You Won't Torture Me
You aren’t ready to hear what I have to say
But I wasn’t ready to find out, so I’ll tell you anyway.
The past decade has done nothing but brainwash my heart and my soul
I did nothing but what I was told
But I’m older now, I know more and have seen it all
Go ahead and build your walls but don’t look at me crazy when I make them fall.
I’m not insane, I’m not a bad person like you said I was
You don’t have the experience nor the right to judge what a person says or does
It isn’t me who’s bad
It’s you that’s sad
Telling me lies about myself while boosting your own ego
You planned a pretty picnic, but are you ready for my weather though?
I used to seek nothing but your approval
Preaching about stacks when you out here living frugal.
I don’t need your advice, I need to listen to myself
Then maybe I can find a way out of Hell
I know my worth and I know my mind
I’ve had a steady diet of fresh lies since I was nine
You will not continue to bash my father and lie to me.
You will not help shape the person I will be.
I’m proud of myself and that’s all I care about
I can’t wait to see how I’ll turn out.
I saw the world through foggy glasses and blind eyes
But I’ve wiped off my lenses. Now who’s surprised?
I’m not intimidated by you.
I see the lie in everything you do.
You can break apart my family, you can take away my things
But never will you take away my newly spread wings.
You lowered my own self-esteem to make yourself look immaculate
You talk out of the side of your neck, but I never see you backing it.
You aren’t big or bad, you aren’t confident; you’re mad.
You want to ruin my life and take away everything I had
But I won’t let you, I won’t give you that power
I wouldn’t waste my last breath on you if it were my final hour.
I owe you nothing, you gave me nothing, never cared nor called.
For the last ten years I’ve wanted nothing to do with you at all.
You can say whatever you like about me or my lifestyle
But over my dead body will you treat my mother in a way that’s demeaning or vile.
My family has done nothing to you, if anything you’re the stranger
Because you put me in a situation in which my life was in danger.
You lie about what you do to other people and try to sound wise
“Oh, I’m perfect, my record’s immaculate, I’m clean” you tell them more lies
But I know better than to believe all that brainwashing you do.
Keeping up this act must be impossible for you.
Don’t act surprised when one day I just leave
Because you will not torture my family, and you won’t torture me.