I'm not a hero

I am not good like he was

But I am alive while he is not

There is nothing like the guilt I feel

Guilt that shakes me awake

3 AM

I usually wish to take your place

Allow you to complete a full heroic life

But I am alive while you are not

Some days I do not wish to take your place

On those days the guilt is worse

Because I am alive and loving it while you do not