Hello again, father of mine.
I haven't written one of these in a while, been some time
I've calmed down since I've last wrote about you
I'd like to think I've changed a little, at least in my point of view
What you've done to me is wrong, and it does justify my hatred
But even justified, my heart can't live on this frustrated
I've tried a different method, humanization
I've never seen you as human, just a being doomed to damnation
Objects don't make mistakes, but humans do frequently
I'm trying to help myself, to stop my heart from hurting ceaselessly
I'm getting there, slowly but steadily, I am growing
I'm learning to forgive, through this long metamorphisis I'm undergoing
But just as Brendon Urie said, a phrase that's been helping my mentality,
"It's much better to face these kinds of things with a sense of poise and rationality"
I'm trying to be polite and rational towards your actions and whatever reasoning
I'm trying not to let this ordeal be weakening
I know I'll come out stronger, but damn, forgiveness can be so hard
But I know I'll get out of this hole, I've done it before, I just have to learn to use my words.