gravity, a reality
A slumber a tragedy.
What I found out is maddening,
Into the waves it’s dragging me.
Lies, anger, chaos, passing.
All around the lights are flashing,
Take your space and make it worth it see my face and know you hurt it. I know you never want to see me cry, but I just can't ever tell you goodbye. I came to love you as if it were necessity, and you bring out what is best in me.
Never could I turn to one who knows me as you do
I thought that I could never be myself until I met you.
Endless, restless nights spent awake just holding it in,
Yet you were right there, as though you were kin.
Remember that time
you said that you cared?
Yep - me neither.
Everything you do and say is a lie
covered up with smiles and laughs.
Do you think that changes anything?
This is what it feels like to be hurt.
To have the breath knocked out of you,
Whith a word or two you killed me
And as I sit here typing I realize
You broke me.
I realize you took from me.
i used to be every girl
in every song you heard
i used to pollute your mind
and populate your world
but it's not okay anymore
and you don't want me there
the way you did before
Liquid crystal, a crystal harder and more beautiful than any diamond.
The smell or iron filled her nose,
The thin red lines inflating like small red balloons,
The pain tasted like immature bitter melon,
The shingles of my mind fall swiftly off their structure
as they would from an abandoned house.
There isn’t a single thing that could escape from your lips,
or mine, that could rebuild what’s falling apart.
She peaks like swell in the ocean and crashes into the sand dunes.
She soars with the pelicans and falls with rain.
She is the orange sunset glimmering across the river, only to disappear over the west when looked upon.
he talked lots about Dadaism art
i understood not one thing about it
except that it was anti-art
like our relationship
was anti-commitment
Two broken hearts slowly dying
And sorry I could not heal them both
And be one hero, as i kept crying
And thought what was right
To shine both so bright
Then felt captured by my feelings
Leap of faith into the wind,
Parachute back in resemblance of the staggered memories of independence.
The title, "us!" is presented with both neighboring feelings of worry and hope,
This sand is no longer paradise,
There's hopelessness in the sea.
But I am not alone here, there’s
Feet that don't belong to me.
A living being, my own blood,
Someone I couldn't live without,
A smile, a frown, some tears, some laughs
Conveys a message.
Handshakes, hugs, shrugs
Have unique meaning.
Communication is important to life.
Without it, love ceases, relationships dissolve.
If you had asked me a couple months ago the question “What is the one thing or one person you could not live without,” I would have answered, without hesitation or doubt in my mind.
I would have told you it was him.
Love is pain
worse than any toothache
Love can bring you happiness or heartbreak
It can be a struggle not knowing where love leads
Love can be as cryptic as an unsolved mystery
Love is pain
I hate this disease.
I always feel so flustered and
tired.
I hate how it controls me so easily,
so effortlessly.
The toxins take over slowly and then
all at once.
There isn't a cure yet
she looks At him
the Cringe
The electricity
the fire
warmth surrounding
she Looks away
connection Lost
I
A house
Count down the days until she leaves.
Day 200:
She stuffs me with her pie recipes
Old family photos
When we first met,
I said, “I’m not too good at skating forward.”
On metal trucks, hot enough to burn the sun,
I like to think we scratched pavement
God, I hate you.I hate how you deleted me only when you found someone elseand I hate how your friends say the same things about her.I hate how you use the same goddamn places,our memories, and our pick-up phrases,
He is tall, he is handsome, he is original.
He is smart, he is talented and he gets me threw the obstacle.
No matter the day, no matter the time
You.. You were so beautiful.. You were so beautiful, but not like your attractiveness,I was attracted to you for you gave off the feeling of home.. Safety.. Love.. The feeling I needed. You were so beautiful and so large..
This is the way she played me,
and hell if I'm not angry.
Now I Don't typically write rymes
Let alone spit man.
I'm just your average Maine white guy,
who probably won't incite crime.
When alone and deserted
My attention still can't be diverted
There's only one thing I need
Only one thing I breathe
You.
My hopes and my dreams,
What do they even mean
I'm feeling so real
But truth and lies
Are one and the same
On fair-weathered or
Rainy days including
Bonus clouds and all
Murkiness is always extra
Grayness is never free or
As I was fighting for you, I realized I was fighting to be lied too,
Fighting to be denied to put my heart inside you,
Fighting to be cheated and be lied too,
You are the cartographerAnd I, the compass roseYour maps show where we've already beenBut there are other places still to go
If you have ever
Walked down a street,
You are sure to remember
That many people you meet.
Not faces, per se,
But people still.
"Only some will do important things," they say,
For a year
My eyes were on you
My faith in you too
Your words in my head
The tears on my bed
For a year
I belonged to you
And not with you
I kissed in vain
And took the pain.
Love can and will
Burn you
Begins in sparks
Ends with ashes
Yet for the lucky
Instead of ashes
Instead of burning out
They come to find
They are phoenixes
And do not partake
Fallen hopelessly
Trying desperately to find
Solid ground,
But the Earth keeps
Shaking, her center
Growing cold.
While shooting for
Her stars, gravity pulling back in,
I don’t know how to tell
if the guy you like seems to have fallen for you.
I don’t know what it feels like
to hold hands or kiss in the moonlight.
One day I couldn't reconize myself. I looked in the mirror and couldn't find my face from all the troubles of the world. I wear a smile to cover the pain as I wash away the blood and scars. He hit me. As the red washed away my mind did too.
She’s keeps me sane when my mind is uneasy
Always motivates me to do my best
Never allows me to waiver in times of adversity
Demands me to be different from everyone else
//Colours//
The touch of a lover
The brilliance of colour
Oh, tell me how it feels
To know that she calls
You hers?
You said to me,
“She’s only trying
Real life isn't like T.V.It doesn't cut away to commercial.It doesn't end always end in resolution. Real life is messy and it's loud.Its watching a marriage of several decades
Hot kiss in the cold rain.A steady beat of a pulsing vein.The fearful calm of the never the same.The sweet aftertaste of your whispered name. Two extremes inside one heart.
It always begins the same. You slide behind a cold cold wheel. The solid black night stretches on forever. You slip trance like as the lights fly by. Each one a life with choices and consequences.
A great man once said that we are all born from star dust.I think that's true. It would explain why every inch of you glows like the sun. Another great man theorized the universe started with a bang.
The fans rattling again. It's not the only thing shaking in the darkness.But it's making such a loud racket. I keep it on anyway. I'm afraid the silence will kill me. I fight sleep like it's tangible.
There are moments in life.Then there are moments, in life.It's a gift to know exactly whenyou discovered what love really is. It was laying ear to ear with you,So quiet I can almost hear your thoughts.
Inhale. Exhale. I've lost something, but I'm not quite certain of what. It's feels like when you reach for a wallet or a phone.Knowing it's there only to find it's not. There's a brief moment of lightning panic
I'm fine, I'm fine, I'm fine.I say it in my head again.Again. Out loud. But just above a whisper.Repeat it again in the shower. It gets lost in the melody.Mixing in the steam in the background.
Before you date somebody with amental illness, you must rememberthat calling them beautiful willnot adjust their brain's chemicallevels. Sweet words do not reversesickness that plagues the mind
Parallel Play
I.
You once said that tearing off clothes is like peeling
an orange, and that making out reminds you
All I Need by Melia Candelaria Your lips, your eyes the way you smile at me when we brush fingertips in the store as we stroll through the aisles as though there is some secret that only I can understand. The way your hair falls over your eyes i
The sun beamed down on her.
The warmth calmed her.
She hadn't felt this good in years it seemed.
She felt fine,
But Lord knows she isn't.
You say you're here for me
You say I can count on you
You say... a lot of things.
"You just aren't like that"
"You should lower your expactations"
"Reality check..."
I am happy.
Those words are underestimated, heard but unseen
a warm breeze that slides along the cheek of another.
You make me happy.
I feel as though you cause my bloodstream
How are you my dear?
They always ask, don’t they?
Day after day the strangers inquire,
Though not a single one aspires
To actually shun
An open letter to the first boy I thought I couldn't live without,
Two.
Never more than inches apart,
but blinded,
to what real love was.
The same society that binded them,
Together but pushed in
opposite directions,
strangled,
entangled,
The world is extravagant, Knowing that you are only across the Earth's blue blanket, It's an adventure worthy of the valuable trinket, Someone that loves me so, and a confidant, The hope within the soul of ours, Drives us to achieve the holy gra
Well I had that damn dream again.
The one where you come back.
You show up at my house,
dressed to the nines with roses in your hand.
I see you there,
standing in the wind.
Your beautiful hair,
the soft locks that frame your delicate face.
You turn to me
Why does this happen
Do guys thing it's okay to do this?
To mess with our feelings
As if it's nothing
As if it doesn't hurt us?
Why does this happen
Guys tell us they love us just so
Dear First Crush,
I dreamt about you once.
I was there and of course
you were there, and
we live out our entire lives
while I slept.
In reality,
my dream came true
When there are nights
I can’t sleep or
when my mind strolls
and ponders
against the wall,
I want nothing more than
I’m one step closer to becoming moonless. Pupils engulfed oil black seas without her, but not the day her hand warmed a limp soul, and when we first made love on a cold night.
All these chances I've given you, and
All those times you had me regret it
But then I remember our times, our smiles, our jokes and all the lovey dovey things we did
It comes in the way of hating you
I've been single for my entire lifeAt least as far as being official goesI've always been told I'll need a wifeOr a husband. But that, they didn't know-But why are we fed that this is required?
ValidationThis is the only thing I needWhen I have itI can finally feel secureAnd only with itDo I feel safe-It's comparable to an addictionIt keeps away my demonsIt makes me unafraid
Roses are not red, they’re internal colors that blend together,
it is our naked eye that misguides us.
Something so natural, untouched yet so beautiful and breathtaking.
Empty.
Quiet and still on the inside.
Everything stuffed inside the closet.
Fire ignites, change happens.
His eyes meet mine and the flame gets fanned. The fire rages inside us.
Pull me into your chest.
Cover me with your body and
I will forget all the reasons I have to run
We will sleep through the sunrise
Its been about 4 months...? Who am I kidding here, its been 4 months, two days and 12 hours since you've gone and I am sitting in the same robe I slept in two weeks ago.
Searching for better in me while I find my identity
Looking for better for me because I deserve all I receive
I deserve the negative shit because it opens my eyes to better shit
Do you think about me the way I think about you?
I often wonder wat you are up to
Does your heart ache when you remember my face?
Without you I can no longer find my happy place
I am shell, shadow,left to leave a lakeof my own tears and ask that you woulddrown in them,be brave,soon,and drown in them.Meet me on the other side.
Don’t give me a look
From the side of your gaze
Unless you can smile at me
With all of your face
Don’t whisper to others
When I am not around
Unless those same words uttered
The cold feels familiar when shes not around.
Snow.
Falls too fast to determine the footprints in the ground
Me.
Too afraid to make a sound
She.
Knows whats on my mind, the vision is soo profound.
I am slowly changing like a painting manipulated and altered by multiple artists. The artists and I grow old together. My tattered corners must add some character to me, right?
I was thinking of the way she use to kiss me, miss me
Tell me how much she love me even when she wasn't feeling me
Even when we argue I see the pain & love in her eyes
Like they playing tug of war, who wins tonight
If consent were a key
I would have lost it
a long, long time ago.
There is not a moment
I don’t hate you
He stole my heart
But they stole him
Off to war, he fought
And our future looked dim
Before he left he pulled me in
He whispered “I love you”
And my pain begin
I could barely mumble, “I love you too”
It hurts to be forgettenI try to supress the painbut it still doesn't work,so my other best option
The difference between you and meis that we were never meant to be,but you can't helppush that fact farther,and I can't helpbut try to be together forever.
I been fighting for something that's not there
Waiting on someone who don't care
This love thing just ain't fair
And yeah you say you love me and that you'd always be there
I tried to hold on sorry I let go, lost my grip hand slipped then I lost all control
Anger embarrassed me and it got the best of me
You're the moon and stars in my dark skies.
By your guiding light I find my way home to you. With your love I'm forever safe from the dark.
Because of your love, I no longer think of the pain.
i wish there’s someway i could tell you
about not being able to sleep.
i want you to view me with virtue;
i want your opinions to keep.
so i can’t tell you of what i’m dreaming,
Breaking Up
It is as if we’re breaking up.
Breaking that beautiful bliss
That we had collected in
Five short days.
Just as a child collects sea shells,
I could have been anyone
Even the person you wanted me to be
I would say I’m sorry
So sorry for being Me
So let’s go back to the beginning
Part I. They Fell In
Simply put
I cannot understand you
The way you make my chest shorten
And the way all this furniture of our lives came about
I’d lie if I said I think about you all the time,
But when I do think of you it’s spontaneous.
Touching my neck and imagining you kissing it,
The thought of you makes me smile,
Listening to a song or seeing a couple holding hands and wondering why you can’t be with me.
I want your touch in the most innocent way;
When I arrived he was gone-
my stomach vociferated in harmony with
his (hello hello hello) soul
I tried to close my eyes and trace the throat of his fingernails
and when I arrived, he was gone.
the boy had fingertips made of pure white flames
back when the walls were closing in,
i was unrecognizable
my own skin had an elusive disguise
it was drenched in icewater
the boy had fingertips made of pure white flames
back when the walls were closing in,
i was unrecognizable
my own skin had an elusive disguise
it was drenched in icewater
My skin, the cover of my soul’s pages, is soft
leather binding, knitted together
by the Expert Craftsman,
protecting secrets from
Smiles are flighty creatures
they come and go in an instant
like your train of thought when you lose it
or that shooting star you wish would stay forever
I walked with you in a dreamlike state,
Our surroundings growing darker every minute,
You kept wishing for daylight, but I,
I found comfort in the night.
I never know how much I like you, until I sit down to write about you,
and then I realize,
there are so many words to describe you,
If I had the money,
I’d buy a telescope,
so I could look deep into
the galaxies hidden in your eyes,
your dark, dark eyes,
Like cold sheets, the night air wraps around us,
your voice hangs in the sky with the stars,
and the moon reflects it back to me,
and I lay there,
I wish I could dump your fears into the ocean,
and let them sink away from your memory
I wish I could fire your doubts amongst the stars,
tell me you love me with stars in your eyes
and i’ll run my bruised hands through your hair.
tell me you love me, darling, it’s no surprise:
i’ve known forever that you are there.
I tried to fall in love,
and love fell away from me.
Music tastes and edited imagery
can’t disguise the doubts of the reality
that you are not good or true
for who I am trying to be,
Say the words you know will burn a fire within me
Say the ones that you think will push me
Say them.
Please say them.
Becuase I promise then,
I won't feel bad walking away.
Exhilaration.
Heart rate speed up.
Mind confused.
Is it me? Is it you?
Diletated pupils.
Sex education didn't teach me this.
Arousal?
Doesn't seem to hit it.
Towels for tips.It was a modest existence, but entertaining, to say the very least.
Club life releases the beast...Carnality.
That old blue trash canstill sat in the cornerby the doorlaughing at you
just go away he said in oh, so many wordsin oh, too many actions
flesh crawlinghope fadingheart breaking
the lack of communication is unsettling to say the least
thoughts settling in my mind to a time where paranoia never ceased
life has got me on a leash
but a noose is tighter
I want to tell you I will do anything to keep what we have together,
That I will try to follow through and give my effort to do better.
1. You came into my life like a hurricane. I didn’t think I needed to evacuate, but you left nothing but floodwaters in your wake. We barely spoke afterward except to act like it never happened.
cling onto and drain
and there's your next victim.
desperate for a new taste
you fling youself and cling as if your life depended on it.
dependent of the Indenpendent,
you cling and drain
Baby I know it wasn’t just my love that you never felt
I know that you couldn’t feel it because you never loved yourself
But I want to show you the beauty I see in you
You said you loved me
From the first day that we were together
You said you cared for me
And that you would forever.
Those nights we talked
I’m catching feelings for you mighty fast
so if I put you to through the tests
I hope that you will pass
‘cause I would hate to not have you around me all the time,
The ache I have for you starts in my finger tips,
And it rattles my bones,
I have made you my home. Oh, what a move that was made that September night,
I never would’ve guessed,
That it could lead to this. Maybe we’re the moon and the ocean,
You
We were like the waves colliding against the bay.
Coming so close together, I wish we could have stayed that way forever.
Your hands run through my hair
Your piercing eyes searching mine
For what, I do not know
Nor do I know what you will find.
Maybe you see the way I adore you
My thoughts always wandering back to you
Maybe I'm unlucky
Maybe I'm dumb
Maybe I'm second
Maybe she's the one
Maybe I Lie
Maybe it's not love
Maybe is too much
Maybe I have some other things
to think of.
Why won’t I get it?
I have friends both male and female.
I go to parties.
I’m social with others.
I do all these things and yet
Whenever I hear my loved one does it as well
My brain tells me
A Phantom Music
Music this place, hearts do dance
Hidden your face, beloved phantom of grace
Beloved, your music lays about
I have learned, the only true person you can save is your self.
You are the only one in control of Whether you want to be happy in the light or to be happy in the dark.
Beloved,
In what other lives or lands
Have I known your lips?
Your Hands?
Your Laughter?
Irreverent of death.
I do adore.
Hope is there in that we will meet again,
Because you said i was beutiful i began to redifined myself, God began to work. You loved my inperfections, my weaknesses, my hurt. You loved my scars from the inside out so I let you make love me emotionally and physically.
Wounding are the words
Malice their intent
Damage lays strewn
Glass shards, small and large
Carve, Cut and Cauterize
Blood dries and wounds are ignored
Mock Not sat with Talk Not
Friends till the end
One had little to say
The other said nothing to offend
Side by side they sat day by day
She always seeks the broken hearts,And she tries her best to fix them;Drifting around from here to there,
i always wake up feeling the best at other people’s houses and other people’s beds. is it the person or is it the meds?
feed me sertraline and caffeine, inject me with all those pills and potions. give me a reason to keep living by my struggling...
Your face resembles Medusa
holds the utmost beauty
but I know one look will have me frozen in time
Wish I could rewind
When you looked in my eyes
And Pause on that moment
Melting , and tongue tied
Your tainted fingertips
I remember the feeling of being wrapped in recycled hands
And being kissed by used lips
All I see are memories of your silohoutte
I remember the day you left
Like it was yesterday
You said you couldn't resist her
And Ma and I
Couldn't overlook the fact that
Everytime you came home
Why did you lie to me
Why did you say you cared
When I knew you didn't
Why did you say I was first
When I knew I wasn't
Why did you act like I was special
When you grow up you realize the heart comes with a burdenYou will see it now how blind it was back thenThe responsibility to have your heart can only be taken on by one
We're happy, oh so happyEven when we shouldn't beBut we make the work although, you said you hate me..
Yeah, we fightLike we can't get it rightAnd yet you still say that our future's bright
She often sat and wondered how they became so distant.He is close enough to touch, but too far away to reach.Every song and saying reminds her of what used to be.
I miss you like crazyI miss you for sureYou are my rockMy apple core
You took the badAnd you made it goodI try not to laughAlthough I should
looking like just my kind of troubleoverworn jeansthreadbare t-shirtholding a pen like a cigarettehalf a smirk for all who lookedhair too long, nails too shortyou told a joke and the
You pressed your secrets into my skinLike they were the most delicate ofFlowers, IPut them between the pages of only myFavorite books, and even thenOnly the ones I knew you’d like
I love you like a drunkLoves a drinkLike my skinLoves the kiss of a bladeLike my dogLoves table scrapsLike youLove herI love you desperatelyWholelyEndlessly, passionately
You told me you weren't musicalYet you play the beat of my heart perfectly in timeYou said you weren't hotBut you light a fire within meYou insisted you weren't lyricalAlthough your words are a beautiful rhyme
The ocean waves came pounding downSo fast, I can’t breathe so I drownAround me there are shades of blueAnd all I know is I'll miss youThe water was so coldI miss the warmth of your loving hold
I see you.
Your lies shinging bright in the darkness that surrounds me.
My frail heart was placed in your cold hands
Barely beating.
You breathe on warmth
You smile as my body glows.
Breathe.
Broken. Helpless. Hurt. Cast down. These words burnt a whole into Kendra’s heart.
Breathe.
See the stars dance for you tonightI'll hold you close and tell you, "It'll be alright."Stay with me for a whileAnd keep your fears in exileWith me is where you should beIn my arm's embrace for eternity
I jumped into the ocean one starry nightIn hopes that maybe you'd save meBut the waves came crashingAnd took me into their embrace,They took me to my sweet escape,Under the night sky, under the stars
“Skies are blue inside of you” 90
“Don’t you wish you were free, Lenina?” 91
Dear whoever it may concern,
I truely believe I am in love with you,
the way your eyes light up when you smile,
like the sunset has decided to visit me
every single day.
You say that I'm insane,
Women are like gnats.
They only come in packs.
Some nights they don’t show up,
Some nights they just attack.
What’s worst about them, though,
Is that when they’re finally done,
i damn sure aint gon be no step daddy
hell nah the fuck you think this is?
aint no charity case this way
i see them games that you play
you got me fucked up thinkin ima take care of some other niggas problem
Be patient good things come to those who wait
Rushing speeds up negative vibes pushes you away
No holding back
Believe that's why my last relationship escaped
No excuses but we rushed despite the years
What’s worst about this whole ordeal
Is not that you are gone,
Nor that the words you said to me
Were just to put me on,
But really that your parting voice
Did quiver in its tone –
Wooden beams and wooden planks
And salty sea scented air
Drew our souls near the edge
And then just held them there
The wind whipped our hair
The cold bit our noses
2:15 am
It started as a cold. A small cough without any other symptoms. a difficulty to breathe. a hurt. I believe that it will just go away. This small illness I had inside would just slowly vanished without any consent.
Alas; woe to my eyes--
Let them not see.
The object of my affection
Cares not of me.
Red, the burning in your cheeks as you drive to your first date with her: ice cream eaten in a red cup, your treat.
Orange, the spirit of the prideful school campus where you timidly closed in for your first hug with her.
Through time we will stand, together we won't fall.
When the waves get rough, grasp hands, stand tall.
When your world is shaken and torn at the seams,
I'll hold you tight, through your nightmares and dreams.
I remember the first time you held my hand. I remember the electricity running through my body.
The days are now dark not because the sun sets at 5:30 but because it's been an eternity since we've spoken those 3 words out of emotion and not habit.
Today I went through my poems
and threw out everything I ever wrote about you
Yesterday, I would have cried
I don't want a relationship where it's perfect
I want a relationship that's worth it
With special moments and little lumps
I want something that gives me goosebumps
I need a love, not plastic, but real
The other day she sat beside him for the first time in months
She watched his eyes brighten at the thought of his new life without her
But the way he sat on his hands told her he was fighting the urge to touch her cheek
My skin with yours
Your skin with mine
This lovely little
Pantomime
Heaving Breaths
Thirst for more
Take down the masks
That we once bore.
In the past,
I want cuddles
Rain puddles
Movie nights
Flying kites
And tickle fights
I want happy
Sappy
giggles
Butt wiggles
And jell-o jiggles
I live in fear but not for me...for someone who has PTSD. He doesn't worry as much as I do but to me, he's braver than us two. He controls his anger and his hurt He is someone that I will never desert. His laugh, his smile and the light in his eye
If you love him
Waiting will be simultaneously
The easiest and most difficult
Thing in the world
If you love him
Do not tempt him
Do not be alone
Guilt will eat him
Nibble at your love as it
And my clothes, drenched in perfume
Wondering if you can smell it too.
Because of the lipstick on your cheek,
I'm too nervous to speak.
It was by chance I stumbled
into the fierce lions terrain
and he looks like all the rest
with large claws, sharp teeth, and his mane
Instinct readied my legs to run
I never had a wall. There was nothing therefor you to climb over or knock downbut the more time I spent lingering in your shadowthe more bricks I foundand the faster I learnedto build.
Always or never
now and forever
down for whatever
ready to ride whenever
ready to ride to the moon
no matter the weather
never too late or too soon
with you everything's better
you be my light
Our relationship was a fairytale
It was perfect
On the outside
It may have crashed and burned in the end
But maybe it is a happy ending
But I don't know just how yet
Rain splashes down like the tears I feel inside. They slide down the window panes, reminding me of the pain inside.
My mind cries, shouting for you.
Suddenly the sun bursts through,
a silver lining on a cloudy day.
They said love hurts, but I didn’t think it would feel like this. A beautiful kind of hurt. That’s what I pictured.
