how many more?
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It hit me one night on tumblr
a blog i
stumbled upon
with a bio that sounded
a LOT like my old best friend
we never fell out
our friendship never ended
but it was the saddest type of losing touch
the kind that starts out slow
and then all of a sudden you aren't talking anymore
and a year later you realise the girl you used to know
is gone
i found her again
but I wanted to cry
because I read her tags
and she was hurting more than anyone
and nobody even knew it
i haven't seen her in two years
yet I know she has secret marks up and down her body
secretly starving
a virgin called a slut
how has she become this?
she was a sweet jesus freak
we used to swap american girl books
and it hits me
she grew up too
and I began to look around
and three more friends who I have known since first grade
but lost touch with
are all in the same boat
i go to church and find another sinking soul
whos family doesn't know
i keep connecting dots
we're all freaking homeschooled
how did they wind up like this
yet i have been spared the life of hiding
slices up and down my arms and legs
hiding the lack of nutrition
covering tears
concealing, not feeling, not letting it show
i am thankful
but my heart is tearing in two for them
how can so many so close
be living in such a hell
and we never even notice?
that is not the thought that kills me most of all
the hardest question is
how many more?