It is futile to cling to something so fictitious.

The world fades away.

White.

Bleeds so easily.

Red.

The void set free

As vast as the sky.

Black.

In the agony,

The loneliness,

The hopelessness,

I diminish until I become lost

Even unto all memory

And I wander into oblivion.

Forever I remain in solitude.

The yearning to sleep,

Insomnia clutches me.

Yet

I can only blame myself.

Your ignorance is my bliss.

Even if you are unaware,

I still give you the power, the key that imprisons me.

This ability is captivating.

So return my freedom!

But you have no control.

In reality, neither do I.

You will gradually forget,

But I can never shut you out.

I am locked away in this cage I have crafted for myself.

I chose to stay

So you may remain free,

Unburdened by me.

My conviction is great.

I am so trapped that

Not even my imagination can give me liberty.

In fact the deeper I delve,

The more I sink.

Fragile molten crystals

Flood me like a bursting dam

They bear everything I dare not place on you.

I will suffer this internal hell

And maybe I can be happy to some degree

Even for just a little while…

Instead of not at all.