Love is patient, love is kind,
As Paul so eloquently wrote
But love is fast, love is temporary,
It can end as quickly as an eighth note
Heartbreak sucks
It’s easy to see
"Would you be like the others?", I pondered.
It began with art and a hint of hesitancy.
This was my thing. Our thing.
And now you are here to share it. With us.
One of the most magical days of my life
having you as my soul mate
i state
is wonderful
our my soul
we mold
our love
being with you
ake e build
and feel
my emotions
and your my light
that i like
At the edge of my bed,
A close friend creeps,
His gibbers and gabbers fill my head,
The way he speaks is quite bleak,
I'd not mind it if he wasn't two years dead.
You see, the problem is I have treated you as if you are the sun. And you are not the sun. My life does not depend on you, you are not in any way crucial to my survival.
Everything started because of a boy.
A boy that made her feel special.
The first boy she thougt she ever truely liked,
So I took a deep breath and asked her name
And she said hi, my name is kate
And I said hello But I knew she wouldn’t let me go
Cuz some people connect immediately
and other split immaculately but I know
I am a wave
Part of the ocean
Floating high, floating low
And sinking
When I crash
My highs are
So high
I give God
A high-five
My lows are
So low
I'm not even in existence
Walk down the halls again
It's just another day
Boring,
Insignificant
Breathe in, breathe out...
Sigh
Head sunk low
Hands in pockets
I look pretty normal
Maybe a bit down
a thousand regrets from a thousand past lives
the night is as empty as she is inside
a thousand crushed hopes from a thousand lost dreams
I never really know what to say
You always make me sad
Each and every day
No matter how much i want to play
i had taken 50 tylenol, in intervals of five on april 2ndapril 2nd, because i felt that april 1st would be a day too cruel to get a call from your child's school
Today would be memories of our journey
Together and apart,
Of struggles and triumphs over brokenness and unworthiness…
Today would be sweet nothings
funny stories
soft kisses
strong embraces…
When he wraps his arms around me,
I am in a sleeping bag on a mountain,
Peaceful and shielded from the breeze.
When he tells me that he loves me,
I am listening to soft, beautiful music
your lips touched me and brought what flows through my body up to the surfaceand it was a beautiful thing and i finally believed that who i was was beautifuli was myself and i was no longer ashamed of it but
A love day filled with joy and laughter.
Went to the cinema after.
A breeze of beauty passed me by.
Acknowledgement and denial,
My normal self but still a cosmic pawn.
Choices are given, options limited.
The sun shines down on my demise
Rise, rise up
Dreams will die
Lie with her
While the future succumbs
Beguile her now
While the heat is up
The feat is withstanding
The burn not worth having
I held on so tight to someone that the person was my breath without then I was outta breath and with them I felt as if I could live fo
The girl that can’t love because of you
Once so young and naive I allowed you to blind me of my perspective of love,
A love so beautiful,
A love worth value that spoke volumes.
She was perfect and I wasn't that's why her heart got broken, the relationship has drowned but the love is still floatin, and I'm hopin that us is in God's will and he'll dive in and save our ship of relations.
He's silent in a hundred different ways. Yet in his silence, count the many times he's made you FEEL. Never forget:
Love is unbearable
it would be terrible.
Feeling the pain
believing he has something to gain.
Gently place your foot upon the road, the simple start of every journey.
Little do you know, that this road is me,
Here I sit all alone
No one to talk to
No one to relate to
Wishing that one day I won't have to feel sad
One day, maybe I'll find someone to love me
Or just maybe be alone forever.
Please just take my hand today
I need to know things might be okay
I miss the hugs, I think of them sometimes
I miss you so much I dream of you at night
Black is the colorOf the mothThat lays peacefullyOn my window sealNever making a sound Black is the colorOf the ravenFlying highIn the clear dark skyBut still a mystery in our eyes
One of these days ...one of these nights...We won't fight and everythings gonna be alrightOne of these days one of these nights ........One of these nights everything will be alrightBut on this night ...it just doesn't feel rightThis night your no
Maybe there was never just one reason
I fell in love with you
Maybe it was a hundred little things -
My life is kind of hectic
Like a completed checklist
When I look back on my life I see that I have dropped some fine dimes
Colorless is how people should appear to a police officer’s view
Offender’s skin shouldn't make a difference in the end its true
Colorless is how people should appear to a police officer’s view
Offender’s skin shouldn't make a difference in the end its true
Have you ever hugged someone and you felt like there was some kind of chemistry there?
Like there is something in-between you guys that neither of you two know.
3:22 and it's not you lying next to me
you're probably sleeping just fine.
Eyes just barely closed and
fingertips inches away.
Soft snores telling dreams I wish to be in.
But when I open my eyes
I'm starting to feel like hearts are anchors
and mine is rushing to the ground.
Only I don't want to stay here,
stranded under the beating sun.
So tell me how to jump
1 mississippi, 2 mississippi, 3 mississippi, 4 mississippi, 5 mississippi.
I just wasted 5 seconds of my life.
6 mississippi, 7 mississippi, 8 mississippi, 9 mississippi, 10 mississippi.
Did you have to cut me off
with those sharp edges.
did you leave on such a thin note? heavy harmonizing with my reality? tuning into my pockets i emptied in following my heart on that flight to you?
Lately, I haven't been able to get you out of my head.
Your name overflows my mind continuously throughout the day.
Don't look down,
If you do, you might see
That you have started to fall.
And once you start to fall,
You never seem to stop.
I can feel my feet slipping,
and I know it's only a matter of time
A stab in the heart from the blade you called love
You said sweet things to my face then turn around and switched up
Whats real & whats fake? In this time I couldn't tell
It's so cold
Everytime I open my eyes this chill hits my spine & in that very moment Im completely frozen
My hearts been numb by the base & I've grown numb to the faces of the pain that I try to run from
When my stitches dissolved, I resolved a plan
A list, if you will
Of qualifications for the perfect man
Or, if you will
The perfect woman.
When I fall in love I want to be EMO
Strong
That's what everyone calls me
Like it's my name
Like it's my filter
They say I don't have to be
But it's my only lifeline
Strong
If I don't be it, if I don't use it
He see me without make up
He see me when my hair isn't perfect
He see me when I'm frustrated
He sees me when I’m sad
He see me when I’m happy
He sees me for who I am
He sees the real me
i would torch the city
if it meant that you would see the light
a million little fears
breaking down into ash
and as the tears in your eyes reflected the inferno shining bright
as you began to break inside
Another world inside of me
That no one else will ever see
Mostly it is comforting
But in the dark
where no one sees
It's actually quite lonely..
Vast and continuos , far and wild
My love for you, I cannot hide
I long for the sea, rough or calm
I'll sail you from the dusk 'till dawn
My heart for you, shall always keep
For sea, you are so full of life
Love. One word. That has so much meaning and power behind it. I mean, I’m not even sure I know the value of it is anymore.
I thought I did.
To her
He is the blinds that let in the light
To him
She is the stars that shine so bright
To her
A snow storm blows its way across July
I wait for tears,
To feel this pain
Hold on, I am not falling
You are not my faith
Not mine
Sick of trying to live off your love
I have never wanted a black man before
He who walks around with his under clothing out
He who had but 5 words repeated over and over
I want this man
I covet him like a child covets a charismas toy
The smell of smoke lingers in the air
Blowing towards the crack longing for freedom
to escape its beholder
I am the smoke looking for a place to go
To grow.
I can fly with the wind and
Let me start off by saying god bless you
The world's greatest philosopher couldn't fathom the words to express you
We tend to lose all hope and live in regret
Meanwhile the world continues to spin and time is being spent
I have always wished for something more
a little hope,
a little love,
a little bit of something.
But now I sit by myself
wishing for nothing.
Darkeness surrounds me
Alone.
Isn't that how it starts?I sit alone, waiting for a call
A call that could possibly save my life.
I am alone.
My depression eats me alive
But I still try.
Try.
I try to be happy
Is that all I am to you?
I’m just another drunk girl at Life’s party.
Drunk on alcohol? No.
Drunk on the hurting.
It’s so reoccurring and my vision is blurring,
Decisions crinkling…
You're in my dreams again and I don't know how you got there.
You've been gone for two years, yet I still miss your smile.
Tell me how I can get you out of my hair.
I'd do anything to stop being so sad over you.
I feel numb inside…empty & lost.
I find myself trying to rekindle my soul, while keeping my eyes open for the lost pieces of myself; they were sold, but at what cost?
You told me you love me
I knew it was a lie
But down inside I believed it
And stupid me
Misuderstood this for inspiration
Knowing that this fantasy was going to end soon
I wanna feel love
I wanna know it
Who would ever think that this girl will be the one to show it
Smart girl
Good grades
But he says
I'm just to naive to see it
I tell your crazy
You leave me feeling empty,
Yet I don’t know I was full before
There was a time I was sure of my feelings,
And now I am not so sure
I keep on second guessing & regretting
I feel this new thing
New freedom
Independence
It runs through my fingers
Like a snake
Slithering
And it feels nice
I want to hold it away
Pass it on to someone else
When we first met I was nothing but an empty landscape.
You made me laugh so deeply that I cried,
and the tears watered a lost garden in my body.
Do I have to have a destination if I decide to runaway?
Or would I end up in the perfect place for me?
We'll, see. We'll have to see. Let's wait and see.
'Cus I noticed the sun hates taking breaks,
On that day the wolfs sad song rang true
I sat by the pond broken and crying
That was the day that i lost you
The pain was so bad surely i was dying
I loved you to death but we're through
Love, where are you?
It is your special day
and you
aren't here.
Where,
Oh, where
could you have gone?
Could you be with everyone,
but me?
Isn't my heart important?
Yeah, I quit, so what?
Our team was terrible, it sucked
You could tell from the first games
That weren’t on the same page
I was hitting the ball, getting triples
You Often Dreamed Of Things You Felt Were Impossible To Come True...But One Day, It Happened. It Really Happened.
You were my legs,
What kept me moving forward.
You were my eyes,
What made me see the beauty in myself.
You were my fists,
Which protected me from uncertainty.
You were my heart,
In timeIn spaceFeeling out of placeIn fearIn mindAnswers you can't findIn heartIn soulIt's out of controlIn darknessIn light
We have a short temper
Do something either we dont like
we lose it
Yells and screams in face
Hurtful comments
Threats of leaving
Slaps and pin downs
Throwing and stomping
Holes in walls
In the beginning, it was love at first sight
My world was full of darkness, but he was my light
I loved him and he loved me, I thought I could be myself and be free
My love grows stronger with each passing day, it blooms like a backyard rose in May, my heart like the rose through the gentle rain, is watered and nourished, though the skies are grey,
I sat in dismay
Higher went the price
The room grew fuller
I started giving my life
Shiney and more pricey
It filled my eyes
My heart grew big
It dimed my sight
It rose to a point
Luna's crystal veil glows bright tonight.
It lays across the top of the ocean
as bypassers cross it, yet it doesn't rip. Alone
she stays, glowing with no one to adore her
I wanted to kiss my name off your lips,
Taking back my identity
At bat, she pitches
A yakker; a curveball
He saw it coming- expected it
But didn't know when
Strike, batter out!
Now, the hill is mine
Buried in woes,
Don’t dream, don’t dream.
Every time her eyes will bleed,
For tears cannot ever express,
The harsh thorns of this beautiful rose.
She sold her soul for the beauty in tomorrow,
Locked Up
Life in this prison ain’t really so easy for you
You on the streets going back and forth to Juvie.
So far
Far from you
Far from not knowing what to do
Far from what I know
I don't think I can grow
I can't go without you for a single day
Because wihtout you there are no words ro say
I’m tired of being your entertainment.
How long will I go on without any payment?
I’m sick of being convinced to stay
I have memorized all the break up songs
Cried a thousand times
Remembered your beautiful eyes and face
But…
The memory of what’s behind it
Breaks me up every time
I want to say I love you
Fearless is the absence of the fear
Fearing less is a message held dear
Bravery or neccessity, the motive unclear
Tongueless or eyeless, his silence impure
A road less tread, a story unread
The world made sense when I layed in your arms,
I felt safe there was no need for alarm,
You were my hero you said that you loved me,
and stupid dumb me, I actually believed!
Now I know what love is, and no its not bliss,
nor the feelin you get the first time you are kissed,
Love is Pain.
Storm raging insde you like a hurricane
and all you see is their face feeling your heart race,
DreamsOf regret and painRattle around in my head--Abandoned thoughts,And untouched memoriesooze from my sleep,And into my ear--Spilling onto my pillowand leaving a stain
i had to realize
that it could never be.
he was too old
i was too young
and we were both too shy.
maybe it was a facade
a front
maybe it was all just ludicrous.
To this place I let my memories cleave-
Long ago, a time on water’s horizon,
A moment ethereal I never want to leave.
On a large, cool stump, love was received,
Drawn from my heart for you were my siren.
My eyes say it all
They tether and beckon,
Billow, shake, disrupt and push
My eyes are more eloqent than their empty novella
Chuan de, river blossom's day, Tian, Hua
Fu rong chu shui, like day rissen from night, hei ye
ni, and i, stand over rui, see those flowers hua cao?
Wo kan, say i, why ta bu shuo? dark, night ta shi...
Don't get to close you might windup attached to something you don't fully understand.
Trying to be in a relationship with him is like trying to smoke a pack of cigarettes. He's addicting and his smell intrigues me. The first time with him isn't so great, but something about him makes you want to go back.
Your eyes are bright
So full of life
Your touch is warm
Like a radiant beam of light
I dream of you often
Of holding you tight in my arms
When I'm around you I'm speechless
Soft words, sweet
Soft hands, warm
Leaves me giddy, breathless
Innocent and never knowing
loving, falling hard...
and you
ever knowing, sweet nothing
to you
I am nothing
As light approaches the lenses
And the camera frames my face
The flash alerts my eyes
My features begin to erase
I stare at nothing
But the fallacies of a picture
You were a cigarette break that felt like a for
I count minutes, hours, days, weeks, months, ye
you were my summer boiling my blood, drying my skin.
I wasn't prepared for your end but it came without warning
quick
sudden
completely out of no where
like a car crash in the middle of the highway
He loves, I love.
He smiles, I smile.
He’s happy, I’m happy.
He change, I’m confused.
He, I, and many memories.
He loves, I’m sad.
He smiles, I cry.
He’s determined, I’m disappointed.
The throbbing of my heart tells me that I’m excited
for the prospect of a new friend
or could he be
more?
There are no butterflies
There are sly smiles and pregnant pauses
I am bound to you.
Every moment spend together,
Makes my love even better.
The littlest things you do,
Proves to me that our love is truly true.
My eyes no longer get wetter,
i.Your kisses taste like silver and lead,your words bullets left in the barrelas my hands trace over the triggerand tempt you to release them.
How was it so easy to change on me
We use to be so deeply in love
That when you were sad,
I cried
When I was hot ,
You Sweated
When i thought,
You reacted
If you had an enemy
He asked her can he come through!!
I seen the comment as i scrolled up my screen
It left me emotionally broken I could hear my heart Scream.
I know i wasn't perfect
But at times I tried,
They say pain is temporary
Forgive me for thinking its scary
Maybe it's a fantasy, no fairy
I want comfort on the contrary.
Pain is a inhibitor,
because it inhibits us.
You could call it bondage,
If i had a penny for every time you said "I love you"
I would be banking with at least a million and two.
But if I had one for every time you meant it
I wouldn't even have a single cent.
Mood:BlankMy mind is a blank canvasI want to paint my mind with colors of youEach stroke being a different reason to love everything that is youMood:Indigo
Vivid Loving
If one day, our laughter disappearsWould you settle for silence? If I no longer smiled and shed only tearsWould you let go and not give me guidance?
A smile hinted at her lips
She watched her beloved from afar
He was in her thoughts, never ceasing
Should she dare be bold?
Should she let her secrets run free?
Yes, courage sweeps her away.
Me and You
I was your love and you were my babe
Sounds cliche and cheesy but why not hun
Just a couple of kids who secretely liked the other for years
But this was not known until recent
His eyes glowed as bright as the North Star in the summer night
I wanted nothing more, but just his name;
I love you.
I love you.
"I like you so much"
I said.
My heart was still pounding
At the prospect of saying what I really meant.
He knew what I really meant.
My lost little boy cold and alone I couldn't know you I couldn't hold you
Nothing could ever repair the damage
Nothing could ever mend a heart so broken
My lost little boy now grown up and full of hate
I cannot decide if I am in love with you or the moment
But now I am following the rise of your chest and it reminds me
Of the way a sea breeze will gently fly across your face,
He'll beat you with secrets
He'll be drunk off lies
You'd be a fool to fall into his trap
I know I cannot control you
Your life is yours to live
Experiment with your set of boys in
As time goes on, the more I wonder how much it was true
Did you love me as much as I still love you?
Does your heart ache while you lie awake in the dark
Thinking of my hand wrapped gently around your arm
She is a songbird
Outside my window.
She polishes my spring mornings
With her soft serenades.
When the cold slips back in,
Her and her songs fly far away.
I want to know if he kisses her the way he kissed me.
If he sighs at the touch of her lips.
If he moans with the sway of her hips.
The problem is,
I know he does.
My heart is bursting
with fire I suppose;
The feeling is always mutual
But I will propose;
That my emotions are changing for the better
My heart is clearly broken
his blue eyes were full of lies
the way he held me was the way he had held many before me
the word he said dripped with venom
he was the snake himself
I walked right into his clutching trap
Do you feel that?
That feeling of pure satisfaction and highness?
Oh, how I love that feeling.
The feeling of the liquid being push into my viens,
I’ll never know the difference between fire and ice,
They both strike a nerve under indifference,
Burying deep under the folding of membranes too hard to predict.
Love won't you come back, and be my best friend, won't you please give me your heart and soul once again, won't you whisper your sweet song and stand by my side, won't you be my fair maiden, my queen and my bride, won't you give me your hand as w
People ask me why I don't date in the same way they'd ask a sick man what's wrong with him.
Universal infinite, as strung upon the stars
Collapsing voids, swirling masses of rock and gas, slowly losing solid grasp
Drifting into worlds where the unknown dominates a presence of oxygen
Tati who has wings like a blanket
and asks who loves him
who is wind and a rock and a shoulder
who is a trailblazer and an alarm clock
whose hair is like the breath of a kite,
What is money without those you love
Everyone wants grip allow me to be the glove
You wonder why the stars get coked up
While there are people struggling to get coated up
Her morning turned worse
And inside every detail would seem to radiate change
Like oiled chrome paint with unexpected comfort
The driver glimpsed ahead,
Steering down, the expanding ride,
Baby, I've been thinking about us lately, The way I smile when I'm in your arms, How you make me feel safe and at home, I just wanted to let you know, I love you, and I don't want to live without you, so lets forget about tomorrow, Lets forget abo
What do I need ?
I need you to say you love me too
And i need my restless infatuation to mean something
Girl let me tell you that i've been on the road though
Singing songs of how I miss you
A boat load
We are a messed up generation
We hurt the ones that love us the most
and love the people that couldn't give two shits about us
Time has warped my view as to what the word "love" really means
Some of us confuse it
Oh pandemonium that cast such a silence
What tranquility you graced me with,
In the nights light of quaint eternity that our Souls touched
Thoughts of utterance quaked the heart
Do you remember the first time we met
You showed me Love that I'll never forget
As time went by me and you got real close
Why does life taunt us?
Pining a little purple butterfly,
To the ground.
Why don't you fight? I ask him.
'Because I can't.' he replies.
Well, why not? I ask.
'Because they don't want me too.'
I have been told
"Where there is a will, there is a way"
When I grow old
I want to see Christ walk my way
I have been blessed with many gifts
Somehow I want to use them
If it were to happen that I fall in love with you
know that I'll love you with passion and disgust.
You hurt me more than I hurt myself darling.
Throughout my years,
I've been broken down
and I've been built up.
I've loved
and I've lost.
I've changed others
and I have changed.
I've drank
and I've smoked.
I've cried
pain fills my chest
as I remember when you layed on my breasts
It kills me to walk this way,
the way we went when you were bae.
For 3 years I called you mine.
I'm not scared of relationships,
I want a relationship.
I want to hold someone's hand while they drive down an open road.
I want to kiss their forehead when they feel sick.
its hard letting go of something you've been struggling to hold onto.
especially when its hurt you more than it has helped you.
but it'll hit you one day when you're holding someone else's hand while they're driving,
when he spotted the abandoned clothesline he knew it would be
a safe place to hang his drenched fabrics to dry
(safety was always his priority; practical thinkers are
Looking through my perilous soul
I see nothing but a toll
Is this me I see in this photo
Or just a way to fit in with a motto
Nothing ever seems the same
With filters getting all the fame
Well I just wanted you to know that I was here
I am here
I am here like that tooth brush you grab every morning
Or when you close your eyes and darkness meets you instantly
I am here.
I see how it is
The way my voice drops to the floor
like invisible mist
nothing but a hiss
to be explained with silence
I see how it is
forever, its a strong word that keeps us all attracted,
from love that we fall from to love that we practice,
you meet that one person who can make your wrong, right,
I am a pile of leaves waiting to be affected by the winds of time;
Scared of what the future holds.
I lay here calm and collected, my emotions trapped inside;
Bursting at the seems, my sanity is wavering.
You told me once
That your name means
"To intoxicate"
First love can be very heady
I was just a stumbling alcoholic in your wake
As I look at them, a prequel unfolds
In this aura colorblindness persists
But look closer and the lines seem to bold
The two identical souls coexist
As time goes on, the story does begin
Even though some may think, "how could this be a happy thing?" I think it's something, that happened for the better of me. Three and a half years of hurting me, but I can't BELIEVE I played along, and let him make a fool of me.
Want to hold your hand,
It's right there for me to grab,
I feel close to you,
I'd hate to see you go, don't.
If my words were to not have a filter on them then I would say what's truly on my mind. I would speak words that come from my soul. I would let people know how I feel, I would let them know the words I should have said that are now too late to
Me without a filter.Sad and cold as winterHappy seems so UnfamiliarThink my heart has died and witheredLast time I smiled, i was with her.And now she’s goneLeft me all aloneWhat did I do wrong?
I can walk down the street at night
I can defend myself in a fight
I could be David against Goliath
I could lead a human's rights riot
I can seem careless
and a be a bit fearless
this is a poem
poemmy poem if you will
it is a poem about poem
aw yeah poem
salamanders have
very high
iqs
and so do i
because I are be in ap class
Do you know that moment
Where your life seems
To be spent
On stupid stuff like dreams?
Lies and betrayal all about
The earth as it spins
Its enough to make you shout
Because you can't win
Strangers that had a past.
Enemies that had a bond.
Two seperateminds, two seperate hearts.
Trying
Failing
Hurting
The force grows stronger
But it never touches.
Civil War of the heart.
I was fifteen before I realized that no one could ever love me as much as I loved me
And a revelation of poetic, creative, fertile ideas were released inside of me
As
I lie wide awake,
I pray to The Lord,
"Please, for my sake,
if the one I love does not love me back,
may your light shine on me before I attack;
myself."
And once again
I'm given the chance
To live my weekend
To that dance.
We all know
How last time went,
My reputation
Is a little bent.
So easy to go
With DJ,
I wish I had
To strive and hold is what matters most
The love we have sometimes hard to control
We can fight and argue all day long
But in the end we know whom we belong
“The family and friends of mine,
I dont love, I dont love...
Friends of mine don't show up all the time,
Still have me in their mind,
Borrow my pain, reimburse cheers,
Tears don't mean sad or pain,
Isn't even flow from wounded heart...
Tears are way to express joy and sad...
Emotion charged when fervently warmed...
In Very sad or Ecstatic joy,
Life isn't what I thought, It's full of mystery...
Too fast and short, too bad too good,
Different people different manners,
Too hot too cold, too lively too dull,
My love has gone away, unfortunately, he swayed.
I know your smart, therefore I need your heart.
I love you
Not only for what you are,
But for what I am,
When I'm with you.
I love you,
Not for what you made of yourself,
But for what...
You are making of me.
Laying in bed
Wanting to be with my boo
Wishing I were dead
Because I cant live without you
My world was full of light,
Until you left, now its dark as night.
You had my heart,
Then you tore it apart.
The biting my nails to the nub while simultaneously fidgeting with the buttons off my cardigan because I can't get enough.
