Mesmerized Beyond Fear
Success was a big word
That hung over my head like a cloud
And failure was its shadow
Dragging me deep underground
It was a spiked flower always growing
Blooming painfully in my chest
Beneath the words of others
Who told me about success
And how could I succeed when I’m just one
Among the seven billion people to exist
And compared to everyone else I saw
I felt so insignificant
I didn’t want to be drowning in the ocean
Of people who never became a thing
And my thoughts were suffocating
As I fought life to succeed
It came to a point where I tried so hard
I found that I couldn’t stop
I seemed to be working with all I had
But barely reaching the top
And it came to a point where I had to stop myself
Where I paused and took a breath
Where I looked up at the sky and thought
What was causing the pain in my chest?
Was it just the threat of failure?
Or was my mind making it much worse?
Of the latter, I learned through conversation
That among others, I was not the first
For fear is something our mind creates
Out of something usually simple
We learn to fear only because
It tends to be something we don’t know
But if you understand that process
Then the fear slowly goes away
Even something as startling as failure
Is frightening only when seen a certain way
And like the tides that ebb and fade
I slowly found my way back to the light
I learned not to push against the ocean
And instead face all its terrors and plights
For we’re often pushed by situations
Far beyond our control
And the best that we can do
Is use all our cards to go forward
Don’t think too hard, don’t fear too much
Of what could happen or come to pass
And I myself learned to roll with the hits
To know that things were not that bad
It’s easy to become frightened
Of the obscured and the unknown
But I learned through my experience
To think positively despite every blow
Yes, failure is real and can happen
But I didn’t have to see it as bad
It can be something that pushes me forward
Towards the success to be had
Every failing is a stepping stone
And when I learned that, the fear went away
Only if you can’t see yourself overcoming it
Then does the fear of failure stays
And that fear is a world of ice-cold water
Where there’s frigid liquid in place of air
The kind that seeps into your extremities
And makes you want to disappear
And it’s frightening to think about
But trust me, all will be fine
Just listen to the beating of your heart
I promise you’ll come out of this alive
For there’s a silver lining in every cloud
If you would just open your eyes
If you could see above just your fear
What’s beyond will have you mesmerized.