I am not a dishonest person
for I think not to seek a truth
in the face of panic
when an immediate thought springs forth
unbiddenly welcome
but mistaken.

I am not a dishonest person
for is an unknowing lie,
made in panic,
a true, malicious lie
or a desperate bid of unwieldly mind for answer.

I am not a dishonest person
for my lies decieve no other than myself more thoroughly
until the moment has passed an I realize
the mistruth I have imparted
in a flash of a moment
that cannot be taken back nor edited.

I am not a dishonest person
for my panicked platitudes may seem lies,
as they are,
but in the brief time they are born,
I know no better.

My dishonesty is made with honest intentions
for quick conversation
that I may lessen my mistakes
and instead rack them up in high numbers
with building panic in the face of them
I am ill prepared.

I am not a dishonest person
for my dishonesty, in its moment,
rings true

and far too late to take back.