For my entire life

I never had a close friend

And a life of outlandish interests

Outcast me from the mainstream

And left me in a bubble.

Even surrounded by people

I sat in my own thoughts

With nothing to do

But longing for people

And longing for a friend.

Until you came along.

Like glue to paper

You stuck to my mind

And we spent our days bonding

Over the outlandish interests

That kept me from people.

But soon you left

And you took a piece of me with you.

And when all was said and done

It was never meant to be

Because you led me to corruption.

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For my entire life

I felt broken

And waited for young love

To drag me by the hand

And cure me of my sickness.

When the other small children

Shared their snacks and held hands

With fake flutters in their hearts

I felt guilty

Because the time hadn’t come yet.

Until you came back.

But you were different this time.

This time you were a man,

A man that stole my heart

And it was like old times,

As if you never left.

You never left this time.

You simply took me bit by bit.

You took yourself down bit by bit

Because I didn’t realize it was you

Until far too late.

…

In the end

Many pieces are gone

And I left myself wondering

What form you would take,

When the next disaster would happen.

After all,

If the same mistake has been repeated

Over and over,

What will changing it do?
I’ll only need you again.

But I don’t need you now.

And I never will.

You were never really evil,

But at the same time

You were never really good, either.

And I had to let you go

Because I love you.

As hard as it seems

I’m willing to wait.

The right person is out there

And they will find me

Because they love me, too.