When the Inside Doesn't Match the Outside.
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In the beginning, I owned two masks. One was a Barbie, one was a Power Ranger.
On the inside, all I wanted to wear was Superman underwear and a Power Ranger mask.
On the outside, I had to wear dresses and bows to go with my Barbie mask. I was told girls have to wear bows and dresses.
I didn't understand why I couldn't wear what I wanted to wear.
Why can't girls play with GI Joe's?
Why can't I use the boys bathroom?
Why can't I wear swim trunks to the pool if I want to?
I lived life with the desire to do what other boys did, but was instead forced to do what the girls did.
I didn't know what my thoughts and feelings meant.
Until in high school when I found a video titled transgender.
Even though I had a label for my thoughts and feelings, I still carried both of my masks.
it was ingrained in me to care about what other people thought.
I was a representation of my mother.
To make her happy, I had to be a perfect Barbie doll.
So I wore my Barbie mask at all times when in her presence.
At my dad's house, I could be myself. I could wear my Superman underwear and Power Ranger mask.
At school, I was in between. Very few people knew my true self, so I had to conceal my inner identity.
Society and my surroundings prevented me from removing my masks to reveal my whole self.
When I was 18, I got tired of carrying both of my masks.
My mom threw me and my Power Ranger mask out, and I moved in with my dad.
She unchained me from my Barbie mask, and gave me the opportunity to be my true self.
Today, I get to live without any masks.
I was able to transition to make my body match my mind.
I am proud of who I am today.
No one should have to hide behind masks and curtains.
Society doesn't always accept it when you show your entire self.
You just have to accept yourself.