Twenty
Every time I write
I just want to find a way
To tell you the same thing
With words that are new
Every time I write
I hope this time someone will hear me differently
Every time I write
I think this time I will be cured
This time I'll stop hurting
It doesn't matter how many times
I call my mom to cry
I doesn't matter how many times
We say we don't feel alive
Not much is good
Not much is good
I say that a lot because I have to believe that something something is good
Love is good but you can't kiss away the pain
Twenty years of tears taught me that
Twenty years of tears taught me
Everyone is sad
No one is gonna fix it for you
Twenty years whispered in my ears
“Ya know, it feels worse because it's 3 in the morning”
Yeah I know, but I can't just make the sun rise right now
I can't change nature
I can't make everyone happy
I can't make anyone happy
I can only comfort you with these words
I'll cradle you all in the blanket
That makes you feel like you are not alone
Because no, you are not
But you must also realize, that you are
Maybe you are the only one on this earth
You have no way of knowing the truth
This is me repeating old poems
They all have the same meaning
Not much is bad
Sure, that one is harder to believe
But if I keep saying
Goodness I am so lucky
one day maybe it will stick
Lucky lucky lucky
People will tell you luck isn't real
Isn't unlucky that they don't know?
I have people that love me!
I have food to eat and a warm home!
I have you and me right now!
I have this moment to tell you what I think
We have this moment to consider what we have
That doesn't mean we can't be sad
But at least we don't have to be!