Another way I dissapoint my father.
Shocker.
But I can't help it,
no matter what anybody thinks.
It's not my fault my father
decided not to use a condom.
It's not my fault
that I was my mother's only successful pregnancy
out of seven.
I know I'm unwanted and unloved
by the cruel things called my parents,
but I love them anyway.
Even though they are over-critical
and make me feel like I do nothing correctly.
Even though they have basically torn apart
any self-esteem I've had.
I'll just show them what I'm capable of.
Hopefully I can do that right.