Her heart aches so much that she doesn’t know how she’s going to make it through the night
Without hearing his voice, feeling his touch, without him by her side
Family…
The definition of it: is a group of persons who came from the same ancestor
Sadly though no one wants a family anymore
From the generation that has now been born
Painful shots, routine meds
Breath stopping moments, heart wrenching seconds
We were there, in that moment of time when we were together
love is nothing to pease
war is death to us all
between god an angels the war is small
to us love is all
peace inposible
war always untll we are dmned
etween devils and god we're left for dust
Break away from everything.
Are you aware of whom you are?
Remember when you were little and you knew
Exactly what you wanted in life?
Hairy Armpits
“Just wax, or shave, or pluck that hair.”
Don’t you see I really don’t care?
“Oh my god that’s so gross, ew!”
They don’t bother me, why does it bother you?
Your eyes they doth sparkle.
Your face it doth shine.
and if twas my choice,
I would make you all mine.
but fate whisked you away,
so you could not stay.
but if you could now,
They make the light so something funny, to put that sparkle in his eyes.
they even make your lunch act weird, but you'll call it butterflies.
They make you fall for the cheesiest pick-up lines.
I sat with my hands trembling
The bell rang as I sprung up from my seat a smile so wide that it made my heart leap
He stood there so perfect, that smile! oh my.
i never really understood what people meant when they said they've loved and they've lost until I realized I loved you so damn much that I lost my
It's 12 am and I'm starting to realize that I literally want no one else but you and I only want to touch and draw on your skin and I only want your hands on me and I only want to comb my fingers through your hair and I only want your lips to e
Thinking, wishing, pondering, pensiveChoosing wrongWishing to knowThe contents of my heartAnd that in yoursWill you complete my soul?If I leave now will you still be thereHow do I decide?
Being with you was full of ups and downs,
The smiles, the laughs, the hugs, kisses were great
To feel, but when I think of how it sounds,
The moral of this story’s, NEVER DATE.
Everyone isn't perfect,
But there is someone perfect for You.
You will find your one,
Just learn to be patient too.
When I first laid eyes on your goregous caramel skin, round brown eyes, and cheeky smile
I nearly fainted
And so did my parents
I could not keep this love a secret
I would not have it
She always loved where the lilies grew
She loved their enchanting fragrance.
The field was like being in the clouds of the sky so blue
The field was where she would happily dance.
"Fireworks" you murmured
That summer afternoon
Wrapped in your arms on the couch
A kiss that ended so soon
It was my first with you
Beforehand didn't matter
There’s this thing called ghost lines
Pieces of poems never to be completed
Floating for a purpose inside your soul
Ghost lines,
Rocky spine, left in the night
fragile skin that reflects the light.
Rocky spine, growing strong
marks that show what went wrong.
Rocky spine, with a smile so bright
eyes that sparkle in the night.
Do you think she knows?
The way she moves,
Giggling-groveling-grooving
She cares too much of who approves.
Do you think she knows?
How she makes the world turn,
Living-loving-leaping,
One day you were there
By my side
Hand in hand
Than one day you left
No words were spoken
you
Were
Gone
Waiting for you
Hoping someday
You'll return.
When hearts are breaking and feelings are getting removed, what else is left to do but put the pedal to the medal and say no love no love. Why else would I stay or why else would you leave?
I don't like that there's no mail on Sunday's.
Every day you go to your mailbox
Finding magazines and letters and everything in between.
The expectations are set,
before we even come into the world.
-
We see things as a threat,
before we know what flag they hold.
-
We refuse to accept everyone,
before we get to know them.
You wear a mask like me.
We can both see it,
But neither of us have the courage to say it.
You always go above and beyond for me:
You sacrificed your time
To relieve my pain
A dark night
A house at the end of the road
Shades pulled and door closed
What lies inside the lonely home?
A poor boy all alone
When the sun resurrects
The boy too must show life
I think you and me could make it
But I'm not sure if our hearts can take it
So i'm in the studio writing my feelings down
Trying not to drown
In my emotions
Cupid's never been mistaken
Until now
Our love is forsaken
Think we should take our final bows
These curtains won't be drawn again
I’m not who you think me to be;
I’m not a sweet innocent girl,
waiting or searching for love.
I’m not a delicate little flower,
waiting to bloom.
The pounding in my head won’t go away
The rush, the high, flying
None of it will go away
The rush, the rush, it’s supposed to end
The night over, the day breaking
--but fuck that why end it early?
Cresting over bed sheets are eyes asBright as the morning sun, blinding with colors; promise,Hushing a giggle from my lips with his tender kiss,He is the dawning of darkness,Though sunlight drips from his kind smile,
Ah, love, you hurt me so,
With your sweet thoughtless words.
They hold so much meaning,
or so I hope,
That blossom honey springs from your mouth
As if from a fountain, a stone Cupid's bubbling lips.
fluttering, flying,
the way it's supposed to be -- feeling alive,
falling...
how you make my stomach jump
I met you a year ago, never thought id feel this way
I look into your eyes, I see love and my heart wants to celebrate
Her heart beats quickly, and it beats red wine.
His breathing slows, and he inhales her scent.
She drinks him in with her midnight eyes.
He hears her sigh from his gentle kiss.
When we first locked eyes that summer afternoon,
You left me, in the most innocent sense, breathless.
I knew that I would fall in love with you
And I thought it was worth the risk.
Hello, Do you here me calling!
Every time I say your name, it never gets through
It's like I'm a ghost, living alone
Have no way to turn, nowhere to go
Just like in a maze, no rhythmic flow
If she showed me nothing else
Then I guess she was
If she gave it all to me
I guess she was
If it was undeniable
I guess she was
If she was...
What was I
Oh, falling’s just a one-way flight,
My boarding pass: the smile you gave.
And you would try to catch me, right?
My feet hang from this windy height.
To fall in love, one must be brave.
I'm no Barbie.But I Thought I Should be.Compared myselfTo girls of the Barbie standard.Hurt myselfThinking all about'perfection'.
Silly boy, oh silly boy
watch me while I get used like a toy
abused by his words and fade through his actions
how in the hell could this shit have happened ?
You knew I loved you more than anything in this world
If I could, I would give you the world and much more
but instead you couldn't appreciate what you had and
now my heart is so cold and bitter.
This is a mistake
that I have foolishly made.
Pain, I cannot fake,
even try to hide.
This pain I feel twisting and
burning deep inside.
When I'm next to you
I can breathe..
again.
..Though I cant really remember ever breathing..
without you
by my side.
I cant hide..
from you.
...
i thought you were my heart
i thought you were the one
whom i can trust
whom i can love
whom i can share my secrets, my desires, my dreams, my life, & the love i had for you
This thin comforter doesn’t hold me right
It could never come close to comparing to your arms
But given the circumstances
I guess it will have to do
Its odd that the feelings are still there
even after you left
one word reminds me of you and it is like the millions of memories flash through me mind
the pain is unbearable
Thank you for trying to save me.
Thank you for trying to make me love myself,
but as you can clearly see,
I am beyond saving.
I have lived my entire life feeling worthless.
Sitting here alone with you
makes me wish I was yours forever.
Wishing you felt that way too,
Waking up everyday like
man what a dream,
Another image of you
seperated by worlds
It all happened in the blink
of a eye, I fell for you
and everything just seemed right
Waking up every day
like man what a dream,
Another image of you
seperated between worlds.
It all happened in the blink
of an eye, I fell or you
and everything just seemed right.
Someday I will say to youIt was only just a dreamYou told me you will be with mebut it was just a lieSadness in my face-that makes me want to cryI just pretend I don't want you
can you not see that
there is no happy
ending for people like
us
this only ends when
one of us is dead
and the other decides
to move on or
grieve eternally
please dont ask me to
write about our love
or about us at all
because i can only
write poetry
on the things that kill me
and if you want a
poem from me
You didn't tell me you
loved me
in so many words
but in the way you
looked at me
and held me
you didn't tell me
goodbye
in so many words
Fragile as the flight of a butterfly,Is this love that lives in constant fear.Ready to fight for its desires
I still catch myself,
from time to time,
wanting to call you,
or contact you in some way,
and tell you all about my year,
or even something as simple as the weather,
Are we just a flower beginig to blom in the warm spring weather ?
Or a leafe changeing its color from green to red?
we are the butteflies in our belly and the glint in my eyes.
I want you to know me,
But the part of me I want to show
Isn’t what everyone else can see.
I can’t be quantified by what I do
Or who I spend my time with.
You can’t analyze me
Flaws and all She was born like this not very tall with curves he likes to kiss the chubby cheeks on her face a smile that lights up the place in her heart is very pure and soft voice that's hard to hear if you're not listening to the words she s
i speak for those who have lost their courage to speak
for those whos words run to the tip of their tounges just to retreat back to the back of the throats back to where they came from
man my minds a train wreck so explosive but nobody knows what's going on cuz I show no emotion. I don't feel the need to tell people my problems.simply because my problems are my problems.
One left, my heart died
As it broke my trust on love
One came, my heart lived
My heart learned to love again
Gently piled my trust once more
The heart can be taught,
My heart was once your home.
Lucky for the girl who have your heart now
Lucky, for she finally captured what was once mine.
Be happy, I know you already are.
I want to be happy for you
Writing you this poem reflects my lovemakes you doubt, it’s hard to concealAccused to things that’s hard to dealso please erase the doubts above. Trust is like freeing a dove
When love and hate collide,mixed emotions I couldn’t help but cryConfuses the soul I couldn’t hideAs I faced you that I already bid goodbye
My hand
Reaches out
To try and
Destroy the darkness
And the distance between us
You are so close
Yet
You are so far
away
Please
Don't go
Away
She was beautiful
She was wrapped in a blanket of beauty with a dazzle of sparkle
The sparkle you could see in her eyes when her crush walked by
I won’t always be your one and onlyThis love was always meant to expireI know this may come off a bit coldlyBut I know that someday we will tire
In case you didn't know it
I don't show it
I have a mask of my own
It doesn't cover up my face
or my race
but something of much more importance
Behind this mask is a person
This dude I met a few weeks ago
mentioned to me the 3 year mark.
Not sure what the fuck he meant by that
He seemed daunted
But the certainty of his tone got to me
"You know....The 3 year mark?"
A dream is wasted,
a hope is a flying dream,
a lie gives false hope,
a bitter love has hurt lies,
a life still goes on.
I like you
but I don’t want you in my head.
Im not used to being controlled,
Im used to being in control.
Hair bright as a summers day
Eyes the color of the ocean
You can see the happiness slip away
hes trapped by an immature devotion.
His soul as warm as a fires flame
has gone cold as ice
I grew and noticed I had no pair
Sent by God to provide care
All ma burdens no one help bare
Of the many Love none was shared.
I feel you running. I feel you hiding.
I feel the love is vanishing away.
Oh why so long in love and hurting.
Oh why just you don't want us stay.
How will I handle you away?
Cold water to the face like an electric shock.
You dropped everything you were doing and your mouth is all locked.
'Cause you didn't want to talk. And they can't make you.
The guard is up
No one can get in
No one can see what I feel
I don't want to see your face with pity clear upon it.
I built this guard many years ago
When you shattered my heart
d the ability to get a glance at the figure of the physique under the black veil I've cast upon myself, I applaud.
All eyes on us as we dancedI'm sweating like a sinner in church and I cantMeet your eyesAnd everyone knew what I was going to tell youThey expected smiles and at the end I'd hug you
Realization dawns like a new eraYou had your chance and you blew itNow you get to regret itAnd I assure you, you will miss thisThings are changing, time moves forward
I remember thinking,
that your blue
deep dark blue eyes
... Could solve anything
Cure
anything
and that your smile...
your pearly white smile
could fix my sadness,
Crawling into bed
Your heart beats against his
Interlocked in an embrace
Two bodies connected, forming one
Puzzle pieces fitting together
Moving in harmony
Paddling to shore
X marks the spot
my heart was stolen when i was weak
im still rising up onto my feet
i was hurt but i grew stronger
won't tolerate this any longer
you drugged me with misconceptions
what exactly were your intentions?
Remind me why we can’t try this again.Now that we know what’s at stake,we won’t make the same mistakesand if we do, we’re done for good, the end.But at least we’ll know what could have been
She completely tore him apart.Molecule by molecule he started to evaporate,only there was no cycle of reincarnation this time.
She doesn’t love me the way I love her.She baited me like a fish on a lure,and I fell for every line.Now I’m stranded here by the wayside.
The moment I met you,
My soul knew to stay away from you,
For it knew you'd be the death of me.
Of course, my heart felt what it did
And I suffered the tragic consequence.
A crazy haze,
Stuck- reflecting back on the bad days,
You give me this starry gaze,
But not even you can pull back the shades,
Transparency is a must,
To gain trust,
Which is robust,
I give you this lonely flower
Which contains all i can give
I'm sorry I didn't have the power
To give you a better chance to live
But in this world that's dying
Hope for a better tomorrow is rare
I am a lonely face
searching a heart to rest in
Yearn for a warm embrace
Soft and gentle skin
To protect and nurture
Help that being grow
I will search for her
Till the day I know
You stole my heart,
You stole my mind.
I thought you were different,
Possibly a great find.
This may be true,
Even to this day.
You still hold my heart,
In a painfully beautiful way.
Four years.
Four years and you're letting go,
not me.
I desired to keep you.
Like the folded up piece of paper that you placed in an envelope and sealed with your
wax kisses.
I let you carve your name into my skin with a knife as sharp as your words
But with those same lips you kissed scars onto my flesh
Whispering that it was love
I wanted to believe you
I'll write your name on all of my cigarettes so that more than your words can kill me
Because it's always those closest to us whose words mean the most
So lover I'll keep you in my back pocket in a cardboard carton
When I think of you
sometimes my stomach flips.
Not alwyas in that "good way"
well,
Most of the time is alwyas the good way.
but
I shouldn't feel like this.
How could you love me
But give me that script
Played that role like "you the only girl"
Gave you everything I could
Including my 1st time under the sheets
You never thought you'll get ccaught up
There's regret and remorse then trying to forget and move foward, but all of this time I'm thinking...
Why don't you go and call me baby.
My lips are pink as valentines, I know.
Honey, it might be a bit of a shock
He'll make you bleed but-
Foreplay helps calm any nerves a LOT-
!
you are like the ocean
I stand on the beach and your tide rushes up to me
your foam softly brushes my toes
it feels nice to be with you
so I wade in further
your slow rolling waves rise against my legs
I got sent here to learn about
The world and how it messes people up
And how people keep going no matter
What,
how they never give up but at the end of the day.
I stare at you for hours
Died By Love: Broken Heart
He fought through and through
Whether it was the war or the hard struggle of love
He first saw her from across the room
and he knew in that moment he would be her groom
with butterflies in his stomach he drew near
but had no clue she too felt an exciting yet nervous fear
In my time of need
would you?
When it's time to grieve
would you?
When I need a shoulder to lean on
would you?
If i said I love you
would you?
If i weren't brave enough
could you?
I remembered why I hate the fall-
late fall, when it starts getting
just cold enough that you tell your mom
to turn the heat on.
I remembered why I get all
choked up when I get too cold-
I know I’m unwanted,
Yet I still try
To find the one
Whom would die
For me and make me feel
The print has faded
From the movie ticket of our first date,
Just as our love has done.
I still think about you
got to see you
so i can feel you
touch you in every way
i've been wanting to
fulfill those dreams i've been having
times 2
giving you them warm
lovely kisses
down your neck
chest
smile on my face
as i look deep within your
eyes
giving me a window to
see what's in your mind
and all i got is time
for you baby
and it's just love
well shit i don't want to lie so
That life alrtering
heart shattering
body shaking
head aching
words spurring
hatred
your whole world's crumbling down
and you just can't take it
that love that you thought
It…was the first time…that I’d ever felt extramarital sex was a sin
Was the first time I’d tasted the bitterness of this forbidden fruit I’d always found sweet
Your hands which I’d always thought were warm chilled me to the bone
Eventually it gets old
You get tired of arguing just to have a conversation
Your throat is still sore from yelling at the top of your lungs just to make sure your voice is heard
For I would take your hand in a heartbeat,
And run with you through eternity
Amongst the fields of flowing time
Beautifully illuminated amidst our minds
Of the anger I felt,
The pain deep inside,
The hopes that you dashed,
The need to hide,
The time I gave,
The life we made,
The kisses we shared,
The games we played,
The tender embraces,
Words whispered in the breeze
Linger even after she can't hear.
The trees ramble on
Shivering and leaning
Love's impression vanishes.
The dejected dreams
Long to be real,
To have been felt.
I met a guy
Thought he was right for me
But then I turn around
And guess what I see,
That he's a player
And that's not what I need
Yet why can't I leave him be?
You.
Me.
Them.
Us.
All different people.
You and me not so much.
We have a love deeper than the oceans and wider than the sky.
The times we had were like shooting stars, passing by.
First impression
Seems to be the best
But why do I find it
So hard to rest
Late night thoughts
On my mind
Its those same thoughts
That take all the time
Is time running out
There are always love that define the beauty of a person. Beauty is not just a person looks it's the way a person personality is.
The rays of heat from the sun on your skin
The thumping of your heart
The weight of his gaze on your skin
Light breaths blowing your bangs
The tickle of eye lashes on your cheak
Bright shadows
and the paradox
of missing a man
who has given
no time
to be missed--Realities and
symptoms of
the many
afflicted with
warmth in their
nature and
I honestly don't know
Know What?
I don't know if people learn from dying
But if you die, then you can't think; you're brain dead
That's common wisdom
Of course! Your brain has rotted
I sit here
In a once comforting place
Now haunted by vivid memories
They circle around me
Like vicious banshees
Screaming mistakes and regrets
Well there's a way to ruin a day
that looked as though would go my way.
A simple idea to visit a friend,
that surely turned out to be our end.
Whether it jealousy or whether it spite,
Love is just some four letter word,
That people use to show how they feel
How can you feel something,
when you don't know love is real?
What is love?
We don't know
The smiles don't stay,
they turn into tears.
Happiness goes away
and I think of the first few years.
Even though they're not for long
the laughs feel so worth it.
Without him it'd feel wrong,
A candle burns flickers of light into my dark room
I am shattered
Keyboard clicks and the tones of a Les Mis song
I am heartbroken
I smell the cool autumn air and dread going to school today
I am scared
Pills, pills, pills.They numb the pain and make me forget you.I take all the pills,searching for one that makes me feelas good as you made me feel.
That first week I sat behind you,
Staring at your butt-crack.
You squished the scriblings on your desk,
Overtime I've come to realize they couldn't be more wrong;
Because in hating you I was weaker but in loving you I was strong.
They said that angels and demons were destined to fly apart,
1
Roses are red
Violets are blue
your curtins are opend
and im watching you
2
Twinkle Twinkle little star
i want to hit you with my car
How many times have I fallen,
Only to fall apon the floor.
How many times have I given my heart,
Only to have someone slam the door.
My heart now covered in scars,
Has grown tougher then is has ever been.
Theres nothing better than seeing your smile on an early morning
Amoungst the chill weather I feel something else
Your warm body warped around mine
And its one of the best feelings in the world.
His kisses are the stains of black and blue that decorate my pale skin, like proclamations of affection shouted into the void, they forever float, a reminder of our romance a reminder that
He loves me
Your back
was my view
when people saw me
it was you.
I could sit here and
blame you
for hiding me,
but I’d be kidding myself.
I loved the association.
I felt like I needed
I guess I didn't know how to love
myself.
The things you said you saw...
I always did think you were delusional.
For I am not beautiful,
I am not worthy of
Want.
You were a blessing
Then became a curse.
Where did I go wrong?
Your arms that once brought warmth
Now burn with every touch.
You built me up
Then tore me down
Us sailing in the ocean
Immense pain and depression
Most unbearable and intolerable,
That thoughts of it just kill even more!
Eyes filled with salty tears of sorrow
And pain that clings onto the soul
Stop playing games
Don’t continue to wait
Stop denying it
Say you love me.
Stop using words
Stop writing cards
This is really not that hard
Show me, you love me.
A look;A precious truth that I cannot hold nor touchtet can feel the softnessbrush against my faceas your cold eyes pass over mine
I am twisted
I am new and different
yet, blind to the new body that is my mind and soul
I am fear
I feel fear
I can't think anymore
I don't trust myself to think
We should't be together
We shouldn't have our say
There is no us, there is no we
We've faded like your torn blue jeans
I've forgotten your face
Somewhere in time and space we
Love is a four letter word
& I've been worked into a novel.
There are whole libraries
of letters and bracelets and promise rings
broken in two
(1.Everything you've touched
When she reads, it's something magical,
because for a moment,
shes there but not entirely,
her heart stays with me...
but she leaves...
And whilst you were sleeping,
I sang by your ear,
while
our hearts beat as one,
And I watched over you,
As your head rested upon my arm.
And at last,
We lay together, in the dark,
Looking into each others eyes,
and then I knew,
I just loved you so, so much...
With the winter winds as a guide,
I want your breath to swirl in my chest-
I need your nicotine.
Can't you hear my ribs chiming
like chapel bells
Each time your words form smoke rings
I trace the lines of your cheeks,
Your skin is rough.
It's worn from the bad weather outside and to me that's just fine.
I'll love no one else as much as you,
What a staement to make,
Pecking at the rooftops,
Rain comes down, rain comes down.
Slipping through soft spots,
Take me down, take me down.
He sees my weakness,
dancing across the stars that are the sparkle in my eye,
i cannot find
those words
i wrote
how can i
when i wrote them
long ago
weeks
years
months
seconds
lifetimes
how can we
find anything
in this world
Love me just one time
no more motions and heart crimes
no more potions and dinner dimes
It takes more energy to tie my shoe
Than it takes to type or say
Yet, its mere utterance can draw to end
Be it life or be it day.
It takes less energy to type—to text
i never thought id be that girl who falls for bad boys
but when i saw him
my stomach churned from the anticipation of his
enticing smirking mouth
and deceiving blue eyes.
when i spoke to him,
You question the expanse of my love because you cannot see its depths, but do you question the deepness of the ocean though humanity has yet to unearth its deepest point?
It started in the cool winter night
Under the moon and stars
Surrounded by light.
Time stopped as the world spun
the center of the universe
where the two became one.
My love
You have come
Without words
Tongue less in the night
You see me but I cant
I've been bestowed a couple of times
but never by a goddess
Your crippled hands stretch
Sweet Supple Innocence
The press of sinewy hips
Our flesh entangled before the gaze of silver plated St. Peter, the protector
I merged into you, no longer me simply an extension of you
You became my puppeteer
TO MY MOTHER, MY FRIEND SO DEAR
THOUGHOUT MY ENTIRE LIFE, YOU'RE ALWAYS NEAR
YOU LOVE ME WITHOUT REASON, YOU SHOW ME YOU CARE
A SHOULDER TO CRY AND SECRETS TO SHARE
WARM HEART AND HANDS THAT REALLY CARE
I don’t know you anymore.
Yes, I know your name.
But I don’t know you.
I know who you use to be.
We talked about everything under the sun back then.
Post-Eruption
If wanting you makes me clingy,
Guess I’m just the monkey on your back always waiting to attack
Can’t relax
Can’t mellow emotion
Insane what you'll do to call me yours.
Your soul is shrinking,
your mind isnt thinking.
This love shit ain't easy,
it fades.
It's a craze.
That could last years or just days.
Relationships started as a crush
A friend, a stranger, maybe even love at first sight.
Why do I hide who I am?
Do I hide out of fear?
Do I hide because I’m ashamed?
Crystalize the memory & synchronize your chemical scheme, as the city underground travels through the blood stream
..of the young, the rich the old and poor..and the faces of the familiar across the crooked corridoors.
There once was a rose
Attactive and sweet
She reached to pluck the fragrant bud
Only to be pricked with it's thorns
Hiding
Making everyone think you are just fine
Is perhaps my greatest talent.
It is not my acting
Not my ability to learn quickly.
No.
It is never crying
Never telling them about the blackness
We sit in the stillness
like drapery over a closed window
time drags and there is only humble silence
clouds of anxiety and forewarning over our heads
fate forming a fork in our complicated road
Like a flood you came crashing through my walls.
Giving me all the hope and optimism one should feel with love. You let your waters damage my insides, leaving stains and broken pictures in it's wake.
Fall in love
More like, fell in love
Reminding myself of what a brother once was
A stand up dude, doing humble deeds for nothing in return, 'til I met my main squeeze
My first mistake was to not sieze lead
Hold my hand.
Hold my face.
It's not a test, it's not
a race.
What we have,
we haven't named.
Please don't forget
that I'm inexperienced and this
is new.
