I made the mistake of allowing myself to dip my toes into the water

And letting myself get carried away into the deep end.

I couldn’t find it in me to save myself

Because I never learned how to swim.

I let myself drown under the water,

Let it replace the air in my lungs

Until all that was left within me was

The sinking feeling of helplessness.

When I hit the rocky bottom would I feel myself dissipate and become one with the water?

Would the darkness of the floor be enough to pull any light left within my eyes?

When the pressure of the water in my lungs became enough to kill me,

Would anyone come looking for me?