Dear Lover, Goodbye (A letter to my abuser)
Dear Lover,
Because I love you,
I let you walk all over me.
I forgave your infidelity.
I gave you my heart.
You replaced it with yours.
I can hear your comatose whispers.
You forced your grip between my rib cage,
Grasped my heart to extract.
Sound of flesh ripping open,
As you amputated my contact.
Because i love you,
Even though you were choking me,
With the same hands you caressed my face,
Your mouth said awful things,
But had a sweet aftertaste,
I could not leave.
Your hands around my throat,
Suffocated my objections.
Quietly, my reasoning subsided.
Append my voice to your collections.
Because i love you,
I believed it was my fault,
When the accusations flew.
You did not remove your hands,
Until i went blue.
“911 what's your emergency?”
…
Flat lines drown out your apology.
Unconsciousness’ comfort,
Protected me from your lies.
All i heard were sweet lullabies.
Because i loved you,
I overstayed my time.
Resurrected by self worth.
I must escape.
Because i love myself,
This is goodbye.
My deepest sympathy,
your victim