I've tried. I've tried so hard to be your model older daughter.

(But I'm lying about that, aren't I?)

I bend over backwards, I drive across town, I work my ass off.

(But I'm so lazy.)

College changed me - I feel like I'm more mature, happier, more self-reliant.

(But I've changed and now you won't even be around me.)

I can't do this anymore. I can't push myself to my every extreme, toss and turn every which way, only to have YOU turn around and tell me that I'm not good enough.

(You can't believe I turned out this way, you wish you had done something different, I'm a compulsive liar and I sit on my butt all day and I never do anything because I'm a completely different person than I was last year.)

I missed you all so much. But it seems like you never noticed me leave.

(Nothing's changed.)