“Can’t Sleep Because You Exist”
i’m writing you a letter,
about the colors in your eyes
i feel my pulse quicken
but our plot will never thicken
we will never hit our peak
you told me I was strong
but I have never felt so weak.
this anger slips through my fingers
it’s sand on the beach
the waves of memories
crash over me
as I begin to drown.
the Earth flipped upside down
the blood pooling around my feet
dripping down my chest
told me I was your favorite
told me I was the best.
guilt kissed me on the lips
the blood grows cold beneath my hips
“Be brave, hold onto hope,”
the mantra I repeat
as my neck holds onto rope.