We're learning each other
There is a distance between us
That is neither too great nor too small
So why is it then, that I feel it is much too great
And certainly not small enough
Silent tears
concealed by a pathetic façade.
Soundless suffering,
weeping.
A voiceless shrill
cloaked by false smiles.
Muted agony,
raw and searing.
A torturous solitude
I feel cold; I'm suffocating.
I cried as loud as I could.
I didn't know that "outside" was bright.
Why does everyone look so glad?
Momma said there would be days like this but she didn't quite explain how it would be she didn't explain that my heart would pour out onto the concrete..
I am suffocating.
The elephant in the room is breathing all the oxygen
and my lungs have become too weak to function anymore.
The tiles of my veins are cracked upon the impact
It stands alone,
Tall and strong,
Always able to get along,
Yet so soft and sweet,
So from it you eat,
To taste the juices is a treat,
For nourishment and truth,
You steal its youth,
Existence lies creation
Of the world with extreme variations
My breath is gone away
A kiss that's long to ever stay
My delusion of my farther reach of the cosmos
Empty hearts, troubled minds.
Stagnant thoughts,waisted time.
Our generation living by
whats mine is yours, whats yours is mine
There is no love. There is no trust.
Just empty words and sinful lust.
I am bittersweet,
Bittersweet and scared.
I am unable to let go
Of all my fears.
Interested in the journey,
But very wary of the road,
I'm worried by upcoming decisions
She used to be beautiful.
The kind of beauty that
Really mattered-
A kind soul,
Self-worth found in every moment
And the courage to stand up for those who can’t defend themselves,
When you truly love someone, their heart is yours.
That one person is your other half.
You always have that spark
That can never pull you apart
through thick and thin.
People say that she's perfect.
All I can say is they're right.
I can't believe I have her,
No matter how hard I try.
Far above what I've dreamed.
Ultimately out of reach.
Don't get to close
or you will see past the mask
I wear out in the world
that hides how terrified i really am.
Sometimes I just want to be left alone
to mentally meticulously examine my flaws
I haven't been this happy in so long
Every other relationship that I have been in seemed to be so wrong
But then you came along...
Treated me like a lady
Catered to me like a queen
Let me ride off into the sunset
like a cowboy
with a bottle of jack
my guns
and the sunsetting
you want me to fight for you?
you want me to call you non-stop?
Girl you know how I feel
It was tempting, he told you he loved youBut only if his lies, you were able to see through
nuzzle love-bitten guarded girl
overlapping legs, fallen asleep together
blue glow dark room warm hidden world
strong gentle grasp, the trust of the touch on the neck
slight suffocation, enough to relax
You are my oasis.
The sky is blue, blue waters, bright sand,
you are the water that turns my desert into a beach,
you, shade of the leaves that rewrites trials into isles of paradise,
Will it be Instagrammed, 50 likes
buttons pressed to show approval
instapopularity, we can accept ourselves now
filtering out sincerity in acid blue
Will it be framed on the wall
i love you because you make me happy
i hate you because you left
i love you because you make feel secure
i hate you because you have him now
i love your smile
the way you say my name
i love you because you make me happy
i hate you because you left
i love you because you make feel secure
i hate you because you have him now
i love your smile
the way you say my name
How small it seems, now I've seen far more
Than I had ever seen before in memory
How insignificant such moments, such feelings,
After witnessing such passion
How helpless it seems,
They say first love is the strongest,
But after all I've seen
I still cannot believe young love
Is the real, genuine thing.
Couples hiding in corners
Or sitting in the park,
I pour my heart out to you
I show you every intricate detail of my feelings.
I spare not a single experience.
You see me with a tear in my eye, and you ask me
Why does she get to you so bad?
I'm a fountain of blood in the shape of a girl that hoped one day that maybe she could be loved.
You told me I was beautiful.
You taught me to talk.
You told me I was your princess,
A simple circle
Connected perfectly in unison with the beast to the front and back
A small peddle
When added pressure becomes too much
It hisses and screams
Only to ignite a flame
We see you, the ones who think your unseen,
yes you,not just the outside you,but the inside you
the one that tries to hide,
you think we don't understand or know how you feel,
I was quick to loose that respect for you only cause I realized it was respect you didn't deserve.
At one point you were on a pedastal so high, that everyone else was below you, to me.
You smelled of stale beer and musty basements,And soon that smell became the only one I knew.You drank until you couldn't remember your own name,And screamed mine until your voice resonated off the walls.
Silver ribbon Assiniboinea sash for a city--a ceinture fléchéetied into the Red just off Highway 1 You leak into the topsoil in the place you call home and come back up a street map
The ocean mirrors midnight sky,
barely brushing our toes.
I whisper words
I want to write beneath your skin,
my violent delight.
I lay by you on the moistened sand,
Fall down
down
down
into the sea of cotton.
Two ships sinking, melding,
drip by drip,
into the sea of cotton.
Musketeers and puppeteers flashing there,
You are caring,
thoughtful,
gentle and kind;
so many good attributes
come to mind.
Ticklish around the tummy
and warm around the heart.
How I've come to love you,
Time slows down as I watch the world turnI watch everyone else be happy and for that I yearnThe kind of happiness where your heart starts to burnA feeling that many still have yet to learn
She used to be the sweetest girl ever, but her life became stuck in a sour chapter.
She cries as she lies wide awake at night.
Trying to keep her mind from losing this fight.
she loves me; she loves me not.
she promised she'd stay, but then forgot.
roses are red, like cardiac death.
violets are blue, like cold nights without you.
it's never enough just to keep what she's got,
I am the forbidden fruit, he told me
If I was not forbidden, I’d be all his
I tempt him, he tempts me
We have a pattern of love and hate
Sometimes I just want to be heard,
E'en though I'm small, my voice not loud.
I tend to blend, be out of sight,
Hid to the side, out in the crowd.
But times there are when I need voice-
I hold within me, the answer to
Everything within me is a reminder of
How much do I love thee?
That word speaks volumes.
Turn up the love, turn down the
Confusion. Illusions of our supposed
We fall in love by our senses.
By the way he smell so good where you can still smell him after he has left the rom.
I'll be fine on my own
And your words break my fragile bones.
I'm done with the negativity,
You say you are docile
But you say a lot
You are a better liar
Then I have thought
But your pleas
Won't get you far
When the proof is
Forget Me Not
*controversial*
Morning sickness brings the blues,
Monthly cycle is overdue.
She was drunk that night,
Flinging morals in the wind,
Cleave to what you left,
When you took away my
breath. Leave, just go and
leave me with nothing left.
So my shattered heart can
grieve.
My heart is filled to the brim,
Amazing.
I find the things people do amazing
They have the courage to not speak up about the fact that
They themselves should be the person
To console the hurt,
Based upon their
Neutrality.
Finally been thinking about all those thoughts in your head
and those feelings that wouldn't come out?
Sometimes you can't say it out loud,
baby
you’ve got an erection while i have a urinary tract infection
this is not a deflection this is me saying maybe we don’t work
at the same time
darling
Hey Ms. Sherry
Can I top my sundae
With your cherry
I like you
Can I suckle the honeydew
Will you give me something good to chew
Can you be my bee
Let me taste the honey
Insecurity,
Driving through the rain,
Tears falling down,
Cannot hide the pain.
How do people do it?
How do they go on?
How do they still not know
That this must be wrong?
I've crossed that bridge,
I've known that path,
I've stumbled down that hill.
I've cried those tears,
I've felt that pain,
I've strugged and still will.
They told me once,
The lulling ticking matches the rustling of my chains.
As I wrap them tighter and tighter, I find comfort in its cold embrace.
Since when did sex equate to romance
Equate to love
Equate to marriage and holy matrimony?
Can’t early morning “breakfasts-in-bed”
And cuddles at 4 in the afternoon
Watching the happenings of the world
When I’m lonely in a world of my own, I often think of you. I imagine the way you hair never fell into the right place and how that was my absolute favorite thing about you.
Hard to dry my eyes when the sky is so grey. Why do I cry when you seem to be okay? I thought I was done feeling this way, but it seems to me that things will never be the same.
As the dark blanket fall over the blue skies.
I lay in my bed thinking about you.
Thinking about your tender kisses.
Black is the secret kept inside me
Cold and lifeless where none can see
Gray is the line upon which I tread
To lie or to tell? A choice I dread
White is my soul which none have touched
I have never owned the roof above my head,And that in itself is rather sobering.From birth I have been renting my right to exist in this world,
Did you enjoy?
Ripping my heart out.
Was it fun?
To give me false hopes,
To toy with my mind and emotions.
You're a liar,
You said you loved me.
Was that a lie too?
Your whole being is incredible.
I hope you know that;
Sometimes you put yourself down, but
I still think the sun shines from your ass and
We've been together for years.
It's unbelievable
You're a new person everytime I see you, so
forgiving and...
My precious innocent self,
How could you let him manipulate you in such a way?
He was no good you from the start,
but you told yourself you will not let it go to far for I know my limits.
Something to despise
A distraction
Until I saw your eyes
Fully unaware of your attack
But still not a single care
Suffocating through your intoxication
A thin foreign air
I have a rough draft all typed out
of what I’d say to you
if I ever got the courage
to tell you how I really feel.
It’s sitting there in my notes,
and I see it everyday.
It’s short and sweet
I’m human clay.
Burnished and molded,
Sculpted and folded,
Fired and dry,
Broken,
But not remolded.
Grated into dust
As fine as the sand
Worn down
but not worn out
I feel so utterly replaceable. I feel like feeling anything at all is dangerous.
Brown Eyes
They say after suffering from trama you loose memory of what lead up to it
But those Brown Eyes
I remember darkness
cold
and bright Brown Eyes
Those fall days,
That make you think,
Those bittersweet dreams,
That make you blink,
That raw emotion deep inside,
The facial expression I try to hide,
Those warm memories,
Is this really what my heart has become?
A lock that only your trembling hands hold the key to.
Everything is just way too complex,Especially when you’re always trying to walk away the best.
Everything is silent here.Baby, let me take away your fear, oflove.Love is lost, love is found.Love is short, love is far bound.
I know I can never have you. But the thought that I can at least grab you, makes me smile wide with lines that could go miles. Your past is bad, worth vials. I miss you and you miss me. In the time we spend together somewhat happily. None of
"Hello," you say, "Goodmorning. How've you been?"
All I see is heaven
Lights and glory all in one.
It's how you carry yourself,
Carry yourself away from me
I miss you.
A lot.
And right now everything inside of me
Is much like a night sky in the city:
Polluted with bright fixtures
And neon lights that drown out
Someone aked me in one word what i would i describe you as?
Many words came to mind:
Loveing, loyle, wonderfull, blessing, handsome, and quirky
I thought a bit more and mire flooded my mind
I have a poem that one day
We can stand side by side
Marching forward to the lands of the future
That we lift up spirits instead of breaking them
Home is where the heart is
My heart belongs to you
Home is where its safest
I am safest with you
Home is where love is
My greatest love is for you
Home is where its most beautiful
Stitch-1 she should have thought before she did!
Stitch-10 she should have thought before she said what she did!
Stitch-20 she should have thought before she turned them all!
Across the way you gaze at her to see that someone special
The instant feel that overcomes in you, you become so sentimental
You’re nervous and you’re twitching as you look upon her beauty
If my love for you could be written into words or defined by actions
Then the moon will fall and the sun will turn cold as that has more of a chance of happening than I do with you.
did you grow up like me?
Dreaming of the day you would meet that "special someone"
Imagining that, just like everyone said, "the songs would make sense"
Im sick of letting people get the best of my emotions. I don't belong to anyone and I never will. I'm too untamable, the ultimate challenge with straightforward notion. The truth is the only thing that truly fills.
When I meet people,
People I end up falling for,
I assume they'll be perfect for me on every level.
I assume we'll dream the same dreams,
And they'll understand all the silly things I'm scared of,
I sit
In my stuffy bedroom,
Ceiling fan buzzing,
Doing little to fan the flames in my head.
You struck a match in my brain
That has been contained over time,
But to this day,
I’m always talking about talking.
Almost every poem I write stresses the importance of using your words,
or the joys of finding your voice,
or the pain that comes with being speechless,
I have loved you faithfully though I tried to forget you.
There has never been another.
Your friendship has meant everything to me:
Today I saw a book titled:
"Why We Broke Up"
After skimmy a few paragraphs
filled with nonsense and nonfeel
I put the book down and ran.
A door swung shut and I opened
Love.
It comes in many forms.
The love a parent has for their child.
Instant.
The love a dog has for its master.
Unconditional.
The love a sibling has for another.
Growing.
The life we've had that I once knew sweet memory's that consisted of nothing but you. But you know how to destroy things, feelings I have had are being pushed to the past all because you can't pick up a phone.
To my abuser:
“You worthless piece of shit”
The words echo into my brain,
From a past I have repressed
You thought you could squander my hopes, my dreams
To the hurt, the pain,
You held me
You held me when I was strong
You held me
You looked at my face and told me how beautiful my smile was
I want to rip out my heart to get rid of the pain.
Im not ready for the next lifetime.
Just take this feeling in between my breast away.
Make the time go pass.
When you're out of my mind.
How Can You…
Hit me like it’s nothing,
Cuss at me like I’m something Bad,
and think that fucking With my head is natural?
How Can You…
Play these games with my heart
Like a board game found at K-Mart,
It wasn't rebellion.
Okay, maybe it was a little bit.
But it was more than that.
It was
His humor, his touch, his
Persuasion that bordered the edge of manipulation.
It was how I felt around him,
My friends at a party
Staying faithful and keeping in mind they have a boyfriend
Stop every now and then and txt their boyfriends
Me at a party
Having the freedom to dance with whomever
Do you have ANY idea what you have done to me?
Can’t you see?
Because of YOU
My childhood consisted of empty promises, nothing but air bubbles.
Should have saved yourself the trouble.
I promise to always give you me...the real me.
I Hope yu See that I'm Different,
& that you don't See me as a Bad Investment.
Boys will break your heart but
A man will pick up the pieces.
Before you are goneBefore this world swallows us and leaves us all for deadI feel tortured hands holding my jaw bone shut.And,
It is with an overabudance that I
flow,
into your being.
Soft smiles, an softer hands, catch up all m wonder at you and collect under that wisome chin to pool in the space betwe the smooth skn of you collaring bones.
I wish that I could sleep, I wish I couldn’t see,
All the things that we could be.
I wish that I could breathe, I wish that it was we,
But it’s you plus her, not me.
Because men would rather gain respect from men than from women
It has become apparent that the fight for better treatment in relationships is futile
I am a shirt
torn and worn out
like taking a pile of gold
and throwing it on the ground.
What's the use of reaching down
don't give yourslf a hard time
it will fall-your crown
I say to my friend:
“Dude, I just got a vinyl of one of my favorite bands, Cage the Elephant! It’s awesome and clear yellow; I can’t wait to listen!”
I've dreams of where nothing but joy, love, and knowledge exist.
Followed by a sudden wake and a burst of reality.
The crop that you grow is the one that you step on.
You may not see it, may not acknowledge what you do.
Hold me close, my love.
Dry my tears with your fingertips as they trail down my cheeks.
Kiss me with your soft and gentle lips, as the warmth of sunset carreses our faces.
Brown like a beautiful book of stories. Everything you told me. In this life I thought I would believe. A romance, a sparkle and a diamond ring. For that moment we were together. I thought that you would be.
This is the day when I lost all I had,
The day when my world fell apart.
The only thing left was the sliver of light,
Are the words I speak nothing more to you?
Are they just a hollow shell,
Or do they carry their weight
Through heaven and hell?
For you it may seem
Hard to uncover.
But for me it's easy,
Window to the Past
Split, Splat, Pitter, Pat
Behind the window, I see the rain,
I am distant, I feel no pain.
Its better this way, I’m made of stone
Three hundred thirty minutes
A jaunt taken with no regards for today
A moment of deep agony-
As blissful fragments of our
Memorable memories routinely recapitulate
This ability to hold in the mind
We are not official, you are not mine
And maybe you’ll never be
So I have no business feeling for you
When you may not feel the same for me.
I am afraid to ask
But I really want to know
It was during those 547 days with you
When I unknowingly conformed to the ideals
Of a perfect girlfriend.
At least that's what you told me:
That I was "perfect".
Consequently, I began to feel
Why?
why did he leave me?
I ask this question almost everyday
He broke up with me without even saying it was over
He just stopped calling
and didn't want to talk
I have so many attitudes and emotions that i cant even express
Love, anger, fear, frustration and denial i cant even release
They build they're in a resevoir
The damn soon shall burst
at first glance my heart wanted tp dance dance when i see you you light up my face i never want to leave you i want yoou fiorever in my life
It's time to let go and let God, literally
you're blind without faith
cause it's the source in which you see,
it leads your intuition and utilizes ambition,
faith creates an image so we can imitate Jesus,
I Hold In My Hands
A Life Worth LIving
And A Tale Worth Sharing
Yet As I Look Around
I See Many People
Taking It For Granted
It's kind of beautiful how the clouds float together
Folding into an oblivion
it's even more beautiful here with your head lying back
On my knees
I listen to your eyes,
Because they make everything so real
Because it is vulnerable, an option, you might see.
Wide out in the open, entire visibility.
Kindness, is it only but a word?
A person who hears people's needs.
But oddly, sadly, is never ever heard.
You try your best to see the light.
In a blinding sheet of darkness.
You ignore and try to forget.
The Cycle
Pain keeps us afloat.
Pain keeps us sane.
It allows us to feel something.
Without pain, there is no love.
Without love, there is no sacrifice.
Bondage
The sea stops my inmost being
Creatures to search the corners
Breaking free from bondage
What makes us bound?
Hold us from chaos,
Yielding to the dangers of the world
May 18, 2014
Say These Words
I feel so giddy and child-like,
With our fingers entwined.
Distance kept my eyes from you,
But now I can see every freckle and gleam in your eye.
These are silent love letters
Written on the tattered pages of my life story.
Cross my heart, if I have to die,
If I should ever have to say good-bye,
I will take this to the grave:
Connections I make
The faces I take
for granted
Moving with purpose
Showing only surface
gestures
Of good will
I hope to fill
a void
Every step brings me further
You messed up not me
you lost a great thing not me
you're the one who's alone and crying,not me
So don't try to compensate now, for the things you did then
If I asked you a question,
would you always tell me the truth?
If I told you to run,
would you never look back?
If I held you up,
would you trust me enough?
Rumor has it
Im a mess
Disorganized, depressed
Im a lost cause
A failure at best.
Rumor has it
He was ruining me
He danced across the pavement
where my heart had smashed so violently
We steal each other's breath as if
it's all we need to live.
Our mouth's so close that when we breath
in we are just sucking air from the other.
A seemingly pointless cycle of C02.
Monogamy/ achievable but unreachable/ strived for but at the same time pushed away./ "I love you....
Lying here dreaming of you
holding you is what I long for
Caressing your skin, soft and delicate
Bottled up inside
Are words I've chosen not to say
The feelings I hide
Till this very day
You can see it in my eyes
Read between the lines
Bottled up inside are secrets and lies
Maybe I messed up a long time ago Maybe I shouldn't have just went with the flowBecause when I did, I still held on to pain.No matter how hard I try to ignore it, it kept coming like rain.
Don't put me last in your list
When I put you first in mine
Got me feeling like the caboose
When I know I should be first in line.
Got one that will doing anything for meGot one that's confusingGot one that I'll do anything forGot one that I adoreGot one that's feistyGot one that will fight for meGot one that's a ride or die
Born in coffin gotta build my life up, Soul ingrates in a tumb stone night love,
jabbs to a soldier face on a war ground fight club,had a mooky moment gave em light love,
My passion isn't like any other
My passion is the kind of passion
that doesn't point its finger but its palm
It is the air I breathe; it keeps me calm
therefore I'm not a tick...BOMB
I still dont understand why exactly you did it. I still hear something different from both of you each time. I still want to pretend that none of this happened. I still want to pretend like none of it was real.
What to do with all the hurt?
When inside you're fit to burst.
You're supposed to be so strong.
You're supposed to not be wrong.
Put a face that betrays the truth.
Give an air of being aloof.
Kiss me
Set me on fire
Kill me
Will my deepest desires
Thirst me
Drink me up and leave me dry
Curse me
Lead me on with every lie
Want me
Love making me want you more
It’s been a couple months.
The pictures are all gone.
But there's no delete button
For the pictures in my head.
Or the words that you said.
I’ve convinced myself that I’m over you.
like the ocean waves
flowing
crashing
like the summer sun
shinning
burning
no, it's stronger
growing
destroying
I feel it in my heart
pulsing
breaking
All I do is post stupid commentsAnd all it does is flow up like vomitMy mind seems to soar like a cometPraying' for inspiration like MohammedMy momma said be happyGive them girls kisses, way sappy
Contemplating life without you is like attempting to contemplate a world without laughter. Because without you there is no laughter.
A guy so powerful he threw me off the grid.
My world stood still.
I was left in shock.
Who knew that he was so powerful?
Someone who wasn't even mine.
I think that
If I were a bird
I would be an eagle
Flying high
True meaning of
Freedom
I think that
If you looked up
And squinted your eyes
Against the sun’s glare
What I Hate
Do you know what I absolutely hate?
What makes me so sick to my stomach?
And my skin crawl with repulsion?
I’ll tell you what I hate:
He made her feel like an abandoned house with broken windows and doors
There were a lot of broken boards that never got fixed
She had weeds growing in her heart but to her surprise he made her feel as if she didn't matter
You compare me to my friends
So which one should I be like?
You want me to be her,
The one whose not a virgin and had an abortion?
The first time I heard it I was in 8th grade The next in 9th The next in 10th And now every time I hear it I close my eyes and I scream because should love be such a game?
Who am I?
And what do I stand for?
A million different things I can’t bear to name
My life is such a silly fucking game
My peers thirst for fame
I’m not the same
I see
There is
Something here
Unseen.
It caresses us
With small
Painted
Pained
Hands.
It looks at us
With dark
Deep
Beating
Eyes.
It began with a kiss of lovegraduated to nine months ofmixed feelings which endedin hours of horrible pains andregrets.In the sight of your babe came a
I down another bottle
To wash the pain away.
For a brief moment,
I feel a bit okay.
Do not show jealousy in the light of a mischievous mirror
For that same mirror will glare back at you in madness.
Constantly, I wonder if you think about me
As often as I think about you.
I do not know what happened.
I may not be her first her last or her only.she may adore again however she cherishes me now and thats what matters. She may not be immaculate however not, one or the other am I will clutch her and provide for her the most that I can.
I don't have the words anymore.
They escape my mind as freely
As they once rolled off my tongue.
I don't know what happened
But somewhere between then and now
You took my whole world and flipped it
Depression kicks thy neighbor down,
Escalating,
Spiraling,
Right smack in the face,
Body,
Groin.
Drinking espresso,
Listening to music,
Lana Del Rey,
West Coast,
I was going to kill myself on April 12th
April 12th
I don’t know what it was about that date that stood out for me
Maybe it was the odd symmetry of it…4/12/14
One thing that makes me tick
Is the way people pick
Who they think is cool enough, smart enough, or who is fit
I am sick of hearing the mockery
Against everyone's poverty
Emotionally, physically, mentally
The memories reply over and over in my head
Your laughter intermingled with mine
And mine with yours
Running and squealing
Joking and Jumping
But all of it isn’t real.
You joke around and act
Just as the morning dew
Shakes me awake
I feel my heart skip a beat
Ache, shake, break
My heart is broke
No more left to give
My mind is broken
What's left to live
Sitting outside
Watching the clouds go by
The tree nearby
With leaves to the sky
Time with you is incredible
unforgettable
unbelievable
Nights are never-ending
Days never exist
Connections come and go like the money we gamble
Your touch is intriguing
Do you ever feel paper thin?
See-through, transparent
Like everyone knows what you’re thinking
Even before you’re thinking it.
Do you ever feel naïve?
Inexperienced, unprepared
I just want to share this, with you
I just want you to get excited, with me
But every time I bring it up
Skepticism, written all over your face
Distrust, for unknown reasons.
You kiss my forehead
gently
even between our sheets
all my warmth gathers there
your eyes look upon me
with such care
Am I in love?
I believe so
something radiates from you
Hand in hand for so long, the touch of their presence almost numb.
The warmth channelled through their fingertips and palms calms the thoughts of done.
Done trying so hard to hold them there.
You kissed me all better
At least that's what I thought
You blew through my life
It just couldn't be faught.
You kissed down my neck leaving bruises along.
