20 years on earth

I've made ton of sorry things

like I've been soaked in the world

of mistakes.

 

Not being an eye candy

amazingly beautiful

was a mistake

Laughing at myself in front of the mirror

miserably

was a mistake

Singing publicly when I was not ready

was a mistake

Spelling my guts to a stranger

who wouldn't care

was a mistake

Accepting my triumphs and failing to try harder

harder and harder

was a mistake

Denying my essence of vulnerability 

was a mistake

Saying goodbye to my best friend and leaving my friendship seedy

breaking her heart

was a mistake

Leaving without uttering a word

which should have been "Farewell, I'm going away"

was a mistake

Feeling imcomplete and selt-hating inside

was a mistake

Folling my heart

was a mistake

Following my mind

was a mistake

Giving more than asking

was a mistake

Loving foolishly

when I didn't even know whether he was worth my efforts

was a mistake

Stop prusuing my dreams

thinking they were unachievable

was a mistake

Taking the leap with fate

was a mistake

Claiming I was really strong and capable

that I could do everything without asking for a hand

was a mistake

Believing I was loved

unconditionally

was a mistake

Lending all my heart

and all my soul

was a mistake

Being a misfit 

lost in a crowded room

was a mistake

Failing to hope and stop chasing down faith

was a mistake

Becoming a desperado

was a mistake

Revealing my eyes streaming with desperate tears

was a mistake

Suffering in silence

was a mistake

Enjoying elation in silence

was a mistake

 

And here Me. 

Open my eyes to the life

And understand one more thing

clearly

undeniably

that I would never ever take those mistakes bakc

Cause the Me today is actually created by all those sorry things.

 

I am not going to ask you how many mistakes have you been through so far

I am merely going to ask you

"Where were the original parts of every single cells

on your shinning face

right in your heart

deep in your soul

today?"