Breaking Myself Open
Pour my feelings into a jar and seal it
That is how I feel inside
I can't breathe
Gasping for air
Reaching out for someone to unseal this jar
The jar is about to fall and shatter
All of me will be seen
No hiding
All of the faded scars will be shown
The late nights spent holding a bottle of pills and cursing God
WHY? WHY WOULD YOU BRING ME TO THIS?
I just scream into oblivion
Hoping someone will hear
...
But they don't
No one responds
No one will calm me down and reseal the jar
It's just overflowing
All at once
I can't stop it
I'm done with one flick of a blade
...
Soon the gasping stops
...
All the air in my lungs is gone
...
I'm finally resealed and at peace.