On Learning Melancholy
Happiness is like the wind—
Cool and comforting and yet so fleeting
So when that familiar feeling was dimmed
I found my heart somberly beating.
I remember my days of youth
When a speck of sadness
Was treated like a forbidden truth
And I found myself weary and hapless.
How was I supposed to deal
With such an unfathomable, drowning feeling?
It felt wrong and vile and unreal
And I found myself lost and reeling.
I realized my days of innocence were gone
When one morning the news had come
That my grandmother had passed on
And I found my heart had become a broken drum.
How was I supposed to live and be happy
Knowing that she would no longer be there?
That ignominious, dreadful fear came back to me—
That terror of sorrow and its uncertain air.
Back then I didn't know
That I shouldn't be afraid of melancholy
Or be frightened to let my tears show
For without it, my life would only be the fear of folly.
In time I came across the epiphany
That this was my time of maturity
And that life was not just bliss or misery
But an experience of love, death, and oddity.
Now I know
That while heartbreak and hopelessness tear my heart asunder
It is the nature of life to cry in order to grow
For as time ticks on, the sun will still rise, and the sky will still thunder.
How I differ from child to now
Can be seen in how I think of the world—
Before, I saw gloom and ran, like an unspoken vow
And now, I find my heart accepting of anguish, open and unfurled.
If you ever feel down or distressed
Know this: unclenching grief will not haunt you for eternity;
For it is a fact of life, so do not let your pain be repressed
In time, it will pass, and your life will return to harmony.