There are words that I can’t say

I constantly save for another day

Like a forest fire tearing through

All the things I wish you knew

I hold my breath and close my eyes

Sit here and choke back all my cries

Every day I smile to hold back my tears

Yes I’ve been smiling all these years

If I let you in I’m scared of what you’ll find

So instead I let you walk away blind

Pretending that it’s all ok

I’ve found is easier to portray

Sometimes I wish I said them aloud

Had the courage to be proud

But my fear takes it all away

And silently broken here I stay

With all the words that I can’t say