You made me a wreck,
It all went to wrong.
Why do we cry, let things happen as they will
Why are we so scared, as if dying at every chosen trail
Try going ahead, leave it at that
Try flying with the clouds so you don't look back
When life throws shit at you
You can’t stop and feel blue
Keep your head up and just push through
Puppet strung up high
Puppet strung up to fly
Puppet master meant to be kind
Puppet master meant to be caring
I'm the puppet in your game.
Why am I strung so high?
Why am I strung so tightly?
Once upon a time, Not to long ago,
There was this beautiful woman.
Only knowing you a short time,
I must say, you had my attention.
When you looked at me,
I was swallowed up in,
you'll lose your words when you’re dead she said...
Well...
Words can’t no longer achieve these feelings flowing out my head...
I think im dead...
I wish you understood
what goes on through my mind
I feel like your leading me on
but I now you just need time
I feel like im being selfish
and should just distance myself
but again its not like that
Didn’t you ever think about the heart you were breaking?At first I couldn’t believe it when I found out what you were taking.Then reason set in,And I knew I had lost you.
The lush meadow grass,
A bright sunny day.
Palm clasped in yours
Through the fields we'll play.
We can sing and talk,
I'll ask you how you are.
There's not a day that goes by,
a minute that passes.
That you're not on my mind.
I think about you all the time.
I wonder how you're doing.
What you're doing.
Who you're with.
Everyday.
Wrap your arms around me,
Squeeze me oh so tight.
Make me feel safe.
Even when it’s not.
Never knowing right from wrong,
Silly jokes told on midnight strolls.
This is true love told.
The wait was always the hardest,
Once I got a hold of you,
My heart raced with anticipation,
Of the feeling of you.
Your eyes were the flame,
The flame that heated the spoon,
1. You got out of jail on Sunday.
The sudden realization that you weren't just a bad dream
Cracks my eyes open, makes them bleed
I was Alice falling through the rabbit hole
Love
May I lay with you?
It is not to fill in my void, gutted by loneliness.
Nor to feel a sexual pleasure.
Though I can, it would not be to tell you my life story.
Reading between the lines until the lines fade to white
So snowflakes fall there out of sight, yet glistening like his eyes
As they look through my soul and to my heart, crawling through
Bridesmaids,
The big day,
Your best friend finally made it;
Down the idle she will go.
In those awful dresses you’re forced to wear.
But it’s her big day.
Be nice to the groom’s men
His hand in mine,
I feel so small.
Like a baby,
My hand wraps around one of his fingers.
He is safety.
He knows how to keep me out of harm’s way,
He would never hurt me.
The clock ticks,
As I wait in silence
We steal kiss after kiss but it’s never enough
The first text after you leave,
Always;
“I miss you.”
This war I was ‘fighting’
Has left me with broken bones,
Tattered clothes
Nothing left in my soul
I’ll run
And I’ll run
Until I find you,
I’m running
I used to think that bubble wrap,
Was the best way to go.
That touching the world,
Through a pane of glass,
Was better than feeling the warmth,
Beneath my fingers.
The heart beats like a thousand drums
When in the face of inquiry to another
A yearning soul heard over melodious hums
I saw the way you looked at me, with need in your eyes
Desperate for me to come towards you, and to feel your flesh against mine
Every day that's what I've done, and what I had plan to do
Dear lord forgive me for I have sinned, a girl has a effected where my thoughts have been taken in.
Pretty smile and eyes I could stare at for more than just awhile.
Your stuffMy stuffOur stuffwas nothing but a bluffSad to say that it wasn't enoughOur stuff wasn't that toughIt couldn't handle the parts that were roughIt tried...It failed.
In my mind
It only makes sense that if you fall into something
You have to go through something
So it surprises me that people always talk about falling in love
But never talk about what they fell through
I’ve told you before
Some things don’t have to be said
Like the rules to this physical game we’re playing
But I still tell you I miss you
No confession of missing me too
But some things don’t have to be said
make the world a better place?
gotta make the people better people first
no matter how old, how young, how big, how small, how bad or how good we all got someone we love
we all want to please them
Chance and chance again,
I call upon a question where I knew a friend,
Before the trials and tribulations began,
We had no end,
You were there through thick and thin,
High and low,
My depression feels like so many things all rolled up into one.
At it's worst, it is overwhelming sadness and a certainty
that I am not good enough and that no one could
ever really love me.
As the taste of wine leaves our lips and we put our glasses down, I pound you with a question like “what should we do now?” You retaliate with “what do you want in life?”
you caught me like a
dream, tangled in the beaded
threads of your feathered
web, your dreamcatcher
holding my spirit in a
cage of promises.
you kept me like a
this is the sound of
your razor-blade betrayal
shredding through my trust.
there is nothing like
the bittersweet sting of your
honey-coated lies.
this is how it felt
The road winds
molding to the curves of the land
like dark ruffles on a lover's favorite dress
The hills embrace the rocks
hard against their gently draping
skirt of yellowed grass
Drawings hearts on hands,
Talking about your favorite bands,
Going to football games together
And enduring the long lines at concession stands
Surprise flowers and gifts,
My mind wonders,
My thoughts are twisted,
These ideas in my head
Are strung together
With memories and emotions
I'm unable to comprehend.
Lying in bed looking down to you,
I’m Yin and he’s Yang
Juxtaposed
Conflicting
Never meant to touch
I’m his light and he’s my dark
Distant
Separate
Never meant to meet
I’m his love and he’s my hate
Love
Pain
Pleasure
Sorrow
Exaltation
Incrimination
Parole
Loneliness
Discovery
Fear
Courage
Rejection
Acceptance
Hate
Love
will always bring my mind back to you- to the endless lovemaking and the empty bottles of tequila.
Lemon
will always be sweet to me, sweet with the memories of what we had.
Lemon
Moon rays dance across his sparkling eyes
He holds his hand tight- never to release his pride
He runs like a warrior ready for battle
But he’s never known the terror behind scars-
You carry me in your arms and rest me on your lap.
I know I’m weighing you down and making your legs fall asleep, but you hold me there tightly.
Fire is a force of rage and destruction, but symbolizes strength of passion and life.Relationships are essential to life, salutary and baneful, worth both waxing and waning.
I’ll speak softly,
Though my eyes are burning
And think of you often
Though slowly I’m learning
That I don’t possess
A shred of your heart
I should have expressed this
From the start
Valentines day is a day of love
an artificial holiday.
Overall I had a great Valentines.
And sure it sucks seeing all of the "cute" couples being in love
I am in love with this girl.
This girl makes me feel emotions I've never thought I'd be capable of feeling.
She is the most beautiful woman I've ever seen in my life,
with her silky hair,
big rosy cheeks,
The other day one of my friends said to me "Jaz...you have no idea how many guys check you out whenyou walk by.
I found that really intersting.
Considering that here, int he Midwest
I don't feel beautiful.
They call themselves boyfriends,But are they really?Yes, they’ve asked you out.Some don’t even do that.They message you dailyWorry about you every secondIf you don’t answer,They might even get mad
Who are you to judge who I love?
Who I kiss and who I hug?
Why are you judging who puts a smile on my face?
Would you be happier if the one I loved was a different race?
There is so much more to you
than just your body,
Although your thighs are thick,
And I watch and wait, as the time ticks,
to slide you out your clothes..
I heard,
Leafless branches obscure my vision.
They block out so much more than
The frilly obscenities that blossom
From flora of the fowl.
So far and away,
Unable to touch you,
Unable to feel you,
But in an instant, I Can See You.
I close my eyes and there you are,
Standing there, looking back.
Your eyes, a sea of blue, fixed on me,
I try but when I know I wasn't trying hard enough, I fell short of making it.I try but when I know I had more on my train of thoughts, I fell short of succeeding it.
If ever my love were intensified
It would have surely commenced at this time
Your humor’s not amusing forever
It’s here
And it’s unwanted
It’s here
And it does not knock
But rudely lets itself in
Like a disowned family member
Back to raise hell
I’m trying not to lose these fading memories,Because they’re all that I have left of you,Even when the pain brings me to my kneesAnd I can’t breathe because I’ve glimpsed the hue
I was in love with the wayyou always knew what you wantedhow you walked like you were the most important person in the roomI was smitten with your tiny bodyand how feminine you sounded when you laughed
I do.
I hesitate as the words cross my lips
The days of love are bright,
But only at first.
The colors become dull.
The Abuse becomes normal.
The Cries become endless songs.
I let you go.
Why did I let you go?
Eyes that paraded a bright blue tint
Spoke words that only I could interpret.
hush , dont cry my love
you refuse to show it
but the fire glows inside you
and the embers ezcape from your mouth from time to time
my dear its okay...
i feel helpless in waiting
A hello here,
A handshake there,
A hug here,
A greeting all around
I float amongst my piers,
Socializing from clique to clique to satisfy
But I am never truly satisfied
I feel as if I'm a block of chalk
who nobody sees
Why can't I be seen?
Because so many personalities
stand out way more pronounce than me
I am merely a shadow in their presences
Water raced down my window paneAnd all I envisioned was the partitionStemming from the trunk of a treeIt was solemn and it was poignant
See, I wonder, if you loved me so, why did you do that?
If you thought I made you happy, why did you ruin that?
My heart still aches once in awhile, and this is one of those times.
Here I am, a broken man.
Shattered in a million pieces,
Like a vase dropped on the floor,
Almost impossible to piece together again.
And Yet... Here You Are, With Me.
Grasping my hand while sharing my pain,
You left,
I cried,
I ate ice cream,
You went out drinking,
I went to school,
You stayed at home,
I got a degree,
You got a newborn,
I got money,
You barely made rents paid,
'What is it? What is it that you see?'
He asked
I choked on silence
Beneath my ribcage was a hollow tree
Young love, puppy love, high school sweethearts:
Whatever you'd like to call it
Is seen as a long line of food carts.
Others think it's made up of fights and fits,
Waking up to the same ringing,
Going to the same place,
Five days a week,
Ten months, learning and forgetting.
Distractions and butterlies,
Taking chances, locking eyes,
Love is such a simple word
However the power behind it can put a person in a whirl
I can never say I knew love
Nor the powers it contained
I'll send you my apologies now,
In letter form, so I can be
Oblivious. Instead I'll write my heart.
First, I will send one for my brooding spirit.
Many nights will you stay up worrying at my
Is it fake?
To wish to belong?
To want you?
Such confusing thoughts...
Is it wrong?
To rush this?
To be this close?
I'm not sure...
Even if the inevitable comes
He holds my hand, as if i'm special
Hold me close, don't ever let go
You look me in my eyes and see something more
Your the only person I really adore
You laugh at my jokes, as if i'm funny
I can't look at you smiling
Laughing with you is confusing
My best friend such comfort
But I feel so unsafe now
Your touch so overwhelming
To smile, sigh, flinch, or cry
I desire your grip and kiss
Once I had a friend
Once I changed locations
She had made the preparations
of my departure from there
to here
I didn’t think much of it
she was so worried of our end
I light a cigarette again
staring at your pillow where you're supposed to be sleeping
instead you're gone and smoke surrounds me
i'm breathing.
I know, I know that I'm never right
you told me.
These things that we do,
intentional they’re not.
There’s tears in your eyes.
We try,
but it’s hard.
This isn’t a choice.
We’re destined from birth.
To screw up.
To lie.
Confident words spoken at night
The rush of telling a secret
As the mask is ripped away
Breath escapes
The heart skips a beat
I can't describe the feeling in my chest
I may be blessed but I'm still feeling stressed
I can't find words to say what it feels like
But I'll say it's like losing your life
26 months but in the last few weeks
Memories are they good or bad?
We always say one has to make memories.
Going out with our friends.
Late nights doing things that we can't remember with the people that we won't forget.
He looks at me
And sees my love that is asleep.
Through the iron cast bars-
Of his baby's mansion .
He looks at me
like I am ripe fruit.
And I think that's fine by me.
Do you think they’ll notice?
Do you think they’ll notice how I
so carefully excuse myself before it’s time to eat?
Or that when I do, before I’m done, I’m out of my seat, on my feet, into the bathroom
I couldn't help it, I couldn't.The colors wouldnt workYou couldn't get along with the others.You thrashed without movingI could not keep you.
I drink about you and imagine your hands on mine
but the moment your hand left mine forever, my heart broke
yet you forgot about me faster then I could say goodbye
you were nothing but the devil with the face of an angel
Jaded, corrupted, denied, abducted.
The rose tinted glasses finally begin to crack.
Blinded by the tales of damsels in distress.
I ruined your day, you cant wait for me to leave.
Your words, not mine, it's what you said to me.
I'd do anything for the girl of my dreams,
even if it means I have to leave my queen
Flying by, like ribbons on a windy day.
Twisting, turning, dodging, rushing,
missing, ignoring, ignoring, missing,
aware but unaware,
They are all the same.
Dancing on the wind,
I believe in the precious momentsThe joy in your laughterThe warmth of your touchThe precious smile on your face
We’re losing light by seconds and sounds
With it dimming are the stars, the sunlight, the fluorescent street lamps lining the streets
With each blast of darkness
A part of me passes
So I lay here in darkness hoping to find sleep
My logic shows that control is out of reach
Just like most my life these thoughts consume my mind
You’d think I’d get a-hold of my habit to crawl inside
Is it that easy? You shoot up, the pants come down. You get your money’s worth. I’ll leave the gain. Rusty lemon types, sour and boney. Like larvae, comfortable and worry-free. Days tick tick, living under a spell.
I regret nothing out of all of this
I swear I would never take a thing back
And never have I taken your love for granted
In fact, it was my loyalty that had you taken aback…
In the world we live in today, people are not as grateful as they were in the past. The truth of the matter is, nobody cares for anybody anymore.
Trapped in his own thoughts
He’s all alone with nothing but a lone heart
Trying to spark a flame so dark
It can light up a room with demonic distraught demonstrating
A walk down the open dirt road
An adventure that’s never been told
The sun is already at its peak
Gracing the surface of my cheeks,
Rays seeping deeply into my pores, receiving the vitamin D
I wasn't exactly fine before you came.But I was still okayand you were youjust a friend of a friend.Then our hands brushedand my cheeks set a flame.
Im lingering on the edge and i dont know what to do, im doing something i didnt want to happen.
The echo of an empty hall
White shadows on the placid wall
A waft of he, departs from breeze
And corner eye I chance to see
Complacent lips, that part for me.
Then mind by strings turns body 'round
My wish is that you have fun, are joyful and at peace
Forever I love you and together we increase
Always keep your enthusiasm, be amazed, and don’t you easily sigh
I want to make you moan Alyssa
But the Smile on your face keep my heart warm
I want to do the things Picasso was not doing
Spray and pray and everywhere you look is red ink
But somebody already leggo'd your eggo
I hear a faint dissonance travel
You again, in homely tears
I am the wet nurse at your disposal;
So, let me be drained by the frenzy of desperation . . . .
Crusade along the barren land,
I know a girl
She is coming over later
We haven't seen each other for a long time.
We text
She liked me
Once upon a time.
She says she misses me
I say the same thing back
And here I thought that we would write books
Magazines of controversy to be shouted at and intellectualized
Its a seasonal mystery
One might recall
of a boy and a girl
Who happened to take a fall.
Perhaps it is more
of a one sided land
Where the girl loves the boy
1,000 miles away from eachother, you told me I was perfect.
You told me I was everything you wanted.
And you even told me you loved me!
Yet, you were always flirting with other girls.
It’s never really about sex, is it?
Then why do we care?
It’s never really about sex, is it?
Power. Closeness. Acceptance.
It’s never really about sex, is it?
Army Is US!
Strict, Strong, Stern.
Army is you.
Tall, Proud, Heroic, Brave
Army is you.
I will stand by your side.
I will support you always.
She rolls open her blinds, squinting at the sunin her eyes, and turns away. Remnants of oatmeal and hairare left in the sink of her apartment, and she is the one left to clean it.
A teddy bear is such a childish thing, and yet, it can evokeso many memories. One look at its small grey hoodie reading “I heart U,” takesFranklin to a new level, both place and item,
Thenis what I never want to be again.Then is that alarm clock-esque reminderwith no snooze.
I’m done.
I am so done.
I give up. I don’t know what else I can do.
…it has to end here.
All the scheming
Betraying
“Misunderstanding”
Life: the inevitable,
it can throw you to the ground,
or it can bring you up,
either way it treats you a certain way.
I've always been the one to experience this,
I see the bruises on your arm
I see the townsfolk has caused you harm
I see those chains bound to your ankles and wrists
This windowless dungeon I wonder who could think of this?
Humans are drugs to me.
Tucked together in a cabinet out of neccessity.
I'm a fool, popping person after person.
Each package labelled with the empty promise of progression.
Dear Lord...I need to talk to youbut as oppose to all our previous conversations I would like to do It differently today...
I'm holding this girlHolding her in my arms tonightI refuse to fall asleepAnd give this moment over to my dreams
Love is courage.
The will to take risk,
The urge to please,
The adventure of not knowing.
Love is war.
I walk into this empty hearted hall.
My steps heavy, my chest hollow.
My core shakes with mourning...
Nobody knows I am forever stuck in tergiversation.
I stand before myself, under siege with my reflection,
Take my hand feel the warmth emitting from the sand
as ashes burn I will learn not to break
Fragile soul, what more could be at stake?
Oh dear one, don't abandon me
Oh dear one, hear my prayer
Mother don’t lie to me anymore
I’m old enough to understand
What you refuse to put
In the great poet’s hands
I know that you still lie
Among the dogs and their pride
Please give me some truth
I'm finally free,
I wish you could see,
What you mean to me.
But now you are gone
And I'm left all alone.
But you could care less,
You said "let it rest".
I'm done with your games,
The snow never falls in my Wonderland
But the ice never melts either
And when the sunshines its cold
And when the song bird sings its sad
Here, in my Wonderland
Look there in the distance
Things were a lot better when we were fighting the world and not each other. Things were a lot better when we worked together and not apart. Things were a lot better when you were my Superman instead of my Kryptonite.
A mother Junco has two chicks from the same mate.
Some more mates come and go.
Two more beautiful baby birds are welcomed.
With mother always moving,
they grow up without me, learning how
Be my friend. Help me to my feet when life knocks me down. Hold me when the world makes me cry. Laugh at me when i trip over air. Be my friend. Be the one person that makes a difference in my life. Be the shoulder that I can cry on.
When I make him angry
He grabs onto my wrists
And rips me apart
With his white-knuckled fists
But I’ll cover it up
So the bruises won’t show
And Brandon can stay happy
Because he’ll never know
Again it comes to me
From it, I am unable to flee
First, it slithers into my heart
Beginning its quest to tear me apart
Next, the monster slips into my mind
we will be strangers in this bed soon -
we will be unclear how to rub hug and snuggle. the auto flash turned off
now the only light that shines are the streelights....beaming in dark rooms
Being an aspie can be a source of misery or a source of pride, it’s all in the bearer’s perception. “What’s an aspie?” you might ask. It’s a term for someone who bears the rigorous condition of aspergers.
Cold like an icicle, melting stories from your brainYou don't know where to go, it's hard and you feel so much pain.
Angels Crying (In A minor)
The words you spoke that night taught me loneliness,
Eye lashes flap across that wide space called time.
Sometimes I wonder if my stuttering heartCan be felt, by you, through the thin words.Ff a small screen can relay the racing mindAnd the longing (I feel) for a new start.
I feel like the sky is falling on the eve of this, and I'm bawling,
Anticipating your words and the slaughter of my heart once more.
But from this I know I'll never truly rise again, how can I ever rise again?
To love a man, to love a girl...
What difference is there really?
Love, to me, is the same
In any language, in any shape
For any age,
For any person.
Love could maybe just be
a simple word
Am I a game? That's what it seems like to me. See, they play me for some quick entertainment. Then some other interesting game gets hot. Then im left on the shelf wanderng, damn. Am i boring? Am i scratched? Whats my worth?
All good things must come to an end
Relationships never last for me
They start
they're great
I over think it
I end it
I'm heart broken
Why must I end all the good things?
Im not really sure where it began
was it the first or second time you held my hand?
It was Autmn and it was cold
I was only 15 years old.
I thought I loved you and maybe i did
The way it all happened
The adolescent flair once abandoned
Now is the critically acclaimed charm
In the Fantasty Castle
Occupied via a more deserving owner.
So why did I attempt to perform ethically
With time none a knowledge,
The other side blotches red.
Of what a dictatorship I observe
Grows a seed of harsh rule.
I watch tree branches die withered bark
As you’re attacked upon which I only hear.
You show me the alchoholic that I truly am.
I'm constantly wanting just one more sip of your sweet breathThat when mixed with mineCreates the most perfect intoxicationI've ever let affect my vision
If I could tell you what was going through my head I would,
The issue is not only my humiliation for telling you
but for you percieving me differently.
I would tell you this deep dark fear of mine,
I allowed them to leave their misery between my vertebrates, attach their lust on the wailing wall of my body
Hide their redemption between my hips
Fifteen, my body curved like a question mark as you delegate my presence to your fingers like a Jesus prayer.
Summer stars and fireworks
And watermelon rinds
It was on those sky-blue days
We had the best of times
I'm just scared one day you'll find this too stressful.
Turn back to the old you and being resentful .
Nothings easy when you talking bout unifying two .
Especially when it comes to everything being new.
Reaching out, gripping your hand with mine,
Muscles stretching, tendons straining to hold on.
My grip is starting to slip away; I Won't Let Go.
Your memories entrenched within my mind,
I have recently come
to the conclusion that
there are too many clocks
and not enough time to explain
the euphoric spectrum of color
you bring to everything we do.
how can people like u
i see u for what u are
its clear as day cold as the end of fall
u kid yourself
your annoying when u speak
i feel like throwing u off the nearest mountain peak
You're the perfect balance between
sexy and sweet,
cruel and kind.
I want you in my bloodstream.
Take over my mind.
I can't get close enough to you.
Your touch has me melting and
When I hear the wind blow
I hear you voice, your name
No one will ever know
How much it drives me insane
With every thought of you
My heart hurts more and more
I don't know what to do
maybe it's better this way
maybe my self respect will transition from an oak
relying on your rain
to a cactus
growing toward her sun
because i know she won't be bitter
I'm like a child who cries itself to sleep,
but instead of crying, what I do is think.
I think myself insane, analyzing every bit,
until my heart rate quickens and I work up a panicking fit.
Thinking of the days that we could be sure that light
Would always travel faster than monsters trying to catch us at night
But you drink under daylight now too
Thinking of a mother who never hugged you
Regarding the World ; I'm sorry I wasn't the perfect girlfriend, the best student, or the greatest child. Yet, I strived to accomplish much and be the greatest everything. It's just didn't work for me or I didn't work for it.
A small glimmer dancing over a shoulder
Is the only thing battling this darkness
A heavy load of anticipation
Weighs wearily on my lungs
And strangles the air from my throat
The pain, the hurt,
the awful, the words,
the things that could come,
the things I've so carefully not done.
I'd let it all come flooding through,
Just to hear you say to me, I love you.
if and only do not mix,
but me and you do.
what and if don't belong together,
but me and you do.
life isn't always perfect,
but me and you are.
everyone isn't always loved,
but me and you are.
Rules.
Are meant to be broken.
Promises.
Are meant to be kept.
Secrets.
Are meant to be told.
Friendships.
Are meant for you to hold.
Relationships.
Aren't always perfect.
Maybe the timing’s not right.
Or maybe it’s just not meant to be.
Should I put up a fight?
Or should I let it be?
I keep running into you.
We’re so close, yet so far.
Never write a songAbout a stupid boy you fell in love with,Because you’ll rememberThat the air exists to fill his lungsAnd that his lips serve a purposeMore significant than your kiss.
Walking aimless in eternal mysery
I came upon a great mystery-
A hidden pathway in a hill
Gave my senses a big thrill.
And so I followed the path 'till the top
And found a graveyard in the stop.
You're convincing,
but it comforts me to know that you're not always right.
Feelings and opinions aren't factual.
They're important, but they aren't facts.
And you're wrong sometimes.
We're human.
I want to scream, scream, scream at the top of my lungs in anguish because I need to know that everything's okay. I'm afraid. I'm so afraid of something. I can't craft words around it. I just need your approval.
You've got me in the palm of your hand,
because deep down,
I'm a good girl.
I'm a kind girl.
I'm a caring and devotedly loving girl.
I want to make you happy.
I want you to be proud of me.
You amaze me every day.
And I still get butterflies when you call.
I'm so happy to be your baby.
