Anorexia
Dear Ana,
I know,
I know I failed,
I know I should have done better.
I know, I know, I know.
I’ll find you one day, I promise.
I almost had you, but I let go.
I let them take you away from me.
I was so close, we were so close.
I’m so sorry. I’ll do better. I promise.
When I was alone, you were there.
When I was afraid, you were there.
When I wanted the world to disappear, when I wanted to disappear, you were there.
And I let you down. I left. I pushed you so far.
But here I am again. I’ll do better.
I promise.
With all my love,
The girl who wasn’t good enough. The one who will make things better. I promise.