I'm Sorry

Sat, 08/23/2014 - 19:12 -- anasbh1

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90047
United States
33° 57' 6.93" N, 118° 18' 29.5308" W
90047
United States
33° 57' 6.93" N, 118° 18' 29.5308" W

Didn't think I'd feel pain like this again.

And I know it's happening

'Cause everyone's congratulating 

the pain that I can put to song.

 

Was it worth it? 

I don't know, 

Wanted so hard

to be his girl

 

But neither want to fix mistakes

don't know how 

he could think

I'd go wandering

When I'm hurting

More than I ever have before.

 

He is my breath

so now I'm drowning,

Is my joy,

so now I'm crying

He is my life,

so now I'm dying. 

 

But the only words in my head,

must be said:

Lose me in your pocket on a warm summer day,

Hold me close so I can feel safe

Breathing deep, together

Finding sleep, forever

 

I don't know when I put on a uniform

But somehow I became a soldier,

'Cause every time I tried to say how I felt

He was ready to start another world war.

 

Then he asks me, 

his feelings true

Will I be with another?

There will forever only be you.

 

Could've taken a shotgun 

to any part you choose,

nothing could do the damage

that those words could do.

 

But the words in my head,

still must be said:

Lose me in your pocket on a warm summer day,

Hold me close so I can feel safe,

Breathing deep, together

Finding sleep, forever.

 

And I know I broke

A part of his soul

When I said I needed time,

To think about it all.

 

So I'll merge two songs

to tell my heart

it doesn't belong to me anymore,

but it's a start.

 

I kept this hidden for the next war,

I know you craved it, here's your second song.

 

I crawl to you

When they make me crumble

With words, with truth

I crawl to you,

Don't know what else to do,

I'll crawl to you.

 

Lately it seems

my words twist and turn,

and they lose all the meaning

of the wisdom I've learned.

 

When emotions are surpressed

There's a monster inside

Sctratchng and clawing

to take back my light.

 

Don't know the reasons why,

Can't explain what I do

But I'll crawl to you.

 

Some words repeat in my restless dreams,

Early comes morning, with your new beginning.

 

So I crawl to you

When I'm afraid I'll lose it all

I crawl to you

'Cause it's warm, and it's safe,

Take away all the pain

I crawl to you

Can't explain but it's true

I crawl to you.

 

Short and sweet

I made it be

Because with three words

into my soul, you see.

 

So here's the first,

just the bit,

To remember what started

All of it. 

Lose me in your pocket on a warm summer day

Hold me close so I can feel safe

Breathing deep, together

Finding sleep, fovever.

 

I don't know when

I became a soldier

But I quit,

Let's breathe together.

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