I'd never think of leaving you at all.
I haven't felt so free
'til I felt the love you've given me.
I am the guy that never showed sufferings.
I am the guy who cried, the guy who hide of himself in the shadows of lust.
Crying, crying still no one knows what i am capable of. Will I survive?, will I survive ?
My own mind is playing tricks on me. Im able to concetrate, function in school & even maintain my social life
Our love was perfect tonight.
It sparkled, danced radiantly, so right.
The eyes that saw our treasured bond
knew we were sincere and fond.
You took my hand and didn't let go,
I remember that it hurt,
The day I met you.
I was unable to breath,
Feeling as if my lungs were seized,
Silence around, becoming deaf,
Only to hear your voice.
I remember the pain in my chest,
Your legs wrapped around my head,
Lying on your back, lying in bed.
Gently kissing your inner thighs,
Looking up, only, to see you sigh.
Don't stop, please keep going,
It’s Crazy How People Can Remember
The Time They Had Spent With People
More Than They Can Remember The Answers To An Exam.
I Guess We All Know What We Cherish The Most...
I Knew A Guy ,
There are times when I love you
And times when I hate you.
This is the last time
My tears will dampen my pillow
I’m letting go.
Tonight I can't stop the tearsI feel the soul of another rising up Someone stronger is being urged to take overI want to run far awayKnowing I'm not alone in thisI want to run far away
I'm choking on the taste of rejectionAnd, oh, how I savor the sweetnessEnough to make a grown woman break into tearsBut not meI stand firm... untouched... unfeeling...Do I love thisUltimate loneliness
What part of your mind,
Says this is okay?
What part of you decided,
To treat me this way?
You're meant to be gentle,
You're meant to care,
But whenever you're around,
You're not really there.
I want to hide in the in-between spaces of your thoughts
And to fill the gasps that escape from your lungs.
I want to throw myself into the depths on your soul
Why can't I be your friend?
Why can't white and black blend?
Why did I break your heart?
Why did my faith in you fall apart?
Did you ever want to agree?
Were you ever going to succeed?
I stumbled upon you by pure coincidence,yet, I believe in that momnet you devoured my soul.You were the answer to all of my hopes and prayers,another half to make my heart whole.
I thought that I was normalThe average teenagerWho stressed about the futureThat loomed on my horizonAnd watched Pixar moviesAnd had nerf gun warsBecause adulthood was waitingTo snatch my childhood up
I wish you hated me,
because then I wouldn't feel so guilty
for wanting to leave you and give up at times.
I wish you despised me no matter
how much love I gave you
so that I wouldn't be the one to blame.
The way you make me
suffer is so sweet.
It makes me feel alive,
reminds me that I can still care
sometimes.
Wreckage and pain,
but none of us are to blame.
Give me your hand.
You feel that vibration in my chest?
That's called a heartbeat,
and as long as that machine
is pumping that red matter through my veins,
it goes through to my brain,
Don't leave.
Just don't.
Stay close to me.
Be patient and gentle,
then you'll see.
Get to know me.
I have layers upon layers
of thought spent on who I am.
There's contradictions.
It's so hard for us to operate.
We're broken machines.
There must be a kink in our wires,
or rust in our rings.
Tarnished metal and bent-up parts.
You're my tin man
and I'm your tin girl.
I need no mapto climb these cliffshike these hills,pull myself upto view great peaks.Nor to repeldown and intothe crevasses.No fixed spuror pitonsto explorethese gorgeous
Once Upon a time there was a girl A girl who never felt good enough
And then she met a boy A boy who changed her world.
A boy who showed what it meant to be loved.
A boy who made her happy.
Walking to a court room at the age of 7 was very frightening. I knew I did not do anything wrong. I was getting adopted, but I did not have a say in anything.
Being who you are in this day and time,
is looked on as being original
or being independent.
Throw in the mix of knowing exactly what you want to do in your life,
and knowing where you are going when you die,
Wishing for something that isn't there
Praying for someone to care
Care about me
Thought you were my babe
But maybe I was wrong
Ended up hurt all along
Trusted you, but I was betrayed
When we were younger, we were led to believe that our fairytales are our templates on how our lives are supposed to be.
We grow up thinking we are supposed to meet our prince or princess, get married, live happily ever after, the end.
I cannot understand my current emotions on the relationship I am in, I don’t understand how I feel anymore. My emotions don’t talk I have to but if I can’t understand them how I can explain them.
A Creative Mastermind,
An Intellectual Genius,
An All-Star Athlete,
A Renowned Scientist.
All these, and none of these are I.
A normal guy with normal goals.
Average intellect to all I meet.
You don't know that your fist feels like butterfly kisses,
And your words, as sickly sweet as gas station seafood dishes
Don't faze me.
My face, has been through more abuse than big city sidewalks
You were just for play a decoration,Now just sit right there let me relieve myself,I need meditation,Look who stayed quiet when we were in situations,Didn't never once got a thank you for gratitude,
I am like the phoenix.
When I burn, I burn with passion.
I engulf in pain and sorrowful
lessons that twist the flames
in a cyclone of
radiant, red, rotating fire.
The hard way.
Glares full of hatred and hormones
Rooms full of screams and loud moans
Mouths full of insults and "I love you"'s
He's gonna kiss you then shove you
And tell you he never wanted you
Maybe you just have my hormones going
That’s the reason my blood is flowing
So quickly and you got my pulse thats pulsing
So quickly you got my impulse going
I kiss you and my whole bodies glowing
The insults he spits at me stab my chest
It feels almost as good as when he grabs my breast so, I egg him on
It isn’t long until his hands are around my arms, my eyes wide and my breath caught
It's incredible really.
How two fucked up people,
from a shit town can
end up planting flowers
inside each other's wrists
and growing a whole different
atmosphere.
it's possible to have a house-
but no home.
it's possible to be surrounded-
and completely alone.
i'm trying to concentrate-
without staring at my phone.
the scars on my outside layers
Isn't it hard, so hard, to forget?
To leave you behind.
To leave behind your smile,
your adorable laugh,
your charming expressions,
the look, the look, THAT look- in your eyes.
Close to breathClose to touchClose to in-betweenHardest rockAnd breathless nightCover beneath the seamsAre you there?Or are you not?Our eyes darkened like cavesYour black night cave eyes
I wish.... I want to be there to hear the sigh.Feel it fill up within your chestAnd hear it rush out your nostrilsAs it does through mine.and to see it in your eyes.That would be beautiful.
Life is good.
I ain't complainin'.
The grass is green.
And the sky ain't rainin'.
The blooms are fallin'
everywhere.
Like butterfly snow.
In warm, sweet, spring air.
You
You were not supposed to do that
You
I don't even have words of a poem for
you
because I don't know what to say.
I want to love you,
but I feel like we rushed.
Two months went too quickly.
It left me thinking, "Is this lust?"
You said it was more,
and with me you did agree,
and getting "us" back
DIG ME OUT OF THIS FUCKING GRAVE!Stop burying me in past memories,Forgotten conversations,Guilty Temptations,The unending persuasionsTo take you back-
NO!
Do I dare risk
Stepping into the unknown?
With warm spring air and flowers
To guide me home,
Or a dark winter’s night
That makes my soul cower?
Will the warmth be there one day
Please, darling, tell mehow you want me to see,how you want me to fake,how you want this to be.
Does it pique your interestwhen my lipstick's like this?Does it fall into place?Did I follow your wish?
You tell me I'm pretty much perfect
That any time you spend with me is worth it
That I'm different from all the ones before
That I'm the only one you could adore
That my nose is a little long
A warming smile, an enchanting laugh. A crumbling sensation within the realms of my soul. He was the stars that lit up my body, yet the un-denying darkness that consumed my heart.
How is it possible for me to miss you like this?All I want is your embrace and one more kiss.Then another and another and I won't let you leave.Every second you're away is every second I grieve.I must confess, I'm obsessedBut when you're with me I
One glance
Two
Three
Stop
A quick touch
One flick of the wrist
To a hand that's always been open
But never accepted
Avoid his eyes
Ignore his emotions
I find it exhausting,Being in love,And in pain.
I find it unfitting,Sharing so much,And so little.
I find it frightening,Thinking of futures,And of pasts.
She cares, even if she shouldn't.
She loved, even when she promised she wouldn't.
She let him go, even when her heart couldn't.
He promised her his heart for ever.
Would he walk away, he swore....never.
Is love a word that you say when you care deeply about someone
Care about them so deeply to show them their the only one
Or is it just them 20 mintutes that your deeply inside that it feels like love
Nothing is prettier than the 7 o'clock sunset hitting your faceBecause it illuminates exactly like your heart doesWhen you're telling me I remind you of the sea and your fingers trace
I frown... you smile,
I cry... you laugh
This is getting old
it needs to stop
Why does my pain provide you with the happiness that I deserve?
When you're down, I put myself in your shoes
A Broken record Can Deliver messages to other galaxies and Etch in stone the Fake desire that was Gone before the Heat could rise. It’s the summer time. I don't think we believe in space; Just the time it takes to destroy it.
Our first evening in London he
Keeps his arm around my waist and I
Laugh at everything
He kisses me in the door of the flat
And doesn’t kiss me again until we wake up
How much easier it would be if I were not lonesome,so rooted in my happy lonesome,cornered with no feelings that someone's happiness might be dependenton me.Alone in my encounters.
For Everyone who is in school.
For Everyone who has been bullied.
For Everyone who has been in a sport.
For Everyone who is battling addiction.
For Everyone who is working.
For Everyone who is a parent.
Why must there be strains ?
One day we're so close the next day estranged.
It's me.
It's me who cares a lot
and pretends that I forgot
when you did.
It's me that takes this serious
The hate pours from me like I'm made of water,
only ment to quench my own thirst,
I hat myself,
No matter what I say,
No matter what I do,
I can't ever seem to be enough for you,
You meaning me,
I gave you my heart,
You pushed it away,
Kept denying it, and bringing me down,
Saying you were “leveling the playing field.”
Said you didn’t want to encourage me.
Watch.
Wait.
Run.
I Watch him walk and wait for his return. Watch him run and wait to feel something. Anger?
Lots of it.
Sadness?
Not enough.
Resentment?
It boils in my blood.
Love me for me, or not at all.
Love me for me, flaws & all.
But whether you love me or hate,
I will not fall.
Hope is a knife, faith is murder.
She cries out to you,
but you haven't heard her,
because the truth is you don't care,
and deep down she knows,
but her hope is just the thorns
on a wilted rose.
The night creeps up
and it stings because
it reminds me of the things
that we used to mutter and sigh,
laugh and cry
to each other.
The daylight shines out our pain,
Oh, but the night,
When you say "Goodbye, I love you,"
I just wanna take you away
and show you a better place
than the dashboard and the faces
people make.
Be free like you should beOnly 16.I won't hold you back any longerIn the mess I'm used toThe abuse I've gone through.
This girl once had a purpose.She strived to be the best.She left it back behind her on the Golden Gate bridge.
They say holding on tightwill make it all right,but letting go is so much harder to dowith a glimmer of hope still in your heart.
Pain.It strikes quicklyalmost unnoticedalmost unfelt.It settles in stages-A fear, a sadness,you shiver, you shakeyou feel the heart quakecrumblethe feeling sinks in
When the sun awakens in the morning
and I awake from my dreams back to reality
I feel how strongly my heart misses you, its killing me
I try to push it away and focus on something else with all my might
When boiling water across one arm
Will produce the same effect as a razor
And you know that
Every morning it's all you can do
Not to drain yourself
Although you are so drained already
Love is a dream
that every girl is looking for.
Love is a way
to make it through a long, rough day.
Love is the smell of a rose
that meets you at your front door with a kiss.
A word that many kids seem to take advantage of
Who really knows the meaning of love?
Teens are too naive to realize the main truth
Guys don’t understand the meaning, we aren’t sleuths
I've had to many honey bees,but I have the peace of the sea,old soul waves at me,planet stars sung a tune,arrow brought love strikes true;as a leaf,on November's shoulder,
Burning slowly
Like I'm set on fire
This can't be good
It doesn't always feel this way
The slice of rose thorns severing
My veins
Tearing me apart from outside to inside
A brewing poison
i know you could never love me
not with the way that i bring rain upon sunny days
and storms into my own eyes
i know you could never love me
when i refuse to even love myself
Anger and the anguishBitter of bittersweetCold is perhaps a synonym to caringDarkness where daylight wasEpitaph following the eulogy Fear for the fearlessGumption does not reward the good
There is a distance between us.
Never will we be apart.
The wind carries my heart
Directly to your door.
The miles that separate us
Will not define us.
We will not be misguided
It's happening again.The same old phone calls at nearly 4am.Wondering if I should even pick up,Its pretty obvious what you want-You only tell me you love me after 2am.Once everyones gone and the liqour sets in. You dialate in the darkness,wander b
Any teacher can follow a lesson plan
but one teacher can teach whatever they can.
Why dont we figure out how modern life really works
instead as a student we learn the basic boring subjects first.
"Let's be friends." Or maybe more.
I want you to be mine. "But not quite yet"
I wanna see you. "But I've got plans"
I'm forgettable, so please forget me. I mean nothing, so don't pretend.
I gave you my heart,
I gave you my all,
You threw it away,
And watched me fall,
How could you treat me like this,
Causing me to feel so empty and alone,
Was it all a lie from the start?
Broken Rear View
Many times we alloy our curiosity to spoil of future,
More often than not,
We obsess over our rear view.
Have you ever taken the time to think,
What if your rear view-
Baggage Claim
To those who view their past,
As a lesson.
Simply sit back and do yourself a favor-
Commit to confession.
Sift through the bags which look-
Oh so similar on the outside.
Oh, LordWhat have I done?I've ruined everythingJust because I can't say "no"Or control my paranoia or my frustration
We blame others for what they can't be
But we cover ourselves in false identities
With our selective perception
We ignore those we can't see
But hide in lies and obscurity
It may be hard to believe
"I have to go now, but don't look
so glum dear, it will take a lot
to keep me away for too long
again." But I cannot let go.
his eyes are coals without ember,
We caused the tear,
since we didn't let ourselves care.
I let it happen since I was in pain,
but we both now feel slain.
You didn't try and that ruined me,
it almost drowned me out at sea.
... I like you.
I kiss you.
I hug you.
I hold you.
I hit you.
I fight you.
I beat you.
I hate you.
I can't stand you!
I want you.
I need you.
Barbaric desire, despair’s impulse,
Flesh of flesh in incoherent rhythm,
Unknown but known
Then seen never again,
That which feels to protect.
You’ve looped yourself around me
You’ve laced yourself through me
You’ve tied your knot inside me
You’re tangled up about me
You refuse to let me go.
Maroon- the color of crimson love, fermented
Of December midnights, mingled with the tears of flesh
Of sweet agony, smoldering behind hazel eyes
Of you and I, trying to escape Desire
I thought I had it all figured out
I thought I knew
how to stop the walls
from falling in again.
But they fell
and I'm begging of you please
to come save me again.
The water. It crashes over perfectly glazed-over, deep grey sand gently-- striving not to crack the breathtaking surface of reflections.
The sun. It sinks quietly into the majestic purple and nectarine colored sky like silk.
when you have an ache in your chest,
but the pieces fall where they fit best,
it’s a tetris game of free fall put to the test
and you lie awake, counting the days
and the moments as they pass,
Instread of building a bridge,
I built a wall to Cry behind.
Instead of building a bridge,
I built a wall to Administrate the pain.
Instead of building a bridge,
We started out on cloud ninewe never imagined being apartwe were forever, we were together.We had it all planned out, right down to the day we said I Do. But then the hate startedthe stressreality had settled in and it was trying to tear us apart
Never ending pain,Waiting,Waiting,Nothing happens.The pain grows until it overcomes you and consumes you.How can you hope, how can you dream, with the monster;The monster of your own making.
Silence stretches
Between you and iIts painfully quietThe music turned on highTo drown outThe painful truth
My Demise
Abandonment overcame my being in the beginning,
Tick. Tock. The clock chimed days away before my hopeful eyes
Loves me,
I whisper to myself.
He is kind,
Kind of short.
He says "I love you,"
But does he really?
I say "I love you,"
But is it true?
And so I sit,
Plucking the last petal,
I can't go a day without you, you're a drug.
Intoxicating, just like rum.
Crawling beneath my skin.
I can almost taste you, sweet as sin
keep me awake for daydreaming has become too dangerous for me
A beautiful woman with certain grace,
I have observed her many occasions.
A woman with a pretty face,
Who writes about personified nations.
Many days I was patient as I had lay in wait,
Always on my mind, can’t do nothing else,
I’ve got this pretty little lady fogging up my thoughts.
When I look into those green eyes,
It’s like hot and cold at the same time.
He was my bandaid. I was his confidant. He was fun in bed. I was scared of becoming attached. He was my friend and potential lover. I was an experiment. He made me feel sexy and beautiful. I made him climax. He lied about wanting more.
Those tear filled nights where you toss and turn,
Mind won't stop and the heart does burn.
Your words tonight cut in real deep,
So deep that it prevents my sleep.
I hoped you had intentions to mend,
Time will not fix it
I promise you that
No amount of time
Will bring it all back
Time cannot help you
It's not something you can take
It's not chemically designed
A low ache
A growing pain
Too hard to see
What I could gain
Darkening skies
A clouded soul
Listless wandering
Without a real goal
Faintly I sigh
Blankly I look
Bridges from one cliff to another.
Bridges over cold, unforgiving water.
It's life,
Earth-shattering thunder.
No matter what you say,
You dont want what's under.
A bridge is a blessing.
Our words lay out
On the roads between us
Straight as the I
Sharp as the L
Curved as the o
Strange as the v
Exit at the e
Meeting at the Y
Curved at the o
Arrive at the u
One day I'll find out you're the father of someone's child, maybe one day soon. Or that you're engaged to a former friend. And In the time it would take me to give a fuck I will have already been high.
head to chest, buried
listening to lullabies
of the heart...
and seeking comfort
in the protection of
your arms...
Something comes to a closea seal placed on an official envelopeon the label reads "love/loss/and tragedy"simply making emotions a formality.
Moments like this
I think of our first kiss
With arms outstretched
And dreams not met
My first impression was based on looks
But what's that thing they say about books?
Under covers I hide
You have been gone for months now.All I can think of is "wow".How much my life has changed,How much it has rearranged.First came doubting happiness,Then worrying about my selfishness.
You said you wished the stars were red,so I pulled them down one by oneand painted them by hand,for you.
It is heard near the uplands,The sweet allure of your song from down belowYou wear your chestnut coat so wellYour brown mane shivers in the breezeOh majestic mare of mine, your neigh captures my heart
The Idea alone
Is enough to infatuate.
It inhabits your every thought
Like Well…..,
An idea.
You can see it
Like it’s the present.
Or at least the near future,
She tears into my heart and soul like fire. The words burned deep within a wounded heart. Deception's hold over a profound liar. My love and dreams singed and torn apart.
Despite what people say, i'll have a daughter one day.
Maybe not by birth, but i’ll say one day.
She’ll have her mother’s eyes, of the color they’ll be.
There's no point in being someone that you aren't. The act will be obvious and off-putting. Besides, what are you gonna do if he wants the fake you?
My heart belongs to you,
It beats for you.
It only wants you,
And no one else.
But my body rejects you
completely.
I am disgusted by your presence.
I want to forget you,
It's empty in the desert you call a heart,
Every drop of water turning volatile,
When you're talking about the things you feel,
About how daring can be so unreal.
As I listen with my breaking heart,
Because I don't know where to start.
Thinking it should be only you and me,
Hail Mary, full of grace
Keep me safe in your embrace
When did life become this race
of who could wear the shortest skirts
and tightest shirts
Love what really does it mean?
Is their really someone out there who you can call your soulmate?
Can love be anti?
In the books and movies you're told that there's happy endings.
Never before had a boy tell me noOr tasted a melon, knew indigoNever before had I let love goEscape from me, flowers in the snow
Trees grew, skies blueLooking up is something new
I once was a child,
ignorant of the Devil’s orchestrations
whereas Overconfidence intimidated Priority.
Delivery of divine desire upon request
though a coveted dream in disguise-
Loud were the sirens crying outand loud was the body that wanted to be let outWanted to be free and do whatever it pleasedNot knowing the regrets that it would reap.Loud were the warning bells that seemed to shout.
“Going through a lot”
is the term people around me use.
Weird choice of words
From the eyes
of those I’ve allowed to see
These eyes I’ve provided darkness,
An “abyss” providing clear vision,
There is always a time in life when good things must come to an end.
The bonds that we once formed crumbles into shattered pieces.
When all of hope, faith, and love diminishes.
Wow. Life hits you hard. I try to avoid the feelings, I try to avoid the blatant truth in front of me, yet the more I think about it the more consumed I am by the pain. It wasn’t like I tried, because I didn’t.
You don't know me yet, but I know you,And I understand how you feel. We want the same thing. You feel like you can't find the right one,When in retrospect, the right one is me.
I was never emotionless but
sealed tightly
in a box
stored somewhere
shut tight
(heaven help the one that opens it)
All anyone wantsIs that warm fuzzy feelingThose long nightsSpent up late thinkin'About a happy ending.That rush when you touch,Something like lust,Supported by trust.
I feel for you my dear,
I do.
He fooled us all.
When he took his vows as only words,
and broke all of our hearts.
And the son you bore him,
will never know married parents.
I write to live, I don’t live to write
In the seemingly endless journey that is life, dreams must be delayed, sacrifices made
What happened to my dream?
It did not die
It did not disappear
It is alive
It’s all gone.
You took everything from me.
(Or did I take everything myself)
My family, my friends… They slipped away.
Vanished.
Under your mind games. You cost me my life.
My future.
Orange t-shirts and black jeans
Hearts that keep skipping beats
You whisper calmly into my ear
You know exactly what to say
Your fingers don't fit exactly into mine
Your height feels odd
He Pushes And Pushes Pressure And Pleasure Promises Of Love And Forever She Leaps off the Edge Falls Into His Arms Good Beautiful Painful Though He Never Cared He Pushed and Pushed Broken Promises Of Love And Forever She Fell Over The Edge Land
Depressed.
Sitting.
Cut-off.
I can feel the water
go down all the
way to my belly.
Not eating.
Eating shit.
Sitting.
Dreary anticipation.
Will my babe
forgive me?
When I hear of a hurricane,
that is when I will think of you.
A force that drove me insane,
and a little senseless too.
I admit I didn't love,
how easily you caught my eye.
If he walks by and sees youBe carefulYou're like rare pork lined and soaked in fresh bloodAnd just by the way he walks and talksYou'll undeniably fall for his perfect charm
Do you ever notice, the light that twinkles in my eyes when you talk to me?Do you ever notice, my smile when I hear your laugh?Do you ever notice, how I perk up when you call my name?
Why do women fall in love with men who are completely wrong for them? Is it a hidden sense kindled from our genetic nurturing trait that we think we can baby bad boys into good men?
meeting is impossible, we think sometimes,in those weak moments at 3am where we just want to hold and be held,where our voices are tired and tiny and we are missing people we do not know,
Girl: my mind is purple confusion/deslusion. How was this only yesterday/yesterday’s game
and now I’m looking at British boys of your same name.
it was a flawless secret
one held too tight across her mind
it would push against her eyelids
so that every single time
she would close her eyes to rest or even blink
it would take control of her dreams
It is you I dream of night and day,
In my mind is the place you dwell,
It is you that causes my heart to sway,
I hide my love so you can't tell,
A mysterious person you are,
Before, I had nothing.
An empty bottle of ink; no quill.
Endless. White. Space.
Before, I was silent.
a pin cushion to prick.
a bag to punch.
no sound, just space.
Before, my emotions hurt.
Please excuse me for a moment,
because I have to say something.
I'm about full to burst,
but I don't want to say it.
I know I have to, though.
We have a year, almost exactly,
that's all and you'll be here
Do you remember that you were the first lips I touched?
The first hand I held,
The first one I cared for,
The only one I ever loved.
Do you remember you made me smile when I first saw you?
“You just told me you’re
taking somebody else home because
I,
Your girlfriend,
won’t go home with you.”
“At least I told you this time.
So you can’t get mad at me.
You Turn me into something that never existed,
Your personal shape-shifter has no control.
I've never realized how much I've been committed,
To your necessities that seem to be your inevitable goal.
Clockwork heart.
Wind it up
and off it goes.
Don't get too close,
or it might explode.
Dormant, it lies,
therefore unscathed.
It one was new,
pure, whole, expectant.
