Memories

of sunshiny days

are fleeting

 

They pass

in a blur of ecstatic haste

and they leave behind

the bitter taste of longing

 

The touch

once remembered

so familiar

has lost its’ anchor -

its’ tether nebulous

 

Letting go

merely two words

 

meaningless

well-meaning

but the task?

 

Impossible

 

I search for you

in the nooks and crannies

of what remains

 

to find you

to hold you near to me

once again

 

Hoping - always

that you knew know

 

feel felt

 

my love

because it is was always

never-ending

 

endless

 

as the hurt I feel

the ache inside me

the pain that I bury

the memories I revisit

the regrets I bury

 

I miss the moments

I missed

 

I see the time

for the sand that it is was

always has been

 

And I know where wisdom lives

 

buried in the tears

of the sorrowful

in the remorse

of the guilty

 

in the love

of mom and dad

 

My soul is become

at once

pensive and restless

teetering on the precipice

of the nether

 

sniffing the ether for clues

searching for a place

 

between here and gone

 

between heaven and earth

 

I see you

in the eyes of my children

in the songs we sang

 

and I try to rejoice

for the lessons I’ve learned

 

the hope

 

that the me that I am

is the proud that you were

 

But it’s always 

in the still of the night

when the moon glows brightly

through the blinds

 

that I long to hear your voice

to listen to the advice

I ignored

 

to cherish

everything I took for granted

 

I breath deeply

I close my eyes

and there is your smile

 

and I remember

the happiest days I’ve known

 

because you were there