Something won't let me open up.
Maybe it's the looks of judgement from others that are really looks of envy.
I always feel like I am not living up to my full potential,
And it is the lack of confidence and fear that constantly slam into my mental.
I look into the mirror and i know that I'm better than this.
I can't bear the sight sometimes for i know my actions are full of lies.
I do not want to be this cold, emotionless creature.
However, life's punches and beatings have trained me to flinch and have this hard demeanor.
I care. I care too much truth be told.
And this hard facade is getting old.
It's time to show the true me,
and be the loving, caring soul I was put on Earth to be.
This is not the real me...All this toughness and anger.
Instead I need to channel all this hurt and negativity and put this pen to the paper.
Open up more. Smile more often.
And hopefully, people's image of me will soon soften.
I am better than this.