I hold words of eternal affection
promising sweet nothings
and three words carelessly thrown into the wind
into weakening ink
masking the intensity of the bond
never made.
An armistice found in
With our fingers intertwined,our fate that forever binds,you are this love of mine.Bear in mind,though our hearts may not be combined,I will never leave you behind.In another state of mind,
You broke my heart
You lied in the past
And I guess this is the part,
Where I fall too fast.
You gave me your promise
Said we were meant to be
But then came August
I was meuntil I met you
Marinating in your daily bath of pessimismmy needsand all the vervethat is my compositionshriveldecomposing to soot
come along and we will speak,speak words that flatter, so fluently.and i take it all in as i am prone to do,an effect of falling so easily for you.
One call in the fall. A text in the winter.
You say you're at home but I see you out with her.
Must pain you a lot that we broke up.
Because 2 days later you two hook up.
One smile in the spring.
They come together to be paired
So many of a kind -- individuals, yet inseperable
But with Time treading upon them
You find that they start to wear
And come apart at the seams
Alone in the cold, a feeling thats never old/
my hearts starting to mold, feelings outta control/
Tears dripping down the side of my cheek/
No one to lift me up when I feel so weak/
The first pages seemed so good,
my heart was warm from a feeling so new,
a different smile,
time became worthwhile,
number one on my speed dial,
In the absence,a state of mind is created to thwart,a powerful enemy one faces toward his creators.Although blood is entangled within a knot of memories.
Escaping from it's place some time ago,
no direction - searching for an unknown soul.
In need of comfort, another person who's unclear.
Looking and looking, and the time comes near.
Escaping from it's place some time ago,
no direction - searching for an unknown soul.
In need of comfort, another person who's unclear.
Looking and looking, and the time comes near.
Put on the makeup. Dry your tears. Smile for the camera. Don't ever tell anyone. Everyone already knows. He hit you again last night. He'll hit you again tonight, like every night before, and every night to come. Leave him you tell yourself.
Spoke of you with ardency
Our bodies together, much like poetry
No need to speak, rhythms come from our figures
You were the stars to my sky
You'd become the glare in my eyes
Funny how things came to be
It is day and it is night, somewhere.
It does not matter where I am, it only matters where you are.
It is cold and it is hot, somewhere.
It doesn't matter what the weather is like, I just wonder how you are.
As he sits there in his chair, with his paper and pen.
I walk across in his favorite dress to see me in.
And he never looks my way, because the paper, his eyes stay glued to.
Break-ups, work, bike rides, and play.
Everyday I see through new glasses, new phases and new games.
I read, I write, I sip and talk.
But all around me, things just work on and on.
I look at you and the chemistry happens.Your perfect image is flung across my retina, seductively easing its way into my optic nerves. And when it hits me I flip-flop with your picture and my brain goes mad.
I've never been so worried or sad,
or angry or anxious or mad,
than when I first knew I loved you.
I had been hurt a lot before,
physically, verbally, maybe a little more,
Hold me close
Hold me tight
Tell me everythings going to be alright
It was just a little fight
We'll make it through the night
I'll hold you tight
We will shine so bright
After a game of playful looks and bashful talks
On a night of a friends birthday
He blurted out for me to be his
I, too quickly, accepted
To only find out that we were determined to block out another
“You smell like cigarettes”, she said.
“That’s because I smoke”, he said.
I don’t know when this started
but I need to start somewhere.
sitting in your car on the 4th of july
we stared at the stars and traded artists like cards.
You've walked this side before,
And I've seen your time wary face.
Seasons made you older, lines are drawn
That cannot be erased.
What am I to you?
Don't I cry and hurt like you?
Don't I feel like you?
Aren't I someone who aspires?
Or
Am I just what you own?
Am I what you disregard?
I remeber the depth of my desires late at night, the craving for your warmth. I remeber you being so distant yet so close. The way you held me, your air tight hugs.
When I was born
I was given a heart
Not eyes, ears, or hands
to start.
When I was five
I was given hands
to touch and feel
my simple toy pots and pans
It’s ice in my heart,
the memories now;
Deep slices in a once warm soul.
Flashes of moments,
Words that were spoken.
Blue eyes so pale
Just like the ocean
With you the rain pours
like glass shattering
on hardwood floors.
With me that glass breaks
like an earthquake
and how it shakes.
Now isn't this a shame.
You had no promise.
You had no game.
It feels like I'm drowning in an endless sea of sadness
The pain sears right through my lungs
As the air leaves my body
I feel the darkness come for me
Friends run around the blazing heat
Capturing the sand under our feet
Screaming like we've lost it all
We'll party till the wheels fall
Seeing stars in our eyes
Not a care is given about how fast time flies
I was not witness to a father who beats,
I was witness to a father who cheats.
I never said a word, I kept it all in,
I still wonder if doing that was my greatest sin.
My mother went on not knowing the truth,
I have so much anger
Slumbering but easily awoken,
In my gut.
She fills me with a rage I’ve never known
I can’t control
It’s humiliating and all-consuming.
It was over a year ago
Your smile still had that warm glow
And yours were the sweetest eyes
I have ever known
Till the day those eyes came to hate
We lost the sight of who's wrong or who's right
She rests in painful slumber
Drips with salty sweat
She is unaware of what it means—
Means to be sick with fear.
She chokes on spittle—spews up spittle
Chokes on angry, violent spittle.
It was so sudden, so crazy at first.
I was too insane to think.
I just did it, who wouldn’t?
I just had to connect to the link.
My mind started spinning,
My stomach started reeling,
Sometimes you let the bad in with the good. Others havent treated you like they should. taking advantage, and acting mean. when she should have treated you like a king. There's somebody waiting to meet you, someone known only by a few.
I am a different person because of you.
You were the lies to all my truths.
The deception to all my honesty.
The hate to all my love.
The insensitivity to all my feelings.
The lack of empathy to all my pain.
You said I was your drug of choice
As if my grinded bones weren’t enough lines to get high of
You lit us up into flames,
Smoked the ends of me
Like I was the last blunt you'd wrap your lips around,
I thank you darling
For those words that you spoke
To me that day we sat under the trees
In my backyard
On that hot summers day
The scent of my mothers yellow gladiollas
Drifting up our noses
Hey I’m not some mat to walk over now,
I understand, now that I’m older.
You’ll regret how you've treated me
And you’ll miss me when it’s over.
4/23/13
The first day I saw you
I thought it was meant to be
But it had to be you
Who would turn me into what I didn't want to be
I had dreamt about you
Man it took me a while to realize
Don't stay in my thoughts
That's not a safe place.
If you're running through my mind
You might be trying to escape.
I will crush you with my care
I will kill you with my sweetness.
There is no love
you can't say
happiness is inevitable
move on
everyone is watching
don't think
life should have mistakes
and remember
that love
there are more important things
Rejection. Controlling me like a dictator. Powerful like Hitler or Stalin, yet it has no lips to speak, no eyes to see, no heart to feel, no brain to think, no limbs to move, no ears to hear... A horrid feeling.
Deleted talent you should not have wentIn my heart that beats there are a few dentsThe dark will be there forever moreAnd my pillow will forever be the cureEyes are heavy and the body is weak
I think I want to stay forever
And be leaving all the time.
I want to keep changing in this familiar place
Until I run to the edge and falter.
I want to leave at midnight
As days go by,I sit here thinking to myselfabout that one special person in my life;YOUGod has picked me to love & cherishone of his angelsSent from the golden gates of heaven.
Swinging my hips side to side like they ain’t got no business
Looking at your lips, they can make some mean Caribbean kisses
Dreads mid-way your back
Bruised, unripe; I lay, weeping, imperfect and alone, the toy missing wheels.
An unattained dream, fantasy, and hope, still sealed with putrid rubber cement.
As you turn away all you can see is her face.
Your feelings you've previously had about her slowly fade as the color in the sky turns from
blue to grey.
Tears are pleading to escape but there's nowhere to hide.
You are so important to meyou need to stay out of my journal that does not get written in as much as it shouldout of the scripts that I pick at but don’t sculpt real shapes out ofout of the bullet points on a blog that doesn’t get updated often en
I feel bad for any guy who falls in love with meBecause I don’t want you to tell me you love meI don’t want you to bring me flowers and coffeeAnd soup when I’m sickI don’t want you to catch a grenade for meOr write me a poem.I want you to vomit in
You wake up and realize it's not okay.
What happened was not okay.
I was lucky,
she wasn't.
To the strong that are still here,
being and all,
teach us how to appreciate.
You were like a painting I couldn’t finishA mural in my mind, how I planned to love youYou were my canvas,Each day you made me smile,A streak of golden yellow I’d paintEach day I woke up thinking of you,
my heart beats faster why you enter the room
the energy around me manifests into a whirlpool of heat and confused emotions.
you are the story that is hard to read.
you are a play on words, that makes no sense to me.
He wasn’t the first, and wouldn’t be the last.
Once again I put my heart on the line.
I didn’t think about what you would go through,
I wanted him, I needed him.
Within two weeks I was alone again,
This feeling in my stomach,
The weakness in my knees,
The nervousness I feel,
Maybe True Love is real.
My tongue is tied,
Words falling empty from mouth.
The time becomes slow, yet
You’re the sunshine of my cut
You’re the hatred in my love
I thank you for my mistake
Cause it made me so crazy
And I deserve it.
She say "look back at it" i say look forward. Looking back means looking at whats used. Looking back at it means remembering the anger and pain. Looking back at it means feeling this way every time i think about it.
Pap Who
Pap who needs Pepsi like a meth addict
And sits on his couch all day
Who is fried bologna and potato chips
Who is a quiet mouse but yet a wise owl.
Our situation is an oddity,
But honestly, it's got to be.
He promised me
To the Nth degree
He fell for me.
And I ran with that.
Matter-o-fact I take it back
I captured that
These scars here are r e a l.
Seems as though I - Love - You , does'nt quite appeal.
But this is how I f e e l.
Like I could capture the whole world-right before your eyes.
Stressed out, exhausted, and irritated,
scurrying back to my old, trusty Subaru Forester,
I abandon the library and heaps of unfinished work I deserted with it.
Only a handful of vehicles left in the parking lot.
I was wrong I've been singing the wrong song cause I realized that true love isn't planned.
Sitting here on this battlefield, writing away my sorrows
Hearing gunshots and bombs, not looking forward to tomorrow
Looking for a soldier to offer a lifeline I can borrow
These sorrows, these pains, these fears.........
It started deep down inside me ready to rise
To keep my anger under control that was a tough fight
The words that were exchanged how could one forget
The damage that they caused one deeply regrets
I feel
Different
When I'm with you.
When there's no one around,
a spark,
ignites in my heart.
My skin heats,
combusting with every touch.
With each innocent smile,
(poems go here)
Mesmerized
The day you’re staring back into my eyes it will be through your TV.
A beautiful monster is whom you’ll see
Acting so viciously you’d think I was a bee.
Let mebury my face in your chest.Imprint my lips on this sculptured perfection.Let memelt your coreMake you human once more.
Shadow of a smile
vacant searching eyes
hollow echos of laughter
hidden by a disguise
Every heart ache forms a new crack a crumbling piece of art
trying to hold it all together
Words and actions are two separate things, but both you need to discover somethings. Like who's in your past, or what will be future. You can't just say and expect them to know; you can't just do and hope it'll show.
I thought that I could trust you. With everything that I'm going through. Acting like you can't see. Acting like you want to be... Against me?
When one violin stands alone
If it can’t play a chord,
Then the string is plucked
Until it breaks
Snap
Love
A simple word, with many definitions.
A simple word, a greater mission.
A smile, a handshake, a hug.
Simple actions, a simple proposition.
Spread the word and find repetition.
Shattered hearts and whole glass
If I this keeps up I'll be in a body cast
I used to think we could be one of two things--
friends, or strangers
But I've come to the realization that it MUST be the latter
I am so incredibly attracted to you
And I can't help myself
The gates open for a vagabond with a smile,
a clown with no home
who has lived all alone,
who never stays for a while.
His hopes and dreams as it seams
is to bring joy to the masses
The first time, there was no fight,
not a wrong or a right.
It had stung just a bit,
no punch, just a little hit.
Not a drop of blood or a mark,
but rather a swoop in the dark.
I wanted to ask you to stop
Open up my eyes and what do I see,
A world full of lust, drugs, thugs, anger, and greed,
I don’t think this is how God really planned it to be.
It’d be so easy to change if someone planted that seed.
We stacked sugar cubes to look like little-us statues, then
demolished them in our fists and crumbled them into your tea.
It was the melding of one relationship into another,
The girl with the big heart.
Yeah, that’s me.
I am who I choose to let you see.
I have a “hardcore” shell, but soft ass inside.
I must protect my big heart, that always manages to dramatically decrease in size.
You were the reason for romantic fantasies
You were the reason for warm and comforting hugs
You were the reason for constant daydreams
You were the reason for soft kisses and love
You were the reason for kindness
And I could fall asleep to your voice,
The tiny rippling waves washing up on the shores of my ear drums,
Crashing and retreating back to the open blue from which they came.
Looking around this place, it is quite apparent to see
Nothing here is free for you and me
Whether it be by colonizers and systematically by each other
If I went back to the start, that would be the end of me
See me I take her heart, but let her keep her dignity
Physical symmetry was what initially appealed to me
To be ownéd by you is my dark wish,
Sweet man who has power to bid me his will,
And protect me from those who’d demolish
My heart and send my world into a hell.
I do not care what the radicals say,
Her concrete coffin is now cold wall to wall
All of these neon rainbows hold no glow at all
That little angel is on a midnight ride
She is tough on the surface, but trembling inside
The boys tell her to look alive
Blinded by the prettiest eyes I've ever seen,
Just had to compliment, not to be mean.
Blue color unlike anything I've known,
Stunned by the beauty, it clearly shown.
Held hostage by your glance, Baby Blue,
Songs after Songs Hurt
Trying to Forget the One
Who Broke What We Made.
Words Cannot Describe
The Pain That I Have For You
You Hurt Me Badly
His lips, soft
His neck, warm
His chest, protection from the storm
His heart, full
His thoughts, chaste
His love, will never go to waste
Loneliness isn't a weapon
Yet it causes pain to stir.
Loneliness isn't contagious
Yet it's exposed in almost all.
Loneliness isn't difficult
Yet it's seems hard to solve.
When we first spoke
Without having seen your face
I knew I would want you and want to be yours
After talking more I fell....hard
My only hope is that you would catch me
Abused,
Misused,
Mistreated;
A little girl robbed of her innocence.
Tattered,
Broken,
Shattered;
Refusing to fall in love.
Stupid,
Naive,
Butterflies;
The summer made us children again.
Afternoons at the beach gave us seafoam dreams to run barefoot after through the streets.
You pressed seashells into my palm while I dripped wet sand castles down your legs.
Relationships are like glass,
fragile and always threatening to break.
Relationships are like a bloody warzone,
you rarely ever escape unscathed.
Relationships are like rocks,
Not gonna write you a love song
I'd rather write you poetry
Put thoughts to paper and call it a symphony
Let me words travel along the page
And proclaim you as my melody
Beautifully sculpted and crafted
I scold you knowing the truth
So this is one big escapade ?
Nights of in depth talks
Were those antics ?
Three hundred sixty five days of anxiety to be closer
Nothing but complete buffoonery, right ?
The biggest mystery of my whole life?
Knowing the one who was responsible for creating me.
You see, I'm a wreck.
If I could give you
One piece of advice
It's this:
When your heart has been broken
Take the time to delete those messages
The ghost within your phone
Isn't a voice that you'd like to be haunted by
we didn’t start off as the hours on the phone type.
both of us were completely comfortable in our own awkward silence.
time was spent doing nothing most days.
but it became something when beside her.
It started here.
I walk through the door.
Did you ever glance?
You never notice me.
I sit next to you.
You ignore my presence.
Tried to interact.
But, you blew me off.
We high five each other when we are ready to fail a test we didn't study for
We run around and ho wild when we're with each other
But in front of those scary teachers, we're on our best behavior
all my pain and worry sides in this place
me not in your arms is between us space
after you hurt and used me
to be my self i cant be
but slowly im learning to move on
in what seems to be a con
I was so afraid I would fall for you
I wished to fall off a train instead.
I was so afraid to be in love with you
I wished to be insane instead.
I hate you!
No I dislike you very much.
All the lies you told,
filled my heart with no trust.
Nothing but anger, fear and abuse;
I can't help you have relationship issues.
I have something on my chest
That is clouding up my mind.
What if we overlook everything
Without taking the time,
to realize where we went wrong,
the things we do or say.
to tell you the truth,
i’ve always preferred
the worst parts of you.
the parts you never
kept naked, always
hiding under whispers.
i always loved the
secrets that made
you vulnerable.
"Just hanging out with a friend, Honey”
he said, with his back turned to us as he spoke lovingly
to his wife
who sat miles away, on that set of islands we call our Motherland,
on the other end of the phone line.
They promise so much
Yet give so little
They promise a shoulder
Onto which you cry
They promise an ear
Into which YOU would never lie.
She was all yours.
She was everything you wanted,
Worth the world and more.
She took care of you so well.
Always waiting by the door.
She was your number one fan,
Begging for an encore.
What am I to you?
Am I just a toy?
For you to play with until you get bored
And go back to options number one, or two.
I hope you don't think of her anymore.
How could a love so sure bring so many questions?
Trust is no issue but I feel like I'm being tested.
Constantly she plagues you in your nightmares and your dreams,
Lately all we do is fight, can’t seem to get it right.
Why should we pretend we’re more than friends?
Can’t you see it’s hard for me?
Trusting you is what I do.
Seems like all you want is to hurt me.
I knew you once.
The number on your back still bleeds in my mind.
The grass on your skin ferments.
I won you in the night, and so,
our world became darkness.
That eve was both the start and murder
I haven’t met you yet, but I have a question.
Our paths have never crossed and I have no idea who you are.
All the same I thought I should put together my thoughts so I know what to say to you later.
What is love?
Love is the way,
that he got me high,
and layed me down to breathe
together.
Love is the way that
he yelled,
he screamed,
he tore holes in walls
and psyches.
The end of the road is coming near
Get back on my own two feet
And walk away from fear
Fear that I wont ever make it to the top of the world
And put my worries aside
And climb that mountain
In the dark are lifeless hopes
Scattered just like the dreams of old.
Where are the stars? She said to the cold,
And what is it like exactly to cope
When the doors are slowly closing shut?
four in the mornin’
haven’t been sleepin’
since i first realized
that time is a’creepin’
there goes the big hand
holding the small one
“wake up, my darlin’,
we must get a move on”
There is beauty at the bay
And as the waves crest
You need to blow your sorrow away.
When they crash, feel the spray
And enjoy the sun set to the west
That’s what grandma would say.
Slowly
Sucking
Softly on succulent lips
Inhibitions tossed aside
I acquiesce
In the heat of the moment
Our lips twist
From neck to neck
Your hand graces my hips
Do I want you? No, not yet
Little thistle,
a prickly pear,
how I never saw you there.
A little hair
with a little vine,
unbeknownst this could soon be mine
For days we sat
side by side,
daring the other
to be the first
to interrupt
the silence
that weighed heavy
between us
for much
too long.
Unyielding as the door
Take notice of my tears as they beat the bathroom floor
I open my mouth but no sound comes out
Transparent and free moving like the wind blowing by
Do you know how it feels to be not scared?
I do
I know what it's like to so sure
Of something it hurts
So be not scared with me
Let's be fearless together
I was a seed begging for attention, desperate to bloom
One day I would be a flower!
I grew into a bud envious of others who had already bloomed
One day I would be lovely!
When I blossomed I was a beautiful rose
I want to taste jazz on my lips as it swims through brass tubes and valves-
I want its echo to call my name on a still night in July from a bar down the road.
Such a deep love, impossible to ignore
We're pulled together, while others pull us apart.
Love is forgotten, making life such a bore
The lost memories, breaking every heart.
As the touches cease the scent is dispersed. The feeling hard to find. Walking only over traces; debris from what was left behind. Body frozen and unable to get back to that heavenly place. Trying to live without, only to see memories jogging.
Last time I looked out a window, I cried
Cried for my loved ones
The ones left behind
I cried for the sinners
The rebels like me
I cried for good people
Who were crying for me
My heart broke in two
There once was a friend named Jake
Who unfortunately now I quite hate.
He needed attention
And lacked motivation
And would often intrude on my dates.
In The Summer
There comes another day
Which is warmer
and drives you astray
Feeling what I feel
Feeling what I say
Driving me crazy
Day to day
And here I stand
Not knowing what to do
What you did, you had no right.
Nothing gave you the right to pick and choose
The pieces of me you wanted to see?
Loneliness is a silent killer.
It lingers in the darkness,
Amidst shadows of remorse.
Under feelings of joy,
Behind eyes of sorrow.
Between fingers upon wrist,
Spilling through steel and flesh.
Can you not see that we are both the same?
Having you became my chaotic drive
Like demons that were not meant to be tame
Hugging your leg with your knife in my side
Desiring your heart would never end
losing myself in the eye of darkness the ear that yearns to speak but says nothing......
just because the mouth is in charge of voice
the eyes can't see the waves of sound caught in the angle of sorrow.....
I takes two to lie upon the fallen leaves
Whispering of the beautiful scenery
Remembering the good things
Working through the bad
To build a bright future
It takes two to lie upon the fallen leaves
Whispering of the beautiful scenery
Remembering the good things
Working through the bad
To build a bright future
Selfish.
Skin on skin
My heart beats out of my chest
And into your hands.
Beads of sweat form, over populating my skin
As I fight the urge to draw you in.
You breathe me in. Inhale my flesh.
You must always be sure to use
Colorful affection with
Ribbon-wrapped words and
Throw a smile over your shoulder;
See how far it will go,
Since a child always loves
A sticker with a smiley-face.
I feel like I'm a million miles away,
running on a road moving in the wrong direction.
Tryin to get to you .....
why do i bother, why do i care?
When all i get is empty words.
Empty arms I run into
Down on my luck
Out of my mind
What's going on?
I've lost track of time.
Where do I go?
Why can't you stay?
It doesn't make sense
these words that you say.
What's this I hear?
I want a reason to buy a new dress.
I want to feel purpose behind each caress.
I want to be held when no one is looking.
I want to be loved when all else is failing.
In a wooden picture frame that sits on my dresser
is an old photograph of a young man.
He has his arm around a pretty girl
and it’s all in black and white.
Even though there is no color,
No matter how hard I try it seems like I keep getting farther and farther away
Maybe this connection is not part of the design that leads to our fate
We were moving along schedule smoothly going up step by step
I love your attitude and how you're never rude
So many men in the world so you had to choose
So I'm the lucky one on this special day
That gets to be with a mothers beautiful bay bay
My Goddamn wounds are beautiful
My wounds are beautiful.
When it rans here I think the clouds must miss you as much as I do and
I'm broken.
I should tell you that the adoration in your eyes
Shines brighter than any I’ve ever known
But just like the boys before you
Whose fumbling hands couldn’t wait
To let go
You, too, will fade.
I know I never will forget
the way you said I love you.
The butterflies I felt
when you glanced me way
Every gentle word and soft touch
will never be forgotten.
the girl you found
Have you seen the girl that shines?
The one that thought she could only shimmer.
She holds her head up to the sky.
And her eyes; you can see them glimmer.
Believe in me to bathe in lava.
Trust that I will do no wrong.
If you wish, I'll fly a kite to Mars.
I will give you love wrapped in stars.
"Go away," the guard says to him.
But he begs and flatters his way in any way.
He looks around, beaming at all the shining pieces.
He picks them all up, pouring out complements as he goes.
I AM JUST TRYING TO BE IN LOVE BUT I CAN’T STAY IN ONE PLACE
somebody gave me wings
so I could fly away
from every place
I ever wanted to stay
they told me
that having it all
isn’t worth it
I ran away for a day, I escaped, I left earth.
The rain kissed me on the way and the thunder murmured things I couldn’t understand.
I knocked on your door and you answered,
Over come with sadness my hearts in the air and no one to really share with what is complexing my mind and bottling my eyes confusing my heart to believe I have nothing good left in me nothing but 3 6 spirits left in me minus the 1 spirit God put
How can I hate you so much when I'm told "you are to love your neighbor as you love yourself." But your no neighbor nor are you even a close or distant friend. You not even an enemy , your no threat to me but I hate you with every inch of me!!
