Silent Pain
It comes like a wolf in the night hidden in the darkness of my mind
With no sign of attack but once it does it doesn't let go
It knocks the wind out of me and my chest tightens
I feel its jaws strong around my neck with no sign of weakness
"Hey... are you okay?"
HELP ME
I want to scream but my own voice betraying me in my mind
Stop struggling it tells me
Just give in
You don't have any worth you monster
It keeps telling me
My hands claw at my skin as I try to free myself from the jaws of this beast
Then all I hear is static
White noise pulling me into the void
Into the ocean of screaming voices that are trying to choke the life out of me
I shiver in the cold as the ocean fills my lungs and I try to grab anything to break free
There is too much yet there is nothing at all
The world is spinning and the room feels like a small cage
And once it goes and the climax fades
I feel nothing
I'm adrift in space
No energy
No life
My limbs feel as though they are made of metal and I feel like a shell
The person who was once filled with life, joy and love is now gone.
Replaced with a shell of who they once were
"Are you okay?" They ask me
And all I can do is nod
Although it feels as though I died
All I did was weep sliently on my seat alone.