it's been a
Cold November
September-December-July-August-May

This year - more than last
Or maybe less than last
Sometimes it's hard to remember
Recall-commemorate-memorialize

We cut our fingers clutching at dreams like fireflies
Trying to catch a flicker in the breeze
Trying to catch a hope before it pops back
into the night, camouflaged
inobsolete-insubstantial-translucent-transparent

Why does nobody say what they think
When my cosmos crumble in on each Other, devastated-
When every thought will never end,
When i stare at the black hole in space and
Do not feel your gravity anymore i will stop
Seeing these trivial
Trifling-problematic-lamenting-woeful

People fluttering to the ground
Their ashen velvet butterfly wings falling
Off their faces like stickers
Adhesives-fixantants-sealents-mucilage

i lied to say i'm human once too
it's no matter, please, it's no small matter when
You're body-broken and the truth feels like it should be
A twisted knife, a curse on your tongue, a
Stranger in bed, saying baby
Honey-Darling-Sweetheart-Lonesome

i just need to be real again.