I want it all, Not in the fact of money power and fame
But I want it all, In the moment I laid eyes on him it hit me that I could be insane
For I never had loving so good that I. . . the wild child just might could be tamed
Verse 1
My mind's a cynic
This heart a fool
I must be crazy
to be loving you
I never got over
Our little games
And the stupid love song
I'd used to play
There is a pit in my stomach
That could swallow the world.
My vision blurs and distorts
And sees what it wants to see.
(poems go here) you are the hollow point
seething with anger
run you red with paint
crossing fingers like a heavenly saint
this was the end, this was the path.
virtuous and trivial, all the same
What is forever?
Is it something I can touch?
Is it something I see?
Is it something that can ever truly really be?
You love him
he loves you
There's something not supporting you two.
It cuts through your love like a double-edged sword,
You were barely even warned.
You thought that love would be enough,
Does that hurt, my King?
Life, with an ever
lasting sting? I said
I love you, but that
could change. When all I
want is you to range.
Emotions fill your
heart. It's never too
It felt good
It felt good to have someone call my name
To bring me happiness and play love games
It felt great
It felt great to have a partner in crime
To have a lover to love and a love to call mine
You tell me to accept.
Accept it’s never you, it’s always me;
Except, I’m never-well, you’re always right.
Accept I’m bad, there’s something wrong with me;
Except, it’s not my-well, I guess you’re right.
How sweet and how lovely it has been made,
Glowing bright as though Kissed by the sun
But don't be dismayed,
Its stem will feel smooth and soft like its very pure,
Fire to ashes and ashes reborn
a once strong flame flickers and flails
as the wind grows stable the embers grow frail
then all at once it begins to prevail
It’s hard to decipher from my head and my heart
Not knowing which one to listen to
It’s like Satan on one shoulder and god on the other
Both persuading you
But which one will I choose
The real me is shy,
But not afriad to speak her mind
The real me is weak,
But tries to be STRONG,
The real me can sing and dance,
But just donesn't show it
The real me is smart,
For some reason they like to hold us back.
Even though they seem to have the control, we are probably our strongest.
I've never felt so strong, beaten down to one finger on a rope.
I've probably never had so much hope...
Drops of golden, wasted space
Pressed upon a solid face.
Windswept strands of faded truth
Blown across the palms of youth.
Cautioned, never came to phase,
Wearing starlit, glassy haze.
It is so magnificent and gold
the key in which you hold
the lock that it fits in
is skinny as a tiny pin
it is not worth money or cents
for inside it hold a women's... innocence
Together forever
that's the promise you made to me
the shirt that you made even said that we could be
Together forever
yes, we was so in love
no one could tell me nothing
around you i was high like a dove
Dear Survey,
Should I be the blame of my own brokenhearted pains ?
Is it my fault that I fell in like with the idea that I should be happy with my own beauty enough to share it with another ?
When you leave a night with unfinished words and unspoken feelings,
You’re left with these emotions that cast on for a year,
trying to fit in a day;
Impossible feelings you never thought possible,
I'll start walkin' your way,
You start walkin' mine.
Best friends forever,
No matter how far away.
We'll find the means
To stay that way.
I'll start walkin' your way,
You start walkin' mine.
Before you, I had everything planned out.
But the moment you came into my rear view eye sight you grabbed my heart and molded it like play doh into something that could only fit in the palm of your hands
I will sing the same song to all of them
Until they recede away from me
I'll sing the same tune
Until one understands the mutual longing
No one knows
The affects you have on me.
I don’t know if you would be considered
A passion or a drug.
When im with you I become
Something I wish I could be everyday…
I feel almost super human.
You said you wouldn’t forget me,
You said you’d always have time for me.
But lately all I hear
Is you making excuses.
You don’t want to remember me,
You don’t want to see me.
You got me hooked one day I least expected.
It pained me first but quickly passed my mind.
Your motives clear, to catch, I read the signs.
Excitement made, reality neglected.
With a traffic state of mind I can’t seem to find a friendly distraction to ease the pain of the twisting kaleidoscope known as my heart.
No eyes doubt your mirrors, broken by beauty.
The cracks run red, perhaps from the lipstick you used to cover your bruised lip.
You wish to leave the lipstick off along with everything else adding to your disguise,
Behold the beauty in your eyes,
And sing me this lullaby.
We dissapear into the night,
To find dreams in our eyes.
She gained it all,
And we lost the trust.
Forever I'm gone,
So this guy had a problem.
More specifically,
he had a problem with me
and was asking questions about my mentality,
trying to make me realize
that it's no use being a writer
I.
“Or maybe I’m just
speaking too highly
of my scrawny ass...”
he says, perching
on the end of my
bed in his undies.
his ass really is scrawny
but that doesn’t stop me
from loving it
Some paintings are good and some are just a horrible mess. Most people want to work hard and make a pretty picture while some people just wanna have fun and scribble. Of course a painting will never be perfect.
You never intended to stay with me
You only gave up and ran away
You never listened, it was always your way
I use to imagine how we would be
But I've given up on that silly dream
I've never met Prince Charming
Never had a "noble knight"
I am my own stability
I've been my only light
You've killed me with your lack of words
I've suffocated in neglect
Autumn sweeps in, softly at first
The quiet promise of rain-kissed air
A cool breeze on your skin
Leaves like shocks of flame darting through the trees
Birch and oak hesitate to shed their coats
The lies and disrespect
Covered up by your embrace
Left me blind but hopeful.
Your voice blocked the harmful fumes,
Leaving me trapped in a cage
—Choking on denial.
Kiss me, shove me, break me
Turn these shades to black & blue,
Peel back this skin, make it new
Love me, hate me, infuriate me
Scream a little louder; I can't hear you,
When you wake, my fingers won't brush your face again
Caressing your masculine jaw line
Caressing your full lips that I love to kiss
Caressing your perfect shape head that I adore overwhelmingly
temptation, lust, decite...
tears, pain, defeat
my life had been filled with these deformities of life.
forgiveness, forgetting, reliving, believing.
happiness, wholesomeness, blessings, amazing.
It gets to me when you wanna be with someone that is too hurt to be happy with you.
When they wanna be with you, but they dont, "but they do, but they dont", confused on wat to do.
When high atop my mountain perch which towers far within,
I look back on my memories of places that I’ve been
As I tread through mud and fog and sand in echoes of the past,
Brown eyes,
Cloudy day
A vacant feeling of uncontrollable emotions showering my mind with a
colorful blur
Laughs, cries, chuckles, sobs
Sweet intentions of the everlasting
Love we shared
Once I opened a fortune cookie
Inside there was unsurprisingly hidden
A little slip of paper
It read:
“To love and be loved is like feeling the sun from both sides.”
I imagined what that must feel like . . . .
I lie in bed awake at night
Empty inside
Wanting to grab onto something
But not knowing what
I thought I knew it once
Only to leave me helpless and exposed
I lie on the floor
Heart bleeding tears
And eyes forever lost
Stuck in a triangle so it seems, Lost beyond hope by any means.
Struggling to win a losing fight, I think I just lost the love of my life.
Should have brought a life jacket, To avoid sinking in life's sins
My greatest companion upon the right,
my angel upon the left.
I in the center.
Alas, if only I had a fetter,
to bind my comrades and I together!
For at the end of our journey,
I've lost the tourney,
Can’t believe you came in to my life,
Seemed to be like the wrong time, but
We waited and everything became right.
Couldn’t see why you were so interested in me,
Such a strange feeling you brought to me, but
I have felt no one since I loved you
any sensation
percolates my membrane like juice through a honeycomb
our final moments buoy in the bluebell’s cup –
then I forgot to bite the full moon,
My darling, I must warn you
that my heart is an egg, and
I have glued it together since
the last time it was dropped.
You may claim it - you may
hold it in your hands, and
trace the mended seams with
I listen to the rain falling down the windowpane.
I laugh and think of all the time I could have spent with you.
The songs we sang, the chords we rang,
I miss the way you say my name.
I want to spend my life
I remember thinking, it doesn't get better than this. I felt fully alive. Deeply content. Excited. Loved. Full. This was the day I fell in love. I made a special effort to start a newly found relationship.
You don't poison me with lies;
You intoxicate me with truth.
There's beauty in your mind
That captivates me like a piece of art.
Your words are a masterpiece,
An orchestrated symphony
when did you do it?
when did you steal my heart?
and how?
you must of tricked me,
trapped me,
lured me
and fooled me--
like prey.
Words began slipping from the creases of your mouth.
I tried stopping them,
Catching them with my bare hands,
But I couldn't stop them.
I never could control you.
In my defense
(You have none)
I just needed someone to lean on
(For a while, then be done)
It’s not my fault you wanted more
(Told you I wasn’t like her)
And it’s been a year, yeah, I’m sure
if i could breathe
the right words
let them slip
from my lips
i would take my time
to let you see my world...
from glass eyes.
if i could speak
the right words
hold them
in my hands
The way I felt when I met you
is the way I want to feel all the time.
The way I felt when you touched me
like chills up my spine.
The way I felt when you kissed me
like a thousand butterflies.
December has passed,
your ghost is now gone;
it no longer lingers
in the hallways of my mind.
You only enter through my doors
from time to time,
but never to say, "Hello"
or "How are you?"
peeking eyes
feigning sleep
gripping tight
too much to breathe
lost in thought
caught in possibilities
leading us to the move....
If I had a choice in the course of my life
and if I wasn't affected by emotions like
love and fear, I might actually be
somewhere and left with some rationality,
but I am merely a pawn moved
Rain.
Each drop of H20 hitting my face
rejuvenating me
Cleaning my soul
Washing me of my sins
Making me realize how I needed this
Cold winds and
rain
Not sure what direction to go
it's just a necklace
seven dollar find at
Elysium Antiques
a smoothed wooden dolphin
charm, no bigger than
baby fiddler crabs
dangling from a swaying
black piece of string.
There he goes walking at his graceful pace,
says hello to his friends, decides to stay and talk.
Smiling and laughing there is is, but then his eyes land on me.
His smile has faded away, and my heart is beginning to cry,
One step too close
Face-to-face
Nothing else matters
But this moment today. Now only centimeters apart
This crushing distance is closing
And with one final spin,
You decide to leave me abandoned.
what should I do
which side to pick
in this battle
in my mind
that’s killing me inside
my heart chooses one
society chooses one
and I pick one
and I pick wrong
and I know it’s wrong
Hard, reliable, dependent on one another
Relationships are like bones
Stable yet unstable, fragile yet stern
a structure that seems to never burn.
When we first met we didn't think much
Three years of knowing each other,
we still don't think much
Little glances, soft touches
Consider it a whirlwind.
Everything is blurring around me
faster and faster until I can't make out what it is.
My eyes can't keep up.
Started from a text now we’re here
Started from a text now we got all this right here
Never did I know that we were going to get this far
Our first time on the phone I was nervous
Our first time kissing I was melting
I wrote you a letter but you never replied
And something was loosed inside of my mind
You can take a chance and call it independence
But you’ll be gone before your time
When you find yourself
sitting in the sun,
a light, unbothering wind upon your thoughts,
escaping into the air through your
contended expression,
You can't live without love if you've loved,
and if love should ever leave,
the Heart, unyielding to the Mind's pressing,
yearns, and comes to settle for a counterfeit.
I was wondering if you could take a moment to read. I want you to know that you’re all I need.
Just know that this came from my heart. Please read it before we fall apart.
I want to move on to my next,
but for some reason i still have felings for my ex.
Even though she played me ,
i stil let her call me baby
there's a girl who's always been inside of me.
I sometimes glimpse her in the mirror,
in puddles and compacts and display windows.
She’s the kind of girl who writes secrets in the night sky,
I gave you all my trust.
maybe it was love or was it just lust.
You stole my heart without a doubt,
and now I can't find a way out.
Lives intersect,
Countlessly,
Few ever connect
For eternity,
Or even for more,
Than a moment,
Before they are torn,
And sent
I've seen it all
I've seen many females fall
No, no, no I won't lie
I admit I've stumbled a few times
we are all assigned
to intertwine
souls and unfold
memories that are set in stone
I’ll dance to the music,
That sings inconsolably sweet
I’ll sway and step
And try.
I’ll dance to the music
Because I have no words
Only the need to dance these
Steps
i woke up in the moring with the sun in my eyes. i turned around to see if my lover was by my side. i kissed her goodbye,shut the door and started to cry
The times that we had, The good and the bad
The things that we shared,could never be compared
You were my everything, My water and air
You made my heart smile, It lasted a while
As the roads become longer
The lights become brighter
They raise up their lighters
And your smile looks even nicer
To My Sweetheart:
In seventh grade we met
Nearly eight years ago
And yet we are still together
Like the mountains and the snow
We do not fight, we only love
And love to be with one another
Slowly slipping away from the surface,
gasping for a quick breath of air.
You try to pull me under
but you keep drifting farther away.
I am left staring at your ghost of a smile,
Until your lips find mine
And take me away
To another thought,
To no thought.
Only a hunger for more
Of you, of me,
For both of us together.
It wasn't all fair
With the stars in your hair
And the smile
That played on your lips.
When you made me believe
Here's my long lost dream
Coming true.
So i've heard that all is fair in this thing of love in war.
But in reality people fight dirty, nothing is fair anymore.
Our love is stolen, sometimes never given back.
We give it away so much, we eventually lose track.
A poet without a muse,
Like a bird without a song.
Just when I figured there was nothing left to lose,
The words no longer where they belong.
In the back of my mind
Now reside the melodies so sweet,
Hell is looking into your eyes and knowing I meant nothing to you. You who I have given my whole being to. I turn quickly away as tears pour down my face in a never ending cascade of false hopes and broken dreams. Congratulations! You did it!
"Maybe today will be different," I think
"Maybe things will change," I hope
"Maybe something good will happen," I pray
"Maybe today is the day it will all turn around."
Convincing is hard to do
I write you wondering if I've made a mistake giving you my heart so fast. even though I told myself after the one before you I would never fall so quickly. That I wouldn't let some one in so fast. Let them know my past present and future.
Something happened in my life and yours
Something happened that no one ignores
Something unusual and something strange
Something only we exchange
No words can say
How happy and gay
Happiness is all I ever wanted But loving you is like a dying weed The actions that you portrayed assaulted The way you talk to me can only feed The hatred I once felt for you is gone In my search I have found somebody new Who handles me like a de
Happiness is all I ever wanted
But loving you is like a dying weed
The actions that you portrayed assaulted
The way you talk to me can only feed
I tried loving you, you tried feeling me
I tried reaching out, you tried pulling in
I tried to make it work; you had to break it first
I tried to be free, you tried to chain me
I tried to fly, you took my sky
A time of green,
the flower not yet plucked.
A young gent lost,
innocent, untouched.
The carnal mood
of dark and whispered place.
Damsel of dreams
did tempt him to the race.
And there's a reason you shouldn't burn bridges,
Cuz sometimes they just can't be rebuilt,
and it's a guilt trip every time you try to mend that relationship.
Amidst all the noise echoing halls. She sits quietly writing, reading, hard work doesn’t inspire except the attitude which she portrays
She is diligent
She is mighty
And spends long nights doing work till perfection
*this poem is in reverse, this is the title and the poem is above
?One last question
So now you got her
Wrapped up tight in your arms
Like a dog chasing a car now… IM there
Feeling high as the sky
But still one question unanswered
Or is it many
I pledge my allegiance to the moon
Because the sun stabbed me in my sleep
I hope to find some material truths
Because love and affection are too drunk for me
If. It’s two little letters and one short syllable. Be that as it may; these two little letters hold the power equivalent to the Great Greek Gods, shooting lightning bolts down from the heavens into my heart over and over and over and over.
If. It’s two little letters and one short syllable. Be that as it may; these two little letters hold the power equivalent to the Great Greek Gods, shooting lightning bolts down from the heavens into my heart over and over and over and over.
Wanderer,You spite me by walking offYou conjure no mind to clearly or bravelystep outside the ashes of ignoranceBelief has no mind for you, having turned your back
Never loved anyone like this before,
Nor met someone as marvelous as he,
Sorry, he is someone you can’t go for,
He has been happily taken by me.
At first I was afeard to love again
I cannot share a space with you, for you know all my secrets.
The silence sings and screeches of unspoken truths between us.
You exhale skeletons on your breath, hot and thick with knowing.
it was like that flakey pi
always divided, subtracted
their estimation became errors
emotions scattered and multiplied
I fell so hard when we met that day,
And noticing you failed to feel the same.
Forgive me for my heart is worn,
And your's untamed.
The beginning of love always takes your breathe away.
There is nothing like it,
The feeling of romantic, crazy love.
Let me start by saying that us girls are hypocrites,
We give our friends relationship advice and end up putting up with the same shit
These dudes only do what we allow
Give a dog some beef and of course he'll want the cow
I miss your soft lips. I miss your white T's. I miss how whenever I tried to get the hair out of your face you would shake it right back over your smirk. I miss the scracth of your unshaved face on my cheek.
Someday you'll love me,
Someday you'll care,
Someday you'll treasure the moments we've shared.
Someday you'll learn,
Love is not a game,
Then you'll realize,
I'm not the same.
You came into my life
so clear,
so bright
while others passed by,
you chose to stay
waited out the ride
slowly peering
out
inch by inch
slowly creeping out
exposing more and more
Your words meant a lot to me...
but now they mean nothing...
you told me I was different...
I believed you because your words meant something...
but now they mean nothing...
smiling eyes
every time i walk into a room
your hands are there
to touch and to hold
hair flowing
inviting me to run my long fingers through the soft uneven lengths upon your head
I should have turned
When you said
“I’ll be really disappointed
If you’re not actually a virgin”
I should have ran
And never looked back
I should never have given myself
To the likes of you
Memories and memories running through my head.
I hate thinking of all that you said.
All those lies and all those words didn’t mean a thing.
I used to think you were my everything.
I am so broken.
I have this hole in my heart.
It’s aching to be fixed.
I want to find someone
who won’t leave me
or make me
broken.
Sometimes relationships can be difficult.
Trying to work things out might not come clean.
All the drama and arguments is nothing new.
Everyday is just another bad day.
People always have feelings for each other.
With all the pain, and struggles, and tears I’ve cried.
It’s all building up,
I can no longer hide
The slits on my wrist
Nor the bruises on my body.
I pray one day I can meet that somebody
(poems go herIf you would please,
sir,
I'll take your
coat,
and perhaps your hat too,
and hang them on the line
to dry
in my humid bathroom,
above the bath tub.
Looking through the past,
what is it I could have done?
To make you feel like
I wasn't the one.
Last time I checked,
you chased me for months.
Until I finally gave you a chance
A beginning so beautiful,
Pure, sweet, divine,
A plan to not plan,
Hand in hand, with hearts entwined.
Two different people,
But two halves to a whole,
Growing at different rates,
The cold air and my skin collide
I got my jacket and came inside
I turned my head and you I saw
Your beauty left me in shock and awe
I'm truly blessed by your complexion
Something about it screams perfection
Sunrise in your eyes.
A new begining,
New love, and new passion.
Noontime, high in the sky.
Been going on and on
With the same routine.
Sunset, tries but dies.
Say goodbye to the day.
What is home when you lose all sense of trust? Coming from a teen, i get that trust is already a weakness that needs to be worked on, but when your the one left wondering what else can be taken away before i become completely numb? well...
I loved the way you held me
I loved the way you cared
I loved the way you say nothing
and at me you would stare
Sang you “Baby” by J.B
Maniacal as the American Idol contestant
With the most effrontery, yet
Never made it past the auditions
Begin with one boy, one girl, and curiosity seasoned to taste.
Stir in a large helping of concentrated Relationship, three dashes of risk, and a pinch of insecurity.
I need to marry a man who plays the guitar. No, the piano...yes...the piano. I need to marry a man who plays the piano and sings beautifuly.
Love...what is it with you and me?
Did I offend you?
Because lately you've been my enemy
That's the only way it would seem
Do I not ask why enough?
Or is it that I don't nag over unnecessary stuff
Eyes, blue as the sea staring back at me,
And curly brown hair on top your head.
From your childhood you have remembered thee.
To my dismay these memories have fled.
This is like a dream, every bit of you;
Never knew what to do,
Thought I knew the real you.
I can’t believe I fell for your lies,
Now I wish I didn’t have to say my goodbyes.
Throughout this time we have shared,
It seemed like you really cared.
I wish
I want
I need
Like anyone else
I’ll always be on the sidelines
Waiting on the benches for someone to ask for my hand
A conversation
A connection
A mutual feeling between two souls
Some odd years back there is ten year old girl staring at her daddy’s picture and it is hard for to believe that he won’t be coming back
Now as she looks back on all the memories that they have had and a tear falls from her eye
As a bird
She flies away
With the setting sun
Brave and radiant
With a burning soul
And determined heart
She soars far above
Any distress that could reach her
Brave enough to face the future
I was miserably
You made me feel sick, joy, sad, happy,mad
And all of the above
In time these wounds will heal,
But for now the scars are gaping
Figuratively raping
Me on a subconscious level
If my tigers eye can protect me,
What does that mean for your eyes?
If your hands are the ones that fit
Perfectly
In mine,
And your arms
Are the only ones that i want to surround me,
Three words.
Three words that can make your year.
Three words that can make you smile like a goof.
Three words that can make your insides turn.
Three words that can make your heart flutter a mile a minute.
There's a hole in my heart that keeps me from sleep
And a light in my soul that guides through the sea
And a land I can't remember that was always my home
With ghosts in the flesh that I call my own.
On the floor near the doorway lay
Those green polka dot socks that I hate.
They mock me, telling me he’s been here,
When the crisp coolness of my sheets tell me otherwise.
Every night is the same it seems
I fly into the night,
My wings make no sound.
I remain out of sight,
When the moon is full and round.
I had a dream about you, and it was me talking to me. Except, we couldn’t agree.
I said to myself “But was it worth the pain“, my retort was simple “How did it feel in your brain?”
Three hundred sixty five days each year
But this one was with you, my dear
From our very first kiss, the sixth of January
I’ve dreamt that someday we will marry
We’ll live happy ever after, as it should be
"...Hearts are best fixed and re-run than left broken, hurting, and struggling to function
And though it may be as fragile as glass
Or if you are never completely healed from the last
Always keep your heart open
I tell you you’re beautiful every time we talk..
your outline drawn from Gods own chalk
But your beauty is way deeper than skin
It’s the girl I know that lies within
It’s completely amazing and simply breathtaking
There are some things girls just didn't know they didn't want to know.
Like the way you didn't know you didn't want to know what your parents were doing while you were sleeping Christmas Eve.
A soul separation, that's the best way to describe.
Never in a hundred years would I ever expect you to try.
I couldn't see my self to be closer to anyone.
No one knew everything that I told you, no one.
lost he was out in the sea
with mighty jaws beneath his feet
a shelling of rain like bullets silencing his plea
struck deaf and blind by this torrential sheet
Sister, remember when we were little,
And constantly together?
We were always hand in hand,
Looking out for one another.
And remember when, Sister,
We would play our favorite game?
I’m the person you run to when you need a friend.
When you need a shoulder to cry on, to complain.
When you need someone to confide in, I’m always there.
You hold my tired hand
Your bright eyes crinkle into that widespread smile
Your thumb traces the tired lines of my palm
I do not know what our future holds
After all, we're seventeen
Satin ribbon
strokes my hands and pierces my sides
like shards of unfeeling ice
Warm,
Auburn, satin ribbon
I feel sad and alone
I feel numb and tired and cold
I’m not someone people love or want around
I want to go get lost in sleep and never be found
Don’t pretend that you need me here
What do you do
When your heart says yes
But your mind says no
When your logic says leave
But your love won’t let you go
When you love them more than you could ever explain
No two stories are the same
Even the ones with alike names
Now here’s the story of a girl
Who met a boy and changed his world
They met on Facebook, yes that’s right
They met that day and talked all night
Every time I look into your eyes
My heart starts beating at a ridiculous pace
I ponder the reason and wonder why
But the answer is just so easy to face
You are the reason for everything good in my life
How are you?
It's awful I don't know.
Where have you been?
Not in my life; that's for sure
Why did you leave?
I can't seem to find you.
Why am I still here?
You left me behind you.
Covered in blue hair dye,
my ribcage tightened
like a retainer splayed across the roof of my mouth.
Interrupted Solace in a Winter's Evening
Every once and awhile I like to be alone
I burrow in the confines of my memory
And dart from conversations like a fish from glass
I feel your lips straight down to my hips
I’m feeling so sure, I want you even more
you called my name and I jumped up and came
we talked for hours until they made us get off for days
