I Am Strong
A winter's day
On a snowy and freezing evening
I am alone
Sitting in a room full of warm bodies
Surrounded by laughter and chatter
Imprisoned by monstrous emotions
I am falling to pieces, yet everything is intact.
I smile
So others don't question my state of being,
But it pains my heart
I smile as if nothing is wrong
I smile to hide from emotions that slowly devour my soul
I smile to appear strong
I smile to hide my weakness
The sorrow that torments my mind
The question that impales straight through my chest
Why was it you and not me!
Why?
How could an angel so dear to me
Leave this world without a footprint
Without a warning
I accuse myself of your departure
Why was it you and not me!
I can't reunite with you just yet
Because I have to keep my promise
I must live, love, and laugh
I must stay strong for those who fill my heart with joy
I must embrace the love you taught me
I must stay passionate about our agreement
I smile to continue living
I smile to be strong