I am terrified

I shelter my heart with my hands

I am terrified

to hurt and to hurt another

I am terrified

I am numb

I am... numb

I am terrified

so please, please don't abandon me darling

I need you to scare me

petrify me

I need you to hurt me

and then maybe I'll stop being so

T-E-R-R-F-I-E-D

so numb

I'll learn to feel again