You know what I want darling?

I want the ability to love and be loved. 

I want the power to not cry myself to sleep. 

I want the beauty she has. 

I want to see you smile at me the way you smile at her. 

I want a clean image when I look in the mirror. 

I want clean thoughts when I'm sad. 

I want to be happy. 

Oh darling, I just want more than anything, to be happy. 

I just wanted you to know that. 

I wanted you to know I would do anything to have a real smile again. 

I would give the world just to hear myself truly laugh again. 

Darling, you don't understand. 

I want you to understand. 

I want you to know that I'm in pain. 

I want you to know that I'm trying. 

But...

Darling, you don't understand. 

So here it is, plain and simple, I want more than anything in this world,

I want to love and be loved by you and myself. 

Im tired of waking up to something I don't want to see. 

I'm tired of seeing me. 

Im tired of crying. 

Darling, I'm tired of being tired. 

I want to be happy again!