Sorrow

 

Anguish

 

Regret as deep as the sea

 

A broken heart

 

A broken trust

 

A broken relationship.

 

“Time will fix everything.”

 

“All wounds mend with time.”

 

Not when you caused the wounds.

 

Not when you hurt someone

 

And broke their trust.

 

Not when you did it twice.

 

Regret for doing it,

 

Sorrow for the hurt you caused,

 

Anguish for the heart you broke,

 

Anguish for the trust you betrayed

 

Anguish for the relationship that could’ve been so much better,

 

So much happier.

 

If I could wipe the thought

 

Out of my head

 

Before it even entered,

 

I would.

 

No hesitation.

 

If I had,

 

Then I never would’ve done it.

 

If I could wipe it from my memory,

 

I would.

 

No hesitation.

 

Correction.

 

If I could wipe it from history,

 

I would.

 

No hesitation AT ALL.

 

I wish it had never happened,

 

I wish those tears

 

Had remained unshed.

 

I wish that time spent crying,

 

Had been spent doing homework, or studying.

 

I wish I’d never had those feelings.

 

I wish I’d turned them in the right direction.

 

Then there wouldn’t have been so much hurt,

 

So much pain,

 

So many tears,

 

So many nights spent with her face

 

Buried in the pillow.

 

I wish I could take it all back.

 

I wish I could repair the barrier

 

Torn by my mistakes.

 

I wish I could . . .

 

But I can’t . . .

 

I’m sorry.

 

I’m sorry for the hurt I caused you.

 

I’m sorry for the pain I put you through

 

I’m sorry for the rift

 

I tore between us,

 

The trust,

 

That I shattered into a million pieces.

 

I’m sorry for everything.

I’m sorry.